RETROSPECTIVE.
The Reverend James Ashurst had been head master of the Helmingham
Grammar School for nearly a quarter of a century. Many old people in
the village had a vivid recollection of him as a young man, with his
bright brown hair curling over his coat-collar, his frank fearless
glances, his rapid jerky walk. They recollected how he was by no means
particularly well received by the powers that then were, how he was
spoken of as "one of the new school"--a term in itself supposed to
convey the highest degree of opprobrium--and how the elders had shaken
their heads and prophesied that no good would come of the change,
and that it would have been better to have held on to old Dr. Munch,
after all. Old Dr. Munch, who had been Mr. Ashurst's immediate
predecessor, was as bad a specimen of the old-fashioned,
nothing-doing, sinecure-seeking pedagogue as could well be imagined; a
rotund, red-faced, gouty-footed divine, with a thick layer of limp
white cravat loosely tied round his short neck, and his suit of
clerical sables splashed with a culinary spray; a man whose originally
small stock of classical learning had gradually faded away, and whose
originally large stock of idleness and self-gratification had
simultaneously increased. Forty male children, born in lawful wedlock
in the parish of Helmingham, and properly presented on the foundation,
might have enjoyed the advantages of a free classical and mathematical
education at the Grammar School under the will of old Sir Ranulph
Clinton, the founder; but, under the lax rule of Dr. Munch, the forty
gradually dwindled to twenty, and of these twenty but few attended
school in the afternoon, knowing perfectly that for the first few
minutes after coming in from dinner the doctor paid but little
attention as to which members of the class might be present, and that
in a very few minutes he fell into a state of pleasant and unbroken
slumber.
This state of affairs was terrible, and, worst of all, it was getting
buzzed abroad. The two or three conscientious boys who really wanted
to learn shook their heads in despair, and appealed to their parents
to "let them leave;" the score of lads who enjoyed the existing state
of affairs were, lad-like, unable to keep it to themselves, and went
about calling on their neighbours to rejoice with them; so, speedily,
every one knew the state of affairs in Helmingham Grammar School. The
trustees of the charity, or "governors," as they were called, had not
the least notion how to proceed. They were, for the most part,
respectable tradesmen of the place, who had vague ideas about
"college" as of a sequestered spot where young men walked about in
stuff gowns and trencher caps, and were, by some unexplained
circumstance, rendered fit and ready for the bishop to convert into
clergymen. There must, they thought, probably be in this "college"
some one fit to take the place of old Dr. Munch, who must be got rid
of, come what may. At first, the resident "governors"--the tradesmen
of Helmingham--thought it best to write to two of their colleagues,
who were non-resident, and not by any manner of means tradesmen,
being, in fact, two distinguished peers of the realm, who, holding
property in the neighbourhood, had, for political reasons, thought fit
to cause themselves to be elected governors of old Sir Ranulph
Clinton's foundation. The letters explaining the state of affairs and
asking for advice were duly written; but matters political were at a
standstill just then; there was not the remotest chance of an election
for years; and so the two private secretaries of the two noble lords
pitched their respective letters into their respective wastebaskets,
with mutual grins of pity and contempt for the writers. Thrown back on
their own resources, the resident governors determined on applying to
the rector; acting under the feeling that he, as a clergyman, must
have been to this "college," and would doubtless be able to put them
in the way of securing such a man as they required. And they were
right. The then rector, though an old man, still kept up occasional
epistolary intercourse with such of his coevals as remained at the
university in the enjoyment of dignities of fellowships; and, being
himself both literate and conscientious, was by no means sorry to lend
a hand towards the removal of Dr. Munch, whom he looked upon as a
scandal to the cloth. A correspondence entered into between the rector
of Helmingham and the Principal of St. Beowulph's College, Oxford,
resulted in the enforced resignation of Dr. Munch as the head master
of Helmingham Grammar School, and the appointment of the Reverend
James Ashurst as his successor. The old doctor took his fate very
calmly; he knew that for a long time he had been doing nothing, and
had been sufficiently well paid for it. He settled down in a pleasant
village in Kent, where an old crony of his held the position of warden
to a City Company's charity, and this history knows him no more.
