It is necessary now that I should tell the readers something about my
own antecedents.
Aware of how uninteresting the subject must prove, I shall make that
something as short as possible.
Already it will have been clearly understood, both from my own hints,
and from Miss Blake's far from reticent remarks on my position, that I
was a clerk at a salary in Mr. Craven's office.
But this had not always been the case. When I went first to Buckingham
Street, I was duly articled to Mr. Craven, and my mother and sister, who
were of aspiring dispositions, lamented that my choice of a profession
had fallen on law rather than soldiering.
They would have been proud of a young fellow in uniform; but they did
not feel at all elated at the idea of being so closely connected with a
"musty attorney."
As for my father, he told me to make my own choice, and found the money
to enable me to do so. He was an easy-going soul, who was in the
miserable position of having a sufficient income to live on without
exerting either mind or body; and yet whose income was insufficient to
enable him to have superior hobbies, or to gratify any particular taste.
We resided in the country, and belonged to the middle class of
comfortable, well-to-do English people. In our way, we were somewhat
exclusive as to our associates--and as the Hall and Castle residents
were, in their way, exclusive also, we lived almost out of society.
Indeed, we were very intimate with only one family in our neighbourhood;
and I think it was the example of the son of that house which first
induced me to think of leading a different existence from that in which
my father had grown as green and mossy as a felled tree.
Ned Munro, the eldest hope of a proud but reduced stock, elected to
study for the medical profession.
"The life here," he remarked, vaguely indicating the distant houses
occupied by our respective sires, "may suit the old folks, but it does
not suit me." And he went out into the wilderness of the world.
After his departure I found that the life at home did not suit me
either, and so I followed his lead, and went, duly articled, to Mr.
Craven, of Buckingham Street, Strand. Mr. Craven and my father were old
friends. To this hour I thank Heaven for giving my father such a friend.
After I had been for a considerable time with Mr. Craven, there came a
dreadful day, when tidings arrived that my father was ruined, and my
immediate presence required at home. What followed was that which is
usual enough in all such cases, with this difference--the loss of his
fortune killed my father.
From what I have seen since, I believe when he took to his bed and
quietly gave up living altogether, he did the wisest and best thing
possible under the circumstances. Dear, simple, kindly old man, I cannot
fancy how his feeble nature might have endured the years which followed;
filled by my mother and sister with lamentations, though we knew no
actual want--thanks to Mr. Craven.
My father had been dabbling in shares, and when the natural
consequence--ruin, utter ruin, came to our pretty country home, Mr.
Craven returned me the money paid to him, and offered me a salary.
Think of what this kindness was, and we penniless; while all the time
relations stood aloof, holding out nor hand nor purse, till they saw
whether we could weather the storm without their help.
Amongst those relations chanced to be a certain Admiral Patterson, an
uncle of my father. When we were well-to-do he had not disdained to
visit us in our quiet home, but when poverty came he tied up his
purse-strings and ignored our existence, till at length, hearing by a
mere chance that I was supporting my mother and sister by my own
exertions (always helped by Mr. Craven's goodness), he said, audibly,
that the "young jackanapes must have more in him than he thought," and
wrote to beg that I would spend my next holiday at his house.
I was anxious to accept the invitation, as a friend told me he felt
certain the old gentleman would forward my views; but I did not choose
to visit my relative in shabby clothes and with empty pockets;
therefore, it fell out that I jumped at Miss Blake's suggestion, and
closed with Mr. Craven's offer on the spot.
Half fifty--twenty-five--pounds would replenish my wardrobe, pay my
travelling expenses, and leave me with money in my pocket, as well.
I told Mr. Craven all this in a breath. When I had done so he
laughed, and said:
"You have worked hard, Patterson. Here is ten pounds. Go and see your
uncle; but leave River Hall alone."
Then, almost with tears, I entreated him not to baulk my purpose. If I
could rid River Hall of its ghost, I would take money from him, not
otherwise. I told him I had set my heart on unravelling the mystery
attached to that place, and I could have told him another mystery at the
same time, had shame not tied my tongue. I was in love--for the first
time in my life--hopelessly, senselessly, with a face of which I thought
all day and dreamed all night, that had made itself in a moment part and
parcel of my story, thus:
I had been at Kentish Town to see one of our clients, and having
finished my business, walked on as far as Camden Town, intending to take
an omnibus which might set me down somewhere near Chancery Lane.
Whilst standing at the top of College Street, under shelter of my
umbrella, a drizzling rain falling and rendering the pavement dirty and
slippery, I noticed a young lady waiting to cross the road--a young lady
with, to my mind, the sweetest, fairest, most lovable face on which my
eyes had ever rested. I could look at her without causing annoyance,
because she was so completely occupied in watching lumbering vans, fast
carts, crawling cabs, and various other vehicles, which chanced at that
moment to be crowding the thoroughfare, that she had no leisure to
bestow even a glance on any pedestrian.
A governess, I decided: for her dress, though neat, and even elegant,
was by no means costly; moreover, there was an expression of settled
melancholy about her features, and further, she carried a roll, which
looked like music, in her hand. In less time than it has taken me to
write this paragraph, I had settled all about her to my own
satisfaction.
Father bankrupt. Mother delicate. Young brothers and sisters, probably,
all crying aloud for the pittance she was able to earn by giving lessons
at so much an hour.
She had not been long at her present occupation, I felt satisfied,
for she was evidently unaccustomed to being out in the streets alone
on a wet day.
