A house of native stone built into and among weather-scarred rocks, one
massive wing butting seaward, others nosing north and south among cedars
and outcropping ledges--the whole silver-grey mass of masonry reddening
under a westering sun, every dormer, every leaded diamond pane aflame;
this was Shotover as Siward first beheld it.
Like the craggy vertebrae of a half-buried fossil splitting the sod, a
ragged line of rock rose as a barrier to inland winds; the foreland, set
here and there with tiny lawns and pockets of bright flowers, fell
away to the cliffs; and here, sheer wet black rocks fronted the eternal
battering of the Atlantic.
As the phaeton drew up under a pillared porte-cochere, one or two
servants appeared; a rather imposing specimen bowed them through the
doors into the hall where, in a wide chimney place, the embers of a
drift-wood fire glimmered like a heap of dusty jewels. Bars of sunlight
slanted on wall and rug, on stone floor and carved staircase, on the
bronze foliations of the railed gallery above, where, in the golden
gloom through a high window, sun-tipped tree tops against a sky of azure
stirred like burnished foliage in a tapestry.
“There is nobody here, of course,” observed Miss Landis to Siward as
they halted in front of the fire-place; “the season opens to-day in this
county, you see.” She shrugged her pretty shoulders: “And the women who
don't shoot make the first field-luncheon a function.”
She turned, nodded her adieux, then, over her shoulder, casually: “If
you haven't an appointment with the Sand-Man before dinner you may find
me in the gun-room.”
“I'll be there in about three minutes,” he said; “and what about this
dog?”--looking down at the Sagamore pup who stood before him, wagging,
attentive, always the gentleman to the tips of his toes.
Miss Landis laughed. “Take him to your room if you like. Dogs have the
run of the house.”
So he followed a servant to the floor above where a smiling and very
ornamental maid preceded him through a corridor and into that heavy wing
of the house which fronted the sea.
“Tea is served in the gun-room, sir,” said the pretty maid, and
disappeared to give place to a melancholy and silent young man who
turned on the bath, laid out fresh raiment, and whispering, “Scotch or
Irish, sir?” presently effaced himself.
Before he quenched his own thirst Siward filled a bowl and set it on the
floor, and it seemed as though the dog would never finish gulping and
slobbering in the limpid icy water.
“It's the salt air, my boy,” commented the young man, gravely refilling
his own glass as though accepting the excuse on his own account.
Then man and beast completed ablutions and grooming and filed out
through the wide corridor, around the gallery, and down the broad
stairway to the gun-room--an oaken vaulted place illuminated by the sun,
where mellow lights sparkled on glass-cased rows of fowling pieces and
rifles, on the polished antlers of shaggy moose heads.
Miss Landis sat curled up in a cushioned corner under the open casement
panes, offering herself a cup of tea. She looked up, nodding invitation;
he found a place beside her. A servant whispered, “Scotch or Irish,
sir,” then set the crystal paraphernalia at his elbow.
He said something about the salt air, casually; the girl gazed
meditatively at space.
The sound of wheels on the gravel outside aroused her from a silence
which had become a brown study; and, to Siward, presently, she said:
“Here endeth our first rendezvous.”
“Then let us arrange another immediately,” he said, stirring the ice in
his glass.
The girl considered him with speculative eyes: “I shouldn't exactly know
what to do with you for the next hour if I didn't abandon you.”
“Why bother to do anything with me? Why even give yourself the trouble
of deserting me? That solves the problem.”
“I really don't mean that you are a problem to me, Mr. Siward,” she
said, amused; “I mean that I am going to drive again.”
“I see.”
“No you don't see at all. There's a telegram; I'm not driving for
pleasure--”
She had not meant that either, and it annoyed her that she had expressed
herself in such terms. As a matter of fact, at the telegraphed request
of Mr. Quarrier, she was going to Black Fells Crossing to meet his train
from the Lakes and drive him back to Shotover. The drive, therefore, was
of course a drive for pleasure.
“I see,” repeated Siward amiably.
“Perhaps you do,” she observed, rising to her graceful height. He was
on his feet at once, so carelessly, so good-humouredly acquiescent that
without any reason at all she hesitated.
“I had meant to show you about--the cliffs--the kennels and stables; I'm
sorry,” she concluded, lingering.
