slam. My back gate has a chain for a spring, weighted with a pail of
stones, and when it slams the earth trembles, and I have time to get my
hands out of the suds or dough or whatever; and it’s real handy and
practical. This time there come trotting round my house David Beach. My,
my but he was a nice little soul. He had bright eyes, that looked up
quick as a rabbit’s. And a smile that slipped on and off, swift as a
frisking squirrel. And he had little darting movements, like a
chipmunk’s. There was something wild about him, like the wind. Silas’s
pickle factory did seem a queer place for us to have put him.
“Look, Miss Marsh!” he says. And he was holding out his clock. “I got it
all together,” he says, “and it’ll go. And it’ll go right.”
“Did you now?” I says. And it was true. He had. It did. That little
alarm clock was ticking away like a jeweller-done job.... Yes, Silas’s
pickle factory did seem a queer place for us to have put him.
When the little lad had gone off through the dusk, with his clock under
his arm, I looked down the street after him. And I thought of this skill
of his. And then I thought of the $2.50 a week Silas was giving him for
shelling corn. And then I thought of this club that was to keep him and
the rest of ’em contented. And I begun to see, dim, just the particular
kinds of fools we was making of ourselves.
There was yet one thing more happened that wasn’t so much a window as a
door. The next night was to be the Business Men’s meeting, and just
before supper I went to pay my last visit on my list. It was out to the
County House to see the superintendent’s niece that had just resigned
from Eppleby’s store, and that they were afraid was going to Red Barns
to work.
The County House. Ain’t that a magnificent name? Don’t we love to drape
over our bones and our corpses some flying banner of a word like
sarcophagus? The County House sets on a hill. A hill is a grand place
for a County House. “Look at me,” the County House can say, “I’m what a
beneficent and merciful people can do for its unfit.” And I never go by
one that I don’t want to shout back at it: “Yes. Look at you. You’re our
biggest confession of our biggest sham. What right have we, in Nineteen
Hundred Anything, to have any unfit left?”
Right in front of the County House is a cannon. I never figured out the
fitness of having a cannon there--in fact, I never can figure out the
fitness of having a cannon anywhere. But one thing I’ve always noticed:
When public buildings and such do have cannon out in front of them,
they’re always pointing _away_ from the house. Never toward the house.
Always going to shoot somebody else. That don’t seem to me etiquette. If
we must keep cannon for ornament, aren’t we almost civilized enough to
turn ’em around?
Seems the superintendent’s niece wasn’t going to Red Barns at all--she’d
merely resigned to be married and had gone to town to buy things--a part
of being married which competes with the ceremony, neck and neck, for
importance. In the passageway, the matron called me in the office. She
was a tall, thick woman with a way of putting her hand on your back to
marshal you, as mothers do little children in getting them down an
aisle. Yes, she was a marshaling woman.
“Look here,” says the matron, proud.
They’d put a glass case up in the office and it was all hung with
work--crocheted things, knit and embroidered things, fringed things.
“Did by the inmates,” says she, proud. That word “inmates” is to the
word “people” what the word “support” is to the word “share.” It’s a
word we could spare.
I looked at the things in the case--hours and hours and hours the
fingers of the women upstairs had worked on ’em--intricate counting,
difficult stitches, pretty patterns. And each of them was marked with a
price tag. The County House inmates had got ’em hung out there in the
hope of earning a little money. One was a bed-spread--a whole crocheted
bed-spread. And one--one was a dress crocheted from collar to hem, and
hung on with all sorts of crazy crocheted ends and tassels so--I
knew--to make the job last a little longer. And when I saw that, I
grabbed the tall, thick matron by the arm and I shook her a little.
“What was we doing,” I says, “that these folks wasn’t taught to do some
kind of work so’s they could have kept out of the poor house?”
She looked at me odd and cool.
“Why,” she said, “my dear Miss Marsh, it’s being in here that gives ’em
the leisure to make the things at all!”
What was the use of talking to her? And besides being unreasonable, she
was one of them that you’re awful put to it to keep from being able not
to right down dislike. And I went along the passage thinking: “She acts
like the way things are is the way things ought to be. But it always
seems to me that the way things ought to be is the best way things could
be. For the earth ain’t so full of the fulness thereof but that we could
all do something to make it a little more so.”
And then the thing happened that opened the door to all I’d been
thinking about, and let me slip through inside.
