CHAPTER XXXIII.

It is needless to say that the years which developed Elinor’s child into

a youth on the verge of manhood, had not passed by the others of the

family without full evidence of its progress. John Tatham was no longer

within the elastic boundaries of that conventional youth which is

allowed to stretch so far when a man remains unmarried. He might have

been characterized as _encore jeune_, according to the fine distinction

of our neighbours in France, had he desired it. But he did not desire

it. He had never altogether neglected society, having a wholesome liking

for the company of his fellow creatures, but neither had he ever plunged

into it as those do who must keep their places in the crowd or die. John

had pursued the middle path, which is the most difficult. He had

cultivated friends, not a mob of acquaintances, although as people say

he “knew everybody,” as a man who had attained his position and won his

success could scarcely fail to do. He had succeeded indeed, not in the

fabulous way that some men do, but in a way which most men in his

profession looked upon as in the highest degree satisfactory. He had a

silk gown like any dowager. He had been leading counsel in many cases

which were now of note. He was among, not the two or three perhaps, but

the twenty or thirty, who were at the head of his profession. If he had

not gone further it was perhaps more from lack of ambition than from

want of power. He had been for years in Parliament, but preferred his

independence to the chance of office. It is impossible to tell how

John’s character and wishes might have been modified had he married and

had children round him like other men. Had the tall boy in the north,

the young hero of Lakeside, been his, what a difference would that have

made in his views of life! But Philip was not his, nor Philip’s

mother--probably, as he always said to himself, from his own fault.

This, as the reader is aware, had always been fully recognised by John

himself. Perhaps in the old days, in those days when everything was

possible, he had not even recognised that there was but one woman in the

world whom he could ever wish to marry. Probably it was only her

appropriation by another that revealed this fact to him. There are men

like this to be found everywhere; not so hotly constituted as to seize

for themselves what is most necessary for their personal

happiness--possessed by so many other subjects that this seems a thing

to be thought of by-and-by--which by-and-by is generally too late.

But John Tatham was neither a disappointed nor an unhappy man. He might

have attained a higher development and more brilliant and full life, but

that was all; and how few men are there of whom this could not be said!

He had become Mr. Tatham of Tatham’s Cross, as well as Q.C. and M.P., a

county gentleman of modest but effective standing, a lawyer of high

reputation, quite eligible either for the bench or for political

elevation, had he cared for either, a member of Parliament with a

distinct standing, and therefore importance of his own. There was

probably throughout England no society in which he could have found

himself where his position and importance would have been unknown. He

was a man approaching fifty, who had not yet lost any of the power of

enjoyment or begun to feel the inroads of decay, at the very height of

life, and unconscious that the ground would shortly begin to slope

downwards under his feet; indeed, it showed no such indication as yet,

and probably would not do so for years. The broad plateau of middle age

lasts often till sixty, or even beyond. There was no reason to doubt

that for John Tatham it would last as long as for any man. His health

was perfect, and his habits those of a man whose self had never demanded

indulgences of the vulgar kind. He had given up with some regret, but

years before, his chambers in the Temple: that is, he retained them as

chambers, but lived in them no longer. He had a house in one of the

streets about Belgrave Square, one of those little bits of awkward,

three-cornered streets where there are some of the pleasantest houses of

a moderate kind in London; furnished from top to bottom, the stairs, the

comfortable quaint landings, the bits of corridor and passage, nothing

naked or neglected about it--no cold corner; but nothing fantastic; not

very much ornament, a few good pictures, a great deal of

highly-polished, old-fashioned dark mahogany, with a general flavour of

Sherraton and Chippendale: and abundance of books everywhere. John was

able to permit himself various little indulgences on which wives are

said to look with jealous eyes. He had a fancy for rare editions (in

which I sympathise) and also for bindings, which seems to me a

weakness--however, it was one which he indulged in moderation. He

possessed in his drawing-room (which was not very much used) a beautiful

old-fashioned harpsichord, and also he had belonging to him a fiddle of

value untold. I ought, of course, to say violin, or rather to

distinguish the instrument by its family name; I have no doubt it was a

Stradivarius. But there is an affectionate humour in the fiddle which

does not consist with fine titles. He had always been fond of music, but

even the Stradivarius did not beguile him, in the days of which I speak,

to play, nor perhaps was his performance worthy of it, though his taste

was said to be excellent. It will be perceived by all this that John

Tatham’s life had many pleasures.

And I am not myself sorry for him because he was not married, as many

people will be. Perhaps it is a little doleful coming home, when there

is never anybody looking out for you, expecting you. But then he had

never been accustomed to look for that, and the effect might have been

irksome rather than pleasant. His household went on velvet under the

care of a respectable couple who had “done for” Mr. Tatham for years.