“I'm awfully sorry,” he rejoined without meaning anything in particular.
That was the trouble, whatever he said, apparently meant so much.
With the agreeable sensation of being regretted, she leisurely gloved
herself, then walked through the gun-room and hall, Siward strolling
beside her.
The dog followed them as they turned toward the door and passed out
across the terraced veranda to the driveway where a Tandem cart was
drawn up, faultlessly appointed. Quarrier's mania was Tandem. She
thought it rather nice of her to remember this.
She inspected the ensemble without visible interest for a few moments;
the wind freshened from the sea, fluttering her veil, and she turned
toward the east to face it. In the golden splendour of declining day the
white sails of yachts crowded landward on the last leg before beating
westward into Blue Harbour; a small white cruiser, steaming south,
left a mile long stratum of rose-tinted smoke hanging parallel to the
horizon's plane; the westering sun struck sparks from her bright-work.
The magic light on land and water seemed to fascinate the girl; she
had walked a little way toward the cliffs, Siward following silently,
offering no comment on the beauty of sky and cliff. As they halted once
more the enchantment seemed to spread; a delicate haze enveloped the
sea; hints of rose colour tinted the waves; over the uplands a pale
mauve bloom grew; the sunlight turned redder, slanting on the rocks,
and every kelp-covered reef became a spongy golden mound, sprayed with
liquid flame.
They had turned their backs to the Tandem; the grooms looked after them,
standing motionless at the horses' heads.
“Mr. Siward, this is too fine to miss,” she said. “I will walk as far as
the headland with you. … Please smoke if you care to.”
He did care to; several matches were extinguished by the wind until she
spread her skids as a barrier; and kneeling in their shelter he got his
light.
“Tobacco smoke diluted with sea breeze is delicious,” she said, as
the wind whirled the aromatic smoke of his cigarette up into her face.
“Don't move, Mr. Siward; I like it; there is to me always a faint odour
of sweet-brier in the mélange. Did you ever notice it?”
The breeze-blown conversation became fragmentary, veering as
capriciously as the purple wind-flaws that spread across the shoals. But
always to her question or comment she found in his response the charm of
freshness, of quick intelligence, or of a humourous and idle perversity
which stimulates without demanding.
Once, glancing back at the house where the T-cart and horses stood, she
said that she had better return; or perhaps she only thought she said
it, for he made no response that time. And a few moments later they
reached the headland, and the Atlantic lay below, flowing azure from
horizon to horizon--under a universe of depthless blue. And for a long
while neither spoke.
With her the spell endured until conscience began to stir. Then she
awoke, uneasy as always, under the shadow of restraint or pressure,
until her eyes fell on him and lingered.
A subtle change had come into his face; its leanness struck her for
the first time; that, and an utter detachment from his surroundings, a
sombre oblivion to everything--and to her.
How curiously had his face altered, how shadowy it had grown, effacing
the charm of youth, in it.
The slight amusement with which she had become conscious of her own
personal exclusion grew to an interest tinged with curiosity.
The interest continued, but when his silence became irksome to her
she said so very frankly. His absent eyes, still clouded, met hers,
unsmiling.
“I hate the sea,” he said.
“You--hate it!” she repeated, too incredulous to be disappointed.
“There's no rest in it; it tires. A man who plays with it must be on
his guard every second. To spend a lifetime on it is ridiculous--a
whole life of intelligent effort, against perpetual, brutal, inanimate
resistance--one endless uninterrupted fight--a ceaseless human manoeuvre
against senseless menace; and then the counter attack of the lifeless
monster, the bellowing advance, the shock--and no battle won--nothing
final, nothing settled, no! only the same eternal nightmare of
surveillance, the same sleepless watch for stupid treachery.”
“But--you don't have to fight it!” she said, astonished.
“No; but it is no secret--what it does to those who do. … Some escape;
but only by dying ashore before it gets them. That is the way some of us
reach Heaven; we die too quick for the Enemy to catch us.”
He was laughing when she said: “It is not a fight with the sea; it is
the battle of Life itself you mean.”
“Yes, in a way, the battle of Life.”
“Oh, you are morbid then. Is there anybody ever born who has not a fight
on his hands?”
“No; only I have known men tired out, unfairly, before life had declared
war on them.”
“Just what do you mean?”
