CHAPTER LXXVII.

The Travellers Return Home.

Mr. Palliser did not remain long in Baden after the payment of

Burgo's bill. Perhaps I shall not throw any undeserved discredit

on his courage if I say that he was afraid to do so. What would he

have said,--what would he have been able to say, if that young man

had come to him demanding an explanation? So he hurried away to

Strasbourg the same day, much to his wife's satisfaction.

The journey home from thence was not marked by any incidents.

Gradually Mr. Palliser became a little more lenient to his wife and

slightly less oppressive in his caution. If he still inquired about

the springs of the carriages, he did so in silence, and he ceased to

enjoin the necessity of a day's rest after each day's journey. By

the time that they reached Dover he had become so used to his wife's

condition that he made but little fluttering as she walked out of

the boat by that narrow gangway which is so contrived as to make an

arrival there a serious inconvenience to a lady, and a nuisance even

to a man. He was somewhat staggered when a big man, in the middle

of the night, insisted on opening the little basket which his wife

carried, and was uncomfortable when obliged to stop her on the plank

while he gave up the tickets which he thought had been already

surrendered; but he was becoming used to his position, and bore

himself like a man.

During their journey home Mr. Palliser had by no means kept his seat

opposite to Lady Glencora with constancy. He had soon found that it

was easier to talk to Mr. Grey than to his wife, and, consequently,

the two ladies had been much together, as had also the two gentlemen.

What the ladies discussed may be imagined. One was about to become

a wife and the other a mother, and that was to be their fate after

each had made up her mind that no such lot was to be hers. It may,

however, be presumed that for every one word that Alice spoke Lady

Glencora spoke ten. The two men, throughout these days of close

intimacy, were intent upon politics. Mr. Palliser, who may be regarded

as the fox who had lost his tail,--the tail being, in this instance,

the comfort of domestic privacy,--was eager in recommending his new

friend to cut off his tail also. "Your argument would be very well,"

said he, "if men were to be contented to live for themselves only."

"Your argument would be very well," said the other, "if it were used

to a man who felt that he could do good to others by going into

public life. But it is wholly inefficacious if it recommends public

life simply or chiefly because a man may gratify his own ambition by

public services."

"Of course there is personal gratification, and of course there is

good done," said Mr. Palliser.

"Is,--or should be," said Mr. Grey.

"Exactly; and the two things must go together. The chief

gratification comes from the feeling that you are of use."

"But if you feel that you would not be of use?"

We need not follow the argument any further. We all know its nature,

and what between two such men would be said on both sides. We all

know that neither of them would put the matter altogether in a true

light. Men never can do so in words, let the light within themselves

be ever so clear. I do not think that any man yet ever had such a

gift of words as to make them a perfect exponent of all the wisdom

within him. But the effect was partly that which the weaker man of

the two desired,--the weaker in the gifts of nature, though art

had in some respects made him stronger. Mr. Grey was shaken in his

quiescent philosophy, and startled Alice,--startled her as much as he

delighted her,--by a word or two he said as he walked with her in the

courts of the Louvre. "It's all hollow here," he said, speaking of

French politics.

"Very hollow," said Alice, who had no love for the French mode of

carrying on public affairs.

"Of all modes of governing this seems to me to be the surest of

coming to a downfall. Men are told that they are wise enough to talk,

but not wise enough to have any power of action. It is as though men

were cautioned that they were walking through gunpowder, and that

no fire could be allowed them, but were at the same time enjoined

to carry lucifer matches in their pockets. I don't believe in the

gunpowder, and I think there should be fire, and plenty of it; but if

I didn't want the fire I wouldn't have the matches."

"It's so odd to hear you talk politics," said Alice, laughing.

After this he dropped the subject for a while, as though he were

ashamed of it, but in a very few minutes he returned to it manfully.

"Mr. Palliser wants me to go into Parliament." Upon hearing this Alice

said nothing. She was afraid to speak. After all that had passed she

felt that it would not become her to show much outward joy on hearing

such a proposition, so spoken by him, and yet she could say nothing

without some sign of exultation in her voice. So she walked on

without speaking, and was conscious that her fingers trembled on his

arm. "What do you say about it?" he asked.

