Not for the first time in his comparatively short life, Nicholas Kenyon
was able to put to the test his often boasted power of self-control. It
was his creed to accept everything that might happen to him, whether
good or bad, with equanimity. It was part of his training to allow
nothing to interfere with the routine of his day and the particular
scheme that he had worked out for himself. He was, however, utterly
unprepared for his father's death. Only the day before he had received a
very cheerful and amusing letter from the Earl of Shropshire which had
provided him with many quiet chuckles. When the blow came in that sudden
fashion it knocked him down and for an hour reduced him to the level of
an ordinary human being--of a man who had not specialized in
individualism and who did not set the earth revolving round himself as
its hub. Shut up in his bedroom he gave way to his real and best
emotions, the genuineness of which surprised him. He was a master
egotist--a superindividualist--the very acme of selfishness. Therefore,
odd as it may seem, he was somewhat ashamed of his deep feeling, because
it proved to him that one of the links of his carefully forged chain of
philosophy was weak. He defined the word philosopher as one who is
profoundly versed in the science of looking after himself.
As soon as Peter had left Kenyon's rooms, the new Earl of Shropshire
took himself in hand and "carried on" as they do in the Navy after
casualties, accidents and the issue of new orders. He continued to
arrange his photographs round the room. He considered that he might as
well make himself completely comfortable until the time came for him to
pack up again and leave the country. He called up Belle on the telephone
and had a little talk with her. He told her of his father's death and of
the fact that he would have to sail within the next twenty-four hours.
He listened with satisfaction to her cry of anguish, and arranged with
her to come to see him that evening. It appeared that she was engaged to
dine with some friends and go with them to hear Alfred Noyes read his
poems at the AEolian Hall. He insisted upon her keeping her engagement
and begged that she would come round to his rooms alone at eleven
o'clock.
He didn't intend to leave the United States, even under such
circumstances, without adding Belle to his little list of conquests. The
cold-bloodedness of such an intention was peculiarly characteristic of
the man. "No weakness," he said to himself--"no weakness. No matter what
happens, what had happened, is happening or may happen, you must carry
on. You've built up a creed, stick to it." And then, very
quietly--having changed his tie to a black one--he went forth to
discover the offices of the White Star Steamship Company,--having
obtained the proper directions from his landlady. He took the subway to
the Battery, interviewed a clerk of Number One Broadway, had the good
fortune to find that there was a state-room vacant on the boat deck of
the _Olympic_; wrote his cheque for it; pocketed a bundle of labels;
paid Graham a brief visit in his office on Wall Street and walked all
the way home again, endeavoring to count the German names all along the
most amazing street in the world, and giving up his temporary hobby in
despair. On the way home he sent off a cable to Baby Lennox, giving her
the name of the ship on which he was to sail. By this time he was tired
and a little dazed at the amazing stir and bustle of Broadway, with its
never-ceasing lines of cable-cars and its whir and rush of human
traffic. He was glad of a cup of tea, and presently arranged himself for
a quiet nap on the sofa in his sitting-room.
Later, with his mind concentrated solely on Belle's impending visit and
what he intended to achieve, he dined alone at the Ritz, dropped in to
see a turn or two at the Palace, and strolled back to Forty-eighth
Street at half-past-ten. As he went into the house he heard the landlady
talking to the two young business men who lived on the first floor. She
was asking them to be good enough not to play the piano that evening, as
the Professor had come back from the country and was very unwell. She
had sent for the doctor, and he would be more comfortable if the house
were as silent as it could be made.
Knowing that Belle would be punctual that night, of all nights, he went
down just before eleven o'clock and waited for her at the front door. It
was his intention to get her into the house unobserved, more for his own
sake than for hers. The night was clear, but half a gale was blowing,
carrying before it all the dust of the city and sending odd pieces of
paper swirling into the air and making the hanging signs outside shops
and small restaurants creak and groan. In its strong, vibrating song
there was a note of wild passion that fitted exquisitely into Kenyon's
frame of mind.
Belle drove up in a taxicab a few minutes after eleven. "Not a word
until we get upstairs," said Kenyon, as he helped her out. And then when
she stood in his sitting-room, with all her emotions in a state of
upheaval, nothing was said for many minutes. He took her in his arms and
kissed her, delighting in her young beauty and freshness with all the
appreciation of a connoisseur.
There seemed to Belle to be no indiscretion in this visit. Was she not
engaged to be married to this man?
