THE CLOSED DOOR

Tonio brought the news after dinner with the turgid mix he called

coffee. “Concepcion says,” he remarked, “that there has been a battle

beyond Cienaga and all the insurgents have been destroyed. But

Concepcion is a liar anyway, and does the señor wish me to open another

tin of milk? There is no more fresh. The cow is dead.”

Fellowes lifted his head with a jerk from the sticky leather cushion

where he had just laid it, too tired even to swear. “Hello! say that

again.”

“The cow is dead and Pepita wept. There is no doubt that it is dead

. . .”

“Never mind. I mean about the battle.”

“Saints! Concepcion says there has been one beyond Cienaga, and all the

insurgentes have been killed.”

“Who told him?”

“A man who fought in the battle, señor, a man who was there. Pedro is

hiding him in the cafetaria.”

“Why?”

“Quien sabe? Pedro says he is frightened. And there is no fresh milk.

Little Mother of God, that cow was exhausta . . .”

“Be quiet. Give me my boots again.”

For all his tiredness, Fellowes dropped out of the hammock lightly

enough. If there really had been a battle, and the insurgentes really

had been wiped out, then the victorious troops would probably straggle

back to the Town for rest and refreshment. In that case the Company must

be warned, and the Company’s loose property swept up and secured. “Damn

all governments, anyway,” said Fellowes, as he struggled with the boots,

and wondered where he might lay hand on one of his foremen.

After the heat of the lighted room behind the nettings, the dusk was

almost cool as he plunged into it. A storm was coming, and the sun had

dropped early into dark cloud. Sky and forest were so much of a

blackness that it looked as if the trees had suddenly and silently

surged upward and swallowed the day. The foul little roads were dim and

deserted; only the square flared with uncertain light. The church seemed

at one moment to waver near the ground; the next, it flickered aloft,

striking into the inverted pits of dark like a reflection in a well.

Only in front of the café a compact and sweating crowd fought and

screamed whole-heartedly, tiny by contrast of the night.

A man whirled from the outskirts of the crowd as Fellowes paused, and

caught him by the coat. “There is a man!” he shrieked above the din.

“One who has seen the battle!” Fellowes shook him off, lowered his head,

and drove through the mob by sheer weight of bone. They took his charge

with perfect good-temper. Brown hands caught at him, eyes gleamed and

darkened, and half the mouths in the Town screamed at him in unison.

“There is a man in the café. A man who saw the battle! Little Mother of

God, a man who was there!”

He was in the hard-breathing front rank, pressed against the wall. The

closed door of the café was in front of him. He could see a pale blot

wavering like a moth within the glass,—the anxious face of Pedro. Then

a darkness appeared in the blot, and two smaller blots appeared with

cautious gestures. Fellowes worked forward till he leaned against the

door. It opened suddenly. Fat hands dragged him within. And Pedro

clapped to the door again in the excited faces of his friends.

“That was well done,” said Pedro, puffing heavily. “I saw the señor. I

thought, he wishes to question me, to ask me the truth; I will admit

him. And you are here, señor.”

Fellowes looked round. The thick-walled room was cool and dark, bitter

with the smell of stale cheap wine, and as still as a chapel. The noise

outside penetrated only as a murmur. “And the man?” he asked, with a

breath of relief. “You have him here?”

“The man who was there?” said Pedro. “Yes, señor. You wish to ask him of

the battle? Yes, señor. I will give light.”

He brought a little reeking lamp of the sort they light in shrines.

Shapes dawned on them cloudily,—barrels, jars, an old door like a

cave’s mouth, and a flight of steps. “He is . . .?” began Fellowes in

some astonishment. And Pedro finished quickly, “In the cellar? Yes,

señor. Why? Because he is afraid.”

The last word came back deep and hollow as Pedro led the way into the

cellars. “Afraid . . .”

If the upper floor had been as still as a chapel, the cellar was as

still as a tomb. The steps led straight down into a square room full of

broad mud pillars; on three sides of this room smaller ones opened, bins

and cupboards for storing the wine and the aguardiente. Each opening was

hung with a rough door, and every door stood open, so that beyond the

circling shadows of the pillars there seemed to wait a monstrous company

of wings. Fellowes turned mechanically to close the door at the foot of

the stairs. And a voice cried to him quickly, “Señor, señor, leave the

door open, in the name of God.”