"What do I say? Oh, John, what right can I have to say anything?"

"No one else can have so much right,--putting aside of course myself,

who must be responsible for my own actions. He asked me whether I

could afford it, and he seems to think that a smaller income suffices

for such work now than it did a few years since. I believe that I

could afford it, if I could get a seat that was not very expensive at

the first outset. He could help me there."

"On that point, of course, I can have no opinion."

"No; not on that point. I believe we may take that for granted.

Living in London for four or five months in the year might be

managed. But as to the mode of life!"

Then Alice was unable to hold her tongue longer, and spoke out her

thoughts with more vehemence than discretion. No doubt he combated

them with some amount of opposition. He seldom allowed out-spoken

enthusiasm to pass by him without some amount of hostility. But he

was not so perverse as to be driven from his new views by the fact

that Alice approved them, and she, as she drew near home, was able

to think that the only flaw in his character was in process of being

cured.

When they reached London they all separated. It was Mr. Palliser's

purpose to take his wife down to Matching with as little delay as

possible. London was at this time nearly empty, and all the doings

of the season were over. It was now the first week of August, and

as Parliament had not been sitting for nearly two months, the town

looked as it usually looks in September. Lady Glencora was to stay

but one day in Park Lane, and it had been understood between her and

Alice that they were not to see each other.

"How odd it is parting in this way, when people have been together so

long," said Lady Glencora. "It always seems as though there had been

a separate little life of its own which was now to be brought to a

close. I suppose, Mr. Grey, you and I, when we next meet, will be far

too distant to fight with each other."

"I hope that may never be the case," said Mr. Grey.

"I suppose nothing would prevent his fighting; would it Alice? But,

remember, there must be no fighting when we do meet next, and that

must be in September."

"With all my heart," said Mr. Grey. But Alice said nothing.

Then Mr. Palliser made his little speech. "Alice," he said, as he gave

his hand to Miss Vavasor, "give my compliments to your father, and

tell him that I shall take the liberty of asking him to come down to

Matching for the early shooting in September, and that I shall expect

him to bring you with him. You may tell him also that he will have

to stay to see you off, but that he will not be allowed to take you

away." Lady Glencora thought that this was very pretty as coming from

her husband, and so she told him on their way home.

Alice insisted on going to Queen Anne Street in a cab by herself.

Mr. Palliser had offered a carriage, and Mr. Grey, of course, offered

himself as a protector; but she would have neither the one nor the

other. If he had gone with her he might by chance have met her

father, and she was most anxious that she should not be encumbered

by her lover's presence when she first received her father's

congratulations. They had slept at Dover, and had come up by a

mid-day train. When she reached Queen Anne Street, the house was

desolate, and she might therefore have allowed Mr. Grey to attend her.

But she found a letter waiting for her which made her for the moment

forget both him and her father. Lady Macleod, at Cheltenham, was very

ill, and wished to see her niece, as she said, before she died. "I

have got your letter," said the kind old woman, "and am now quite

happy. It only wanted that to reconcile me to my departure. I thought

through it all that my girl would be happy at last. Will she forgive

me if I say that I have forgiven her?" The letter then went on to beg

Alice to come to Cheltenham at once. "It is not that I am dying now,"

said Lady Macleod, "though you will find me much altered and keeping

my bed. But the doctor says he fears the first cold weather. I know

what that means, my dear; and if I don't see you now, before your

marriage, I shall never see you again. Pray get married as soon as

you can. I want to know that you are Mrs. Grey before I go. If I were

to hear that it was postponed because of my illness, I think it would

kill me at once."

There was another letter for her from Kate, full, of course, of

congratulations, and promising to be at the wedding; "that is," said

Kate, "unless it takes place at the house of some one of your very

grand friends;" and telling her that aunt Greenow was to be married

in a fortnight;--telling her of this, and begging her to attend that

wedding. "You should stand by your family," said Kate. "And only

think what my condition will be if I have no one here to support me.

