The weary moon had turned away,
The far North-Star was turning pale
To hear the stranger's boastful tale
Of blood and flame that battle day.
And yet again the two men glared,
Close face to face above that tomb;
Each seemed as jealous of the room
The other eager waiting shared.
Again the man began to say,--
As taking up some broken thread,
As talking to the patient dead,--
The Creole was as still as they:
"That night we burned yon grass-grown town,--
The grasses, vines are reaching up;
The ruins they are reaching down,
As sun-browned soldiers when they sup.
"I knew her,--knew her constancy.
She said, this night of every year
She here would come, and kneeling here,
Would pray the live-long night for me.
"This praying seems a splendid thing!
It drives old Time the other way;
It makes him lose all reckoning
Of years that pagans have to pay.
"This praying seems a splendid thing!
It makes me stronger as she prays--
But oh the bitter, bitter days
When I became a banished thing!
"I fled, took ship,--I fled as far
As far ships drive tow'rd the North-Star;
For I did hate the South, the sun
That made me think what I had done.
"I could not see a fair palm-tree
In foreign land, in pleasant place,
But it would whisper of her face
And shake its keen sharp blades at me.
"Each black-eyed woman would recall
A lone church-door, a face, a name,
A coward's flight, a soldier's shame:
I fled from woman's face, from all.
"I hugged my gold, my precious gold,
Within my strong, stout, buckskin vest.
I wore my bags against my breast
So close I felt my heart grow cold.
"I did not like to see it now;
I did not spend one single piece.
I travelled, travelled without cease
As far as Russian ship could plow.
"And when my own scant hoard was gone,
And I had reached the far North-land,
I took my two stout bags in hand
As one pursued, and journeyed on.
"Ah, I was weary! I grew gray;
I felt the fast years slip and reel
As slip black beads when maidens kneel
At altars when out-door is gay.
"At last I fell prone in the road,--
Fell fainting with my cursed load.
A skin-clad cossack helped me bear
My bags, nor would one shilling share.
"He looked at me with proud disdain,--
He looked at me as if he knew;
His black eyes burned me thro' and thro';
His scorn pierced like a deadly pain.
"He frightened me with honesty;
He made me feel so small, so base,
I fled, as if the fiend kept chase,--
The fiend that claims my company!
"I bore my load alone; I crept
Far up the steep and icy way;
And there, before a cross there lay
A barefoot priest, who bowed and wept.
"I threw my gold right down and sped
Straight on. And oh my heart was light!
A spring-time bird in spring-time flight
Flies not so happy as I fled.
"I felt somehow this monk would take
My gold, my load from off my back;
Would turn the fiend from off my track,
Would take my gold for sweet Christ's sake!
"I fled; I did not look behind;
I fled, fled with the mountain wind.
At last; far down the mountain's base
I found a pleasant resting-place.
"I rested there so long, so well,
More grateful than all tongues can tell.
It was such pleasant thing to hear
That valley's voices calm and clear:
"That valley veiled in mountain air,
With white goats on the hills at morn;
That valley green with seas of corn,
With cottage islands here and there.
"I watched the mountain girls. The hay
They mowed was not more sweet than they;
They laid brown hands in my white hair;
They marvelled at my face of care.
"I tried to laugh; I could but weep.
I made these peasants one request,--
That I with them might toil or rest,
And with them sleep the long, last sleep.
"I begged that I might battle there,
For that fair valley-land, for those
Who gave me cheer when girt with foes,
And have a country, loved and fair.
"Where is that spot that poets name
Our country? name the hallowed land?
Where is that spot where man must stand
Or fall when girt with sword and flame?
"Where is that one permitted spot?
Where is the one place man must fight?
Where rests the one God-given right
To fight, as ever patriots fought?
"I say 'tis in that holy house
Where God first set us down on earth:
Where mother welcomed us at birth,
And bared her breasts, a happy spouse.
"But when some wrong, some deed of shame,
Shall make that land no more our own--
Ah! hunger for that holy name
My country, I have truly known!
"The simple plough-boy from his field
Looks forth. He sees God's purple wall
Encircling him. High over all
The vast sun wheels his shining shield.
"This King, who makes earth what it is,--
King David bending to his toil!
O lord and master of the soil,
How envied in thy loyal bliss!
"Long live the land we loved in youth,--
That world with blue skies bent about,
Where never entered ugly doubt!
Long live the simple, homely truth!
"Can true hearts love some far snow-land,
Some bleak Alaska bought with gold?
God's laws are old as love is old;
And Home is something near at hand.
"Yea, change yon river's course; estrange
The seven sweet stars; make hate divide
The full moon from the flowing tide,--
But this old truth ye cannot change.
"I begged a land as begging bread;
I begged of these brave mountaineers
To share their sorrows, share their tears;
To weep as they wept, with their dead.
"They did consent. The mountain town
Was mine to love, and valley lands.
That night the barefoot monk came down
And laid my two bags in my hands!
"On! On! And oh the load I bore!
Why, once I dreamed my soul was lead;
Dreamed once it was a body dead!
It made my cold, hard bosom sore.
"I dragged that body forth and back--
O conscience, what a baying hound!
Nor frozen seas nor frosted ground
Can throw this bloodhound from his track.
"In farthest Russia I lay down
A dying man, at last to rest;
I felt such load upon my breast
As seamen feel, who sinking drown.
"That night, all chill and desperate,
I sprang up, for I could not rest;
I tore the two bags from my breast,
And dashed them in the burning grate.
"I then crept back into my bed;
I tried, I begged, I prayed to sleep;
But those red, restless coins would keep
Slow dropping, dropping, and blood red.
"I heard them clink and clink and clink,--
They turned, they talked within that grate.
They talked of her; they made me think
Of one who still must pray and wait.
"And when the bags burned crisp and black,
Two coins did start, roll to the floor,--
Roll out, roll on, and then roll back,
As if they needs must journey more.
"Ah, then I knew nor change nor space,
Nor all the drowning years that rolled
Could hide from me her haunting face,
Nor still that red-tongued talking gold.
"Again I sprang forth from my bed!
I shook as in an ague fit;
I clutched that red gold, burning red,
I clutched, as if to strangle it.
"I clutched it up--you hear me, boy?--
I clutched it up with joyful tears!
I clutched it close, with such wild joy
I had not felt for years and years!
"Such joy! for I should now retrace
My steps, should see my land, her face;
Bring back her gold this battle day,
And see her, see her, hear her pray!
"I brought it back--you hear me, boy?--
I clutch it, hold it, hold it now:
Red gold, bright gold that giveth joy
To all, and anywhere or how;
"That giveth joy to all but me,--
To all but me, yet soon to all.
It burns my hands, it burns! but she
Shall ope my hands and let it fall.
"For oh I have a willing hand
To give these bags of gold; to see
Her smile as once she smiled on me
Here in this pleasant, warm palm-land!"
He ceased, he thrust each hard-clenched fist,
He threw his gold hard forth again,
As one impelled by some mad pain
He would not or could not resist.
The creole, scorning, turned away,
As if he turned from that lost thief,--
The one that died without belief
That awful crucifixion day.