Laurence Vanderlyn, unpaid attaché at the American Embassy in Paris,
strode down the long grey platform marked No. 5, of the Gare de Lyon. It
was seven o'clock, the hour at which Paris is dining or is about to
dine, and the huge station was almost deserted.
The train de luxe had gone more than an hour ago, the Riviera rapide
would not start till ten, but one of those trains bound for the South,
curiously named demi-rapides, was timed to leave in twenty minutes.
Foreigners, especially Englishmen and Americans, avoid these trains, and
this was why Laurence Vanderlyn had chosen it as the starting point of
what was to be a great adventure, an adventure which must for ever be
concealed, obliterated as much as may be from his own memory--do not men
babble in delirium?--once life had again become the rather grey thing he
had found it to be.
In the domain of the emotions it is the unexpected which generally
happens, and now it was not only the unexpected but the incredible which
had happened to this American diplomatist. He and Margaret Pargeter, the
Englishwoman whom he had loved with an absorbing, unsatisfied passion,
and an ever-increasing concentration and selfless devotion, for seven
years, were about to do that which each had sworn, together and
separately, should never come to pass,--that is, they were about to
snatch from Fate a few days of such free happiness and communion as
during their long years of intimacy they had never enjoyed. In order to
secure these fleeting moments of joy, she, the woman in the case, was
about to run the greatest risk which can in these days be incurred by
civilised woman.
Margaret Pargeter was not free as Vanderlyn was free; she was a
wife,--not a happy wife, but one on whose reputation no shadow had ever
rested,--and further, she was the mother of a child, a son, whom she
loved with an anxious tenderness.... It was these two facts which made
what she was going to do a matter of such moment not only to herself,
but to the man to whom she was now about to commit her honour.
Striding up and down the platform to which he had bought early access by
one of those large fees for which the travelling American of a certain
type is famed, Vanderlyn, with his long lean figure, and stern
pre-occupied face, did not suggest, to the French eyes idly watching
him, a lover,--still less the happy third in one of those conjugal
comedies which play so much greater a part in French literature and in
French drama than they do in French life. He had thrust far back into
his heart the leaping knowledge of what was about to befall him, and he
was bending the whole strength of his mind to avert any possible danger
of ignoble catastrophe to the woman whom he was awaiting, and whose
sudden surrender was becoming more, instead of less, amazing as the long
minutes dragged by.
Vanderlyn's mind went back to the moment, four short days ago, when this
journey had been suddenly arranged. Mrs. Pargeter had just come back
from England, where she had gone to pay some family visits and to see
her little son, who was at a preparatory school; and the American
diplomatist, as was so often his wont, had come to escort her to one of
those picture club shows in which Parisian society delights.
Then, after a quarter of an hour spent by them at the exhibition, the
two friends had slipped away, and had done a thing which was perhaps
imprudent. But each longed, with an unspoken eager craving, to be alone
with the other; the beauty of Paris in springtime tempted them, and it
was the woman who had proposed to the man that they should spend a quiet
hour walking through one of those quarters of old Paris unknown to the
travelling foreigner.
Eagerly Vanderlyn had assented, and so they had driven quickly down the
Rue de Rivoli, right into the heart of that commercial quarter which was
the Paris of Madame de Sévigné, of the bitter witty dwarf, Scarron, of
Ninon de l'Enclos, and, more lately, of Victor Hugo. There, dismissing
their cab, they had turned into that still, stately square, once the old
Place Royale, now the Place des Vosges, of which each arcaded house
garners memories of passionate romance.
Walking slowly up and down the solitary garden there, the two had
discussed the coming August, and Margaret Pargeter had admitted, with a
rather weary sigh, that she was as yet quite ignorant whether her
husband intended to yacht, to shoot, or to travel,--whether he meant to
take her with him, or to leave her at some seaside place with the boy.
As she spoke, in the low melodious voice which still had the power to
thrill the man by her side as it had had in the earlier days of their
acquaintance, Mrs. Pargeter said no word that all the world might not
have heard, yet, underlying all she said, his questions and her answers,
was the mute interrogation--which of the alternatives discussed held out
the best chance, to Vanderlyn and herself, of being together?