Do come. Journeys are nothing nowadays. Don't you know I would go

seven times the distance for you? Mr. Cheesacre and Captain Bellfield

are friends after all, and Mr. Cheesacre is to be best man. Is it

not beautiful? As for poor me, I'm told I haven't a chance left of

becoming mistress of Oileymead and all its wealth."

Alice began to think that her hands were almost too full. If

she herself were to be married in September, even by the end of

September, her hands were very full indeed. Yet she did not know how

to refuse any of the requests made to her. As to Lady Macleod, her

visit to her was a duty which must of course be performed at once.

She would stay but one day in London, and then go down to Cheltenham.

Having resolved upon this she at once wrote to her aunt to that

effect. As to that other affair down in Westmoreland, she sighed

as she thought of it, but she feared that she must go there also.

Kate had suffered too much on her behalf to allow of her feeling

indifferent to such a request.

Then her father came in. "I didn't in the least know when you might

arrive," said he, beginning with an apology for his absence. "How

could I, my dear?" Alice scorned to remind him that she herself had

named the precise hour of the train by which they had arrived. "It's

all right, papa," said she. "I was very glad to have an hour to write

a letter or two. Poor Lady Macleod is very ill. I must go to her the

day after to-morrow."

"Dear, dear, dear! I had heard that she was poorly. She is very old,

you know. So, Alice, you've made it all square with Mr. Grey at last?"

"Yes, papa;--if you call that square."

"Well; I do call it square. It has all come round to the proper

thing."

"I hope he thinks so."

"What do you think yourself, my dear?"

"I've no doubt it's the proper thing for me, papa."

"Of course not; of course not; and I can tell you this, Alice, he is

a man in a thousand. You've heard about the money?"

"What money, papa?"

"The money that George had." As the reader is aware, Alice had heard

nothing special about this money. She only knew, or supposed she

knew, that she had given three thousand pounds to her cousin. But now

her father explained to her the whole transaction. "We couldn't have

realized your money for months, perhaps," said he; "but Grey knew

that some men must have rope enough before they can hang themselves."

Alice was unable to say anything on this subject to her father, but

to herself she did declare that not in that way or with that hope

had John Grey produced his money. "He must be paid, papa," she said.

"Paid!" he answered; "he can pay himself now. It may make some

difference in the settlements, perhaps, but he and the lawyers may

arrange that. I shan't think of interfering with such a man as Grey.

If you could only know, my dear, what I've suffered!" Alice in a

penitential tone expressed her sorrow, and then he too assured her

that he had forgiven her. "Bless you, my child!" he said, "and make

you happy, and good, and--and--and very comfortable." After that he

went back to his club.

Alice made her journey down to Cheltenham without any adventure, and

was received by Lady Macleod with open arms. "Dearest Alice, it is so

good of you." "Good!" said Alice, "would I not have gone a thousand

miles to you?"

Lady Macleod was very eager to know all about the coming marriage.

"I can tell you now, my dear, though I couldn't do it before, that

I knew he'd persist for ever. He told me so himself in confidence."

"He has persisted, aunt; that is certain."

"And I hope you'll reward him. A beautiful woman without discretion

is like a pearl in a swine's snout; but a good wife is a crown of

glory to her husband. Remember that, my dear, and choose your part

for his sake."

"I won't be that unfortunate pearl, if I can help it, aunt."

"We can all help it, if we set about it in the right way. And Alice,

you must be careful to find out all his likes and his dislikes. Dear

me! I remember how hard I found it, but then I don't think I was so

clever as you are."

"Sometimes I think nobody has ever been so stupid as I have."

"Not stupid, my dear; if I must say the word, it is self-willed. But,

dear, all that is forgiven now. Is it not?"

"There is a forgiveness which it is rather hard to get," said Alice.

There was something said then as to the necessity of looking for

pardon beyond this world, which I need not here repeat. To all her

old friend's little sermons Alice was infinitely more attentive than

had been her wont, so that Lady Macleod was comforted and took heart

of grace, and at last brought forth from under her pillow a letter

from the Countess of Midlothian, which she had received a day or

two since, and which bore upon Alice's case. "I was not quite sure

whether I'd show it you," said Lady Macleod, "because you wouldn't

answer her when she wrote to you. But when I'm gone, as I shall be

soon, she will be the nearest relative you have on your mother's

side, and from her great position, you know, Alice--" But here Alice

became impatient for the letter. Her aunt handed it to her, and she

read as follows:--

Castle Reekie, July, 186--.