Being I was there, I dropped in a minute to see old Grandma Stuart. She
was one of the eighty “inmates.” Up in the ward where she was sitting,
there were twenty beds. And between each two beds was a shelf and a
washbasin, and over it a hook. And old Grandma Stuart sat there by her
bed and her shelf and her hook. She was old and white, and she had fine
wrinkles, like a dead flower. She drew me down to her, with her cold
hands.
“Miss Marsh,” she said, “I got two-three things.”
“Yes,” I says, “well, that’s nice,” I says. And wondered if that was the
right thing to say to her.
“But I ain’t got any box,” she says. “They keep the things and bring ’em
to us clean every time. And I ain’t got any box.”
“That’s so, you ain’t,” says I, looking at her shelf.
“I put my things in my dress,” she says, “but they always fall out. And
I’ve got to stop to pick ’em up. And _she_ don’t like it.”
No. The matron wouldn’t like it. I knew that. She was one of them that
the thing was the thing even if it was something else.
“And so I thought,” says Grandma Stuart, “that if I had a pocket, I
could put my things in that. I thought they wouldn’t fall out if I had a
pocket. _She_ says she can’t be making pockets for every one. But I keep
thinking if I had a pocket.... It’s these things I’ve got,” she says.
She took from her dress three things: A man’s knife, a child’s ring, and
a door-key.
“It was the extry key to my house,” she said. “I--brought it along. And
I thought if I had a pocket....”
...I sat there with her till the lights come out. I promised to come
next day and bring her a little calico pocket. And then I set and let
her talk to me--about how things use’ to be. When at last the matron
come to take ’em away to be fed, I went out, and I ran down the road in
the dark. And it was one of the times when the world of life is right
close up, and you can all but touch it, and you can almost hear what it
says, and you know that it can hear you--yes, and you almost know that
it’s waiting, eager, to hear what _you_ are going to say to it. For one
force breathes through things, trying to let us know it’s there. It was
speaking to me through that wrecked home of Grandma Stuart’s--through
the man’s knife, the child’s ring, the door-key; and through the
pitiful, clever, crocheted stuff in the glass case in the County House;
and through David, and through all them that we were trying to fix up a
club for--like a pleasant plaster for something that couldn’t be touched
by the remedy.
Out there in the soft night, the world looked different. I donno if
you’ll know what I mean, but it was like the world I knew had suddenly
slipped inside another world--like a shell; and the other one was bigger
and better and cut in a pattern that we haven’t grown to--yet. In the
west a little new moon was showing inside the gold circle of the big
coming full moon. And it seemed to me as if the world that I was in must
be just the little thin promise of the world that could be--if we knew.
Sometimes we do know. Sometimes, for just a minute, we see it. That
night was a night when I know that I saw. After you see, you never
forget.
“Life is something else than what we think it is,” I says to myself as I
ran along the road in the dark. “It’s something better than we think it
is.”
As I ran, I stopped in to Mis’ Beach’s house and asked for something.
“Oh, Mis’ Beach,” I says, “Oh, David! Will you let me take something?
Will you let me borrow the clock you put together without anybody
telling you how? Just for this evening?”
They said they would and they didn’t question that, particular, either.
And I took the clock. And being David was going for the yeast, he came
out with me, and we went on together. He ran beside me, the little lad,
with his hand in mine. And as I ran, it seemed to me that I wasn’t
Calliope Marsh any more, but that I was the immemorial woman, running
with the immemorial child, toward the hope of the better thing, always
the better thing.
Past the Post-Office Hall I went, already lighted for the Business
Meeting, and on to Abigail Arnold’s Home Bakery.
Abigail was sitting, dressed and ready, with her list in her hand. But
when she saw me she burst out with some strange excitement in her face:
“Calliope!” she says. “Silas has been here. He said you hadn’t handed in
your report. I--I don’t think he expects you to go to the meeting. I
know he didn’t expect me.”
“Didn’t he now?” I says. “Very well then, he didn’t. Are you ready?”
“But, Calliope----” says she.
“Are you a business woman in this town, or are you not?” I asked her.
Abigail has had her Bakery for twenty years now, and has paid off its
mortgage that her husband bequeathed her.
“Come,” says I. And she did.
