WHAT ESPY SAID ABOUT IT.
“Dost thou deem
It such an easy task from the fond breast
To root affection out?”--SOUTHEY.
“What shall I do? what _shall_ I do?” Mrs. Alden asked herself again
and again as, in great perturbation of spirit, she awaited Espy’s
return. “How angry and distressed he’ll be, poor boy!”
She was at a loss to determine whether it would be best to break the
news to him herself, or to let him hear it first from Floy or his
father.
But circumstances decided for her. As she sat at the window watching
the lengthening shadows as the sun drew near his setting, and saying to
herself that Espy was very late--it was nearly tea-time, and she almost
began to fear that he had met with some accident--she heard the gate
swing, and turning her head saw him coming up the gravel walk that led
from it to the house.
He moved with rapid strides, and there was an angry flush on his cheek,
an indignant light in his eye, which told her at once that he had
already been made aware of the unfortunate turn affairs had taken.
In a moment more he stood before her with folded arms, firmly-set
mouth, and stern eyes.
“Espy, my son! Oh, I am so sorry!”
“Yes, mother,” he said, “my father and I have had a quarrel; he called
me into his office as I passed, and ordered me to give up all thoughts
of Floy--my little Floy that I’ve loved from my very infancy!”
“And what did you say, Espy?” she asked tremulously, feeling as if the
very unreasonableness and tyranny of the command must have of itself
almost deprived him of the power of speech.
“Say, mother? that he might as well ask me to shoot myself through the
heart, and that I’d never give her up; I’d die first.”
“But--but, Espy, what--what if she gives you up?” gasped his mother,
fairly frightened by his vehemence.
He staggered back as if struck by a heavy blow, while a deathly pallor
overspread his face for an instant.
“But she will not!” he said hoarsely; “she has pledged herself to me,
and she’ll never prove false to her word.”
“But she is very proud, Espy--too proud, I think, to come into a family
where she’s not wanted; and she’s a good girl, and will see that it’s
your duty to obey your father.”
He dropped into a chair, and for a moment seemed lost in thought; then
with a sigh, “My father may have a right to control me even in this
while I am a minor; but, as you know, mother, in six months I shall
have reached my majority, and then I’ll be my own master, and shall
consider that in a matter which will affect my happiness so much more
nearly than his, and probably for my whole life, I have a right to
follow my own wishes. Besides, there is Floy’s happiness to be taken
into account. She says she loves me; we’ve pledged ourselves to each
other, my father consenting to it at the time--and could he ask me to
play so base a part as to forsake the dear girl merely because she has
become poor and friendless? I think even he would despise me if I could
be guilty of such meanness; and most assuredly I should despise myself!”
He had risen to his feet with the last sentence, and now, as he stood
erect before her, with kindling eye and glowing cheek, he looked so
noble and manly that his mother’s heart swelled with pride in her son.
“No, you’ll never do anything mean or dishonorable, Espy,” she said,
smiling up at him.
Then growing suddenly grave, and an anxious, troubled look stealing
over her face at the recollection of her husband’s anger, which she
knew must have waxed hot at his son’s resistance to his demand: “But
there’ll be no peace between your father and you if you go against his
will; so if Floy chooses to break the engagement herself, you needn’t
feel called upon to try to hold her to it.”
“Mother,” he said, “you are keeping something back; tell me all. You
have spoken to her--told her what father says?”
His eyes were gazing steadily into hers, and there was a mingling
of grief and suppressed wrath that made her fear to answer him. She
hesitated, then said hastily:
“You’d better go to her. She can tell you what she likes.”
He turned without a word, caught up his hat, and went.