The church-bells rang out next morning through a crisp and frosty air.
A dazzling glare of reflected sunshine lay on the dry snow, but it
gave no suggestion of warmth. The people who passed on their way to
Thanksgiving services walked hurriedly, and looked as if their minds
were concentrated on the hope that the sexton had lighted the fire in
the church furnace the previous day. The milkman who stopped his sleigh
just beyond the house of the Law-tons had to beat off a great rim of
chalk-white ice with the dipper before he could open his can.
The younger members of the Lawton family were not dependent upon
external evidences, however, for their knowledge that it was bitterly
cold. It was nearly noon when they began to gather in the kitchen, and
cluster about the decrepit old cooking-stove where burned the only fire
in the house. A shivering and unkempt group they made, in the bright
daylight, holding their red hands over the cracked stove-lids, and
snarling sulkily at the weather and one another when they spoke at all.
Jessica had slept badly, and, rising early and dressing in self-defence
against the cold, had found her father in the act of lighting the
kitchen fire. An original impulse prompted her to kiss him when she
bade him good-morning; and Ben, rising awkwardly from where he had been
kneeling in front of the grate, looked both surprised and shamefacedly
gratified. It seemed ages since one of his daughters had kissed him
before.
“It’s a regular stinger of a morning, ain’t it?” he said, blowing his
fingers. “The boards in the sidewalk jest riz up and went off under my
feet like pistols last night, when I was coming home.” He added with an
accent of uneasiness: “Suppose you didn’t hear me come in?”
He seemed pleased when she shook her head, and his face visibly
lightened. He winked at her mysteriously, and going over to a recess in
the wall, back of the woodbox, dragged out a lank and dishevelled turkey
of a dingy gray color, not at all resembling the fowls that had been
presented to him the previous day.
“Trouble with me was,” he said, reflectively, “I shot four turkeys. If
I hadn’t been a bang-up shot, and had only killed one, why, I’d been
all right. But no, I couldn’t help hitting ’em, and so I got four. Of
course, I hadn’t any use for so many: so I got to raffling ’em off,
and that’s where my darned luck come in.” He held the bird up, and
turned it slowly around, regarding it with an amused chuckle. “You know
this cuss ain’t one of them I shot, at all. You see, I got to raffling,
and one time I stood to win nine turkeys and a lamp and a jag of
firewood. But then the thing kind o’ turned, and went agin me, and darn
me if I didn’t come out of the little end of the horn, with nothing but
this here. Sh-h!--M’rye’s coming. Don’t say nothing to her. I told her I
earnt it carrying in some coal.”
Mrs. Lawton entered the room as her husband was putting back the
turkey. She offered no remarks beyond a scant “mornin’!” to Jessica, and
directed a scowl toward Lawton, before which he promptly disappeared.
She replied curtly in the negative when Jessica asked if there was
anything she could do; but the novelty of the offer seemed to slowly
impress her mind, for after a time she began to talk of her own accord.
Ben had come home drunk the night before, she said; there wasn’t
anything new in that, but it was decidedly new for him to bring
something to eat with him. He said he’d been carrying in coal, which was
her reason for believing he had been really shaving shingles or breaking
up old barrels. He couldn’t tell the truth if he tried--it wasn’t in
him not to lie. The worst of his getting drunk was he was so pesky
good-natured the next day. Her father used always to have a headache
under similar conditions, and make things peculiarly interesting for
everybody round about, from her mother at the helm of the boat to the
nigger-boy and the mule on the tow-path ahead. That was the way all
other men behaved, too: that is, all who were good for anything. But
Ben, he just grinned and did more chores than usual, and hung around
generally, as if everybody was bound to like him because he had made a
fool of himself.
This monologue of information and philosophy was not delivered
consecutively, but came in disjointed and irrelevant instalments, spread
over a considerable space of time. There was nothing in it all which
suggested a reply, and Jessica did not even take the trouble to
listen very attentively. Her own thoughts were a more than sufficient
occupation.