He would not have submitted to extortion or waste, but everything was

ample in the house; the cook by no means stinted in respect to butter or

any of those condiments which are as necessary to good cooking as air is

to life. Mr. Tatham would not have understood a lack of anything, or

that what was served to him should not have been the best, supplied and

served in the best way. Failure on such points would have so much

surprised him that he would scarcely have known what steps to take. But

Jervis, his butler, knew what was best as well as Mr. Tatham did, and

was quite as little disposed to put up with any shortcoming. I say I am

not sorry for him that he was not married--up to this time. But, as a

matter of fact, the time does come when one becomes sorry for the

well-to-do, highly respectable, refined, and agreeable man who has

everything that heart can desire, except the best things in life--love,

and the companionship of those who are his very own. When old age looms

in sight everything is changed. But Mr. Tatham, as has been said, was

not quite fifty, and old age seemed as far off as if it could never be.

He was a man who was very good to a number of people, and spent almost

as much money in being kind as if he had possessed extravagant children

of his own. His sister Mary, for instance, had married a clergyman not

very well off, and the natural result had followed. How they could have

existed without Uncle John, much less how they could have stumbled into

public schools, scholarships, and all the rest of it, would be difficult

to tell, especially now in these days when a girl’s schooling ought, we

are told, to cost as much as a boy’s. This latter is a grievance which

must be apparent to the meanest capacity. Unless the girl binds herself

by the most stringent vows _not_ to marry a poor curate or other

penniless man the moment that you have completed her expensive

education, I do not think she should in any case be permitted to go to

Girton. It is all very well when the parents are rich or the girls have

a sufficiency of their own. But to spend all that on a process which,

instead of fructifying in other schools and colleges, or producing in

life a highly accomplished woman, is to be lost at once and swallowed up

in another nursery, is the most unprofitable of benefactions. This is

what Mary Tatham’s eldest girl had just done, almost before her bills at

Newnham had been paid. A wedding present had, so to speak, been demanded

from Uncle John at the end of the bayonet to show his satisfaction in

the event which had taken all meaning out of his exertions for little

Mary. He had given it indeed--in the shape not of a biscuit-box, which

is what she would have deserved, but of a cheque--but he was not

pleased. Neither was he pleased, as has been seen, by the proceedings of

Elinor, who had slighted all his advice yet clung to himself in a way

some women have. I do not know whether men expect you to be quite as

much their friend as ever after they have rejected your counsel and

taken their own (exactly opposite) way: but women do, and indeed I

think expect you to be rather grateful that they have not taken amiss

the advice which they have rejected and despised. This was Elinor’s

case. She hoped that John was ashamed of advising her to make her boy

acquainted with his family and the fact of his father’s existence, and

that he duly appreciated the fact that she did not resent that advice;

and then she expected from him the same attention to herself and her son

as if the boy had been guided in his and not in her way. Thus it will be

seen his friends and relations expected a very great deal from John.

He had gone to his chambers one afternoon after he left the law courts,

and was there very busily engaged in getting up his notes for

to-morrow’s work, when he received a visit which awakened at once echoes

of the past and alarms for the future in John’s mind. It was very early

in the year, the end of January, and the House was not sitting, so that

his public duties were less overwhelming than usual. His room was the

same in which we have already seen on various occasions, and which

Elinor in her youth, before anything had happened to make life serious

for her, had been in the habit of calling the Star Chamber, for no

reason in the world except that law and penalties or judgments upon

herself in her unripe conviction, and suggestions of what ought to be

done, came from that place to which Mrs. Dennistoun had made resort in

her perplexities almost from the very beginning of John’s reign there.

Mr. Tatham had been detained beyond his usual time by the importance of

the case for which he was preparing, and a clerk, very impatient to get

free, yet obliged to simulate content, had lighted the lamp and

replenished the fire. It had always been a comfortable room. The lamp by

which John worked had a green shade which concentrated the light upon a

table covered with that litter of papers in which there seemed so little

order, yet which Mr. Tatham knew to the last scrap as if they had been

the tidiest in the world. The long glazed bookcase which filled up one

side of the room gave a dark reflection of the light and of the leaping

brightness of the fire. The curtains were drawn over the windows. If the

clerk fumed in the outer rooms, here all was studious life and quiet. No

spectator could have been otherwise than impressed by the air of

absolute self-concentration with which the eminent lawyer gave himself

up to his work. He was like his lamp, giving all the light in him to the

special subject, indifferent to everything outside.

“What is it, Simmons?” he said abruptly, without looking up.

“A lady, sir, who says she has urgent business and must see you.”