“Oh, something about fair play--what our popular idol summarises as a
'square deal'.” He laughed again, easily, his face clearing.
“Nobody worth a square deal ever laments because he hasn't had it,” she
said.
“I dare say that's true, too,” he admitted listlessly.
“Mr. Siward, exactly what did you mean?”
“I was thinking of men I knew; for example a man who through generations
has inherited every impulse and desire that he should not harbour--a man
with intellect enough to be aware of it, with decency enough to desire
decency. … What chance has he with the storms which have been brewing
for him even before he opened his eyes on earth? Is that a square deal?”
The troubled concentration of her face was reflected now in his own; the
wind came whipping and flicking at them from league-wide tossing wastes;
the steady thunder of the sea accented the silence.
She said: “I suppose everybody has infinite capacity for decency or
mischief. I know that I have. And I fancy that this capacity always
remains, no matter how moral one's life may be. 'Watch and pray' was not
addressed to the guilty alone, Mr. Siward.”
“Oh, yes, of course. As for the balanced capacity for good and evil, how
about the inherited desire for the latter?”
“Who is free from that, too? Do you suppose anybody really desires to be
good?”
“You mean most people are so afraid not to be, that virtue becomes a
habit?”
“Perhaps. It's a plain business proposition anyway. It pays.”
“Celestial insurance?” he asked, laughing.
“I don't know, Mr. Siward; do you?”
But he, turning to the sea, had become engrossed in his own thoughts
again; and again she was first curious, then impatient at the ease with
which he excluded her. She remembered, too, that the cart was waiting;
that she had scarcely time now to make the train.
She stood irresolute, inert, disinclined to bestir herself. An
inborn aptitude for drifting, which threatened to become a talent
for indecision, had always alternated in her with sudden impulsive
conclusions; and when her pride was involved, in decisions which
sometimes scarcely withstood the analysis of reason.
Physically healthy, mentally unawakened, sentimentally incredulous,
totally ignorant of any master passion, and conventionally drilled, her
beauty and sweet temper had carried her easily on the frothy crest of
her first season, over the eligible and ineligible alike, leaving her at
Lenox, a rather tired and breathless girl, in love with pleasure and the
world which treated her so well.
The death of her mother abroad had made little impression upon her--her
uncle, Major Belwether, having cared for her since her father's death
when she was ten years old. So, although the scandal of her mother's
self-exile had been in a measure condoned by a tardy marriage to the man
for whom she had left everything, her daughter had grown up ignorant of
any particular feeling for a mother she could scarcely remember.
However, she wore black and went nowhere for the second winter, during
which time she learned a great deal concerning the unconventional
proclivities of the women of her race and family, enough to impress her
so seriously that on an exaggerated impulse she had come to one of her
characteristic decisions.
That decision was to break the unsavoury record at the first justifiable
opportunity. And the opportunity came in the shape of Quarrier. As
though wedlock were actually the sanctuary which an alarmed nation
pretends it to be!
Now, approaching the threshold of a third and last season, and having
put away her almost meaningless mourning, there had stolen into her
sense of security something irksome in the promise she had made to give
Quarrier a definite answer before winter.
Perhaps it had been the lack of interest in the people at Shotover,
perhaps a mental review of her ancestors' capricious records--perhaps a
characteristic impulse that had directed a telegram to Quarrier after a
midnight confab with Grace Ferrall.
However it may have been, she had summoned him. And now he was on his
way to get his answer, the best whip, the most eagerly discussed, and
one of the wealthiest unmarried men in America.
Lingering irresolutely, considering with idle eyes the shadows
lengthening across the sun-shot moorland, the sound of Siward's even
voice aroused her from a meditation bordering on lassitude.
She answered vaguely. He spoke again; all the agreeable, gentle,
humourous charm dominant once more--releasing her from the growing
tension of her own thoughts, absolving her from the duty of immediate
decision.
“I feel curiously lazy,” she said; “perhaps from our long drive.” She
seated herself on the turf. “Talk to me, Mr. Siward--in that lazy way of
yours.”
What he had to say proved inconsequent enough, an irrelevant suggestion
concerning the training of field-dogs for close covert work and the
reasons for not breaking such dogs on quail. Then the question of
cross-breeding came up, and he gave his opinion on the qualities of
“droppers.” To which she replied, sleepily; and the conversation veered
again toward the mystery of heredity, and the hopelessness of escape
from its laws as illustrated now by the Sagamore pup, galloping nose in
the wind, having scented afar the traces of the forbidden rabbit.
