Greif sprang to his feet and seized Hilda by the wrist, his eyes and his
whole expression full of horror and dismay.
‘What have you done?’ he cried. ‘What you could not do,’ answered Hilda
boldly.
The colour had come back to her face, and the light to her eyes, and she
met his gaze calmly and courageously. For some seconds neither moved,
but stood looking at each other, he holding her tightly, she making no
effort at resistance. Greif’s first impression was that his wife had
committed an act of sacrilege as well as a serious offence against the
law. She had explained her meaning clearly enough when she tore up the
letter, and he had understood all the consequences of the act at once.
It would be useless to attempt a search for the fragments of paper,
which were already scattered on the breeze and floating down to the deep
gorge. So far as the law was concerned, Hilda had spoken the truth. Not
a shred of evidence remained to prove that he was not all to-day that he
had been yesterday, in law as well as in fact. But there was gone with
that evidence something precious to Greif, something which it had hurt
him desperately to see torn to scraps and flung away. He had loved his
father with all his heart, and the letter had contained his father’s
last solemn blessing, of which not a single word remained whole; not
even if one of those bits of floating paper that whirled and floated
down the precipice had preserved a syllable of the message, was it in
the power of human skill or strength to save it from reaching the bottom
of the abyss and being swept away to the distant river by the tumbling
stream.
Nevertheless Hilda’s quick and decisive action had produced the effect
of a salutary shock upon her husband’s mind and nerves. She, as usual,
felt that absolute certainty of having done right which was a part of
her strong character. ‘You have destroyed it all,’ said Greif at last in
a reproachful tone. ‘You have left no two words together--’
‘And I am glad. I would do it again, if need were.’
‘It cannot be undone,’ Greif answered gloomily. He dropped her wrist and
began to walk slowly backwards and forwards in the shadow of the tower.
‘How could you do it! How could you do it!’ he repeated in a low voice,
as though speaking to himself and without looking at her.
‘It was the only thing to be done,’ she answered firmly.
‘But the injustice of it--the illegality--what shall I call it?’ he
stopped in his walk.
‘Call it what you please,’ replied Hilda scornfully. ‘It does not
exist any more. It may not have been a legal act, but it was an act of
justice, whatever you may say; of the truest justice, and I would do it
again.’
‘Justice!’ exclaimed Greif bitterly. ‘If justice were done, I should
be--’
‘Stop,’ said Hilda in a determined tone. ‘Justice is done and you are
here, and you are what you were yesterday and shall be to-morrow, not
for me only, but for the whole world. That is the only justice I can
understand.’
‘Hilda, it is wrong,’ cried Greif. ‘I know it is. I have no right to
throw off what has been brought upon me, what is proved so clearly--it
is a wrong and a great wrong, and it must be repaired.’
‘A wrong to whom?’ Hilda asked, with flashing eyes. ‘Whose would
your fortune be if you renounced it for the sake of that thing I have
destroyed? It would be my mother’s--mine, would it not? The letter said
so. And the name of Greifenstein, to whom would it go, if you proclaimed
through the whole land that you had no right to it? To no one. It would
end. No one would ever bear it, for no one has a right to dispose of it
except, perhaps, my mother--’
‘Yes--your mother--’
‘My mother! Would you break her heart by telling her that she has given
my father’s name to--’
Hilda stopped short in her speech.
‘To me!’ exclaimed Greif in the bitterest self-reproach. ‘Oh, the shame
of it, Hilda, the shame of it all! You are right in that--to think that
she has given the name she loves to one who has no right to any name--it
would break her heart--’
‘Then let her never know it, nor guess it, nor dream that it is
possible, never, never, so long as she lives!’
‘It is not for her only--it is for you, Hilda! That is the worst to
bear--the shame, the shame!’
‘For me?’ The two words came slowly and distinctly from her lips, as
though she were trying to make clear to him the enormity of his speech.
Then she drew herself up proudly to her full height, and a wonderful
smile illuminated her face.
‘Not for me, Greif,’ she said. ‘There is no shame for me. In your love,
I am above all earthly shame.’
There was something in her manner and in the accent of her speech that
affected Greif very suddenly. He was gradually growing more calm and
better able to reason, as well as to realise the splendid depth of his
wife’s love. There was a ring in her voice that told him more than her
words could tell. He came to her, and took her hand, and kissed it,
almost devotionally.
‘You are above all earthly women,’ he said simply.
‘I? No. Any woman would do as much, and it is so little. If you would
only think, dear, it is so very little--and it is for myself, too. Could
I do anything else? Could any woman do less, even the most selfish?’