“Yes,” said the fat Pedro in a whisper, “that is the man. Leave the door

open, señor. In the name of God.”

Fellowes looked. The soldier sat on a straw mattress with his back

against the far wall, so that all the open doors were in view. His

slender brown feet were wrapped in strips of native cloth that had once

been white, but were now stained a thick dark brown. His knees were

drawn up and his hands clasped them. He wore some sort of uniform-coat

with gaudy yellow flannel facings, and a broad hat lay beside him,

together with an untouched bottle of Pedro’s wine. His voice, singularly

sharp and quick, was yet the voice of a sound man.

“Are you . . .” began Fellowes, and then stopped. The face touched with

a strange reflection not of light, but of darkness, answered him. It was

the only answer he had. For the soldier was counting the doors on his

fingers,—“Four—seven—nine, and all open.”

Fellowes turned to Pedro. “Is this man—is he a little mad?”

“O no, señor. He is only afraid.”

“Of what?”

“Of a closed door, señor. He is not mad. He was there, beyond Cienaga.

Wait. I will speak for you.”

He leaned forward and spoke loudly, a fat hand on either knee. “This

caballero wishes to ask if you were in the fight beyond Cienaga.”

The echoes of the deep voice rolled in little thunders; each echo died

before the man answered in his sharp, breathless voice.

“Yes, I was there.”

“He wishes to hear about the battle. Will you tell him all you know?”

Another silence. Then,—“Yes, I will tell him all I know. But do not

shut the doors.”

Fellowes took it up eagerly in his best Spanish. “Tell me all you know,

my friend, and I’ll make it well worth your while.” He felt in his

pocket for a pencil and a scrap of paper. “Go on. I’m ready.”

“There was a river,” said the soldier quickly, “and a house with a

yellow roof in a clearing.”

“Yes. Go on, please.”

“A house with a yellow roof. I was in the house.”

“Yes, but before that?”

“Before that, the swamps, señor. Then the river, and the village, and

the house with the yellow roof. I was in the house.”

“But—this is no use.” Fellowes turned to Pedro. “I want facts, all he

knows—”

Pedro’s full-moon face was turned gravely on the soldier; his eyes,

gentle as a girl’s, watched him only. “Señor,” he said, with an air

slightly absent, “I think he will tell you all he knows. Listen. In the

name of God.”

Pedro’s voice, the little shrine-lamp sending up a thin black finger to

the roof, the shadows, the open doors,—all these chilled Fellowes a

little. He glanced curiously from Pedro to the soldier. “Let him tell it

in his own way, then.”

The soldier began again, as if he were speaking for the first time.

“There was the house with the yellow roof. But before that we crossed

the swamps. It’s very bad in the swamps. We walked one behind the other

on logs laid down in the mud; they were very old logs, very slippery. We

walked for a long time, I don’t know how long. One man took the quick

fever, and when the pain came, he cried and fell into the mud, in a deep

place. He was gone before one could cry on the saints, and his gun too,

which was a pity. This man was the first who died. I forget his name

now, but he was very lucky at cockfighting.

“It was very dark in the swamps, too, dark almost like night. Sometimes

the trees broke, and a line of light lay across the mud. As the long

trail of men crawled along the logs, each as he passed under the light

would go very slowly, and lift his face to it, until he was pushed on by

the man behind who wanted to feel the sun on his eyes too. In this way

two more men were drowned in the mud. But I was safe, and so was the man

in front of me. I was glad of that, because he was my friend.”

“But can’t you remember how long you were in the swamps?” asked

Fellowes, gently. “Who your captain was? Anything that happened?”

The soldier looked troubled. “No, I don’t remember. But I had a gun, and

cartridges, and a bayoneta; and I was afraid of the insurgentes. I was

afraid they would come up behind us. We didn’t know where they were. The

man in front of me didn’t care. He was a young man and merry, with no

hatred in him. He said, ‘If a Señor Insurgente gave me a good dinner,

I’d build him a shrine.’ But I was afraid of the insurgentes. They were

devils.