“His ancestors turned 'round and 'round to flatten the long reeds and
grasses in their lairs before lying down,” observed Siward. “He does it,
too, where there is nothing to flatten out. Did you ever notice how many
times a dog turns around before lying down? And there goes the carefully
schooled Sagamore, chasing rabbits! Why? Because his wild ancestors
chased rabbits. … Heredity? It's a steady, unseen, pulling, dragging
force. Like lightning, too, it shatters, sometimes, where there is
resistance.”
“Do you mean, Mr. Siward, that heredity is an excuse for moral
weakness?”
“I don't know. Those inheriting nothing of evil say it is no excuse.”
“It is no excuse.”
“You speak with authority,” he said.
“With more than you are aware of,” she murmured, not meaning to say it.
She stood up impulsively, her fresh face turned to the distant house,
her rounded young figure poised in relief against the sky.
“Inherited or not, idleness, procrastination, are my besetting sins.
Can't you suggest the remedy, Mr. Siward?”
“But they are only the thieves of Time; and we kill the poor old
gentleman.”
“Leagued assassins,” she repeated pensively.
Her gown had caught on the cliff briers; he knelt to release it, she
looking down, noting an ugly tear in the fabric.
“Payment for my iniquities--the first instalment,” she said, still
looking down over his shoulder and watching his efforts to release her.
“Thank you, Mr. Siward. I think we ought to start, don't you?”
He straightened up, smiling, awaiting her further pleasure. Her pleasure
being capricious, she seated herself again, saying: “What I meant to say
was this: evils that spring from heredity are no excuse for misconduct
in people of our sort. Environment, not heredity, counts. And it's our
business, who have every chance in the world, to make good!”
He looked down, amused at the piquant incongruity of voice and
vernacular.
“What time is it?” she asked irrelevantly.
He glanced at his watch. She turned her eyes toward the level sun,
conscious, and a little conscience-stricken that it was too late for her
to drive to Black Fells Crossing--unless she started at once.
The sun hung low over the pines; all the scrubby foreland ran molten
gold in every tufted furrow; flock after flock of twittering little
birds whirled into the briers and out again, scattering inland into
undulating flight.
The zenith turned shell pink; through clotted shoals of clouds spread
spaces of palest green like calm lakes in the sky.
It grew stiller; the wind went down with the sun.
Doubtless he had forgotten to tell her the time; she had almost
forgotten that she had asked him. With the silence of sunset a languor,
the indolence of content, crept over her; she saw him close his watch
with the absent-minded air which she already associated with him, and
she let the question go from sheer disinclination for the effort of
repetition--let the projected drive go--acquiescent, content that
matters shape themselves without any interference from her. The sense of
ease, of physical well-being invaded her with an agreeable relaxation as
though tension somewhere had slackened.
They chatted on, casually, impersonally, in rather subdued tones. The
dog returned now and then to see that all was well. All was well enough,
it appeared, for she sat beside Siward, quite content, knees clasped in
her hands, exchanging impressions of life with a man who so far had
been sympathetically considerate in demanding from her no intellectual
effort.
The conversation drifted illogically; sometimes he stirred her to
amusement, even a hushed laughter; sometimes she smilingly agreed with
his views, sometimes she let them go, uncriticised; or, intent on her
own ideas, shook her small head in amused disapproval.
The stillness over all, the deepening mellow light, the blessed
indolence of the young world--and their few years in it--Youth! That was
perhaps the key to it all, after all.
“To-morrow,” she mused aloud, knees cradled in her clasped fingers,
“to-morrow they'll shoot--with great circumstance and fuss--a few native
woodcock--there's no flight yet from the north!--a few grouse, fewer
snipe, a stray duck or two. Others will drive motor cars over bad roads;
others will ride, sail, golf--anything to kill the eternal enemy.”
“And you?”
“Je n'en sais rien, monsieur.”
“Mais je voudrais savoir.”
“Pourquoi?”
“To lay a true course by the stars”; he looked at her blue eyes and she
laughed easily under the laughing flattery.