The failure of the experiment upon which she had ventured was looming
in unpleasant bulk before her. Every glance about her, every word which
fell upon her ears, furnished an added reason why she was not going to
be able to live on the lines she had laid out. Viewed even as a visit,
the experience was hateful. Contemplated as a career, it was simply
impossible. Rather than bear it, she would go back to Tecumseh or New
York; and rather than do this, she would kill herself.
Too depressed to control her thoughts, much less to bend them definitely
upon consideration of some possible middle course between suicide and
existence in this house, Jessica sat silent at the back of the stove,
and suffered. Her evening here with her sisters seemed to blend in
retrospect with the sleepless night into one long, confused, intolerable
nightmare. They had scarcely spoken to her, and she had not known what
to say to them. For some reason they had chosen to stay indoors after
supper--although this was plainly not their habit--and under Samantha’s
lead had entered into a clumsy conspiracy to make her unhappy by
meaning looks, and causeless giggles, and more or less ingenious remarks
directed at her, but to one another. Lucinda had indeed seemed to shrink
from full communion with this cabal, but she had shown no overt act of
friendship, and the three younger girls had been openly hostile. Even
after she had taken refuge in her cold room, at an abnormally early
hour, her sense of their enmity and her isolation had been kept
painfully acute by their loud talk in the hall, and in the chamber
adjoining hers. Oh, no!--she was not even going to try to live with
them, she said resolutely and with set teeth to herself.
They straggled into the kitchen now, and Lucinda was the only one of
them who said “good-morning” to her. Jessica answered her greeting
almost with effusion, but she would have had her tongue torn out rather
than allow it to utter a solitary first word to the others. They stood
about the stove for a time, and then sat down to the bare kitchen table
upon which the maternal slattern had spread a kind of breakfast. Jessica
took her place silently, and managed to eat a little of the bread,
dipped in pork fat. The coffee, a strange, greasy, light-brown fluid
without milk, she could not bring herself to touch. There was no butter.
After this odious meal was over Samantha brought down a cheap novel, and
ensconced herself at the side of the stove, with her feet on a stick of
wood in the oven. The twins, after some protest, entered lazily upon
the task of plucking the turkey. Lucinda drew a chair to the window, and
began some repairs on her bonnet. For sheer want of other employment,
Jessica stood by the window for a time, looking down upon this crude
millinery. Then she diffidently asked to be allowed to suggest some
changes, and Lucinda yielded the chair to her; and her deft fingers
speedily wrought such a transformation in the work that the owner made
an exclamation of delight. At this the twins left their turkey to come
over and look, and even Samantha at last quitted the stove and sauntered
to the window with an exaggerated show of indifference. She looked on
for a moment, and then returned with a supercilious sniff, which scared
the twins also away. When the hat was finished, and Lucinda had tried it
on with obvious satisfaction, Jessica asked her to go for a little walk,
and the two went out together.
There was a certain physical relief in escaping from the close and
evil-smelling kitchen into the keen, clear cold, but of mental comfort
there was little. The sister had nothing beyond a few commonplaces to
offer in the way of conversation, and Jessica was in no mood to create
small-talk. She walked vigorously forward as far as the sidewalks were
shovelled, indifferent to direction and to surroundings, and intent only
upon the angry and distracting thoughts which tore one another in her
mind. It was not until the drifts forced them to turn that she spoke.
“I always dread to get downright mad: it makes me sick,” she exclaimed,
in defiant explanation to the dull Lucinda, who did not seem to have
enjoyed her walk.
“If I was you, I wouldn’t mind ’em,” said the sister.
“You just keep a stiff upper lip and tend to your own knitting, and
they’ll be coming around in no time to get you to fix their bonnets for
’em. I bet you Samanthy’ll have her brown plush hat to pieces, and be
bringing it to you before Sunday.”
