It is true ---- suffered through my cold and hard feelings. But it was
her fault, for I say now as then to ---- that she, absorbed in ----,
neglected my members, who are my children, and for whom I wanted her
best and got her worst. That made me cold, of course, and I had to
fight it, and didn't care if ---- did not like it: I have no time to
care. I am glad she has gone to ----. It is her trial and her chance
and when she sets back she can see for herself if she is able to
prevent the "big head" from coming on as has happened with others. If
she does, then she will have stood the reaction and I have faith she
will stand; but still it has to be met. Time comes on sure, and with it
trial. H. P. B. was her preparer and comfort, but men are not made into
steel by comfort, and note that H. P. B. then died off.
My trip all over this country shows me that it is of more consequence
that I should now work up the U. S., where the Masters first worked in
this century. It needs all I can do.... So when I have fulfilled my
engagement on the English stage I shall skip back here quickly and do
this work. The field is even greater than I thought, although I had a
big idea of it. From the United States we can affect the world and they
will come to us from all places either for solid work or for help in
their need....
Well now, of you: I feel it all. It is up, and down. It is well you
are courageous, and to endure you are able. Indeed endure is the best
word, for that is what the oak does when the storms rage, for it is
better to endure when we can do nothing than to faint and fall. The
facts are to be faced. I hope they may turn out otherwise, but if not,
it is Karma. Aside from pain, it is the same as anything else. If it
comes, it will not last long. Still, I hope it cometh not. I think much
of it, but know the bravery of you and the high soul that dwells there.
All the time of pain and dogged fighting I know your real self sits up
above it all unaffected, and so does mine, and from that let us take
comfort. All things in this age move like lightning and so with all
our Karma, though mine has so often seemed slow, so far as concerns
me. Well, I cannot go on with this: I feel as you do: I stand by you
in heart and have often of late sent you messages of hope and power to
help you.
I advised ---- to do her part to lessening the constant bringing
forward of the name of H. P. B., instead of independent thought on
Theosophy. We have too much of it and it is no proof of loyalty, and
it gives rise to much of the foolish talk of our dogmatism. You will
understand, and may be able to influence some to a more moderate though
firm attitude that will not lessen their loyalty and devotion. One good
point is that the true chêla does not talk much of his Master and often
does not refer to that Master's existence. It has almost become the
same as unnecessarily waving the red flag to a bull. Those of us who
have experience do not do it; but the younger ones do. X ---- does it
here in his speeches and I am going to speak to him of it. If it be not
avoided the first thing we know there will be a split between the H. P.
B.'ers and the theosophists _pur sang_, the latter claiming to be the
real thing because devoid of any personal element. You and I and ----
do not find it necessary all the time to be flinging her (H. P. B.) in
the faces of others, and it is well now to take the warning offered
from the outside. Besides, I have had a very strong inside warning on
it. My best love now that we are near Christmas and New Year, and may
there be some sunshine to light the path. I send you my love unsullied
by a mere gift.
I hope ---- will be firm and proceed as indicated, but she, like us
all, must meet her own old enemies in herself.
Again I go, as for evermore.