By Elisabeth Sanxay Holding

A gay world, that summer morning! The sprinkler on the lawn flung a

rainbow mist into the air, and left tiny diamonds shining on the

grass blades. Everything was astir—the leaves rustling on the

trees, gay flowers swaying on their stalks. Curtains fluttered at

the open windows, and through the cool, bright house voices came

floating, light as butterflies. Serena Page had arisen.

To be sure, she had told her house guests the night before that just

because she had to get up was no reason why any one else should be

disturbed at the outrageous hour of half past eight; but somehow

everybody was disturbed. Somehow her getting up made confusion all

through the house; for that was Serena’s especial talent—to create

an exciting sort of bustle about her, without herself doing anything

at all. Serena! Never was a woman so misnamed!

She came down the stairs, her filmy black negligee floating out

behind her, so that she seemed, as always, to be coming in a

breeze—an artificial breeze, though, perfumed and enervating,

bringing no health or color. She was without make-up at this early

hour. Her handsome, haggard face was pale, her eyes were heavy.

She entered the breakfast room, and there was the Moriarty girl,

standing by the window.

“Good morning, Mrs. Page,” she said, with that enigmatic smile of

hers.

Serena smiled, too, but faintly. Geraldine Moriarty was beginning to

get on her nerves very badly, and she was longing for an excuse to

fly into a rage with the girl. That was the only way Serena could

get rid of people. She could do nothing in cold blood. She had taken

on Geraldine in an outburst of generosity, and she would have to

have an outburst of anger before she could send her away.

“Had breakfast?” she inquired.

“No—I was waiting for you, Mrs. Page.”

Serena took her place at the table, and the Japanese butler came

forward to serve her. She did not know his name. She was not even

sure that she had seen him before. She got her servants from an

agency in the city, which upon demand would send her out a “crew”

commanded by a butler. Sometimes things went wrong, and the whole

lot left together; but another crew always came promptly, and her

household suffered very little from the change. She had the art of

making her home as impersonal as a hotel; but she did notice this

butler. She smiled upon him, because his charmingly deferential air

pleased her. He seemed to appreciate the solemnity of the occasion.

It was indeed an important occasion. It was the beginning of

Serena’s diet. Before this elegant and luxurious creature the butler

set half of a grapefruit, two slices of Graham bread toast without

butter, and a cup of black coffee.

She shuddered a little, and closed her eyes. Every morning,

henceforth, she was to get up at half past eight, go through a set

of exercises, take a cold shower, and come downstairs—to this!

Every one said she wouldn’t be able to stand it. Those who pleased

her best said she had absolutely no need of a reducing diet, and

would be made ill by it.

Only the Moriarty girl showed no interest at all. Serena observed

that Geraldine had a slice of grilled Virginia ham on her plate.

“How Connie could ever have called her a sweet child!” she thought.

“She’s as hard as nails!”

Some six weeks ago Connie Blanchard had come to Serena with a most

piteous tale about Geraldine Moriarty.

“Her mother and I went to the same school in Paris,” she had said;

“and now this sweet child’s all alone in the world. Something awful

happened to her father. He went bankrupt, or lost his mind, or

something—I can’t remember now—and Geraldine simply hasn’t a

penny. Fine old Irish family, you know, and she’s awfully well

educated. I’d love to help her, but you know how it is with me, my

dear, living as I do in hotels—and I’m not strong. Do please do

something for the poor child, Serena!”

Who could have done more? Serena had at once engaged Miss Moriarty

as secretary-companion, and here she was, getting a nice little

salary, and with practically no work to do. The secretarial duties

were almost nonexistent, for Serena very seldom wrote or even

answered a letter. She and her friends carried on their social

activities by telephone, and they liked to do their own talking.

As for the companion part, that was absurd. Serena was always

surrounded by companions, and mighty obliging ones, too—penniless

cousins, ambitious and ambiguous ladies, all sorts of eager and

pliant creatures, who made up a little court where Serena ruled

magnificently. No—all the Moriarty girl had to do was to look on,

and of course to admire; and it was at this simple task that she so

utterly failed.

She didn’t seem to admire anything or anybody, not even herself. She

was ironically indifferent to her own dark beauty. She had no decent

clothes, and when Serena had offered her some very good things that

she was tired of, Geraldine had refused—politely, of course. She

was always polite, always careful not to give Serena any excuse for

getting rid of her.

“But you’ll go, my dear!” thought Serena. “I’ve done quite enough

for you!”

She glanced across the table at her silent companion.

“Hopeless!” she reflected. “Simply hopeless! Of course she’s

good-looking, in a way—but she has absolutely _no_ charm, and _no_

figure.”