‘I know none who would do as much,’ Greif answered.
‘Did I not tell you, that it was for my own sake that I destroyed the
letter, that I would not be dishonoured, that I would not have the world
say--what it might say?’
‘That is not all, Hilda.’
‘It is all--except my love, and that is all indeed, all there is for
me.’
‘Ay, that is it, that is it! And if these hideous crimes are never known
to any one but you and me, can you live beside me, day by day, year by
year, and never feel one pang, one regret, one little thrust of shame?
I know you love me, but that is too much to ask of any love. I know that
you mean what you say, but it is too much for man or woman to say and
mean. Think of it, Hilda, think of it all--there are such things here as
angels could not forget!’
‘I love you very, very much--my memory has no place for any other
things.’
She twined her arm about his neck as they stood together, and she laid
her golden head upon his shoulder, while her bright eyes looked upwards
with a sidelong glance into his face. But his cheek was pale and cold,
and he gazed sternly out at the distant crags, as though he would not
see her. The unbearable conviction of disgrace was upon him, hopeless,
endless, embracing all his existence and already extending back in his
imagination to all his earlier youth. Her hands burned him, her touch
was like the shock of death, as the old mystics used to say the draught
of life would be to the lips of the unprepared and the impure.
‘Let me go,’ he said gently. ‘I cannot bear it.’
But she would not. Instead of one arm, both went round him. He felt as
if her strong embrace would lift him from his feet, out of himself, to
bear him away from all trouble and woe to endless peace.
‘I will not let you go--neither now nor ever, neither in this world nor
the next.’
He knew that tone of hers, deep, ringing and clear, and he knew that
she was desperate. Then the conflict began in his own soul, the struggle
between that deep conviction of law and right, which was the foundation
of his character, and that honest and all-sacrificing love that filled
his heart.
‘Give me time to think what I am doing,’ he said.
He sat down upon the seat in his old place and bent down, pressing
his temples with his hands. He had spoken very simply out of his great
distress, for he needed time to think of what he was doing, and of what
he must yet do. All was vague and moving in the vision of his mind, like
a distant landscape seen through the trembling, heated air at noontide
on a summer’s day. Nothing was distinct, save his love for Hilda on the
one side, and upon the other, the black shadow of his awful disgrace.
‘Think, my beloved, if you will,’ said Hilda softly. ‘You will but think
what I have thought already.’
Perhaps he felt, even then, that she was right, but he could not so soon
be comforted, nor put aside in a moment what had presented itself so
strongly as an inexorable duty. At that juncture a cunning man of law
could have persuaded him more easily than the woman he loved more than
all the world besides. As had happened before, in the old days, that
love appeared to him in the light of a temptation, beautiful as the
broad sun, eloquent as sweetest music. But there was this difference,
now, that the opposite course was not as plain as it had been then.
Instead of a straight path, he saw but a confused medley of conflicting
ideas, of which the whole sum represented to his mind a mysterious
notion of a necessary sacrifice, but in which it was impossible to
distinguish the discriminating point, the centre of action, the goal of
duty. In the first place, he recognised out of this chaos, his father’s
injunction to act like a Christian man, to give up all that was not his,
to lay aside the name he had borne and to go forth into the world with
nothing but his own courage and perseverance as his weapons. That was
clear enough. If the letter had come into his hands immediately, as it
had been intended that it should, he would have fulfilled his father’s
last commands bravely in every detail of their spirit. Even if he had
received the message on the eve of his marriage, after he had begun to
call himself Sigmundskron, even then he would have done the same; and
though it would have been mortal agony, it would have been easy to do,
so far as the mere execution of it was concerned. He would have gone to
Frau von Sigmundskron, and would have told her the truth, showing her
the letter, and taking the consequences. No woman alive, in such a
case, would have hesitated a moment, he thought. Hilda’s mother would
certainly not have had the least doubt how to act, for she would have
died rather than give her daughter to a man of illegitimate birth. She
would have offered him his fortune, no doubt, for she was a noble and
generous woman, but he would have refused to take anything. That at
least would not have cost him a pang. As for the rest, his course would
have been clear enough.