At last, quite suddenly, Mrs. Pargeter, turning and looking up into her
companion's face, had said something which Laurence Vanderlyn had felt
to be strangely disconcerting; for a brief moment she lifted the veil
which she had herself so deliberately and for so long thrown over their
ambiguous relation--"Ah! Laurence," she exclaimed with a sigh, "the way
of the transgressor is hard!"
Then, speaking so quietly that for a moment he did not fully understand
the amazing nature of the proposal she was making to him, she had
deliberately offered to go away with him--for a week. The way in which
this had come about had been strangely simple; looking back, Vanderlyn
could scarcely believe that his memory was playing him true....
From the uncertain future they had come back to the immediate present,
and Mrs. Pargeter said something of having promised her only intimate
friend, a Frenchwoman much older than herself, a certain Madame de Léra,
to go and spend a few days in a villa near Paris--"If you do that," he
said, "then I think I may as well go down to Orange and see the house
I've just bought there."
She had turned on him with a certain excitement in her manner. "You've
bought it? That strange, beautiful place near Orange where you used to
stay when you were studying in Paris? Oh, Laurence, I'd no idea that you
really meant to buy it!"
A little surprised at the keenness of her interest, he had answered
quietly, "Yes, when the owner was going through Paris last week, I found
he wanted the money, so--so the house is mine, though none of the legal
formalities have yet been complied with. I'm told that the old woman who
was caretaker there can make me comfortable enough for the few days I
can be away." He added in a different, a lower tone, "Ah! Peggy, if only
it were possible for us to go there together--how you would delight in
the place!"
"Would you like me to come with you? I will if you like, Laurence." She
had asked the question very simply--but Vanderlyn, looking at her
quickly, had seen that her hand was trembling, her eyes brimming with
tears. Then she had spoken gently, deliberately--seeming to plead with
herself, rather than with him, for a few days of such dual loneliness
for which all lovers long and which during their long years of intimacy
they had never once, even innocently, enjoyed. And he had grasped with
exultant gratitude--what man would have done otherwise?--at what she
herself came and offered him.
Walking up and down the solitary platform, Vanderlyn lived over again
each instant of that strange momentous conversation uttered four days
ago in the stately sunlit square which forms the heart of old Paris. How
the merry ghost of Marion Delorme, peeping out of one of the long narrow
casements of the corner house which was once hers, must have smiled to
hear this virtuous Englishwoman cast virtue to the light Parisian winds!
Vanderlyn also recalled, with almost the same surprise and discomfort as
he had experienced at the time itself, the way in which Margaret
Pargeter, so refined and so delicately bred, had discussed all the
material details connected with their coming adventure--details from
which the American diplomatist himself had shrunk, and which he would
have done almost anything to spare her.
"There is one person, and one alone," she had said with some decision,
"who must know. I must tell Adèle de Léra--she must have my address, for
I cannot remain without news of my boy a whole week. As for Tom"--she
had flushed, and then gone on steadily--"Tom will believe that I am
going to stay with Adèle at Marly-le-Roi, and my letters will be sent to
her house. Besides," she had added, "Tom himself is going away, to
England, for a fortnight."
To the man then walking by her side, and even now, as he was remembering
it all, the discussion was inexpressibly odious. "But do you think," he
had ventured to ask, "that Madame de Léra will consent? Remember, Peggy,
she is Catholic, and what is more, a pious Catholic."
"Of course she won't like it--of course she won't approve! But I'm
sure--in fact, Laurence, I _know_--that she will consent to forward my
letters. She understands that it would make no difference--that I should
think of some other plan for getting them. Should she refuse at the last
moment--but--but she will not refuse--" and her face--the fair,
delicately-moulded little face Vanderlyn loved--had become flooded with
colour.
For the first time since he had known her, he had realised that there
was a side to her character of which he was ignorant, and yet?--and yet
Laurence Vanderlyn knew Margaret Pargeter too well, his love of her
implied too intimate a knowledge, for him not to perceive that something
lay behind her secession from an ideal of conduct to which she had clung
so unswervingly and for such long years.
During the four days which had elapsed between then and now,--days of
agitation, of excitement, and of suspense,--he had more than once asked
himself whether it were possible that certain things which all the world
had long known concerning Tom Pargeter had only just become revealed to
Tom Pargeter's wife. He hoped, he trusted, this was not so; he had no
desire to owe her surrender to any ignoble longing for reprisal.
