CHAPTER XXIV

AN UNEXPECTED ARRIVAL

"This fond attachment to the well-known place

Whence first we started into life's long race

Maintains its hold with such unfailing sway,

We feel it e'en in age, and at our latest day."

COWPER.

THE little boys were in bed. Audrey was alone in the drawing-room

reading. Mrs. Bonar was dining with the Tates.

It was about nine o'clock, and the long summer evening was only now

beginning to draw in. Audrey was just laying down her book, and

was leaning out of the window to inhale the scent of some climbing

heliotrope outside, when the maid appeared at the door.

"A gentleman to see you, ma'am."

Audrey rose, looking a little scared at seeing a tall, rather

feeble-looking man in a long overcoat standing on the threshold of the

door and staring at her in perfect silence.

"I don't think I know who it is," she said, holding out her hand.

"I suppose not. I should not have known you. Have you any recollection

of a brother?"

"Bernard! Surely it cannot be Bernard?"

"It is."

Audrey darted forward impulsively, and held out both her hands.

"How did you find me out? When did you come home? Why have you never

written to us? We thought you were dead."

"I have been down home. I hoped I might find my mother alive; it was

rather a shock to find both the parents gone. I got your address from

old Blunt. I'm afraid you have been left badly off."

"Very, but I am earning my own living, and very happy in the doing of

it. Tell me about yourself. Why did you never write us?"

"I determined I would not till I had made my fortune. Foolish, perhaps,

but you get out of the way of writing after a bit. I always meant to

come home a millionaire, but I am not one yet, and am driven back by

illness. I have had rheumatic fever and am crippled in my limbs. They

say a course of baths will put me right again, but I don't know."

"You are not married?"

"Good heavens, no! I've been working too hard for that."

"And you have been successful? Mother always said you would be. She

always believed in you."

Her brother smiled, and his smile quite transformed him.

"It was the thought of that and of her that kept me straight as a

youngster. No, I've kept clear of womankind, but I've a fancy to be

with them now. I've got a comfortable income. You will have to come and

keep house for me, Audrey."

Audrey drew a long breath. Could she? She wondered, and then was

dismayed at her hesitation.

"You're a stranger to me," she said at length, looking up into the big,

brown-bearded man's face, striving to reconcile him with the boy she

had quarrelled and played with in former years. "Suppose that we do not

pull together? I am my own mistress now, and accustomed to act freely

and independently."

"Are you?" he said, a little sceptically. "I was told you were a

governess in a boys' school. I thought the sooner you were out of such

bondage the better."

"Yes," said Audrey, half laughing; "I am a governess, but rather an

independent one, I consider. Oh, Bernard dear, forgive me for my

hesitation. You don't know how gladly I welcome you. But to have one's

whole life upset in a moment is rather a blow. Where are you staying?

Can I offer you some refreshment?"

"No, none. I'm at the hotel in the neighbouring town. I'm walking back.

It's good for me, though I feel a veritable cripple. Well, we'll talk

over things to-morrow. You must get a day off and come over to me. I

have a lot of questions to ask, but it's getting late. I only arrived

about two hours ago, had some food and walked straight over."

"I will come to you, then, to-morrow. There is much I want to say to

you. I'll walk a bit of the way with you now."

A few minutes afterwards, Audrey was walking along the lane that ran

outside the schoolhouse, her arm linked affectionately in his. But

her heart was in a tumult. She did not want to go and live with this

strange brother. She loved her work and was happy in it. Why should

she be dragged away to another life which might not be a pleasant one?

Wives were bound to live with their husbands, but sisters were not

bound to brothers. And if he had lived all these years without her, why

should he demand her now? But she did not let him see her thoughts. As

they walked on in the dusk, Mrs. Ross met and passed them, and one or

two of the masters. They all said good-night, and looked with curiosity

at the tall figure beside her.

At last, she turned.

"I must go back, Bernard. I will come and see you to-morrow. What a lot

I shall have to tell you!"

"And make arrangements to come to town with me as soon as you can. I'm

going to buy a small place somewhere in the country and settle down.

I've done my share of work, I consider, and am entitled to a bit of a

rest, and I shall never be an active man again, I fear."

Audrey returned to the house feeling as if she were in a dream.

"If Bernard had come home just after father's death, how thankful I

should have been! And, of course, his need of me is just the same,

though mine is not."

She was so full of perplexity and doubt about it all that she felt

disinclined to talk it over with Mrs. Bonar, and retired to bed before

she came in.

The next morning, she told her of her brother's arrival, and Mrs. Bonar

promised to take her place and let her have a free day.

So Audrey set off for the town, and spent a very pleasant day with her

brother, talking over old times and hearing his account of himself

abroad.

They settled that Bernard should go to town and see a specialist about

himself. Then, if he was advised to do so, he was either to go to

Harrogate or some of the baths abroad, and Audrey was to join him as

soon as she could.

"The summer holidays will be here in another six weeks. I will come

with you anywhere then. And that will be time enough to discuss our

future plans and whether I am to break with my work. Who knows? You may

pick up with a wife somewhere, and then you will not want me."