Miss Moriarty went on eating with an excellent appetite. She was

never talkative. She was quiet, but with a quiet which Serena did

not find restful or soothing. She was a tall girl, thin and supple,

with a careless grace in every movement. Her face had a gypsy

darkness, with high cheek bones, features delicate and yet bold, and

black eyes with a scornful light in them. She was dressed in a black

skirt, a black jersey, and a plain white blouse—a costume that made

her look lanky, thought the dieting Serena; and she had that air of

not caring.

“For Heaven’s sake, do talk, my dear!” cried Serena, overcome by

exasperation. “I’m all on edge this morning, and it makes me

horribly nervous to see you sitting there like a—like a graven

image!”

“I’ll try,” said Miss Moriarty obligingly. “Have you seen the

delphiniums?”

“Never heard of the things,” said Serena. “Oh, do answer that for

me, my dear!”

For the butler had come forward to say that a “generman” wanted to

speak to Mrs. Page on the telephone.

There was, inevitably, a telephone in the breakfast room. There were

telephones everywhere in that house, so that, in order to speak to a

friend perhaps a hundred miles away, one need not have the fatigue

of walking more than twenty feet. Geraldine took up the receiver.

“This is Mrs. Page’s secretary,” she said. “Will you give me the

message, please?”

“Tell Mrs. Page it’s Sambo,” said a curt and very clear masculine

voice.

“It’s Sambo,” repeated Miss Moriarty, turning toward Serena.

She was surprised by the change that came over that haggard,

petulant face. Forgotten were the nerves and the cruel diet. Serena

sprang to her feet and ran to the telephone, and even her voice was

changed.

“Sambo!” she cried. “What an hour! Yes, I know, but why didn’t you

write me, just once? I’m not reproaching you, silly boy! Only I did

think you’d have time just for a line. No, no! To-day, Sambo? But

can’t you give me some idea what time? Surely some time to-day? Oh,

all right! By-by, big boy!”

She came back to the table and sank into her chair, laughing.

“I’ll take a slice of that ham,” she said to the butler, “and cream

for my coffee. Quick! I’m starving!” Then she looked at Geraldine.

“Sammy Randall is coming,” she announced.

“How nice,” said Geraldine.

But Serena missed any irony there may have been in the words. Mrs.

Anson had appeared in the doorway, and she called to her:

“Betty, Sambo’s coming out to-day!”

“My dear, how simply marvelous!” cried Betty Anson, with fervor.

Serena expected that fervor. She took it for granted that all her

friends would rejoice with her; and so they did. Serena, the queen,

was happy, and all her court was happy, too, reaping the benefits of

her good humor.

“But that awful Moriarty!” she whispered to Betty Anson. “She’s

worse than usual this morning. I don’t know what’s the matter with

her. She’s so indifferent and ungrateful!”

“Those people are always envious,” said Mrs. Anson. “Governesses and

companions—they’re not exactly servants, you know, and yet they’re

not—well, they’re simply out of everything.”

“I wish she’d stay out altogether!” said Serena.

Geraldine Moriarty wished the same thing. As she stepped out through

the long window of the breakfast room to the lawn, she wished that

she need never set foot in that house again. She hated it, she hated

the life there, and at times she came dangerously close to hating

the people in it.

For, though Serena’s conclusion that the girl was “as hard as nails”

was an exaggeration, there was a grain of truth in it. She had, for

her nineteen years, a character remarkably definite and independent.

She had fortitude, courage, and the pride of Lucifer. She had come

here, penniless, solitary, and so young, direct from the almost

cloistered life she had led with her invalid mother, and not for one

instant had she been dazzled or swayed by the luxury and the

feverish gayety about her. She stayed because she knew no other way

to earn her bread, but all her salary she put into a savings bank,

and would not touch a penny of it. When there was enough, she meant

to go away. She would learn typing and shorthand, find work in an

office, and be done with this existence which she hated.

She lived here in exile, utterly alien and lonely, among these

people whom she neither comprehended nor pitied. Her people had been

gentlefolk. She had been brought up in a tradition of dignity,

honor, and reserve, and she clung to that tradition with all the

strength of her loyal heart. What her people had been, she would be.

Their ways were the right ways. Their manners, their speech, their

tastes, formed the standards by which all others should be judged.

And, so judged, Serena and her friends were damned. Geraldine saw no

good in them at all. They were base, heartless, and vulgar.

She walked across the lawn to the sea wall at the foot of the

garden, and jumped down to the beach, a few feet below. She wanted

to be alone for a little while in the fresh, sweet summer morning,

in the sun and the salt wind, and to forget the monstrous thing she

had seen; but she could not forget. In anger, in contempt, she was

obliged to remember Serena’s face at the mention of that man’s name.

Evidently Serena “loved” this man with the mountebank name, and her

friends seemed to think it a charming idyl—the “love” of a woman of

forty, who had divorced one husband and was living in constant

bickering with a second. The fact of her being married was simply a

side issue. Faith and honor had no meaning at all for these people,

and love—that was what they called “love”!

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