The world, especially that corner of Vanity Fair which takes a frankly
materialistic view of life and of life's responsibilities, is shrewder
than we generally credit, and the diplomatist's intimacy with the
Pargeter household had aroused but small comment in the strange polyglot
society in which lived, by choice, Tom Pargeter, the cosmopolitan
millionaire who was far more of a personage in Paris and in the French
sporting world than he could ever have hoped to be in England.
To all appearance Laurence Vanderlyn was as intimate with the husband as
with the wife, for he had tastes in common with them both, his interest
in sport and in horseflesh being a strong link with Tom Pargeter, while
his love of art, and his dilettante literary tastes, bound him to Peggy.
Also, and perhaps above all, he was an American--and Europeans cherish
strange and sometimes fond illusions as to your American's lack of
capacity for ordinary human emotion.
He alone knew that his tie with Mrs. Pargeter grew, if not more
passionate, then more absorbing and intimate as time went on, and he was
sometimes, even now, at considerable pains to put the busybodies of
their circle off the scent.
But indeed it would have required a very sharp, a very keen, human hound
to find the scent of what had been so singular and so innocent a tie.
Each had schooled the other to accept all that she would admit was
possible. True, Vanderlyn saw Margaret Pargeter almost every day, but
more often than not in the presence of acquaintances. She never came to
his rooms, and she had never seemed tempted to do any of the imprudent
things which many a woman, secure of her own virtue, will sometimes do
as if to prove the temper of her honour's blade.
So it was that Mrs. Pargeter had never fallen into the ranks of those
women who become the occasion for even good-natured gossip. The very way
in which they had, till to-night, conducted what she, the woman, was
pleased to call their friendship, made this which was now happening
seem, even now, to the man who was actually waiting for her to join him,
as unsubstantial, as likely to vanish, mirage-wise, as a dream.
And yet Vanderlyn passionately loved this woman whom most men would have
thought too cold to love, and who had known how to repress and tutor,
not only her own, but also his emotions. He loved her, too, so foolishly
and fondly that he had fashioned the whole of his life so that it should
be in harmony with hers, making sacrifices of which he had told her
nothing in order that he might surround her--an ill-mated, neglected
wife--with a wordless atmosphere of devotion which had become to her as
vital, as necessary, as is that of domestic peace and happiness to the
average woman. But for Laurence Vanderlyn and his "friendship," Mrs.
Pargeter's existence would have been lacking in all human savour, and
that from ironic circumstance rather than from any fault of her own.
* * * * *
Vanderlyn had spent the day in a fever of emotion and suspense, and he
had arrived at the Gare de Lyon a good hour before the time the train
for Orange was due to leave.
At first he had wandered about the great railway-station aimlessly,
avoiding the platform whence he knew he and his companion were to start.
Then, with relief, he had hailed the moment for securing coming privacy
in the unreserved railway carriage; this had not been quite an easy
matter to compass, for he desired to avoid above all any appearance of
secrecy.
But he need not have felt any anxiety, for whereas in an English
railway-station his large "tip" to the guard, carrying with it
significant promise of final largesse, would have spelt but one thing,
and that thing love, the French railway employé accepted without
question the information that the lady the foreign gentleman was
expecting was his sister. Such a statement to the English mind would
have suggested the hero of an innocent elopement, but as regards family
relations the French are curiously Eastern, and then it may be said
again that the American's stern, pre-occupied face and cold manner were
not those which to a Parisian could suggest a happy lover.
As he walked up and down with long, even strides, his arms laden with
papers and novels, it would have been difficult for anyone seeing him
there to suppose that Vanderlyn was starting on anything but a solitary
journey. Indeed, for the moment he felt horribly alone. He began to
experience the need of human companionship. She had said she would be
there at seven; it was now a quarter-past the hour. In ten minutes the
train would be gone----
Then came to him a thought which made him unconsciously clench his
hands. Was it not possible, nay, even likely, that Margaret Pargeter,
like many another woman before her, had found her courage fail her at
the last moment--that Heaven, stooping to her feeble virtue, had come to
save her in spite of herself?
