have lived,” he began, “as other men of my sort have lived. You know
what that is, for you must have seen it about you at college, and after
that before you entered the Church. I judge so from your friends, who
were your friends then, I understand. You know how they lived. I never
went in for dissipation, if you mean that, because it never attracted
me. I am afraid I kept out of it not so much out of respect for others
as for respect for myself. I found my self-respect was a very good thing
to keep, and I rather preferred keeping it and losing several pleasures
that other men managed to enjoy, apparently with free consciences. I
confess I used to rather envy them. It is no particular virtue on my
part; the thing struck me as rather more vulgar than wicked, and so I
have had no wild oats to speak of; and no woman, if that is what you
mean, can write an anonymous letter, and no man can tell you a story
about me that he could not tell in my presence.”
There was something in the way the young man spoke which would have
amply satisfied the outsider, had he been present; but the bishop's eyes
were still unrelaxed and anxious. He made an impatient motion with his
hand.
“I know you too well, I hope,” he said, “to think of doubting your
attitude in that particular. I know you are a gentleman, that is enough
for that; but there is something beyond these more common evils. You
see, I am terribly in earnest over this--you may think unjustly so,
considering how well I know you, but this child is my only child. If her
mother had lived, my responsibility would have been less great; but, as
it is, God has left her here alone to me in my hands. I do not think He
intended my duty should end when I had fed and clothed her, and taught
her to read and write. I do not think He meant that I should only act as
her guardian until the first man she fancied fancied her. I must look to
her happiness not only now when she is with me, but I must assure myself
of it when she leaves my roof. These common sins of youth I acquit you
of. Such things are beneath you, I believe, and I did not even consider
them. But there are other toils in which men become involved, other
evils or misfortunes which exist, and which threaten all men who are
young and free and attractive in many ways to women, as well as men.
You have lived the life of the young man of this day. You have reached
a place in your profession when you can afford to rest and marry and
assume the responsibilities of marriage. You look forward to a life of
content and peace and honorable ambition--a life, with your wife at your
side, which is to last forty or fifty years. You consider where you will
be twenty years from now, at what point of your career you may become a
judge or give up practice; your perspective is unlimited; you even
think of the college to which you may send your son. It is a long, quiet
future that you are looking forward to, and you choose my daughter as
the companion for that future, as the one woman with whom you could live
content for that length of time. And it is in that spirit that you come
to me to-night and that you ask me for my daughter. Now I am going to
ask you one question, and as you answer that I will tell you whether
or not you can have Ellen for your wife. You look forward, as I say, to
many years of life, and you have chosen her as best suited to live that
period with you; but I ask you this, and I demand that you answer me
truthfully, and that you remember that you are speaking to her father.
Imagine that I had the power to tell you, or rather that some superhuman
agent could convince you, that you had but a month to live, and that for
what you did in that month you would not be held responsible either by
any moral law or any law made by man, and that your life hereafter would
not be influenced by your conduct in that month, would you spend it, I
ask you--and on your answer depends mine--would you spend those thirty
days, with death at the end, with my daughter, or with some other woman
of whom I know nothing?”
Latimer sat for some time silent, until indeed, his silence assumed
such a significance that he raised his head impatiently and said with a
motion of the hand, “I mean to answer you in a minute; I want to be sure
that I understand.”
The bishop bowed his head in assent, and for a still longer period the
men sat motionless. The clock in the corner seemed to tick more loudly,
and the dead coals dropping in the grate had a sharp, aggressive sound.
The notes of the piano that had risen from the room below had ceased.
“If I understand you,” said Latimer, finally, and his voice and his
face as he raised it were hard and aggressive, “you are stating a purely
hypothetical case. You wish to try me by conditions which do not exist,
which cannot exist. What justice is there, what right is there,
in asking me to say how I would act under circumstances which are
impossible, which lie beyond the limit of human experience? You cannot
judge a man by what he would do if he were suddenly robbed of all his
mental and moral training and of the habit of years. I am not admitting,
understand me, that if the conditions which you suggest did exist that I
would do one whit differently from what I will do if they remain as they
are. I am merely denying your right to put such a question to me at all.
