Colin’s lodgings proved to be in the last place to which I should have
thought him likely to have gone--in one of the prim, respectable,
old-fashioned streets about Bloomsbury. Probably he felt himself more
out of the way of remark there than he would have been in regions more
under public inspection, and where acquaintances might have found him
more readily. I got out quickly to hand Mr. Campbell from the cab, and
he held fast to my arm, apparently with a little confusion of mind.
“Yes, I want your arm. I am--a little shaky this morning; don’t leave
me, Charley!” he said. “Father, it is Mr. Temple,” said Charlotte. He
looked up at me with dim eyes, and a half smile. “Ay, to be sure, it is
Mr. Temple. Never mind, he will just come with me all the same.” He had
been so determined before not to acknowledge to me any anxiety about
Colin, that this sudden abandonment of all reticence struck me with
strange surprise. I exchanged a glance with Charlotte over his shoulder.
“Will you come, since he says so?” she said. I could not blame her for
not wishing for my presence, but I felt by the weight of his hand upon
my arm that I was necessary, and said nothing more.
There was evidently a little excitement in the house at the sight of the
carriage and the party arriving. The door was opened by a young woman,
too much dressed for a servant--the landlady’s daughter, no doubt--who
came out with the distinct intention of admitting nobody. Yes, Mr.
Campbell lived there, she acknowledged; but he was not very well--he was
confined to his room. She believed he was still in bed; he had left
orders that he could see nobody. “He will see us,” said Charlotte. “Will
you let us pass at once, please, and show me my brother’s room.” The
young woman gave a little scream. “Oh! I can’t let you go in,” she
cried; “I daren’t. What would they all say to me?” “What is all this?”
said the old man, pushing forward; indeed, it was I whom he pushed
forward, like an implement to clear the way. He made his way thus up the
steps and in at the door, the girl retreating before him. This put me
forward a little in advance of him into the first room that presented
itself, an untidy parlour. Here he resigned my arm and sat down. “Go and
tell Colin I am here,” he said to his daughter. “Oh! I tell you, Mr.
Campbell can’t see you--he is ill in bed,” cried the girl, shutting the
door upon us, and standing with her back to it, evidently too frightened
to know what to do. The room was good-sized, though completely out of
order, badly furnished and faded. It was connected by folding-doors,
which were closed, with another room behind. Presently one of these
opened and admitted another young woman, a little older than the first,
and still more elaborately dressed, who came into the midst of us with
sudden impetuosity, but closed carefully the door behind her. “I would
like to know,” she said, “who it is that is making so much noise, with a
sick person in the house. I am Mrs. Campbell, if you have anything to
say to me.” She tossed her head with a determined air, confronting Miss
Campbell as if this was her natural antagonist. Charlotte gave a low
cry. She put herself in her turn before her father, as if to defend him
from an encounter so unlooked for. But the old man caught her dress and
thrust her out of the way. He rose up tremulous, feeling for my arm.
“You are--what?” he said, putting up his hand to his ear.
“Old gentleman,” cried the young woman, “I don’t know who you are that
push in like this to a strange house, nor that person there--that is
your daughter, I suppose? If you’ve got any claim upon him, I’m here to
answer for him; he’s a gentleman, and we were married at church as good
as anybody. If she thinks she has any claim upon him, she’s just got to
say it to me”--
“Chatty, will this be Colin’s wife?”
“It looks like it, father,” said Charlotte, with a sorrowful shake of
her head. And then she said, “I am very thankful. It might have been
worse. If there is no more harm than this, oh, father dear--many a good
man has been mistaken. All may be well yet.”
“My God! Colin’s wife!” the old man cried, pushing me away from him and
dropping back into his chair. He had raised his voice, and the words
seemed to ring through the house. They were answered by a loud cry and
groan mingled together from the other side of the closed door. Then it
was pulled open forcibly, and, haggard, unshaven, half-dressed, Colin
himself looked in. Never have I seen so tragic a figure. His eyes were
bloodshot and wild, his beard half grown, the darkness of his
countenance and straggling hair thrown up by the white shirt, crumpled
and untidy, which covered his shoulders. He gave one terrible glance
round, taking in everything; and I have never myself doubted that, not
only the sudden appearance of his father and sister, and the old man’s
look of death (which none of us perceived at the moment), but the
contrast between Charlotte, standing there, and the woman, who
immediately began to exclaim at his appearance, and to attempt to force
him back again, struck to the very heart of the half-maddened man, and
turned the scale at once. He gave one desperate look, pushing off with
fury the hand of the wife, which she had laid upon his arm, and
disappeared again. The next moment the sharp ring of a pistol shot,
close at hand, rang into us all, as if we each had received the bullet.
