3. Honorable.

I call Dante’s _Commedia_ slightly dishonorable, with never a mention of

the cosy bifurcated wife, and the kids. And _War and Peace_ I call

downright dishonorable, with that fat, diluted Pierre for a hero, stuck

up as preferable and desirable, when everybody knows that he _wasn’t_

attractive, even to Tolstoi.

Of course Tolstoi, being a great creative artist, was true to his

characters. But being a man with a philosophy, he wasn’t true to his

_own character_.

Character is a curious thing. It is the flame of a man, which burns

brighter or dimmer, bluer or yellower or redder, rising or sinking or

flaring according to the draughts of circumstance and the changing air

of life, changing itself continually, yet remaining one single, separate

flame, flickering in a strange world: unless it be blown out at last by

too much adversity.

If Tolstoi had looked into the flame of his own belly, he would have

seen that he didn’t really like the fat, fuzzy Pierre, who was a poor

tool, after all. But Tolstoi was a personality even more than a

character. And a personality is a self-conscious _I am_: being all that

is left in us of a once-almighty Personal God. So being a personality

and an almighty _I am_, Leo proceeded deliberately to lionise that

Pierre, who was a domestic sort of house-dog.

Doesn’t anybody call that dishonorable on Leo’s part? He might just as

well have been true to _himself_! But no! His self-conscious personality

was superior to his own belly and knees, so he thought he’d improve on

himself, by creeping inside the skin of a lamb; the doddering old lion

that he was! Leo! Léon!

Secretly, Leo worshipped the human male, man as a column of rapacious

and living blood. He could hardly meet three lusty, roisterous young

guardsmen in the street, without crying with envy: and ten minutes

later, fulminating on them black oblivion and annihilation, utmost moral

thunder-bolts.

How boring, in a great man! And how boring, in a great nation like

Russia, to let its old-Adam manhood be so improved upon by these

reformers, who all feel themselves short of something, and therefore

live by spite, that at last there’s nothing left but a lot of shells of

men, improving themselves steadily emptier and emptier, till they rattle

with words and formulae, as if they’d swallowed the whole encyclopædia

of socialism.

But wait! There is life in the Russians. Something new and strange will

emerge out of their weird transmogrification into Bolshevists.

When the lion swallows the lamb, fluff and all, he usually gets a pain,

and there’s a rumpus. But when the lion tries to force himself down the

throat of the huge and popular lamb--a nasty old sheep, really--then

it’s a phenomenon. Old Leo did it: wedged himself bit by bit down the

throat of wooly Russia. And now out of the mouth of the bolshevist

lambkin still waves an angry, mistaken, tufted leonine tail, like an

agitated exclamation mark.

Meanwhile it’s a deadlock.

But what a dishonorable thing for that claw-biting little Leo to do! And

in his novels you see him at it. So that the papery lips of

_Resurrection_ whisper: “_Alas! I would have been a novel. But Leo

spoiled me._”

Count Tolstoi had that last weakness of a great man: he wanted the

absolute: the absolute of love, if you like to call it that. Talk about

the “last infirmity of noble minds”! It’s a perfect epidemic of

senility. He wanted to _be_ absolute: a universal brother. Leo was too

tight for Tolstoi. He wanted to puff, and puff, and puff, till he became

Universal Brotherhood itself, the great gooseberry of our globe.

Then pop went Leo! And from the bits sprang up bolshevists.

It’s all bunk. No man can be absolute. No man can be absolutely good or

absolutely right, nor absolutely lovable, nor absolutely beloved, nor

absolutely loving. Even Jesus, the paragon, was only relatively good

and relatively right. Judas could take him by the nose.

No god, that men can conceive of, could possibly be absolute or

absolutely right. All the gods that men ever discovered are still God:

and they contradict one another and fly down one another’s throats,

marvellously. Yet they are _all_ God: the incalculable Pan.

It is rather nice, to know what a lot of gods there are; and have been,

and will be, and that they are all of them God all the while. Each of

them utters an absolute: which, in the ears of all the rest of them,

falls flat. This makes even eternity lively.

But man, poor man, bobbing like a cork in the stream of time, must hitch

himself to some absolute star of righteousness overhead. So he throws

out his line, and hooks on. Only to find, after a while, that his star

is slowly falling: till it drops into the stream of time with a fizzle,

and there’s _another_ absolute star gone out.

