VIII

Whether he returned or fled, Woolfolk thought, he was enveloped in an

atmosphere of defeat. He relinquished the wheel, but remained seated,

drooping at his post. The indefatigable Halvard proceeded with the

efficient discharge of his narrow, exacting duties. After a short

space John Woolfolk descended to the cabin, where, on an unmade berth,

he fell immediately asleep.

He woke to a dim interior and twilight gathering outside. He

shaved--without conscious purpose--with meticulous care, and put on

the blue flannel coat. Later he rowed himself ashore and proceeded

directly through the orange grove to the house beyond.

Millie Stope was seated on the portico, and laid a restraining hand on

her father's arm as he rose, attempting to retreat at Woolfolk's

approach. The latter, with a commonplace greeting, resumed his place.

Millie's face was dim and potent in the gloom, and Lichfield Stope

more than ever resembled an uneasy ghost. He muttered an indistinct

response to a period directed at him by Woolfolk and turned with a

low, urgent appeal to his daughter. The latter, with a hopeless

gesture, relinquished his arm, and the other vanished.

"You were sailing this morning," Millie commented listlessly.

"I had gone," he said without explanation. Then he added: "But I came

back."

A silence threatened them which he resolutely broke: "Do you remember,

when you told me about your father, that you wanted really to talk

about yourself? Will you do that now?"

"Tonight I haven't the courage."

"I am not idly curious," he persisted.

"Just what are you?"

"I don't know," he admitted frankly. "At the present moment I'm lost,

fogged. But, meanwhile, I'd like to give you any assistance in my

power. You seem, in a mysterious way, needful of help."

She turned her head sharply in the direction of the open hall and said

in a high, clear voice, that yet rang strangely false: "I am quite

well cared for by my father and Nicholas." She moved closer to him,

dragging her chair across the uneven porch, in the rasp of which she

added, quick and low:

"Don't--please."

A mounting exasperation seized him at the secrecy that veiled her, hid

her from him, and he answered stiffly: "I am merely intrusive."

She was seated above him, and she leaned forward and swiftly pressed

his fingers, loosely clasped about a knee. Her hand was as cold as

salt. His irritation vanished before a welling pity. He got now a

sharp, recognized happiness from her nearness; his feeling for her

increased with the accumulating seconds. After the surrender, the

admission, of his return he had grown elemental, sensitized to

emotions rather than to processes of intellect. His ardor had the

poignancy of the period beyond youth. It had a trace of the

consciousness of the fatal waning of life which gave it a depth denied

to younger passions. He wished to take Millie Stope at once from all

memory of the troublous past, to have her alone in a totally different

and thrilling existence.

It was a personal and blind desire, born in the unaccustomed tumult of

his newly released feelings.

They sat for a long while, silent or speaking in trivialities, when he

proposed a walk to the sea; but she declined in that curiously loud

and false tone. It seemed to Woolfolk that, for the moment, she had

addressed someone not immediately present; and involuntarily he looked

around. The light of the hidden lamp in the hall fell in a pale,

unbroken rectangle on the irregular porch. There was not the shifting

of a pound's weight audible in the stillness.

Millie breathed unevenly; at times he saw she shivered uncontrollably.

At this his feeling mounted beyond all restraint. He said, taking her

cold hand: "I didn't tell you why I went last night--it was because I

was afraid to stay where you were; I was afraid of the change you were

bringing about in my life. That's all over now, I----"

"Isn't it quite late?" she interrupted him uncomfortably. She rose and

her agitation visibly increased.

He was about to force her to hear all that he must say, but he stopped

at the mute wretchedness of her pallid face. He stood gazing up at her

from the rough sod. She clenched her hands, her breast heaved sharply,

and she spoke in a level, strained voice:

"It would have been better if you had gone--without coming back. My

father is unhappy with anyone about except myself--and Nicholas. You

see--he will not stay on the porch nor walk about his grounds. I am

not in need of assistance, as you seem to think. And--thank you. Good

night."

He stood without moving, his head thrown back, regarding her with a

searching frown. He listened again, unconsciously, and thought he

heard the low creaking of a board from within. It could be nothing but

the uneasy peregrination of Lichfield Stope. The sound was repeated,

grew louder, and the sagging bulk of Nicholas appeared in the

doorway.

The latter stood for a moment, a dark, magnified shape; and then,

moving across the portico to the farthest window, closed the shutters.

The hinges gave out a rasping grind, as if they had not been turned

for months, and there was a faint rattle of falling particles of

rusted iron. The man forced shut a second set of shutters with a

sudden violence and went slowly back into the house. Millie Stope said

once more:

"Good night."

It was evident to Woolfolk that he could gain nothing more at present;

and stifling an angry protest, an impatient troop of questions, he

turned and strode back to the tender. However, he hadn't the slightest

intention of following Millie's indirectly expressed wish for him to

leave. He had the odd conviction that at heart she did not want him to

go; the evening, he elaborated this feeling, had been all a strange

piece of acting. Tomorrow he would tear apart the veil that hid her

from him; he would ignore her every protest and force the truth from

her.

He lifted the tender's anchor from the sand and pulled sharply across

the water to the _Gar_. A reddish, misshapen moon hung in the east,

and when he had mounted to his deck it was suddenly obscured by a

high, racing scud of cloud; the air had a damper, thicker feel. He

instinctively moved to the barometer, which he found depressed. The

wind, that had continued steadily since the night before, increased,

and there was a corresponding stir among the branches ashore, a

slapping of the yacht's cordage against the spars. He turned forward

and half absently noted the increasing strain on the hawser

disappearing into the dark tide. The anchor was firmly bedded. The

pervasive far murmur of the waves on the outer bars grew louder.

The yacht swung lightly over the choppy water, and a strong affection

for the ketch that had been his home, his occupation, his solace

through the past dreary years expanded his heart. He knew the _Gar's_

every capability and mood, and they were all good. She was an

exceptional boat. His feeling was acute, for he knew that the yacht

had been superseded. It was already an element of the past, of that

past in which Ellen lay dead in a tennis skirt, with a bright scarf

about her young waist.

He placed his hand on the mainmast, in the manner in which another

might drop a palm on the shoulder of a departing faithful companion,

and the wind in the rigging vibrated through the wood like a sentient

and affectionate response. Then he went resolutely down into the

cabin, facing the future.

John Woolfolk woke in the night, listened for a moment to the

straining hull and wind shrilling aloft, and then rose and went

forward again to examine the mooring. A second hawser now reached into

the darkness. Halvard had been on deck and put out another anchor. The

wind beat salt and stinging from the sea, utterly dissipating the

languorous breath of the land, the odors of the exotic, flowering

trees.

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