As a matter of fact, she was not. Kenyon had been playing with her; and
now that he had succeeded to his father's title he had even less
intention of dealing seriously by her than ever before. Marriage was not
in his thoughts or plans. The title was his and the old house that went
with it, but he was no better off than he had been as Nicholas Kenyon,
the Oxford undergraduate. On the contrary he now had responsibilities of
which he had hitherto been free and he must look out for some one who
could buy his name for a substantial sum. If Belle had read into his
vague and indefinite remarks a proposal of marriage it only showed that
she possessed a very lively imagination. He was not going at that point
to undeceive her. He was merely going to take from her everything that
she was gracious enough to give. His trip to New York had provided him
with very little in actual substance. He was determined that it should
not be altogether empty, and that Belle should furnish him with a
charming memento.
He broke into Belle's preliminary remarks of conventional condolence by
saying, "Thank you; but please don't say a word about my father. Let's
talk about ourselves. We're alive. The next few hours are our property.
Let's make them memorable. Let's give each other something that we can
never forget." And he took her cloak and led her to a chair as though
she were a queen, and stood looking at her with very greedy eyes.
But Belle's temperament was Latin. Ever since Kenyon had spoken to her
over the telephone she had been unable to control her feelings. She
loved this man overwhelmingly. She had given him all her heart, which
had never been touched before. To her it seemed amazingly cruel that
fate had come along with its usual lack of sympathy and circumspection
and put a sudden end to all the delightful hours to which she had been
looking forward. The death of a man whom she didn't know meant very
little to her. She was young, and to the young what is death but a vague
mystery, an inconvenient accident which seems to affect every one but
themselves? Indeed, she rather resented the fact that Kenyon's father,
in dying, was to take so suddenly out of her life the one human being
about whom her entire happiness revolved.
"Oh, Nicholas, Nicholas! Must you go? Must you leave me? Let me go with
you. I have the right. I shall be miserable and unhappy without you."
And she clung to him with all the unreasonableness of a child.
Kenyon was not in the least touched by this appeal--only extremely
pleased, because it showed him that Belle was in the right mood to be
won. He put his hand on her round, white shoulder. "You must be brave,"
he said. "I know how you feel, but you must help me. Don't make things
more difficult than they are. I may be able to come back quite
soon,--who can tell?"
"I believe you're glad to go!" cried Belle.
Kenyon drew back. He wanted to make her feel that she had hurt him. He
succeeded.
In an instant, full of self-reproach, Belle was on her feet and in his
arms again. "What am I going to do without you? I almost wish you'd
never come into my life. I've been looking forward to your being here
the whole winter. How am I going to get through the days alone?"
A motor-car drew up at the house. Neither of them heard Dr. Guthrie's
voice giving a quick order to the chauffeur or recognized his step as he
passed upstairs on the way to see his friend, the Professor, on the
floor above, to whom he had been called by the landlady.
Presently, having turned out all the lights except a shaded lamp on the
table, Kenyon began to let himself go. He threw aside his characteristic
calmness and became the lover--the passionate, adoring man who was about
to be separated, under tragic circumstances, from the girl who was
equally in love. He threw aside his first intention of finessing Belle
into his bedroom on the plea of asking her to help him to pack. He
remembered that the old man above was ill and that the landlady and
others would be passing to and fro. This was distinctly annoying. He
was, however, a past-master in the art that he was at present pursuing
and set the whole of his mind on his opportunity. Belle was, naturally
enough, as putty in his hands and her despair at losing him made her
weak and pliable.
He sat down on the sofa and held Belle in his arms and kissed her again
and again. "I love you! I love you! I don't know--I can't think what I
shall be like without you," he said, bringing all his elaborate cunning
to play upon her feelings. "More like a man who's lost his arms than
anything; and we were to have come nearer and nearer this winter,
finding out all the best of each other and all the joy that it is to
love wholly and completely."
"Oh, don't go, don't go!" cried Belle, making a pathetic and almost
child-like refrain of the words, "I love you so! I love you so!"
Kenyon bent down with her until her head was pillowed on the cushions,
and kissed her lips and eyes. "You must love me, sweetheart, you must.
It's the only thing that I can turn to and count on now. Go on loving
me every minute that I'm away. I shall need it,--and before I go let me
have the precious proof of your love to store up in my heart. Give me
the priceless gift that is the only thing to keep me living till I come
back."
"Nicholas, Nicholas!" she whispered, with her young breasts heaving
against him. "I love you so! I love you so!"
The moment of his triumph had almost been reached when the Doctor, on
his way down, saw something glistening in the passage outside Kenyon's
sitting-room. He stooped and picked it up. He was puzzled to see that it
was a little brooch that he had given to Belle on one of her birthdays.