You might just as well judge the shipwrecked sailors on a raft who eat
each other's flesh as you would judge a sane, healthy man who did such
a thing in his own home. Are you going to condemn men who are ice-locked
at the North Pole, or buried in the heart of Africa, and who have given
up all thought of return and are half mad and wholly without hope, as
you would judge ourselves? Are they to be weighed and balanced as you
and I are, sitting here within the sound of the cabs outside and with
a bake-shop around the corner? What you propose could not exist, could
never happen. I could never be placed where I should have to make such
a choice, and you have no right to ask me what I would do or how I
would act under conditions that are super-human--you used the word
yourself--where all that I have held to be good and just and true would
be obliterated. I would be unworthy of myself, I would be unworthy of
your daughter, if I considered such a state of things for a moment, or
if I placed my hopes of marrying her on the outcome of such a test, and
so, sir,” said the young man, throwing back his head, “I must refuse to
answer you.”
The bishop lowered his hand from before his eyes and sank back wearily
into his chair. “You have answered me,” he said.
“You have no right to say that,” cried the young man, springing to his
feet. “You have no right to suppose anything or to draw any conclusions.
I have not answered you.” He stood with his head and shoulders thrown
back, and with his hands resting on his hips and with the fingers
working nervously at his waist.
“What you have said,” replied the bishop, in a voice that had changed
strangely, and which was inexpressibly sad and gentle, “is merely a
curtain of words to cover up your true feeling. It would have been so
easy to have said, 'For thirty days or for life Ellen is the only woman
who has the power to make me happy.' You see that would have answered me
and satisfied me. But you did not say that,” he added, quickly, as the
young man made a movement as if to speak.
“Well, and suppose this other woman did exist, what then?” demanded
Latimer. “The conditions you suggest are impossible; you must, you will
surely, sir, admit that.”
“I do not know,” replied the bishop, sadly; “I do not know. It may
happen that whatever obstacle there has been which has kept you from her
may be removed. It may be that she has married, it may be that she has
fallen so low that you cannot marry her. But if you have loved her once,
you may love her again; whatever it was that separated you in the past,
that separates you now, that makes you prefer my daughter to her, may
come to an end when you are married, when it will be too late, and when
only trouble can come of it, and Ellen would bear that trouble. Can I
risk that?”
“But I tell you it is impossible,” cried the young man. “The woman is
beyond the love of any man, at least such a man as I am, or try to be.”
“Do you mean,” asked the bishop, gently, and with an eager look of hope,
“that she is dead?”
Latimer faced the father for some seconds in silence. Then he raised his
head slowly. “No,” he said, “I do not mean she is dead. No, she is not
dead.”
Again the bishop moved back wearily into his chair. “You mean then,” he
said, “perhaps, that she is a married woman?” Latimer pressed his lips
together at first as though he would not answer, and then raised his
eyes coldly. “Perhaps,” he said.
The older man had held up his hand as if to signify that what he was
about to say should be listened to without interruption, when a sharp
turning of the lock of the door caused both father and the suitor to
start. Then they turned and looked at each other with anxious inquiry
and with much concern, for they recognized for the first time that their
voices had been loud. The older man stepped quickly across the floor,
but before he reached the middle of the room the door opened from the
outside, and his daughter stood in the door-way, with her head held down
and her eyes looking at the floor.
“Ellen!” exclaimed the father, in a voice of pain and the deepest pity.
The girl moved toward the place from where his voice came, without
raising her eyes, and when she reached him put her arms about him and
hid her face on his shoulder. She moved as though she were tired, as
though she were exhausted by some heavy work.
“My child,” said the bishop, gently, “were you listening?” There was no
reproach in his voice; it was simply full of pity and concern.
“I thought,” whispered the girl, brokenly, “that he would be frightened;
I wanted to hear what he would say. I thought I could laugh at him
for it afterward. I did it for a joke. I thought--” she stopped with a
little gasping sob that she tried to hide, and for a moment held herself
erect and then sank back again into her father's arms with her head upon
his breast.