DEAR LADY MACLEOD,--

I am sorry to hear of the symptoms you speak about. I

strongly advise you to depend chiefly on beef-tea. They

should be very careful to send it up quite free from

grease, and it should not be too strong of the meat. There

should be no vegetables in it. Not soup, you know, but

beef-tea. If any thing acts upon your strength, that will.

I need not tell one who has lived as you have done where

to look for that other strength which alone can support

you at such a time as this. I would go to you if I thought

that my presence would be any comfort to you, but I know

how sensitive you are, and the shock might be too much for

you.

If you see Alice Vavasor on her return to England, as you

probably will, pray tell her from me that I give her my

warmest congratulations, and that I am heartily glad that

matters are arranged. I think she treated my attempts to

heal the wound in a manner that they did not deserve; but

all that shall be forgiven, as shall also her original bad

behaviour to poor Mr. Grey.

Alice was becoming weary of so much forgiveness, and told herself,

as she was reading the letter, that that of Lady Midlothian was at

any rate unnecessary. "I trust that we may yet meet and be friends,"

continued Lady Midlothian. "I am extremely gratified at finding that

she has been thought so much of by Mr. Palliser. I'm told that Mr.

Palliser and Mr. Grey have become great friends, and if this is so,

Alice must be happy to feel that she has had it in her power to

confer so great a benefit on her future husband as he will receive

from this introduction." "I ain't a bit happy, and I have conferred

no benefit on Mr. Grey," exclaimed Alice, who was unable to repress

the anger occasioned by the last paragraph.

"But it is a great benefit, my dear."

"Mr. Palliser has every bit as much cause to be gratified for that as

Mr. Grey, and perhaps more."

Poor Lady Macleod could not argue the matter in her present state.

She merely sighed, and moved her shrivelled old hand up and down upon

the counterpane. Alice finished the letter without further remarks.

It merely went on to say how happy the writer would be to know

something of her cousin as Mrs. Grey, as also to know something of Mr.

Grey, and then gave a general invitation to both Mr. and Mrs. Grey,

asking them to come to Castle Reekie whenever they might be able. The

Marchioness, with whom Lady Midlothian was staying, had expressly

desired her to give this message. Alice, however, could not but

observe that Lady Midlothian's invitation applied only to another

person's house.

"I'm sure she means well," said Alice.

"Indeed she does," said Lady Macleod, "and then you know you'll

probably have children; and think what a thing it will be for them to

know the Midlothian family. You shouldn't rob them of their natural

advantages."

Alice remained a week with her aunt, and went from thence direct to

Westmoreland. Some order as to bridal preparations we must presume

she gave on that single day which she passed in London. Much

advice she had received on this head from Lady Glencora, and no

inconsiderable amount of assistance was to be rendered to her at

Matching during the fortnight she would remain there before her

marriage. Something also, let us hope, she might do at Cheltenham.

Something no doubt she did do. Something also might probably be

achieved among the wilds in Westmoreland, but that something would

necessarily be of a nature not requiring fashionable tradespeople.

While at Cheltenham, she determined that she would not again return

to London before her marriage. This resolve was caused by a very

urgent letter from Mr. Grey, and by another, almost equally urgent,

from Lady Glencora. If the marriage did not take place in September

she would not be present at it. The gods of the world,--of Lady

Glencora's world,--had met together and come to a great decision.

Lady Glencora was to be removed in October to Gatherum Castle, and

remain there till the following spring, so that the heir might,

in truth, be born in the purple. "It is such a bore," said Lady

Glencora, "and I know it will be a girl. But the Duke isn't to be

there, except for the Christmas week." An invitation for the ceremony

at Matching had been sent from Mr. Palliser to Mr. Vavasor, and another

from Lady Glencora to Kate, "whom I long to know," said her ladyship,

"and with whom I should like to pick a crow, if I dared, as I'm sure

she did all the mischief."

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