But now, it was a very different matter. His conscience still told him
to go to Frau von Sigmundskron and tell all, but the consideration of
the consequences appalled him. He knew better even than Hilda herself,
what a sacrifice the good lady had made in regard to the name, and what
importance she attached to it. She was perfectly happy in the existing
condition of things; to tell her would be to destroy her happiness for
ever, to the last day of her life. Greif felt that if he were in her
place he should not want to know the truth, since all reparation was now
utterly impossible. And yet, to conceal it looked like a crime, or at
least like an action of bad faith. Could he meet the white-haired lady
who loved him so well and who had built such hopes upon him, could he
meet her daily, and call her mother, as she loved to be called, and yet
feel that he was deceiving her, that he had defiled the name she had
given him, and that he was living in possession of all that the law made
hers? It might be true that all would be Hilda’s some day, and that in
the end no harm would be effected because it would go to Hilda’s son.
But the fortune was not Hilda’s yet, and she to whom it really belonged,
who had really the power to control all, and to turn Greif and her
own daughter from home and hearth if she pleased, was to all intents
dependent upon the generosity of both. Though she might be made to
accept much, yet it seemed a positive wrong that she should be
allowed to feel that she was receiving favours when she was in reality
conferring them.
Greif therefore should go to her, and tell his story, and acknowledge
that everything was hers and that he was beholden to her charity for the
bread he ate at her table. He had the courage to do so, and he would
do it, if it seemed wholly right. But if he thus satisfied his love
of justice, he must also do her an injury of a very different kind. It
would be cruel to disclose the truth. Even Hilda had said that it would
break her mother’s heart if she were told that she had given what she
most prized to a nameless bastard. Hilda had not said the word, but it
had been in her mind, nevertheless. And Frau von Sigmundskron had given
more than that, for she had bestowed upon him her only daughter. Should
he make her declining years miserable with the shame that was upon him,
in order to give her money, or should he keep what was hers in order
that she might end her life in happiness and peace? It was a case of
doing evil that good might come.
When such a question arises there can be but one answer. The good to be
obtained must be immense and the evil must be relatively very small. If
such a position could be imagined, a man would be justified in lying,
stealing, or doing almost anything which could only hurt himself, for
the sake of saving a nation, of preserving his country from destruction.
Perhaps he would not be wrong, if it were to save a thousand innocent
lives, a hundred, ten, even one, if he wronged only himself in the evil
he did to attain his end. But as the ratio diminishes, the case becomes
manifestly more difficult to judge, and the absolute nature of right
asserts itself more strongly when it is not confronted by overwhelming
odds in most exceptional circumstances. Stealing is bad, but there is
a difference between the case of the starving mother who steals a crust
for her dying child, and the professional thief who lives riotously
upon the proceeds of his crimes; there is a difference of degree in
evil between stealing money in order to render possible the escape of
a beloved sovereign from the hands of a bloodthirsty and revolutionary
mob, and stealing it, under the apparent protection of the law, by
deceiving thousands in the game of finance.
Nothing can be more repugnant to a man of honour than to do evil of any
sort in order that good may come. To such a man as Greif, lying is but
a shade less bad than murder, and stealing is many shades worse. In his
judgment of the situation he was called upon both to steal and to lie,
in order to secure Frau von Sigmundskron’s happiness. It was true that
the deception was to be practised by merely holding his tongue, and
the theft by keeping what did not belong to him, but Greif made no such
subtle distinctions of degree. It was lying and stealing. It was adding
a disgrace by his own conduct to the shame he had inherited. It was
to give up all that remained to him, which was his spotless honesty in
thought and deed. The case seemed terribly strong.
There was Hilda, by his side, and she had said that she would not let
him go. Suppose then that he went and told her mother the story. There
would be one more person in the secret, for though she might die of
grief, she would never tell a human being; she could not ever be called
upon to do so, by the maddest exaggeration of the principles of honour.
She would suffer horribly, but she would not take what was hers. She
could have no use for the fortune, except to give it to her daughter,
who had the use of it already. Her peace would be destroyed for ever,
and there would be no change in the conditions under which the three
were living, except that Greif would have satisfied his desire to
be strictly honest. A moral satisfaction on the one hand, and the
destruction of all happiness to one he loved on the other. His brain
reeled, for his desire to be truthful suddenly appeared to him in the
light of a selfish passion which would cause endless pain to those whom
he most desired to shield from all suffering. This was another view, and
a strangely unexpected one.
The chaos of his thoughts became wilder and more unsettled than ever,
he dropped his hands upon his knees and leaned back against the rough
stones of the tower, pale and exhausted with the struggle, but uncertain
yet how he should act. Hilda sat motionless beside him, watching his
movements, and to some extent understanding his thoughts, ready to give
him her sympathy or her counsel, if he needed it, ready, too, to throw
all the force of her undaunted nature into the contest if he should
endeavour to maintain his first position. She was, indeed, terribly
anxious, lest in a moment of excitement he should break away from her
and go to her mother in his present frame of mind. A long time had
passed in silence, far longer than it has taken to describe the thoughts
that succeeded each other in Greif’s brain, but Hilda would not speak,
nor interrupt the course of his reflexions. She knew that this was
the decisive moment of their lives, and she understood her husband’s
stubbornly honourable nature well enough to give him leisure to consider
all the points of his position.