“You must seek another compass--to-morrow,” she said. Then it occurred
to her that nobody could guess her decision in regard to Quarrier; and
she partly raised her eyes, looking at him, indolent speculation under
the white lids.
She liked him already; in fact she had liked few men as well on such
brief acquaintance.
“You know the majority of the people here, or coming, don't you?” she
inquired.
“Who are they?”
She began: “The Leroy Mortimers?”
“Oh, yes.”
“Lord Alderdene and Captain Voucher, and the Page twins and Marion?”
“Yes.”
“Rena Bonnesdel, the Tassel girl, Agatha Caithness, Mrs. Vendenning--all
sorts, all sets.” And, with an effort: “If I'm to drive, I should
like--to--to know what time it is?”
He informed her; and she, too indolent to pretend surprise, and finding
reproach easier, told him that he had no business to permit her to
forget.
His smiling serenity under the rebuke aroused in her a slight resentment
as though he had taken something for granted.
Besides, she had grown uneasy; she had wired Quarrier, saying she would
meet him and drive him over. He had replied at once, naming his train.
He was an exact man and expected method and precision in others. She
didn't exactly know how it might affect him if his reasonable demand was
unsatisfied. She did not know him very well yet, only well enough to be
aware that he was a gentleman so precisely, so judiciously constructed,
that, contemplating his equitable perfections, her awe and admiration
grew as one on whom dawns the exquisite adjustments of an almost human
machine.
And, thinking of him now, she again made up her mind to give him the
answer which he now had every reason to expect from her. This decision
appeared to lubricate her conscience; it ran more smoothly now, emitting
fewer creaks.
“You say that you know Mr. Quarrier?” she began thoughtfully.
“Not well.”
“I--hope you will like him, Mr. Siward.”
“I do not think he likes me, Miss Landis. He has reasons not to.”
She looked up, suddenly remembering: “Oh--since that scrape? What
has Mr. Quarrier to do--” She did not finish the sentence. A troubled
silence followed; she was trying to remember the details--something she
had paid small attention to at the time--something so foreign to her,
so distant from her comprehension that it had not touched her closely
enough for her to remember exactly what this young man might have done
to forfeit the good-will of Howard Quarrier.
She looked at Siward; it was impossible that anything very bad could
come from such a man. And, pursuing her reasoning aloud: “It couldn't
have been very awful,” she argued; “something foolish about an actress,
was it not? And that could not concern Mr. Quarrier.”
“I thought you did know; I thought you--remembered--while you were
driving me over from the station--that I was dropped from my club.”
She flushed up: “Oh!--but--what had Mr. Quarrier to do with that?”
“He is a governor of that club.”
“You mean that Mr. Quarrier had you--dropped?”
“What else could he do? A man who is idiot enough to risk making his
own club notorious, must take the consequences. And they say I took that
risk. Therefore Mr. Quarrier, Major Belwether--all the governors did
their duty. I--I naturally conclude that no governor of the Patroons
Club feels very kindly toward me.”
Miss Landis sat very still, her small head bent, a flush still
brightening her fair face.
She recalled a few of the details now--the scandal--something of the
story. Which particular actress it was she could not remember; but some
men who had dined too freely had made the wager, and this boy sitting
beside her had accepted it--and won it, by bringing into the sacred
precincts of the Patroons Club a foolish, shameless girl disguised in a
man's evening dress.
That was bad enough; that somebody promptly discovered it was worse; but
worst of all was the publicity, the club's name smirched, the young man
expelled from one of the two best clubs in the metropolis.
To read of such things in the columns of a daily paper had meant little
to her except to repell her; to hear it mentioned among people of her
own sort had left her incurious and indifferent. But now she saw it in
a new light, with the man who had figured in it seated beside her. Did
such men as he--such attractive, well-bred, amusing men as he--do that
sort of thing?
There he sat, hat off, the sun touching his short, thick hair which
waved a little at the temples--a boyish mould to head and shoulders, a
cleanly outlined check and chin, a thoroughbred ear set close--a good
face. What sort of a man, then, was a woman to feel at ease with? What
eye, what mouth, what manner, what bearing was a woman to trust?
“Is that the kind of man you are, Mr. Siward?” she said impulsively.
“It appears that I was; I don't know what I am--or may be.”
“The pity of it!” she said, still swayed by impulse. “Why did you
do--didn't you know--realize what you were doing--bringing discredit on
your own club?”