Her initials had been worked on it in diamonds. For several moments he
held it in his hand, wondering how it could have been dropped in that
place. He was utterly unaware of the fact that Kenyon lived in the house
which he knew to be given up to bachelors. Then the blood rushed into
his head. Almost for the first time in his life the Doctor acted on the
spur of the moment. He was filled with a sudden sense of fear before
which his inherent shyness and hesitancy were swept completely away. He
tried to open the door. It was locked. He hammered upon it, shouting:
"Let me in! Let me in!"
Kenyon, cursing inwardly, sprang up from the sofa. "It's your father,"
he said. "Go and sit by the table, quick, and pretend to be arranging
these photographs." He could have ignored that knocking, but the result
would be that the Doctor would go down to the landlady and there would
be a scandal. How in the name of thunder did he know that Belle was in
the room? He dashed over to the mantel-piece, collected a handful of his
pictures and threw them on the table in front of Belle, who, with a
touch of panic, tried to smooth her hair. Then he went to the door and
opened it.
"Good evening, Doctor," he said quietly. "This is very kind of you.
Belle is here helping me to pack, and Peter should have been here, but I
expect something has detained him. Do come in." He saw the brooch in the
Doctor's hand and cursed Belle's carelessness.
As Dr. Guthrie entered the room the blood slowly left his head. A
feeling of intense relief pervaded him. He saw Belle sitting at the
table with the utmost composure putting one photograph on top of
another. At his side stood the man who had recently been his honored
guest and who was the best friend of his eldest son,--the man of whose
sad loss he had heard that afternoon from his wife. He thanked God that
everything was well and hastened to accept Kenyon's suggestion that he
had come there for the purpose of saying good-bye to him. It saved him
from the appearance of having lost his head and made a fool of himself.
"I--I'm indeed grieved to hear of your father's death, my dear Mr.
Kenyon," he said, stammering a little. "I was called to see an old
friend of mine who lives in this house, who isn't at all well, and I
thought I'd take the opportunity on my way down----"
"I'm deeply obliged to you," said Kenyon, giving the weak, nervous man
before him the credit of having seized the hint so quickly. "It helps me
very much to have so many good friends. I sail to-morrow at two-thirty.
This is a good opportunity for me to thank you very much for your
delightful hospitality. Will you wait for Peter?"
"No; I think not, thanks," said the Doctor. "It's getting late and, as
you say, Peter has in all probability been detained. Belle, dear, I
think you'd better come with me, now."
Kenyon was still quite placid and courteous and undaunted. "Oh, but
mayn't she stay until Peter turns up?"
"I think not," replied the Doctor, astonished at his own firmness. "It's
very late."
"Curse it! Curse it!" cried Kenyon, inwardly. But with a little smile he
went over to Belle and gave her his hand. "You've helped me a lot," he
said. "I can easily finish packing now. Good night and good-bye."
Choking back her sobs and full of resentment at her father's clumsiness
and interference, Belle rose and allowed Kenyon to help her into her
cloak.
By a strange accident she, like Graham, had been saved from a disaster
which might have followed her into the future. God's hand must have been
stretched out to help that man, who, by his unconscious neglect, had
made it possible for these two children of his to stand on the brink of
irreparable misfortune.
Kenyon, keeping up a quiet flow of conventional remarks, followed them
down-stairs and out into the street. He could have drawn Belle back into
the hall while the Doctor went out to the car, and kissed her once
again. But,--it was over, what was the use. He watched her fling herself
into the motor-car and sit all hunched up with her hands over her face,
and then he took the Doctor's hand and shook it warmly. All the angels
in Heaven must have shuddered as he did so, and cried, "Judas! Judas!"
"Good-bye again, then," said the Doctor. "I'm deeply sorry for the
reason that takes you away from us. I hope we may see you again soon."
"I hope so, too," said Kenyon.
Standing in that quiet street he watched the automobile drive away, and
cursed. His mind was filled with impotent rage. He felt as he did when
he was a child and some one had hurt him. He wanted to find the thing
which that some one treasured most and break it all to pieces, and stamp
on it. Then he returned to his rooms, switched on all the lights, and
with a gesture almost animalish in its baffled passion, swept all the
photographs from the table.
He was kicking them savagely, one after another, when he heard the
whistle which he and Peter had used at Oxford to attract each other's
attention. He ran to the window and opened it. There stood Peter with a
glint of moonlight on his great square shoulders.
"Come up!" said Kenyon. "By God, my luck's come back! Now I can make
that old fool pay for ruining my evening!"