We went down the street to the Post-Office store building, all lighted
up. We went up the stairs, and slipped into some seats by the door. I
don’t think Silas, the chairman, see us come in. He can’t of, because he
failed to explode. He just kept on conducting the meeting called to
consider the future prosperity of Friendship Village and balancing on
his toes.
While they talked, I set there, looking at them. Sixty men or so they
were--the men that had made Friendship Village. Yes, such as it was,
these men had made it. It was Silas that had built up his business and
added to it, till he employed forty-two folks. Timothy Toplady had done
the same and had encouraged three-four others to come in to open up new
things for the town. It was Timothy stood back of Zittelhof when he
added furniture to his undertaking business, and that started the
agitation for the cheese factory out in the hills, and that got the
whole county excited about having good roads. And it was these men and
Eppleby Holcomb and some others that had got the new bridge and the
water works and more than these. And while I set there looking at them,
it come flooding over me the skill and the energy and the patience and
the dogged hard work that it had meant for them sixty men to get us
where we were, and from my heart I was thankful to ’em. And then I put
my mind on what they were a-saying:
“An up-to-date, hustling little town,” I kept hearing. “The newer
business methods.” “Good openings.” “Opportunities for hustlers.” “Need
of live wires.” “Encourage industry.” “Advance the town, advance the
town, advance the town.” And the thoughts that had been formed in no
account clots in my head suddenly took shape in one thought, with the
whole of day-light turned on to it.
So, as quick as the business part seemed to me to be done, I rose up and
told Silas we had our reports to make, Abigail and me, about the Evening
Club.
“Well,” says Silas, “this whole thing is being done irregular. Most
irregular. But you go on ahead, and we’ll be glad to listen if you
think you have anything to say, bearing on to--er--what we’re up to.”
And that was all right, and I took it so, because it was meant right.
I donno what there was to be afraid of. All of those men we’d known for
years. We’d worked with ’em shoulder to shoulder in church affairs. We’d
stood equal to ’em in school affairs, and often agreed with ’em. We’d
even repeatedly paid one of ’em our taxes. And yet because it was a
Business Men’s meeting, we felt kind of abashed or askant or something,
Abigail and me.
Abigail reported first, about the thirty odd she’d been to see. “But,”
she winds up, “Calliope’s got something to say that I agree to, over and
above the report. We’ve talked it over, her and me, and--” she adds with
her nice dignity, “as a Friendship Village business woman, I’m going to
leave her speak for me.”
So I said what I had to say about them I’d been to see, and what they
had said about the club. And then I come to the heart of it, and I held
up David’s little clock. I told ’em about it, and about him. I suppose
everybody else has stories to tell like David’s, about the folks, young
or old, that is living graves, little or big, of the kind of skill and
energy and patience that they’ve never had the chance or the courage or
the little will-power inside ’em--to develop. And there it stays in ’em,
undeveloped, till they die. I believe it’s truer of all of us--of you
and me--than we’ve any idea of. And this is what I tried to say to ’em
that night, when I showed ’em David’s little clock. I didn’t say
anything about the girls to Mis’ Cripps’s boarding house--I kept them,
and the rest of ’em, in my heart, along with that crocheted dress up to
the County House, and Grandma Stuart’s wreck of a home--the man’s knife,
the child’s ring, the door-key. And I says:
“Now, we’ve visited all these folks that the Evening Club was thought of
for. And we’ve found most of ’em in favor of having the club. I’m free
to confess that I hoped some of ’em wouldn’t be. I hoped some of ’em
would say they’d rather be paid better wages than to be give a club. But
perhaps it’s all right. Mebbe the club is one step more we’ve got to
take before we can get down to the big thing underneath it all. But it
ain’t the last step--and I’d almost rather not bother with it--I’d
almost rather get on to the big thing right away.”
“May I ask,” snaps out Silas, clean forgetting his chairmanshipping and
acting like he was talking to me in the Post-Office store beside the
cheese, “may I ask what you mean by the ‘big thing’?”
“Oh,” I says, “that’s what I’ve been thinking about while I set here.
Oh,” I says, “you men--you’ve made the town. You’ve done everything
once. Do it again--now when the next thing is here to do. You’ve done
your best with your own property and your own homes. Now do your best
with folks!”