“When we came out of the swamps many of us had fever, and our feet were

sore with leech-bites. There was a road, but it was very bad. Soon one

part of our army was far ahead of the other. Those who went in front had

shoes, those who went slowly, hadn’t any. I was afraid the insurgentes

would catch us, but I couldn’t go fast. My friend had shoes, but he

stayed with me. And one day he went off by himself, and came back

laughing with a pair for me. ‘There’s a village yonder,’ he told me,

‘all shut up except the church. A poor place. Only the fleas are fat. I

said a prayer in the church, amigo, and stole the jefe’s shoes for you.’

“Now that we both had shoes we left the rearguard behind us, the men who

had none. I don’t remember where we went. We went on for a long time,

and there was fighting in front of us. I think we fought too, because I

remember hiding in some thick bushes covered with pink flowers. There

was a dead man near us, and when I fired my gun, the pink flowers fell

until he was almost buried,—only his feet out. There were lots of dead

men, though, we didn’t mind them. But there were a few who were not

dead. Those insurgentes are devils. I was not afraid of fighting—I was

afraid of insurgentes. I would call to my friend in daylight, like a

child at night. ‘Are they here, have they come, amigo?’ And he would say

‘No, we must still keep the dinner hot for them.’ He was a merry man

even when he was hungry.

“I still had my gun, and some cartridges and my bayoneta; but we had no

food. When we came to the river, and the village, and the house with the

yellow roof, my friend went away to find food. I hid in the house with

the yellow roof, waiting for him; I hid in a corner of the lower room

behind the door, where there was a little window, high up. I had my gun,

and my cartridges, and my bayoneta. I was going to fire on the rebels

through the window if they came. But they didn’t come.

“It was very still in that house. The room was a very nice one, very

clean. A water-pot hung under the eaves and dripped, and that was often

the only sound I could hear. A child’s shoe lay in the middle of the

floor; they must have been well-to-do folk if even the children had

shoes. But I couldn’t find anything to eat, not so much as a mouldy

plantain or a bit of bread. The door was open. I left it open and stood

in the shadow behind it with my gun and my cartridges and my bayoneta,

looking out of the little window and wondering where my friend was.

There was a clearing outside, surrounded with tall trees. Sunlight hung

like ropes made from gold between the trees. Birds talked; one flew in

at the open door of the room where I hid. It was so quiet you woauld

never have thought of fighting, of anger, of dead men. Except when the

sunny wind blew off the woods.”

As if the remembered quietness locked his lips, the soldier was silent.

The door at the foot of the stairs swung in a draught and he watched it

anxiously with drawn-in lips until it was still. Then he went on

breathlessly: “I will tell the gentleman all I can remember. It is not

much. But there was fighting, but I don’t remember where or what it was

all about. It is all gone. Only I was in the lower room of the house

with the yellow roof, behind the door. And the door was open. I was

waiting for my friend. I waited a long time, but he came at last.

“He broke through the trees on the far side of the clearing, running as

if he were mad, and leaping from side to side. He had a dead fowl under

each arm, and as he ran, their long necks jerked together. His tunic was

all stuffed out with things, and his ragged trousers fluttered round his

legs like flags round a flag-pole at a fiesta. He looked very funny. He

was laughing as he ran. I laughed too, and I was just going to run and

meet him, when I thought, is there a kettle here to cook the fowl in? I

looked for the kettle, and looked back through the window. And I saw the

little blue puff break from the trees . . .

“The crack followed, little and foolish in that big quietness as the

crack of a twig. And three men ran out of the trees after my friend.

They were insurgentes. I had never seen them so close before. I was

afraid. But he wasn’t, I saw his white teeth flashing as he ran for the

open door. He ran as fast as a dog, with the fowls’ heads jerking

against his knees. And he laughed.

“I became very cold, there behind the door. Something jerked in my

chest, and the gun jerked in my hand. I wondered what I should do. If I

fired, I might have hit my friend. I didn’t fire. I watched the

insurgentes coming nearer. I saw their faces, as they ran through the

streaks of light and shadow in the clearing, now bright, now dark, and

all with one thought in them . . . Then I was afraid. Afraid as I hadn’t

been before. The light went out, my flesh trembled, my sinews shook

against my bones. Mother of God, I died,—died many times.”