Latimer started forward, holding out his arms to her. “Ellen,” he said,
“surely, Ellen, you are not against me. You see how preposterous it is,
how unjust it is to me. You cannot mean--”
The girl raised her head and shrugged her shoulders slightly as though
she were cold. “Father,” she said, wearily, “ask him to go away, Why
does he stay? Ask him to go away.”
Latimer stopped and took a step back as though some one had struck him,
and then stood silent with his face flushed and his eyes flashing. It
was not in answer to anything that they said that he spoke, but to their
attitude and what it suggested. “You stand there,” he began, “you
two stand there as though I were something unclean, as though I had
committed some crime. You look at me as though I were on trial for
murder or worse. Both of you together against me. What have I done? What
difference is there? You loved me a half-hour ago, Ellen; you said
you did. I know you loved me; and you, sir,” he added, more quietly,
“treated me like a friend. Has anything come since then to change me or
you? Be fair to me, be sensible. What is the use of this? It is a silly,
needless, horrible mistake. You know I love you, Ellen; love you better
than all the world. I don't have to tell you that; you know it, you can
see and feel it. It does not need to be said; words can't make it any
truer. You have confused yourselves and stultified yourselves with this
trick, this test by hypothetical conditions, by considering what is not
real or possible. It is simple enough; it is plain enough. You know I
love you, Ellen, and you only, and that is all there is to it, and all
that there is of any consequence in the world to me. The matter stops
there; that is all there is for you to consider. Answer me, Ellen, speak
to me. Tell me that you believe me.”
He stopped and moved a step toward her, but as he did so, the girl,
still without looking up, drew herself nearer to her father and shrank
more closely into his arms; but the father's face was troubled and
doubtful, and he regarded the younger man with a look of the most
anxious scrutiny. Latimer did not regard this. Their hands were raised
against him as far as he could understand, and he broke forth again
proudly, and with a defiant indignation:
“What right have you to judge me?” he began; “what do you know of what
I have suffered, and endured, and overcome? How can you know what I have
had to give up and put away from me? It's easy enough for you to draw
your skirts around you, but what can a woman bred as you have been bred
know of what I've had to fight against and keep under and cut away? It
was an easy, beautiful idyl to you; your love came to you only when it
should have come, and for a man who was good and worthy, and distinctly
eligible--I don't mean that; forgive me, Ellen, but you drive me beside
myself. But he is good and he believes himself worthy, and I say that
myself before you both. But I am only worthy and only good because of
that other love that I put away when it became a crime, when it became
impossible. Do you know what it cost me? Do you know what it meant to
me, and what I went through, and how I suffered? Do you know who this
other woman is whom you are insulting with your doubts and guesses in
the dark? Can't you spare her? Am I not enough? Perhaps it was easy
for her, too; perhaps her silence cost her nothing; perhaps she did not
suffer and has nothing but happiness and content to look forward to for
the rest of her life; and I tell you that it is because we did put
it away, and kill it, and not give way to it that I am whatever I am
to-day; whatever good there is in me is due to that temptation and
to the fact that I beat it and overcame it and kept myself honest and
clean. And when I met you and learned to know you I believed in my heart
that God had sent you to me that I might know what it was to love a
woman whom I could marry and who could be my wife; that you were the
reward for my having overcome temptation and the sign that I had done
well. And now you throw me over and put me aside as though I were
something low and unworthy, because of this temptation, because of this
very thing that has made me know myself and my own strength and that has
kept me up for you.”
As the young man had been speaking, the bishop's eyes had never left
his face, and as he finished, the face of the priest grew clearer and
decided, and calmly exultant. And as Latimer ceased he bent his head
above his daughter's, and said in a voice that seemed to speak with more
than human inspiration. “My child,” he said, “if God had given me a son
I should have been proud if he could have spoken as this young man has
done.”
But the woman only said, “Let him go to her.”
“Ellen, oh, Ellen!” cried the father.