At last he spoke, not looking at her and still leaning his head against
the stones.
‘It is hard to talk of it,’ he said. ‘And yet I must, for I cannot think
without words. I must decide, and quickly. In another hour I may meet
your mother. I must either tell her, or not tell her, and this must be
final. If I do--’
‘She will die,’ interrupted Hilda. ‘Not to-day, not to-morrow, perhaps
not this year. But it will eat up her heart. I know her. She will spend
hours in her room, alone, looking at my father’s picture, and crying
over his sword. All her dreams will go out, like a light extinguished
in the dark, All her hopes will be broken to pieces. She will never feel
again that you are a son to her, and that through you the Sigmundskrons
have begun again. She will grow more silent, more thin and wan until the
end; and then she will die. That is what will happen if you tell her.’
‘And why should not all that happen to you, who know?’ asked Greif.
‘Because I love you yourself, and not an idea,’ answered Hilda. ‘If you
were taken from me, I should die, as my mother will if you kill the idea
she loves.’
‘And is it better that my whole life should be a lie from this day
forth, than that she should know the truth, and do what she can to meet
it?’
‘To whom do you owe the truth, Greif? To the woman you have married, to
the mother of your child, or to some one else? What good would she
get by it? Your money? She does not want money. What is money to
her, compared with the memory of him she loved, as I love you, or in
comparison with the honour of his name, for which she would give her
blood?’
‘And if you had left me alone to read that letter--would you have had me
keep the truth from you too?’
‘Would I have you bear alone anything that we can bear together? If you
understand my love so little as to think that such a thing could change
it, or weaken it, or make me what I am not--why then, I would not care
what you did, nor what became of me!’
‘And my shame is nothing to you?’
‘Nothing, being what it is, not yours, but of others, thrust upon your
innocence.’
‘You would not, for your own sake, wish that we had never known of it?’
‘For my sake? No. For yours--I would die to wash it out. For my sake, do
you say? Oh, Greif, is one hair of your head, one look of your dear eyes
less wholly mine, because your mother sinned? Are you not Greif to me,
always, and nothing else?’
‘And so you love me still--just as you did before?’
‘Can I say more than I have said? Can I do more than I have done?
Ah--then love must be too cold a word for what I mean!’
‘You would not love me if I lied, and were a coward.’
‘You would not be Greif.’
‘Nor should I be my miserable self, if I acted this lie before your
mother!’
‘You would not be Greif, if you could kill her with the vanity of
selfish truth-telling.’
‘The vanity! Ay, I have thought of that. Perhaps I am vain, after
all--I, who have but little left to be proud of.’
His head sank on his breast, and he sighed bitterly, wringing his
fingers together. He wished he could shed tears, and cry aloud, and
faint, as some women do.
‘And yet--you have me--not to be proud of, but to love,’ said Hilda
gently.
‘In spite of all! Is it really true, quite true?’ He shook his head
doubtfully.
‘It is true.’
Hilda had no words left with which to persuade him of her unfaltering
love, but perhaps at that moment the simple little phrase, with the
accent she gave it, told Greif more than many protestations. It seemed
to him that the course of his distress was checked suddenly, and that
he felt the strain of the cable upon the firm anchor at last. It was
the hour of destiny, when one word decides the future of many lives, for
good or evil.
‘Thank God!’ Greif exclaimed in a low voice. He put out his hand and
took hers. ‘I will never ask you again, dear,’ he said presently. ‘It
was hard to believe, it seemed as though I ought not to believe it.’
In spite of all, there was a happy light in his eyes, as he turned them
to her and gazed into her face. After all, the terrible things told in
the letter had happened long ago, and he was young, in the midst of a
glorious present, in the very midst of all that love and happiness could
give. It would be many a long year before he could think calmly of the
hideous secret, and perhaps his whole life from that day would be more
thoughtful and serious than it had been. But it was not in the power
of an evil fate to follow him further than that. The curse of the
Greifensteins, as people a hundred years ago would have called that
strange chain of circumstances in which his race had been involved,
had run its course, and had spent itself in the conflict with a woman’s
love. Beyond that there was nothing but the smooth haven of rest, which
no blast of evil could ruffle, and into which no overwhelming wave of
calamity could break.