“Ain’t that the purpose of this here club we’re a-talking about?” says
Silas. “Ain’t that what I been a-saying? What do you mean--folks?” Silas
winds up, irritable. Silas knows customers, agents, correspondents,
partners, clients, colleagues, opponents, plaintiffs, defendants _and_
competitors. But he don’t know _folks_.
“Folks,” I says. “Why, folks, Silas. Why, here in this room with you
that we say have made Friendship Village, are setting them sixty-one
employees of yours that have helped make it too. And all the tens that
will come afterward, and that have come before to help to make the
village by the work of their hands. They belong--they’re the village.
They’re us. Oh, let’s not do things _for_ them--let’s do things _with_
them. Let’s meet all together, employers and employees, men and women,
and let’s take up together the job of being a town. Let’s not any of us
have more than our share, and then deal out little clubs, and old
furniture, and magazines, and games to the rest of us. You men are
finding out that all your old catch words about advancing the town and
making business opportunities, have got something lacking in them, after
all. And us women are beginning to see that twenty houses to a block,
each keeping clean and orderly and planted on its own hook, each handing
out old clothes and toys down to the Flats, each living its own life of
cleanliness and home and victual-giving-at-Christmas, that that ain’t
being a town after all. It isn’t enough. Oh, deep inside us all ain’t
there something that says, I ain’t you, nor you, nor you, nor five
thousand of you. I’m all of you. I’m one. ‘When,’ it says, ‘are you
going to understand, that not till I can act like one, one united one,
can I give any glimpse whatever of what people might be?’ Don’t let’s us
go on advancing business and multiplying our little clubs and
philanthropies. Instead, let’s get together--in the kind of meetings
they use’ to have in the old first days in America--and let’s just talk
over the next step in what’s to become of us. Let’s dream--real far.
Let’s dream farther than gift-giving--and on up to wages--and mebbe a
good deal farther than that. Let’s dream the farthest that folks could
go....”
I didn’t know but they’d think I was crazy. But I’d be glad to be that
kind of crazy. And the glory is that more folks and more folks are
getting crazy the same way.
But they didn’t think so--I know they didn’t. Because when I got
through, they clapped their hands, hard and hearty--all but Silas, that
don’t think a chairman had ought to show any pleased emotion. And times
now when I’m lonesome, I like to remember the rest of the talk, and it
warms my heart to remember it, and I like to think about it.
For we give up having the club. Nobody said much of anything more about
it, after we got Silas silenced. And this was the notice we put the next
night in the Friendship _Evening Daily_. Nobody knows better than I the
long road that there is to travel before we can really do what we
dreamed out a little bit about. Nobody better than I knows how slow it
is going to be. But I tell you, it is going to be. And the notice we put
in the paper was the first little step we took. And I believe that
notice holds the heart of to-day.
It said:
“Will all them that’s interested in seeing Friendship Village made
as much a town as it could be, for all of us and for the children
of all of us, meet together in Post-Office Hall to-morrow night, at
7 o’clock, to talk over if we’re doing it as good as we could.”
For there was business. And then there was big business. But the biggest
business is taking employers and employees, and all men and women--yes,
and inmates too--and turning them into folks.
THE PRODIGAL GUEST
Aunt Ellis wrote to me:
“DEAR CALLIOPE: Now come and pay me the visit. You’ve never been here
since the time I had sciatica and was cross. Come now, and I’ll try to
hold my temper and my tongue.”
I wrote back to her:
“I’ll come. I was saving up to buy a new cook-stove next fall, but I’ll
bring my cook-stove and come in time for the parade. I did want to see
that.”
She answered:
“Mercy, Calliope, I might have known it! You always did love a circus in
the village, and these women are certainly making a circus parade of
themselves. However, we’ll even drive down to see them do it, if you’ll
really come. Now you know how much I want you.”
“I might have known,” I said to myself, “that Aunt Ellis would be like
that. The poor thing has had such an easy time that she can’t help it.
She thinks what’s been, is.”
She wrote me that she was coming in from the country an hour after my
train got there, but that the automobile would be there for me. And I
wrote her that I would come down the platform with my umbrella up, so’s
her man would know me; and so I done, and he picked me out real ready.
When we got to her big house, that somehow looked so used to being a big
house, there was a little boy sitting on the bottom step, half asleep,
with a big box.
“What’s the matter, lamb?” I says.
“Beg pad’, ma’am, he’s likely waitin’ to beg,” says the chauf---- that
word. “I’d go right by if I was you.”