That, I know, was my own sensation. At the same moment there was a heavy
fall in the room beyond, and a groan--the only one and the last.
It would be in vain for me to attempt to describe the scene that
followed. The woman who had called herself Mrs. Campbell flung open the
folding-doors and rushed into the room behind. He was lying in a heap
half under a table which had been drawn up to the side of a sofa-bed. He
had just risen, it was evident from the tumbled mass of coverings. A cup
of tea and the remains of some food were on the table, placed where he
could reach them from the bed. He had been at breakfast when this
terrible interruption came. On one side of his plate lay a quantity of
letters, some of which he had opened. An open case with one pistol in it
was on the table. The other lay, with a curl of smoke still about the
mouth, on the floor. I followed the woman, who flung herself down beside
him on the floor, and made the house resound with her shrieks. I had no
special knowledge of such matters, but I had a little experience, and
had seen wounds and accidents. I was convinced at the first glance that
the doctor, whom I immediately rushed out to seek, was unavailing. The
shot had been mortal. But the living had to be cared for, if not the
dead. By good fortune I found a doctor only a few doors off, who was
still at home, attending to a number of poor patients who crowded about
his door. He came with me instantly. I told him what had happened as
exactly as I could while we ran from one house to the other. When I took
him into the scene of the tragedy, I found the table cleared away, the
room open, the morning air from the opened window playing upon the head,
heavy as marble, which Charlotte, seated on the floor, was supporting
upon her lap. But no one, not even the most inexperienced tyro, would
have been deceived in that look. As far from the warm pursuits of the
cheerful day as if he had been dead for a century was Colin, never to be
called to account for his errors, or shrink from the eye of an angry
father in this world any more.
His wife was standing by, crying and scolding together.
“Oh, what did you come here for to drive him wild?” she cried. “He was
getting better. And what if he had lost money? there was plenty still.
We’d have gone abroad, as he said. We’d have got on. It’s not so very
much as him and me could have wanted. What did you come here for to
madden him altogether? He said as I wasn’t to have nothing to do with
you. Oh, Campbell! Campbell! can’t you hear me crying? It’s only a
faint. I know it’s only a faint. If you would go away and let him be
quiet with me, he would come to himself.”
The doctor opened the shirt, on which there was scarcely any blood,
though it was black with the smoke of the pistol, which seemed to have
been placed against it. Charlotte, motionless as the form that leaned
upon her, sat with her tearless eyes fixed upon him, following every
movement. After a brief examination, the doctor laid his hand gently on
her arm.
“If you will let me,” he said compassionately, “we will lift him on to
the bed.” Then he added, still more gently, “You can do nothing more for
him.”
He and I together, not without difficulty, did this last service. The
woman behind broke out into tears and cries, and mingled questions and
reproaches.
“It’s a faint he is in, doctor. Oh, bring him round, bring him round!
What is the good of being a doctor if you cannot do that? It’s all their
doing, coming so sudden, and he frightened to face them, they’re so hard
and cruel. Oh, doctor, don’t you see he’s in a faint? Give him
something; do something to bring him to!”
“Try to be quiet,” said the doctor, with some severity in his tone. He
knew who she was, and thought of her, as was evident, only as the
landlady’s daughter. “You might take example by this lady, who has far
more to do with it. All the doctors in the world could not bring him to,
poor fellow! Compose yourself, my good girl, and take the lady away.”
The young woman gave a great shriek. “Who are you calling girl?” she
cried. “I’m his wife! his lawful wife! and he is only in a faint. Oh,
Campbell! Campbell! don’t you hear me? Oh, doctor, for God’s sake, bring
him to!”
Poor creature! beyond her passion and her pride there was some real
feeling too. She flung herself at the foot of the bed in a passion of
weeping, with loud hysterical shrieks that rang through the house. This
brought to her her mother and sister, who, awed by Charlotte’s presence,
and by the horror of the catastrophe, had been left in the background,
but who now rushed in, and, one at either side, began to pour forth
mingled wails for the dead and entreaties to the living.
“Take the lady away,” the doctor said, turning to me. Charlotte had not
moved. She stood at the end of the bed, with a face like marble, not
noticing the noise and tumult near her. She might have been all alone
with her dead--so still was she; her eyes fixed upon him, the
handkerchief in her hand with which she had been bathing his dead
forehead. The blow seemed to have struck her to marble. Sometimes her
mouth quivered a little, but she did not shed a tear nor utter a word.