Vanderlyn's steps unconsciously quickened. They bore him on and on, to
the extreme end of the platform. He stood there a moment staring out
into the red-starred darkness: how could he have ever thought that
Margaret Pargeter--his timid, scrupulous little Peggy--would embark on
so high and dangerous an adventure?
There had been a moment, during that springtime of passion which returns
no more, when Vanderlyn had for a wild instant hoped that he would be
able to take her away from the life in which he had felt her to be
playing the terrible rôle of an innocent and yet degraded victim.
Even to an old-fashioned American the word divorce does not carry with
it the odious significance it bears to the most careless Englishwoman.
He had envisaged a short scandal, and then his and Peggy's marriage. But
he had been compelled, almost at once, to recognise that with her any
such solution was impossible.
As to another alternative? True, there are women--he and Margaret
Pargeter had known many such--who regard what they call love as a
legitimate distraction; to them the ignoble, often sordid, shifts
involved in the pursuit of a secret intrigue are as the salt of life;
but this solution of their tragic problem would have been--or so
Vanderlyn would have sworn till four days ago--impossible to the woman
he loved, and this had added one more stone to the pedestal on which she
had been placed by him from the day they had first met.
And yet? Yet so inconsequent and so illogical is our poor human nature,
that she, the virtuous woman, had completely lacked the courage to break
with the man who loved her, even in those, the early friable days of
their passion. Nay more, whatever Peggy might believe, Vanderlyn was
well aware that the good, knowing all, would have called them wicked,
even if the wicked, equally well-informed, would have sneered at them as
absurdly good.
* * * * *
Vanderlyn wheeled abruptly round. He looked at the huge station clock,
and began walking quickly back, down the now peopled platform to the
ticket barrier. As he did so his eyes and mind, trained to note all that
was happening round him, together with an unconscious longing to escape
from the one absorbing thought, made him focus those of his
fellow-travellers who stood about him. They consisted for the most part
of provincial men of business, and of young officers in uniform, each
and all eager to prolong to the uttermost their golden moments in Paris;
more than one was engaged in taking an affectionate, deeply sentimental
farewell from a feminine companion who bore about her those significant
signs--the terribly pathetic, battered air of wear and tear--which set
apart, in our sane workaday world, the human plaything.
The sight of these leave-takings made the American's face flush darkly;
it was hateful to him to think that Mrs. Pargeter must suffer, even for
a few moments, the proximity of such women--of such men. He felt a
violent shrinking from the thought that any one of these gay, careless
young Frenchmen might conceivably know Peggy--if only by sight--as the
charming, "elegant" wife of Tom Pargeter, the well-known sportsman who
had done France the signal honour of establishing his racing stable at
Chantilly instead of at Newmarket! The thought that such an encounter
was within the bounds of possibility made Vanderlyn for a moment almost
hope that the woman for whom he was waiting would not come after all.
He cursed himself for a fool. Why had he not thought of driving her out
to one of the smaller stations on the line whence they could have
started, if not unseen, then unobserved?
But soon the slowly-growing suspicion that she, after all, was perhaps
not coming to-night, brought with it an agonising pang. Very suddenly
there occurred to him the horrible possibility of material accident.
Mrs. Pargeter was not used even to innocent adventure; she lived the
guarded, sheltered existence which belongs of right to those women whose
material good fortune all their less fortunate sisters envy. The dangers
of the Paris streets rose up before Vanderlyn's excited imagination,
hideous, formidable....
Then, quite suddenly, Margaret Pargeter herself stood before him,
smiling a little tremulously.
She was wearing a grey, rather austere tailor-made gown; it gave a
girlish turn to her slender figure, and on her fair hair was poised the
little boat-shaped hat and long silvery gauze veil which have become in
a sense the uniform of a well-dressed Parisienne on her travels.
As he looked at her, standing there by his side, Vanderlyn realised how
instinctively tender, how passionately protective, was his love for her;
and again there came over him the doubt, the questioning, as to why she
was doing this....
"Messieurs, mesdames, en voiture, s'il vous plaît! En voiture, s'il vous
plaît!"
He put his hand on her shoulder--her head was very little higher than
his heart--and guided her to the railway carriage which had been kept
for them.