On the afternoon of the day upon which Frank said good-bye to Katrine he
took the evening train North. It was his intention to see Ravenel no
more for a long time, certainly not while the Dulanys remained. He was
afraid of himself, for there came to him at every thought of the affair
a glow of admiration at the words Katrine had thrown back at him:
_"It could never have been like that. I should have died first."_
He had given her up, but the fight was not finished, and the struggle
went on constantly. In the silences of the night it was upon him again,
gripping him with a pain around the heart. The most unexpected
happenings would bring remembrances of her. The appealing gaze of an
Irish newsboy, or a hand-organ grinding out the "Ah! che la morte,"
which brought back the half-lighted piano and Katrine's singing in the
twilight; the dreariest; most sordid details of existence reminded him,
who needed no reminding, of the time that he himself had decreed should
be no more.
For three days he endured Bar Harbor before he fled to the Canadian
woods with no companion save a guide. He gave his address to none save
his mother, and for six weeks tramped until his body ached for rest;
rowed the sombre lakes for exhaustion and peace of mind, cursing the
fact that he was a Ravenel, and knowing full well that his conduct was
both foolish and illogical.
At the first stop for letters he found one from his mother, which
disturbed him more than any letter of hers had ever done before. She
wrote:
DEAREST LADDY,--I am writing in much haste and some perturbation of
mind for your advice. Last night, at the Desmonds', Nick van
Rensselaer came to me after dinner for a chat. I knew he had
something upon his mind when he wasted his time talking to a woman.
And what do you think it was? The most astounding, impossible,
quixotic, unlanguageable thing in the world! He wants to send
Katrine Dulany abroad to study. He wants it to be done in my name,
however, so that it will in nowise compromise her, and wishes to
have all the credit of the kindness given to me. He says he does
not want to be known in the matter at all; that the girl can regard
the money as a loan, and return it to him if she becomes a great
singer, of which resulting he seems to have no doubt.
You see the part I shall be forced to take in the affair. I have
asked him for a few days to consider the proposition, and am
writing you for advice.
When are you coming? Every one is asking about you.
Lovingly always,
MOTHER.
Lying on his back watching the crooked blue spots of the sky through the
tree-tops of a Canadian forest, Francis read this letter over and over,
and as he did so it seemed strange to him that he had not thought to
help Katrine in this way himself. If she ever found out that he had done
so she would probably never forgive him, but there were ways, he
reasoned, to arrange it so that she could never find out.
His decision being made, he acted upon it immediately, and that night
two letters, one addressed:
MONSIEUR PAUL ROGALLE,
de Rogalle, Dupont et Cie,
Paris, France,
and another:
M. JOSEF,
Faubourg Saint Honoré,
were mailed by him at the neighboring posting-place of Pont du Coeur.
The morning after the writing of these letters Frank started farther
north, and heard nothing of the outside world for more than a month. At
North Point he found a bundle of letters, two from his mother, and
another from Doctor Johnston, enclosing the note which Katrine had
written him after her father's death.
He opened the doctor's first, and at sight of the enclosure his heart,
in the homely old phrase, came to his throat.
It was a sad letter, thanking the doctor for all he had tried to do,
speaking of her father's suffering at some length, parsimonious of
detail concerning her own life or future plans.
It was ten o'clock in the hunting-hutch. The night outside was starless,
the lamps flickered irregularly, the guides lay heavily asleep in their
blankets on beds of pine boughs in the corner. It was a strange place
for the birth of a man's soul, but as Frank Ravenel read the letter a
tenderness, a selfless tenderness, for the sad little writer of it came
to him. He had already protected her from himself--"somewhat late," he
confessed, with bitterness, and there had been some effort "not to do
the worst." But the feeling that held him as he read was different from
any he had had before. He dwelt on her lonesomeness in the world: the
long nights she must have passed alone watching the coming of death.
Unspeakable tenderness brought a sob to his throat and a pain over his
heart, as though suffering from a blow. The remembrance of her on the
wind-blown hill came back to him; the scarlet handkerchief waved against
the blue of the sky, and the brave call over the brown grass: "_Don't
think of me!_ Good-bye!" It seemed in some way to have been a cry of
victory.
He went to the door of the tent straining his eyes into the blackness.
Alone in the great woods with the night noises, under the silent stars,
things took on a different value. What was he compared to her?
Stripped of family and wealth, how would each measure before a judging
world. "She was so"--he hesitated in his mind for a word--"she was so
_square_," he said to himself. Wave after wave of pity swept over him as
memory brought back to him her vividness, the fervid speech, the humor,
the touch of her. He closed his eyes for a moment, she was in his arms,
there came the odor of her dusky hair, and for the first time in his
life he was a man.
"Grègoire!" he called to the sleeping guide.
"Oui, monsieur."
"The distance to the nearest railroad?"
"By land--it is sixty miles, m'sieu."
"By the lakes?"
"It is much shorter, but of an extreme dangerousness."
"We will go by the lakes."
"When, m'sieur?"
"To-night, Grègoire!"