I took her hand to lead her away, and then she turned a little toward me
with a pitiful look.
“We were too late,” she said.
“Come away; there is nothing you can do now. Oh, let me take you away;
there are others who need you!”
“Nothing I can do,” she said dreamily; “nothing anyone can do. Too late!
too late!” But she did not move. She was in a region where sounds from
without did not reach her. Perhaps, for the moment, it was not even pain
she felt, but a wondering awe and solemnity which silenced every
thought.
“Charlotte,” I cried, being too much moved myself to remember any kind
of rule, “where is your father? You have forgotten him! Where has he
gone? Your father?” I was alarmed, indeed, at his absence from among the
group about poor Colin’s bed.
“Ah!” she said, rousing herself with a sigh, that seemed to come from
the very bottom of her heart. “My father!” and turned away slowly from
the couch and him that lay upon it. The folding-doors were half open,
and showed at first only a portion of the chair on which Mr. Campbell
had placed himself, and from which it seemed he had never moved. One
limp arm and colourless hand hung from the arm of it. His head, sunk
upon his breast, was but half visible. For the moment I had no thought
but that he had died there, where he sat, and the sight of him added the
last horror to the scene. Both dead, father and son, and by one blow!
Charlotte was at his side in a second, while I had done no more than
start in my horror. She had loosened the wrappings about his throat, and
changed the position of his head, before I could get to her. She was all
thought, all energy; she who a moment before had been smitten, too, into
marble! Happily, the doctor, who was still there, went to him at once;
and we got him laid upon the shabby sofa in this room, which
corresponded to the bed in the other on which his son lay. It was a
slight paralytic seizure, the doctor said; a fit out of which he would
recover probably soon. The situation altogether was so pitiful that even
this stranger was moved. He took me aside, and asked where they were
living, and what were the circumstances; and when I explained that they
had arrived only this morning, offered to have rooms prepared in his own
house, and to take them there until Mr. Campbell should have recovered.
I was thankful to accept this proposal in place of anything better,
finding myself in the strange position of head of this sad party, and
responsible for everything; for Charlotte was entirely occupied with her
father, and I could not bear that she should be disturbed by the
miserable details which had now to be thought of. I had to leave her to
attend to all these, but hurried back as soon as I was able to share her
vigil. And I have seldom known anything so terrible as the long watch by
that speechless old man; the creeping on of the endless daylight hours,
the coming of the evening. She took my presence without remark, and
referred to me as if I had been a brother without a word. This gave me a
personal pleasure, of which I was half ashamed, at so dreadful a moment;
but otherwise the day passed like a dream.
In the evening there was a stir of returning consciousness. He opened
his eyes, and seemed to recognise his daughter by his side, and
attempted to raise his arm, which was powerless. The inability to do
this troubled him, and, perhaps, helped to rouse him. At first his
speech was only a confused babble, principally of complaint and
annoyance at being kept there. He seemed to think he was bound to his
couch, and got very angry in his inarticulate commands to her to loose
him. But, by and by, his mind took a milder mood, and his power of
speech gradually came back.
“I’m thinking, I’m thinking,” he said, “I’ve maybe been--light-headed.
Where is the doctor? Maxwell, where are ye?” and he tried to turn his
head to look round. Maxwell was the name of their doctor at home.
Charlotte stood almost over him, in her anxiety to prevent him from
seeing anything that could bring the scene of the morning to his mind;
and by this time it was dark, and two wretched, flickering candles made
the room difficult to decipher. He remembered something, however, of
what had passed. A flicker of a smile passed over his face.
“But, Chatty, ye’ve--ye’ve found Colin?” he stammered.
“Yes, father.”
“That’s well--that’s well! What’s all that noise and shouting? It’ll be
the lads bringing him home.”
I turned away, feeling that I could not bear it, almost afraid, excited
and fatigued as I was, of making some hysterical outburst. But she
could. She stood perfectly still, with her back to the light, shutting
out from him as with wings all those local particulars which might have
survived his recollection. She told him, with a voice that never
faltered, how he must submit to be carried to bed. And, as a matter of
fact, he submitted like a child, and was soon feebly interested by his
removal, and refreshed by the soft air of the night that blew in his
face, as we placed him in the litter to carry him away. Fortunately, the
way was very short, and though there was some difficulty in getting
through the crowd which had been gathered around the door for some
hours, drawn together by rumours of the tragedy within, we managed it
without disturbing him much. I saw him give a tremulous glance about
him, and stooped down to hear what he was saying, but all that I could
make out was a murmur about “A queer place London, a queer place.” He
had, it seemed, forgotten everything except a faint, confused idea of
Colin, and that he was found and being brought home.