He drew back from the girl in his arms and looked anxiously and
feelingly at her lover. “How could you, Ellen,” he said, “how could
you?” He was watching the young man's face with eyes full of sympathy
and concern. “How little you know him,” he said, “how little you
understand. He will not do that,” he added quickly, but looking
questioningly at Latimer and speaking in a tone almost of command. “He
will not undo all that he has done; I know him better than that.” But
Latimer made no answer, and for a moment the two men stood watching each
other and questioning each other with their eyes. Then Latimer turned,
and without again so much as glancing at the girl walked steadily to the
door and left the room. He passed on slowly down the stairs and out into
the night, and paused upon the top of the steps leading to the street.
Below him lay the avenue with its double line of lights stretching off
in two long perspectives. The lamps of hundreds of cabs and carriages
flashed as they advanced toward him and shone for a moment at the
turnings of the cross-streets, and from either side came the ceaseless
rush and murmur, and over all hung the strange mystery that covers a
great city at night. Latimer's rooms lay to the south, but he stood
looking toward a spot to the north with a reckless, harassed look in his
face that had not been there for many months. He stood so for a minute,
and then gave a short shrug of disgust at his momentary doubt and ran
quickly down the steps. “No,” he said, “if it were for a month, yes; but
it is to be for many years, many more long years.” And turning his back
resolutely to the north he went slowly home.
THE TRAILER FOR ROOM NO. 8
The “trailer” for the green-goods men who rented room No. 8 in Case's
tenement had had no work to do for the last few days, and was cursing
his luck in consequence.
He was entirely too young to curse, but he had never been told so, and,
indeed, so imperfect had his training been that he had never been told
not to do anything as long as it pleased him to do it and made existence
any more bearable.
He had been told when he was very young, before the man and woman who
had brought him into the world had separated, not to crawl out on the
fire-escape, because he might break his neck, and later, after his
father had walked off Hegelman's Slip into the East River while very
drunk, and his mother had been sent to the penitentiary for grand
larceny, he had been told not to let the police catch him sleeping under
the bridge.
With these two exceptions he had been told to do as he pleased, which
was the very mockery of advice, as he was just about as well able to do
as he pleased as is any one who has to beg or steal what he eats and has
to sleep in hall-ways or over the iron gratings of warm cellars and has
the officers of the children's societies always after him to put him in
a “Home” and make him be “good.”
“Snipes,” as the trailer was called, was determined no one should ever
force him to be good if he could possibly prevent it. And he certainly
did do a great deal to prevent it. He knew what having to be good meant.
Some of the boys who had escaped from the Home had told him all about
that. It meant wearing shoes and a blue and white checkered apron, and
making cane-bottomed chairs all day, and having to wash yourself in a
big iron tub twice a week, not to speak of having to move about like
machines whenever the lady teacher hit a bell. So when the green-goods
men, of whom the genial Mr. Alf Wolfe was the chief, asked Snipes to
act as “trailer” for them at a quarter of a dollar for every victim he
shadowed, he jumped at the offer and was proud of the position.
If you should happen to keep a grocery store in the country, or to
run the village post-office, it is not unlikely that you know what a
green-goods man is; but in case you don't, and have only a vague idea
as to how he lives, a paragraph of explanation must be inserted here
for your particular benefit. Green goods is the technical name for
counterfeit bills, and the green-goods men send out circulars to
countrymen all over the United States, offering to sell them $5,000
worth of counterfeit money for $500, and ease their conscience by
explaining to them that by purchasing these green goods they are hurting
no one but the Government, which is quite able, with its big surplus, to
stand the loss. They enclose a letter which is to serve their victim as
a mark of identification or credential when he comes on to purchase.
The address they give him is in one of the many drug-store and
cigar-store post-offices which are scattered all over New York, and
which contribute to make vice and crime so easy that the evil they do
cannot be reckoned in souls lost or dollars stolen. If the letter from
the countryman strikes the dealers in green goods as sincere, they
appoint an interview with him by mail in rooms they rent for the
purpose, and if they, on meeting him there, think he is still in earnest
and not a detective or officer in disguise, they appoint still another
interview, to be held later in the day in the back room of some saloon.