“She’ll have to bring it to me somewhere else, then. To-day’s my last
day in _that_ house, and don’t you forget it!”
Jessica spoke with such vehemence that Lucinda could only stare at her
in surprise, and the town girl went excitedly on: “When I saw father
yesterday, I was almost glad I’d come back; and you--well, you’ve been
decent to me, too. But the rest--ah-h!--I’ve been swearing in my mind
every second since they came into the kitchen this morning. I was all
for tears yesterday. I started out crying at the dépôt, and I cried
the best part of last night; but I’ve got all through. Do you mind? I’m
through! If there’s got to be any more weeping, they’re the ones that’ll
do it!”
She ground her teeth together as she spoke, as if to prevent a further
outpouring of angry words. All at once she stopped, on some sudden
impulse, and looked her half-sister in the face. It was a long, intent
scrutiny, under which Lucinda flushed and fidgeted, but its result was
to soften Jessica’s mood. She resumed the walk again, but with a less
energetic step, and the hard, wrathful lines in her face had begun to
melt.
“Probably there will be no need for any one else to weep,” she said,
ashamed of her recent outburst. “God knows, _I_ oughtn’t to want to make
anybody unhappy!” Then after a moment’s silence she asked: “Do you work
anywhere?”
“I’ve got a job at the Scotch-cap factory as long as it’s running.”
“How much can you earn there?”
“Three dollars a week is what I’m getting, but they’re liable to shut
down any time now.”
Jessica pondered upon this information for a little. Then she put
another question, with increased interest. “And do you like it at home,
with the rest of them, there?”
“Like it? Yes, about as much as a cat likes hot soap. It’s worse now a
hundred times than it was when you lit out. If there was any place to go
to, I’d be off like a shot.”
“Well, then, here’s what I wanted to ask you. When I leave it, what’s
the matter with your coming with me? I mean it. And I’ll look after
you.” The girl’s revolt against her new and odious environment had
insensibly carried her back into the free phraseology of her former
life. As this was equally familiar to Lucinda’s factory-attuned ear, it
could not have been the slang expression at which she halted. But she
did stop, and in turn looked sharply into Jessica’s face. Her own cheeks,
red with exposure to the biting air, flushed to a deeper tint. “You
better ask Samantha, if that’s your game,” she said. “She’s more in your
line. I ain’t on that lay myself.”
Before Jessica had fairly comprehended the purport of this remark,
her sister had started briskly off by herself. The town girl stood
bewildered for a moment, with a little inarticulate moan of pained
astonishment trembling on her lips. Then she turned and ran after
Lucinda.
“Wait a minute!” she panted out as she overtook her. “You didn’t
understand me. I wouldn’t for a million dollars have you think _that_ of
me. Please wait, and let me tell you what I really meant. You’ll break
my heart if you don’t!”
Thus adjured, Lucinda stopped, and consented to fall in with the other’s
slower step. She let it be seen plainly enough that she was a hostile
auditor, but still she listened. As Jessica, with a readier tongue than
she had found in Reuben Tracy’s presence the day before, outlined her
plan, the factory-girl heard her, first with incredulity, then with
inter-est, and soon with enthusiasm.
“Go with you? You just bet I will!” was the form of her adhesion to the
plan, when it had been presented to her.
The two young women extended their walk by tacit consent far beyond the
original intention, and it was past the hour set for the dinner when
they at last reluctantly entered the inhospitable-looking domicile. Its
shabby aspect and the meanness of its poverty-stricken belongings had
never seemed so apparent before to either of them, as they drew near to
it, but it was even less inviting within.
They were warned that it would be so by their father, whom they
encountered just outside the kitchen door, chopping up an old plank for
firewood. Ben had put on a glaringly white paper collar, to mark his
sense of the importance of the festival, and the effect seemed to
heighten the gloom on his countenance.