The soldier bent forward, panting. His eyes for the first time met

Fellowes’.

“I was there. I will tell you all I know, señor. He was my friend. I was

afraid.

“I shut the door.”

The cellar was very still. The lamp-fire trembled, and Pedro’s immense

squat shadow surged like a cloud.

“I shut the door. The square of sunlight on the floor grew thin and went

out. There was a place for a bolt, but no bolt. I drove in my

bayoneta,—drove it in with the child’s shoe I picked up from the floor.

I leaned against the door, staring at the floor where the sunlight had

been. My hands were over my ears, but I could hear everything, rolling

like stones in my heart, in my head . . .

“I shut the door. It was fast when he flung himself against it, calling

me to open in the name of God. I wanted to open it, then, señor, I

wanted to open it. But I couldn’t move. I was afraid. And they killed

him against it. They didn’t shoot. They killed him with their bayonets.

The points came through to the other side and pricked me,—twice,—as I

leaned against it. Then they took the fowls and went away. I don’t know

how many there were or why they went away. Perhaps they didn’t see the

door had been open.

“It was very quiet again. I crushed my ear against my side of the door,

but there was no sound from his side. I put my lips to the wood and

spoke to him in a whisper for fear the insurgentes should hear and come

back. I couldn’t believe that _he_ didn’t hear. I thought he was

listening in silence and laughing,—just to pay me out—but there was no

sound but the drip from the water-jar. It was very loud, like a bell. A

drop would flash in the shadow and fall, and then the sound would come

in my head,—‘Boom.’ Soon I saw that there were two ‘Booms’ to every

drip that fell. I couldn’t understand it at first. But the other drip,

the other noise, were outside. I looked down at my feet. The jefe’s

shoes he had stolen for me were very dark, very wet, with—with what had

dripped and run under the closed door from his side to mine . . .

“I was afraid again. I kicked off the shoes and ran round and round the

room. I couldn’t believe that he was dead. He was such a merry one. As I

ran, I kept saying, ‘I’m afraid of the insurgentes, afraid of the

insurgentes,’ and I called, ‘Are you here, amigo, have they come? But he

didn’t answer ‘We must keep the soup hot.’ Then I knew I wasn’t afraid

of the insurgentes, but of my amigo on the other side of the door.

“When it was dark, so dark I could see nothing, I went to the door. My

hands were quite steady as I worked out the bayoneta. But I opened it

the breadth of a hand. Señor, the door opened inwards. As it came,

something came with it, heavy, dragging on the ground—pinned to it as a

bat’s skin’s pinned on a board . . .

“I don’t remember much. I shut the door again. I was very cold. I took

my gun and broke down the window and climbed out that way.

“The clearing was in very dark shadow, but the tops of the trees were

white in the coming moonlight. I knew I must be away before the

moonlight shone on the door. I dropped from the window and my foot

struck something,—a loaf of bread. His tunic was all fat with things as

he ran and laughed . . .

“I was very hungry. I caught it up and ran, wondering why the

insurgentes had left it. I went on and on. The moon rose and the light

came on my hands. They were dark, señor, the bread was dark. No wonder

the insurgentes had left it. It was all spoiled . . .

“I don’t remember much more. I went on,—went on. Then it was day, and

there was a town, one of our towns. When they saw my feet, they let me

ride in the wagons. They offered me bread, but I couldn’t eat it. They

thought I was wounded and starved. They thought I had fought the rebels.

Perhaps I had. But I only remember that I was afraid. And so I shut the

door.”

“But the fighting?” asked Fellowes under his breath. “Under whose

command? Who cut off the insurgentes? Where will the troops retire? He

must . . .”

“Hush, señor.” Pedro lifted his hand and turned on his heel. “Hush. He

knows no more.”

“More?” The man in the yellow facings caught at the word. “Tell the

gentleman that’s all. There was a house, and an open door, and I shut

the door.”

“Come,” said Pedro again, “there is no more. He has told you all he

knows.”

They went softly up the steps. And behind them the breathless voice

called: “Señor, señor, for the pity of God, do not close the door!”

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