Then the countryman is watched throughout the day from the moment
he leaves the first meeting-place until he arrives at the saloon. If
anything in his conduct during that time leads the man whose duty it is
to follow him, or the “trailer,” as the profession call it, to believe
he is a detective, he finds when he arrives at the saloon that there
is no one to receive him. But if the trailer regards his conduct as
unsuspicious, he is taken to another saloon, not the one just appointed,
which is, perhaps, a most respectable place, but to the thieves' own
private little rendezvous, where he is robbed in any of the several
different ways best suited to their purpose.
Snipes was a very good trailer. He was so little that no one ever
noticed him, and he could keep a man in sight no matter how big the
crowd was, or how rapidly it changed and shifted. And he was as patient
as he was quick, and would wait for hours if needful, with his eye on
a door, until his man reissued into the street again. And if the one he
shadowed looked behind him to see if he was followed, or dodged up and
down different streets, as if he were trying to throw off pursuit, or
despatched a note or telegram, or stopped to speak to a policeman or any
special officer, as a detective might, who thought he had his men safely
in hand, off Snipes would go on a run, to where Alf Wolfe was waiting,
and tell what he had seen.
Then Wolfe would give him a quarter or more, and the trailer would go
back to his post opposite Case's tenement, and wait for another victim
to issue forth, and for the signal from No. 8 to follow him. It was not
much fun, and “customers,” as Mr. Wolfe always called them, had been
scarce, and Mr. Wolfe, in consequence, had been cross and nasty in his
temper, and had batted Snipe out of the way on more than one occasion.
So the trailer was feeling blue and disconsolate, and wondered how it
was that “Naseby” Raegen, “Rags” Raegen's younger brother, had had the
luck to get a two weeks' visit to the country with the Fresh Air Fund
children, while he had not.
He supposed it was because Naseby had sold papers, and wore shoes, and
went to night school, and did many other things equally objectionable.
Still, what Naseby had said about the country, and riding horseback,
and the fishing, and the shooting crows with no cops to stop you, and
watermelons for nothing, had sounded wonderfully attractive and quite
improbable, except that it was one of Naseby's peculiarly sneaking ways
to tell the truth. Anyway, Naseby had left Cherry Street for good, and
had gone back to the country to work there. This all helped to make
Snipes morose, and it was with a cynical smile of satisfaction that he
watched an old countryman coming slowly up the street, and asking his
way timidly of the Italians to Case's tenement.
The countryman looked up and about him in evident bewilderment and
anxiety. He glanced hesitatingly across at the boy leaning against the
wall of a saloon, but the boy was watching two sparrows fighting in the
dirt of the street, and did not see him. At least, it did not look as if
he saw him. Then the old man knocked on the door of Case's tenement.
No one came, for the people in the house had learned to leave inquiring
countrymen to the gentleman who rented room No. 8, and as that gentleman
was occupied at that moment with a younger countryman, he allowed the
old man, whom he had first cautiously observed from the top of the
stairs, to remain where he was.
The old man stood uncertainly on the stoop, and then removed his heavy
black felt hat and rubbed his bald head and the white shining locks of
hair around it with a red bandanna handkerchief. Then he walked very
slowly across the street toward Snipes, for the rest of the street was
empty, and there was no one else at hand. The old man was dressed in
heavy black broadcloth, quaintly cut, with boot legs showing up under
the trousers, and with faultlessly clean linen of home-made manufacture.
“I can't make the people in that house over there hear me,” complained
the old man, with the simple confidence that old age has in very young
boys. “Do you happen to know if they're at home?”
“Nop,” growled Snipes.
“I'm looking for a man named Perceval,” said the stranger; “he lives in
that house, and I wanter see him on most particular business. It isn't
a very pleasing place he lives in, is it--at least,” he hurriedly added,
as if fearful of giving offence, “it isn't much on the outside? Do you
happen to know him?”
Perceval was Alf Wolfe's business name.
“Nop,” said the trailer.