“I was in no condition to know, Miss Landis.”
The crude brutality of the expression might merely have hurt or
disgusted her had she been less intelligent. Nor, as it was, did she
fully understand why he chose to use it--unless that he meant it in
self-punishment.
“It's rather shameful!” she said hotly.
“Yes,” he assented; “it's a bad beginning.”
“A--beginning! Do you mean to go on?”
He did not reply; his head was partly turned from her. She sat silent
for a while. The dog had returned to lie at Siward's feet, its brown
eyes tirelessly watching the man it had chosen for its friend; and
the man, without turning his eyes, dropped one hand on the dog's head,
caressing the silky ears.
Some sentimentalist had once said that no man who cared for animals
could be wholly bad. Inexperience inclined her to believe it. Then too,
she had that inclination for overlooking offences committed against
precept, which appears to be one of those edifying human traits peculiar
to neither sex and common to both. Besides, her knowledge of such
matters was as vague as her mind was healthy and body wholesome. Men
who dined incautiously were not remarkable for their rarity; the actress
habit, being incomprehensible to her, meant nothing; and she said,
innocently: “What men like you can find attractive in a common woman I
do not understand; there are plenty of pretty women of your own sort.
The actress cult is beyond my comprehension; I only know it is generally
condoned. But it is not for such things that we drop men, Mr. Siward.
You know that, of course.”
“For what do you drop men?”
“For falsehood, deception, any dishonesty.”
“And you don't drop a man when you read in the papers that one of the
two best clubs in town has expelled him?”
She gave him a troubled glance; and, naively: “But you are still a
member of the other, are you not?” Then hardening: “It was common!
common!--thoroughly disgraceful and incomprehensible!”--and with every
word uttered insensibly warming in her heart toward him whom she was
chastening; “it was not even bad--it was worse than being simply bad; it
was stupid!”
He nodded, one hand slowly caressing the dog's head where it lay across
his knees.
She watched him a moment, hesitated, then smiling a little: “So now I
know the worst about you; do I not?” she concluded.
He did not answer; she waited, the smile still curving her red mouth.
Had she been too severe? She wondered. “You may help me to my feet,” she
said sweetly. She was very young.
He rose at once, holding out his hands to aid her in that pleasantly
impersonal manner so suited to him; and now they stood together in the
purple dusk of the uplands--two people young enough to take one another
seriously.
“Let me tell you something,” she said, facing him, white hands loosely
linked behind her. “I don't exactly understand how it has happened, but
you know as well as I do that we have formed a--an acquaintance--the
sort that under normal conditions requires a long time and several
conventional and preliminary chapters. … I should like to know what you
think of our performance.”
“I think,” he said laughing, “that it is charming.”
“Oh, yes; men usually find the unconventional agreeable. What I want to
know is why I find it so, too?”
“Do you?” A dull colour stained his cheek-bones.
“Certainly I do. Is it because I've had a delightful chance to admonish
a sinner--and be--just a little sorry--that he had made such a silly
spectacle of himself?”
He laughed, wincing a trifle.
“Hence this agreeably righteous glow suffusing me,” she concluded. “So
now that I have answered my own question, I think that we had better go.
… Don't you?”
They walked for a while, subdued, soberly picking their path through the
dusk. After a few moments she began to feel doubtful, a little uneasy,
partly from a reaction which was natural, partly because she was not
at all sure what either Quarrier or Major Belwether would think of the
terms she was already on with Siward. Suppose they objected? She had
never thwarted either of these gentlemen. Besides she already had a
temporary interest in Siward--the interest that women always cherish,
quite unconsciously, for the man whose shortcomings they have consented
to overlook.
As they crossed the headland, through the deepening dusk the acetylene
lamps on a cluster of motor cars spread a blinding light across the
scrub. The windows of Shotover House were brilliantly illuminated.
“Our shooting-party has returned,” she said.
They crossed the drive through the white glare of the motor lamps;
people were passing, grooms with dogs and guns and fluffy bunches of
game-birds, several women in motor costumes, veils afloat, a man or two
in shooting-tweeds or khaki.
As they entered the hall together, she turned to him, an indefinable
smile curving her lips; then, with a little nod, friendly and sweet, she
left him standing at the open door of the gun-room.