I would have offered to see her across the road, but for two reasons:
one, because I felt shy about proffering my services; the other, because
I was exceedingly doubtful whether I might not give offence by speaking.
After the fashion of so many of her sex, she made about half a dozen
false starts, advancing as some friendly cabby made signs for her to
venture the passage, retreating as she caught sight of some coming
vehicle still yards distant.
At last, imagining the way clear, she made a sudden rush, and had just
got well off the curb, when a mail phaeton turned the corner, and in one
second she was down in the middle of the road, and I struggling with the
horses and swearing at the driver, who, in his turn, very heartily
anathematized me.
I do not remember all I said to the portly, well-fed, swaggering cockney
upstart; but there was so much in it uncomplimentary to himself and his
driving, that the crowd already assembled cheered, as all crowds will
cheer profane and personal language; and he was glad enough to gather up
his reins and touch his horses, and trot off, without having first gone
through the ceremony of asking whether the girl he had so nearly driven
over was living or dead.
Meantime she had been carried into the nearest shop, whither I
followed her.
I do not know why all the people standing about imagined me to be her
brother, but they certainly did so, and, under that impression, made way
for me to enter the parlour behind the shop, where I found my poor
beauty sitting, faint and frightened and draggled, whilst the woman of
the house was trying to wipe the mud off her dress, and endeavouring to
persuade her to swallow some wine-and-water.
As I entered, she lifted her eyes to mine, and said, "Thank you, sir.
I trust you have not got hurt yourself," so frankly and so sweetly
that the small amount of heart her face had left me passed into her
keeping at once.
"Are you much hurt?" I replied by asking.
"My arm is, a little," she answered. "If I could only get home! Oh! I
wish I were at home."
I went out and fetched a cab, and assisted her into it. Then I asked her
where the man should drive, and she gave me the name of the street which
Miss Blake, when in England, honoured by making her abode. Miss Blake's
number was 110. My charmer's number was 15. Having obtained this
information, I closed the cab-door, and taking my seat beside the
driver, we rattled off in the direction of Brunswick Square.
Arrived at the house, I helped her--when, in answer to my knock, an
elderly woman appeared, to ask my business--into the narrow hall of a
dreary house. Oh! how my heart ached when I beheld her surroundings! She
did not bid me good-bye; but asking me into the parlour, went, as I
understood, to get money to pay the cabman.
Seizing my opportunity, I told the woman, who still stood near the door,
that I was in a hurry, and leaving the house, bade the driver take me to
the top of Chancery Lane.
On the next Sunday I watched No. 15, till I beheld my lady-fair come
forth, veiled, furred, dressed all in her dainty best, prayer-book in
hand, going alone to St. Pancras Church--not the old, but the
new--whither I followed her.
By some freak of fortune, the verger put me into the same pew as that in
which he had just placed her.
When she saw me her face flushed crimson, and then she gave a little
smile of recognition.
I fear I did not much heed the service on that particular Sunday; but I
still felt shy, so shy that, after I had held the door open for her to
pass out, I allowed others to come between us, and did not dare to
follow and ask how she was.
During the course of the next week came Miss Blake and Mr. Craven's
remark about the fifty pounds; and within four-and-twenty hours
something still more astounding occurred--a visit from Miss Blake and
her niece, who wanted "a good talking-to"--so Miss Blake stated.
It was a dull, foggy day, and when my eyes rested on the younger lady, I
drew back closer into my accustomed corner, frightened and amazed.
"You were in such a passion yesterday," began Miss Blake, coming into
the office, dragging her blushing niece after her, "that you put it out
of my head to tell you three things--one, that we have moved from our
old lodgings; the next, that I have not a penny to go on with; and the
third, that Helena here has gone out of her mind. She won't have River
Hall let again, if you please. She intends to go out as a
governess--what do you think of that?--and nothing I can say makes any
impression upon her. I should have thought she had had enough of
governessing the first day she went out to give a lesson: she got
herself run over and nearly killed; was brought back in a cab by some
gentleman, who had the decency to take the cab away again: for how we
should have paid the fare, I don't know, I am sure. So I have just
brought her to you to know if her mother's old friend thinks it is a
right thing for Kathleen Elmsdale's daughter to put herself under the
feet of a parcel of ignorant, purse-proud snobs?"
Mr. Craven looked at the girl kindly. "My dear," he said, "I think, I
believe, there will be no necessity for you to do anything of that kind.
We have found a person--have we not, Patterson?--willing to devote
himself to solving the River Hall mystery. So, for the present at all
events, Helena--"
He paused, for Helena had risen from her seat and crossed the room to
where I sat.
"Aunt, aunt," she said, "this is the gentleman who stopped the horses,"
and before I could speak a word she held my hand in hers, and was
thanking me once again with her beautiful eyes.
Miss Blake turned and glared upon me. "Oh! it was you, was it?" she
said, ungraciously. "Well, it is just what I might have expected, and me
hoping all the time it was a lord or a baronet, at the least."
We all laughed--even Miss Elmsdale laughed at this frank
confession; but when the ladies were gone, Mr. Craven, looking at
me pityingly, remarked:
"This is a most unfortunate business, Patterson. I hope--I do hope, you
will not be so foolish as to fall in love with Miss Elmsdale."
To which I made no reply. The evil, if evil it were, was done. I had
fallen in love with Miss Blake's niece ere those words of wisdom dropped
from my employer's lips.