But the little fellow’d woke up and looked up.
“I can’t find the place,” he says, and stuck out his big box. The man
looked at the label. “They ain’t no such number in this street,” says
he. “It’s a mistake.”
The little fellow kind of begun to cry, and the wind was blowing up real
bitter. I made out that him and his family made toys for the uptown
shops, and somebody in our neighborhood had ordered some direct, and he
was afraid to go home without the money. I didn’t have any money to give
him, but I says to the chauf----
“Ask him where he lives, will you? And see if we’d have time to take him
home before Mis’ Winthrop’s train gets in.”
The chauf---- done it, some like a prime minister, and he says, cold, he
thought we’d have time, and I put the baby in the car. He was a real
sweet little fellow, about seven. He told me his part in making the
toys, and his mother’s, and his two little sisters’, and I give him the
rest o’ my lunch, and he knew how to laugh when he got the chance, and
we had a real happy time of it. And we come to his home.
Never, not if I live till after my dying day, will I forget the looks of
that back upstairs place he called home, nor the smell of it--the smell
of it. The waxy woman that was his mother, in a red waist, and with a
big weight of hair, had forgot how to look surprised--that struck me as
so awful--she’d forgot how to look surprised, just the same as a grand
lady that’s learned not to; and there was the stumpy man that grunted
for short instead of bothering with words; and the two little girls that
might of been anybody’s--if they’d been clean--one of ’em with regular
portrait hair. I stayed a minute, and give ’em the cost of about one
griddle of my cook-stove, and then I went to the station to meet Aunt
Ellis. And I poured it all out to her, as soon as she’d give me her
cheek to kiss.
“So you haven’t had any tea!” she said, getting in the automobile. “I’m
sorry you’ve been so annoyed the first thing.”
“Annoyed!” I says over. “Annoyed! Well, yes,” I says, “poor people is
real annoying. I wonder we have ’em.”
I was dying to ask her about the parade, but I didn’t like to; till
after we’d had dinner in front of snow and silver and sparkles and so
on, and had gone in her parlor-with-another-name, and set down in the
midst of flowers and shades and lace, and rugs the color of different
kinds of preserves, and wood-work like the skin of a cooked prune. Then
I says:
“You know I’m just dying to hear about the parade.”
She lifted her hand and shut her eyes, brief.
“Calliope,” she says, “I don’t know what has come over women. They seem
to want to attract attention to themselves. They seem to want to be
conspicuous and talked about. They seem to want----”
“They want lots o’ things,” says I, dry, “but it ain’t any of them, Aunt
Ellis. What time does the parade start?”
“You’re bound to see it?” she says. “When I think of my dear Miss
Markham--they used to say her school taught not manners, but
manner--and what she would say to the womanhood of to-day.... We’ll
drive down if you say so, Calliope--but I don’t know whether I can bear
it long.”
“Manner,” I says over. “Manner. That’s just what we’re trying to learn
now, manner of being alive. We haven’t known very much about that, it
seems.”
I kept thinking that over next day when we were drawn up beside the curb
in the car, waiting for them to come. “We’re trying to learn manner at
last--the manner of being alive.” There were lots of other cars, with
women so pretty you felt like crying up into the sky to ask there if we
knew for sure what all that perfection was for, or if there was
something else to it we didn’t know--yet. And thousands of women on
foot, and thousands of women in windows.... I looked at them and
wondered if they thought we were, and life was, as decent as we and it
could be, and, if not, how they were preparing to help change it. I
thought of the rest that were up town in colored nests, and them that
were down town in factories, and them that were to home in the villages,
and them that were out all along the miles and miles to the other ocean,
just the same way. And here was going to come this little line of women
walking along the street, a little line of women that thought they see
new life for us all, and see it more abundant.
“Manner,” I says, “we’re just beginning to learn manner.”
Then, way down the avenue, they began to come. By ones and by fours and
by eights, with colors and with music and with that that was greater
than all of them--the tramp and tramp of feet; feet that weren’t dancing
to balls, nor racking up and down in shops buying pretty things to make
’em power, nor just paddling around a kitchen the same as mine had
always done--but feet that were marching, in a big, peaceful army,
towards the place where the big, new tasks of to-morrow are going to be,
that won’t interfere with the best tasks of yesterday no more than the
earth’s orbit interferes with its whirling round and round.