Greif scarcely knew how it was that the struggle ended, nor why, when it
was over, he felt that he had not lost the day. But nevertheless, it was
so, and peace descended upon his soul. For a long time neither he nor
Hilda spoke. Very gradually, the colour returned to Greif’s face, and
the light to his eyes; very gradually the luminous veil of his happiness
descended between him and the shades of the evil dead, not cutting off
the memory of their deeds, but hiding the horror of their presence.
‘And so Rex is my brother,’ he said at last.
‘And mine,’ said Hilda.
‘He does not know--or does he?’
‘How could he?’
‘His father wrote to him--was that letter lost too? Is that yet to
come?’ Greif’s heart sank at the thought that all was not over yet.
‘But if he had known,’ said Hilda, ‘could he have hidden it so long? And
besides, he came with you. If there had been a letter to him, you
would have known of it. Who could have given it to him, without your
knowledge?’
‘Your mother.’
‘She never told me of it, though she often wondered that you had
nothing.’
‘Rex knows!’ exclaimed Greif in a tone of conviction. ‘And he received
the letter. I have told you how it was that he confessed to me his real
name. He was telling the truth then, for I know him well. He would as
soon have told me that he was my brother as my cousin--’
‘He would have hesitated to do that--’
‘No. You do not know him. He does not value his life a straw, and would
as soon have taken that opportunity of parting with it as any other.’
‘But how could he have concealed it since? Why should my mother have
never told us that his father wrote?’
‘Because she felt that I should have been pained to think that Rex had
received something and I nothing. It is as clear as day. It explains
many things. No one but a brother could have acted as he did all through
my illness. I have often seen him looking at me strangely, and I never
understood what it meant until now. He knew, and I did not. Besides--’
‘What?’ asked Hilda, as he stopped short.
‘Well, it would explain, too, why he was so anxious that you and I
should be married. If he knew--and he did, I am sure--he saw that if I
persisted he would have to tell me the truth, in order that you should
have the fortune. I used to wonder why he pressed me so.’ ‘Do you think
that was it?’
‘What else could he do? He must have ruined me, his brother, if the
marriage had not taken place.’
‘Would he have done that?’ asked Hilda.
‘Rex believes in nothing but honour,’ Greif answered thoughtfully.
‘There is nothing in heaven or earth which could keep him from doing
what he thinks honourable. He would ruin me or himself with perfect
indifference rather than see an injustice done by the fault of either.’
‘He is a strange man.’
‘He is a grand man, noble in every part of him, splendidly unselfish,
magnificently brave--I wish I were like him.’
‘I should not love you. He is cold as stone, though he may be all that
you say, and though I am very fond of him.’
‘Yes--he is cold. He never loved a woman in his life. But I admire him
and respect him, though I never quite understand him. There is always
something that escapes me, something beyond my reach. Perhaps that is
what they call genius.’
‘And yet no one has heard of him. He has never done anything with his
talent. It is strange, too, for he is immensely wise. I wonder what the
reason can be.’
‘He does not believe in anything--not even in greatness.’ answered
Greif. ‘I believe his mind is so large that the greatest things seem
little to him. I have heard him talk about almost everything at one time
or another. The end of all his arguments is that nothing is worth while.
And there is a reason, too. His father’s disgrace has pursued him since
he was a child.’
Greif’s voice fell suddenly, and his face grew dark.
‘And what should I be, then!’ he exclaimed a moment later.
‘What he is, were you in his place.’ Hilda answered. ‘But you are not,
you see.’
‘But for you, Hilda, but for you.’
‘You for me, and I for you, my beloved. That is what love means.’
Their hearts were too full for either of them to speak much so soon as
they approached the question which had so nearly destroyed all their
happiness. For a long time they were silent, unconscious of the swift
flight of the hours, little guessing what a strange drama was being
enacted almost beneath their feet, in the solitary room where Rex had
determined to lay down the burden of life in the cause of honour.
‘I must go to him.’ said Greif at last.
‘To Rex?’
‘Yes. I must know how much he knows--though I am sure he knows all.’
‘Will you tell him if he does not know?’
‘Shall I?’
‘He is your brother. He will see it as I do. It is best that he should
know.’
‘Come then, dear,’ said Greif rising from his seat.
‘Shall I go with you?’
‘I will bring him out of his room, if he is there, and you can wait a
moment in the passage. If not, we will go on together and find him.’
‘It is twelve o’clock!’ exclaimed Hilda, glancing up at the great dial
in the tower as she rose.
‘It has not struck yet,’ answered Greif carelessly.
They entered the winding staircase together and went down.