He fell asleep very soon after he had been settled in bed, in a
comfortable room, where there was already a nurse in attendance. Then
Charlotte came out to me and held out her hands. “You are tired to
death,” she said; “you ought to rest; but I must go back to _him_.”
“Not to-night, not to-night. All this is enough to kill you. I have seen
to everything.”
“That I am sure of,” she said, with a faint, tender smile; “and I’ll not
even say that I am thankful. But will you take me back? I will ask no
more.”
We went _back_, as she said, to the room where Colin was lying. Decency
and calm had been restored to the chamber of death; the sound of
hysterical crying was heard occasionally from above, increasing I
thought (but I might be wrong) when it was known who was below. But
below all was silent and still; a miserable candle burning, the only
watch over the dead. I held up this poor light to show his face, as he
lay there in all the vigour of early manhood, a frame that seemed made
to resist all the storms of life. He lay as if he had been asleep,
perfectly tranquil, as if shame or sorrow had never come near him. She
stood silent a long time, not saying a word or shedding a tear. He had
been her special companion in all their earlier days--a year younger
than she, no more. I comprehended that the pang of this separation was
not one to be evaporated in easy tears. I myself, who had so little to
do with him, it seemed to me that every hour in which I had seen him,
and every word I had ever heard him speak, came back to me in the tragic
silence and gloom, only broken by the faint light which flickered in the
air from the open window. A young man in the blossom of his days, with
everything before him; a rich man’s son, heir of all that money could
buy or household love bestow--yet all concluded like this. In squalor
and wretchedness, in the company of a woman not worthy to serve his
sister as her maid, but made into his wife--in a horror of discovery so
deep, that to escape his father’s eye he rushed into God’s presence with
his own blood on his hands: out of the calm of existence, everyday and
ordinary, what a leap into the mysterious abysses of life and death!
When Charlotte sank down on her knees beside the bed, I could endure it
no longer, but, setting down the light, stole away into the adjoining
room, the scene of the other chapter of this tragedy, and sat down
there in the dark to wait for her, my head throbbing, my whole being
confused and shaken. Even at such a moment other thoughts will intrude.
It may be imagined that I should have felt, after so wonderful a drawing
together of the bonds of intimacy, that there were no hopes I might not
entertain. But this was far, far from being the case. Had I ever
ventured to imagine that she could detach herself from all the hands
that clung to her, and come into my life and become a portion of me? If
so, I saw now the utter madness of the thought. I stood at the window
looking out upon the lamps, and the glimmer of reflection upon the
pavement, which was wet with repeated showers. A few people still hung
about the outskirts of a house in which a man had killed himself. The
curiosity which waits upon death, especially upon violent death, gaped
at the door, as if something of that mystery would be disclosed when it
opened. For my part, I felt as if there was no novelty in any incident,
but that this, and only this, could have happened from the beginning of
time.
When we left the house of death, Charlotte clung to me with a nervous
trembling which was the first sign of exhaustion she had shown. Even in
her, the claims of human weakness had to be acknowledged; her firm step
wavered as she descended the steps, and she was glad to have my arm for
support. But the peace of that scene after the tumult of the morning had
produced its effect upon her. She began to talk to me of Colin. “He was
_my_ brother,” she said. “Don’t you know a large family falls into
pairs? Charley’s sister died too, and since then he has been more with
me; but it was always Colin and Chatty, Chatty and Colin.”
“He and you will comfort each other,” I said. “Charley is so good a
fellow.”
“Ah!” she said, “he is good, and Colin was always a trouble--but he is
not Colin. Mr. Temple, if our boy had died by God’s hand and not his
own”--She paused a little and trembled, and her voice died away in her
throat. “I could almost have been glad,” she added afterwards, with a
sudden energy. “He and his life were never at harmony.” I felt her whole
frame quiver with the long sigh of a sorrow that was past tears.
“Then it was not only this marriage?”
“Oh, can you think so little of us?” she cried. “We would have made the
best of it. Me, there is nothing, nothing I would not have done. Colin’s
wife, she would have been sacred. And so long as she loved him”--then
she made a pause. “You will hear afterwards,” she said; “I know our
name, our honour was in question. Oh, when you hear, do not judge him,
Mr. Temple. If he did wrong, he paid for it--always twice over, in
misery and pain--and now he is in God’s hand.”
We went on in silence after this. We walked very slowly, for she was
worn out, and I should have been glad had every yard been a mile; for it
seemed to me that never again would Charlotte be so much mine.