“A lady--who _must_ see me.” John Tatham smiled at the very ineffectual

_must_, which meant coercion and distraction to him. “I don’t see how

she is going to accomplish that.”

“I told her so,” said the clerk.

“Well, you must tell her so again.” He had scarcely lifted his head

from his work, so that it was unnecessary to return to it when the door

closed, and Mr. Tatham went on steadily as before.

It is easy to concentrate the light of the lamp when it is duly shaded

and no wind to blow it about, and it is easy to concentrate a man’s

attention in the absolute quiet when nothing interrupts him; but when

there suddenly rises up a wind of talk in the room which is separated

from him only by a door, a tempest of chattering words and laughter,

shrill and bursting forth in something like shrieks, making the student

start, that is altogether a different business. The lady outside, who

evidently had multiplied herself--unless it was conceivable that the

serious Simmons had made himself her accomplice--had taken the cleverest

way of showing that she was not to be beat by any passive resistance of

busy man, though not even an audible conversation with Simmons would

have startled or disturbed his master, to whom it would have been

apparent that his faithful vassal was thus defending his own stronghold

and innermost retirement. But this was quite independent of Simmons, a

discussion in two voices, one high-pitched and shrill, the other softer,

but both absolutely unrestrained by any consciousness of being in a

place where the chatter of strange voices is forbidden, and stillness

and quiet a condition of being. The sound of the talk rang through Mr.

Tatham’s head as if all the city bells were ringing. One of the unseen

ladies had a very shrill laugh, to which she gave vent freely. John

fidgeted in his chair, raised up his eyes above the level of his

spectacles (he wore spectacles, alas! by this time habitually when he

worked) as if lifting a voiceless appeal to those powers who interest

themselves in law cases to preserve him from disturbance, then made a

manly effort to disregard the sounds that filled the air, returning with

a shake of his head to his reading. But at the end of a long day, and in

the dulness of the afternoon, perhaps a man is less capable than at

other moments to fight against interruption of this kind and finally he

threw down his papers and touched his bell. Simmons came in full of pale

indignation, which made itself felt even beyond the circle illuminated

by the lamp.

“What can I do?” he said. “They’ve planted themselves by the fire, and

there they mean to stay. ‘Oh, very well, we’ll wait,’ they said, quite

calm. And I make no doubt they will, having nothing else to do, till all

is blue.”

Mr. Simmons had a gift of expression of which all his friends were

flatteringly sensible, and he was very friendly and condescending to

John, of whom he had taken care for many years.

“What is to be done?” said Mr. Tatham. “Can’t you do anything to get

them away?”

Simmons shook his head. “There’s two of them,” he said, “and they

entertain each other, and they think it’s fun to jabber like that in a

lawyer’s office. The young one says, ‘What a queer place!’ and the

other, she holds forth about other times when she’s been here.”

“Oh, she’s been here other times---- Do you know her, Simmons?”

“Not from Adam, Mr. Tatham--or, I should say, from Eve, as she’s a lady.

But a real lady I should say, though she don’t behave herself as

such--one of the impudent ones. They are never impudent like that,” said

Mr. Simmons, with profound observation, “unless they are real high

or--real low.”

“Hum!” said John, hesitating. And then he added, “There is a young one,

you say?”

But I do not myself think, though the light-minded may imagine it to be

so, that it was because there was a young one that John gave in. It was

because he could do nothing else, the noise and chatter of the voices

being entirely destructive of that undisturbed state of the atmosphere

in which work can be done. It was not merely the sounds but the

vibration they made in the air, breaking all its harmony and

concentration. He tried a little longer, but was unsuccessful, and

finally in despair he said to Simmons, “You had better show them in, and

let me get done with them,” in an angry tone.

“Oh, he will see us after all,” said the high-pitched voice. “So good of

Mr. Tatham; but of course I should have waited all the same. Dolly, take

Toto; I can’t possibly get up while I have him on my knee. You can tell

Mr. Tatham I did not send in my name to disturb him, which makes it all

the more charitable of him to receive me; but, dear me, of course I can

tell him that himself as he consents to see us. Dolly, don’t strangle my

poor darling! I never saw a girl that didn’t know how to take up a dear

dog before.”

“He’s only a snappish little demon, and you spoil him so,” said the

other voice. This was attended by the sound of movement as if the party

were getting under weigh.

“My poor darling pet, it is only her jealousy: is that the way? Yes, to

be sure it is the next room. Now, Dolly, remember this is where all the

poor people are ruined and done for. Leave hope behind all ye who enter

here.” A little shriek of laughter ended this speech. And John, looking

up, taking off his spectacles, and raising a little the shade of the

lamp, saw in the doorway Lady Mariamne, altered as was inevitable by the

strain and stress of nearly twenty years.

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