“There’s the old Harry to pay in there,” he said, nodding his head
toward the door. “Melissa’s come in from the farm to spend the day,
because she heard you was here, Jess, and somehow she got the idee you’d
bring a lot of dresses and fixings, and she wanted her share, and got
mad because there wasn’t any; and Samantha she pitched into her about
coming to eat up our dinner, and M’rye she took Melissa’s part, and so I
kind o’ sashayed out. They don’t need this wood any more’n a frog needs
a tail, but I’m going to whack ’er all up.”
The Thanksgiving dinner which shortly ensued had a solitary merit: it
did not last very long. But hurried as it was, Jessica did not sit
it out. The three sisters with whom she was not friendly had been
quarrelling, it seemed, with Melissa, the heavy-browed and surly girl
who worked out at the Fair-child farm, but all four combined in an
instant against the new-comers. Lucinda had never shone in repartee,
and, though she did not shrink from bearing a part in the conflict to
which she suddenly found herself a party, what she was able to say
only made matters worse. As for Jessica, she bit her lips in fierce
restraint, and for a long time said nothing at all. Melissa had formally
shaken hands with her, and had not spoken a word.
When the thin turkey was put upon the table, and Mrs. Lawton had with
some difficulty mangled it into eight approximately equal portions, a
period of silence fell on the party--silence broken only by sounds of
the carnivora which are not expected at the banquets of the polite.
Even this measly fowl, badly cooked and defiled by worse than tasteless
dressing though it was, represented a treat in the Lawton household, and
the resident members fell upon it with eager teeth. Melissa sniffed a
trifle at her portion, to let it be seen that they were better fed out
on the farm, but she ate vigorously none the less. It was only Jessica
who could summon no appetite, and who sat silent and sick at heart,
wearily striving at the pretence of eating in order not to attract
attention. She was conscious of hostile glances being cast upon her from
either side, but she kept her eyes as steadily as she could upon
her plate or on her father, who sat opposite and who smiled at her
encouragingly from time to time.
It was one of the ungracious twins who first attained the leisure in
which to note Jessica’s failure to eat, and commented audibly upon the
difficulty of catering to the palates of “fine ladies.” The phrase was
instantly repeated with a sneering emphasis by Samantha, which was the
signal for a burst of giggling, in which Melissa joined. Then
Samantha, speaking very distinctly and with an ostentatious parade of
significance, informed Melissa that young Horace Boyce had returned to
Thessaly only the previous day, “on the very train which father
went down to meet.” This treatment of Melissa as a vehicle for the
introduction of disagreeable topics impressed the twins as a shrewd
invention, and one of them promptly added:
“Yes, M’liss’, and who do you think called here yesterday? Reuben Tracy
the lawyer. He was there in the parlor for half an hour--pretty cold he
must have found it--but he wasn’t alone.”
“Oh, yes, we’re getting quite fashionable,” put in Samantha. “Father
ought to set out a hitching-post and a carriage-block, so that we can
receive our callers in style. I hope it will be a stone one, dad.”
“And so do I,” broke in Lucinda, angrily, “and then I’d like to see your
head pounded on it, for all it was worth.”
“Well, if it was,” retorted Samantha, “it would make a noise. And that’s
more than yours would.”
“You shut up!” shouted Ben Lawton, with the over-vehemence of a weak
nature in excitement. “Hain’t you got no decency nor compassion in ye?
Has she done any harm to you? Can’t you give her a chance--to--to live
it down?”
While the echoes of this loud, indignant voice were still on the air,
Jessica had pushed her chair back, risen, and walked straight to the
door leading up-stairs. She looked at nobody as she passed, but held her
pale face proudly erect, though her lips were quivering.
After she had opened the door, some words seemed to come to her, and she
turned.
“Live it down!” she said, speaking more loudly than was her wont, to
keep her faltering voice from breaking. “Live it down! Why, father,
these people don’t want me to live at all!”
Then she closed the door and was seen no more that day.