This was Audrey's final word. And she returned to her work feeling that

for the present no definite decision need be made.

The next morning, she was in the playing-field with her small boys,

when Dr. Vernon came striding across to her.

"I should like a few minutes' conversation with you, Miss Hume," he

said.

Audrey looked up. She saw he was ruffled and wondered at the cause.

"Come into the pavilion," he added peremptorily; "it is empty at

present."

Audrey followed him in silence.

Then he turned to her and spoke hotly.

"I must ask you again, Miss Hume, to be more discreet in your

behaviour. I cannot bear, and will not have, the paltry, ill-natured

gossip that travels round in our community. This is not the first time

I have had to speak to you. I wish every member of my working staff to

be above and beyond reproach. You have a certain position here, and a

certain dignity to maintain. And when I hear it said that you wander

about in the lane after ten o'clock with your arm linked in an unknown

man's, I can only rejoin that you must be exceedingly careless and

thoughtless about appearances, or else quite unfit to be one of the

heads of my houses."

Audrey's passionate temper rose at once. Dr. Vernon was quick-tempered,

and so was she.

"I consider," she said, "that you have grossly insulted me. I suppose

I have to thank Mrs. Ross for this outburst. If you choose to ask Mrs.

Bonar about it, she will tell you who the unknown man was. I shall not

do so. But this has quite decided me to tell you now that I shall not

be returning here after the summer holidays. It is indeed bondage, and

bondage which I shall be glad to break. If you cannot trust me, and are

ready to believe the worst at once of everything you hear about me,

then the sooner I leave you, the better. I will say no more."

She marched out of the pavilion with hot cheeks and angry eyes, feeling

she was leaving a crestfallen and discomfited man behind her. And yet,

when she got into the house, and was in the privacy of her bedroom, she

burst into a passion of tears.

"I hate him! I don't want to go! It's a shame! But I have burnt my

boats. And I shall never alter my mind."

It was not long before a written apology was brought her from the

doctor:

"MY DEAR MISS HUME,

"I ask your pardon, but why on earth didn't you tell me that it was

your brother? I had been vexed beyond measure by the way people were

talking of you, but I did not believe that you were in the wrong. I

hoped you would justify yourself at once. My hot temper prevented that,

I see. Please let us have a quiet talk together before you decide to

leave me. Can you come in this afternoon after four?—Yours sincerely,

"E. VERNON."

Then Audrey did what she regretted afterwards. She felt hurt and angry

still, and perhaps had a presentiment that a personal interview would

shake her present determination. So she wrote as follows:

"DEAR DR. VERNON,

"I accept your apology, but my decision still remains the same, and I

do not think we can better matters by discussion. The fact is that my

brother wishes me to make my home with him, and I have promised him

that I will do so. I join him directly school breaks up. I hope my

successor will be more discreet than I have been.—Yours sincerely,

"AUDREY HUME."

The next thing was that Miss Vernon came over to see her.

"Now, you wicked young woman, why have you been wrangling with the

doctor? Have you not got over your fit of temper yet? This is the first

time I have ever interfered in school matters, but your note was a

distinctly nasty one to him, and unworthy of you. If you accepted his

apology, why did you twit him with your 'indiscretion'? Was not that

what he apologised for?"

Audrey looked ashamed of herself.

"He spoke to me as no gentleman ought to speak. I can't forget it."

"Tuts! He has apologised. Both of you have fiery tempers, and yours is

the worst."

"I believe it is," said Audrey; "for it lasts longer. I am very sorry,

Miss Vernon. I hate to leave for many reasons, but my brother wants me,

and I must go to him."

"You will regret leaving us. Though I talk against our scholastic

atmosphere, it is a bright and breezy one, and you are too active by

nature to settle down contentedly with an invalid brother. Hasn't he a

wife? Is he too much of a crock to get one?"

"He hopes to be cured by treatment, but it will take time. I dare say I

shall wish myself back, but for all that I am going, and I don't think

the doctor will be sorry. He doesn't trust me."

Miss Vernon adjusted her glasses and looked keenly into Audrey's

flushed, quivering face.

"That's the sting, is it? 'Faithful are the wounds of a friend.' You

are very fond of my brother."

With which astounding statement, Miss Vernon marched out of the room,

and left Audrey feeling decidedly the worse for the encounter.

She did not meet the doctor for some time after that. And when she did,

he said a few coldly pleasant words and passed by.

She wrote very often to her brother, who was now going through a course

of electric massage in town, and as the days began to slip by, Audrey

felt more and more unhappy. She loved her small boys, she loved her

work.

And when the last day came, and she was packing up for good and all and

dismantling her pretty bedroom of its knick-knacks and pictures, she

was strongly inclined to sit down and cry.

In the afternoon, in fear and trembling she went over to wish Miss

Vernon good-bye. And then came her final interview with the doctor in

his study.

He was very grave and quiet, and Audrey diffident and nervous.