Then we scan the heavens afresh.

As for the babe of love, we’re simply tired of changing its napkins. Put

the brat down, and let it learn to run about, and manage its own little

breeches.

But it’s nice to think that all the gods are God all the while. And if a

god only genuinely feels to you like God, then it _is_ God. But if it

doesn’t feel quite, quite altogether like God to you, then wait awhile,

and you’ll hear him fizzle.

The novel knows all this, irrevocably. “My dear,” it kindly says, “one

God is relative to another god, until he gets into a machine; and then

it’s a case for the traffic cop!”

“But what am I to do!” cries the despairing novelist. “From Amon and Ra

to Mrs. Eddy, from Ashtaroth and Jupiter to Annie Besant, I don’t know

where I am.”

“Oh yes you do, my dear!” replies the novel. “You are where you are, so

you needn’t hitch yourself on to the skirts either of Ashtaroth or Eddy.

If you meet them, say _how-do-you-do!_ to them quite courteously. But

don’t hook on, or I shall turn you down.”

“Refrain from hooking on!” says the novel.

“But be honorable among the host!” he adds.

Honour! Why, the gods are like the rainbow, all colours and shades.

Since light itself is invisible, a manifestation has got to be pink or

black or blue or white or yellow or vermilion, or “tinted”.

You may be a theosophist, and then you will cry: _Avaunt! Thou dark-red

aura! Away!!!--Oh come! Thou pale-blue or thou primrose aura, come!_

This you may cry if you are a theosophist. And if you put a theosophist

in a novel, he or she may cry _avaunt!_ to the heart’s content.

But a theosophist cannot be a novelist, as a trumpet cannot be a

regimental band. A theosophist, or a Christian, or a Holy Roller, may be

_contained_ in a novelist. But a novelist may not put up a fence. The

wind bloweth where it listeth, and auras will be red when they want to.

As a matter of fact, only the Holy Ghost knows truly what righteousness

is. And heaven only knows what the Holy Ghost is! But it sounds all

right. So the Holy Ghost hovers among the flames, from the red to the

blue and the black to the yellow, putting brand to brand and flame to

flame, as the wind changes, and life travels in flame from the unseen to

the unseen, men will never know how or why. Only travel it must, and not

die down in nasty fumes.

And the honour, which the novel demands of you, is only that you shall

be true to the flame that leaps in you. When that Prince in

_Resurrection_ so cruelly betrayed and abandoned the girl, at the

beginning of her life, he betrayed and wetted on the flame of his own

manhood. When, later, he bullied her with his repentant benevolence, he

again betrayed and slobbered upon the flame of his waning manhood, till

in the end his manhood is extinct, and he’s just a lump of half-alive

elderly meat.

It’s the oldest Pan-mystery. God is the flame-life in all the universe;

multifarious, multifarious flames, all colours and beauties and pains

and sombrenesses. Whichever flame flames in your manhood, that is you,

for the time being. It is your manhood, don’t make water on it, says the

novel. A man’s manhood is to honour the flames in him, and to know that

none of them is absolute: even a flame is only relative.

But see old Leo Tolstoi wetting on the flame. As if even his wet were

absolute!

Sex is flame, too, the novel announces. Flame burning against every

absolute, even against the phallic. For sex is so much more than

phallic, and so much deeper than functional desire. The flame of sex

singes your absolute, and cruelly scorches your ego. What, will you

assert your ego in the universe? Wait till the flames of sex leap at you

like striped tigers.

“They returned from the ride

With the lady inside,

And a smile on the face of the tiger.”

You will play with sex, will you! You will tickle yourself with sex as

with an ice-cold drink from a soda-fountain! You will pet your best

girl, will you, and spoon with her, and titillate yourself and her, and

do as you like with your sex?

Wait! Only wait till the flame you have dribbled on flies back at you,

later! Only wait!

Sex is a life-flame, a dark one, reserved and mostly invisible. It is a

deep reserve in a man, one of the core-flames of his manhood.

What, would you play with it? Would you make it cheap and nasty!

Buy a king-cobra, and try playing with that.

Sex is even a majestic reserve in the sun.

Oh, give me the novel! Let me hear what the novel says.

As for the novelist, he is usually a dribbling liar.

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