"I wish you well in your new life," he said, after they had discussed

various business matters; "and I hope you will not find you have made

a mistake. Not that I am the one to keep you from your brother, for I

don't know what I should do without my sister. But after many years

in the Colonies, a man does not easily settle down to a quiet English

life. May I thank you now for the good services you have rendered to

the college? I venture to hope that up to recent events you have been

very happy with us?"

"I have learnt as well as taught," said Audrey in a low voice, feeling

indignant with herself because tears would spring to her eyes. "Yes, I

have been very happy."

"And we are parting friends?"

Audrey looked up and met the doctor's wonderful smile.

"Oh, yes! I was hasty—I own it—and I ought not to have shown such

temper, but that did not affect my resolve."

"No; we must let you go your own way. But one day you will come back to

us."

He said it with steady assurance.

Audrey's eyes fell. "I don't think that is likely," she said.

Dr. Vernon smiled again, then he gripped her hand.

"God bless you, Miss Hume. Never get out of touch with One Who is

guiding you. 'Without Me ye can do nothing.' Good-bye."

Audrey murmured the conventional words.

But when she was driving to the station, her tears fell fast and

unrestrainedly.

She joined her brother in a quiet family hotel in London, and strove

that first evening to be her lighthearted self.

"I have had two experiences of London now," she said, after the first

day was over. "My first one was so dreadful that I never wanted to be

in London again. Now I really think I shall enjoy it. Oh, Bernard, what

a blessing money is! As I walk through the streets, and see so many

pale, anxious faces, all engaged in the struggle to live, I wish I was

a millionaire so that I could place them beyond all trouble and worry."

"They're a poor lot, as a rule—those millionaires," said Bernard

thoughtfully. "I've knocked up against a few. They're as hard as nails,

suspicious, and in many cases unprincipled. I've seen men work on till

they drop, when they have already enough to keep them in comfort, but

their ambitions were stronger than their bodies, and their aim was to

bank millions instead of thousands."

"Money brings care, I suppose."

"Rather! Women are really best off—if they only knew it—when they have

not the fingering of it."

"Like myself," laughed Audrey. "But I loved quarter-day at Horsborough

College."

They stayed in London for a couple of months. And then Bernard felt so

much better that he began to talk of buying his country house. After a

great deal of discussion over climate and soil, he fixed upon a sandy,

bracing part of Hampshire, and then house-hunting began. Audrey, with

her usual keenness, threw herself into the subject with whole-hearted

vigour and energy. She interviewed agents, builders, and architects.

Finally, Bernard decided upon an old-fashioned farmhouse residence with

modern improvements. Audrey had at first imagined they would live in a

humble cottage on a comparatively small income. But when he informed

her he meant to get a motor, and after a good deal of inspection chose

a most powerful and luxurious one, she remonstrated.

"Can you afford it, Bernard?"

He laughed.

"Yes, I mean to be comfortable. I always cut my coat according to my

cloth. You need not be afraid."

"I am delighted. You will be able to take me down to see my

friends—Pauline and Honor and others."

Audrey was only a young girl still. This phase of life gripped her and

held her. She had all her life had to go without pretty things, and

without the comforts of the wealthy. She began to ask herself soon

whether she would be growing lazy and self-indulgent, and she said

something of this sort to her brother one evening after dinner.

"You see, Bernard, I have been seeing life so differently lately. I

will be quite frank with you. I was in religious doubt and difficulty

for a long time, and now I have been brought through it. I want to be

a true follower of Christ, and I have a horror of sitting down and

enjoying life in a selfish fashion."

"You are like our mother."

Mrs. Hume was still enshrined in her son's heart as the ideal Christian

woman.

"Oh, I wish I was! But I must try to do some good wherever we go. I

won't use that expression, for I don't like it. I want to help others

to be truly happy."

"Well, I give you leave to do that," said Bernard, with a

laugh—"beginning with me. And if you have conscientious scruples about

anything, speak out, and I'll respect them. Perhaps, like mother, you

will be demanding a tenth of my income for missions and charity. Do you

remember how she would set aside her tenth of the housekeeping, as she

could not get my father to see with her?"

"How well you remember things!" exclaimed Audrey. "I think it would

be splendid if you did! There is such a lot of misery in the world to

relieve."

She was touched to find how her mother's saintly life had influenced

her brother and impressed him all through his wanderings. And she began

to find, after several talks, that Bernard was not only interested in

the religious questions of the day, but deep down in his heart had a

reverence and love for his mother's God.

The busy time of house-furnishing that followed filled her time and

thoughts. But on Sunday, Bernard kept to the old-fashioned way of

spending it at home quietly, going to church, and refusing even to use

his motor. Audrey was very thankful for this, and began to see that her

energy and strength and talents could all be employed for good in her

new life. She would be required to do nothing by her brother that would

be against her principles. But, in spite of her busy, pleasant life,

her thoughts and heart were still in Horsborough College. The very

sight of a schoolboy brought a lump to her throat.

"Happy I am, and happy I mean to be," she said to herself. "I can't

think why I hanker so to be back. I must try to forget it all, as a bit

of my life that is over and done with."

Yet that bit of her life remained with her and haunted her day and

night.

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