When James Ashurst received his appointment he was about
eight-and-twenty, had taken a double second class, had been scholar
and tutor of his college, and stood well for a fellowship. By nature
silent and reserved, and having found it necessary for the achievement
of his position to renounce nearly all society--for he was by no means
a brilliant man, and his successes had been gained by plodding
industry, and constant application rather than by the exercise of any
natural talent--James Ashurst had but few acquaintances, and to them
he never talked of his private affairs. They wondered when they heard
that he had renounced certain prospects, notably those of a
fellowship, for so poor a preferment as two hundred pounds a year and
a free house: for they did not know that the odd, shy, silent man had
found time in the intervals of his reading to win the heart of a
pretty trusting girl, and that the great hope of his life, that of
being able to marry her and take her to a decent home of which she
would be mistress, was about to be accomplished.
On a dreary, dull day, in the beginning of a bitter January, Mr.
Ashurst arrived at Helmingham. He found the schoolhouse dirty, dingy,
and uncomfortable, bearing traces everywhere of the negligence and
squalor of its previous occupant; but the chairman of the governors,
who met him on his arrival, told him that it should be thoroughly
cleaned and renovated during the Easter holidays, and the mention of
those holidays caused James Ashurst's heart to leap and throb with an
intensity with which house-painting could not possibly have anything
to do. In the Easter holidays he was to make Mary Bridger his wife,
and that thought sustained him splendidly during the three dreary
intervening months, and helped him to make head against a sea of
troubles raging round him. For the task on which he had entered was no
easy one. Such boys as had remained in the school under the easy rule
of Dr. Munch were of a class much lower than that for which the
benefits of the foundation had been contemplated by the benevolent old
knight, and having been unaccustomed to any discipline, had arrived at
a pitch of lawlessness which required all the new master's energy to
combat. This necessary strictness made him unpopular with the boys,
and at first with their parents, who made loud complaints of their
children being "put upon," and in some cases where bodily punishment
had been inflicted had threatened retribution. Then the chief
tradespeople and the farmers, among whom Dr. Munch had been a daily
and nightly guest, drinking his mug of ale or his tumbler of
brandy-and-water, smoking his long clay pipe, taking his hand at
whist, and listening, if not with pleasure, at any rate without
remonstrance, to language and stories more than sufficiently broad and
indecorous, found that Mr. Ashurst civilly, but persistently, refused
their proffered hospitality, and in consequence pronounced him
"stuck-up." No man was more free from class prejudices, but he had
been bred in old Somerset country society, where the squirearchy
maintained an almost feudal dignity, and his career in college had not
taught him the policy of being on terms of familiarity with those whom
Fortune had made his inferiors.
So James Ashurst struggled on during the first three months of his
novitiate at Helmingham, earnestly and energetically striving to do
his duty, with, it must be confessed, but poor result. The governors
of the school had been so impressed by the rector's recommendation,
and by the testimonials which the new master had submitted to them,
that they expected to find the regeneration of the establishment would
commence immediately upon James Ashurst's appearance upon the
scene, and were rather disappointed when they found that, while the
number of scholars remained much the same as at the time of Dr.
Munch's retirement, the general dissatisfaction in the village
was much greater than it had ever been during the reign of that
summarily-treated pedagogue. The rector, to be sure, remained true to
the choice he had recommended, and maintained everywhere that Mr.
Ashurst had done very well in the face of the greatest difficulties,
and would yet bring Helmingham into notice. But, notwithstanding
constant ocular proof to the contrary, the farmers held that in the
clerical profession, as in freemasonry, there was a certain occult
something beyond the ordinary ken, which bound members of "the cloth"
together, and induced them to support each other to the utmost stretch
of their consciences--a proceeding which, in the opinion of
freethinking Helmingham, allowed for a considerable amount of
elasticity.
At length the long-looked-for Easter tide arrived, and James Ashurst
hurried away from the dull gray old midland country village to the
bright little Thames-bordered town where lived his love. A wedding
with the church approach one brilliant pathway of spring flowers, a
honeymoon of such happiness as one knows but once in a lifetime,
passed in the lovely Lake country, and then Helmingham again. But with
a different aspect. The old schoolhouse itself brave in fresh paint
and new plaster, its renovated diamond windows, its cleaned slab so
classically eloquent on the merits _fundatoris nostri_ let in over the
porch, its newly stuccoed fives' wall and fresh-gravelled playground;
all this was strange but intelligible. But James Ashurst could not
understand yet the change that had come over his inner life. To return
after a hard day's grinding in a mill of boys to his own rooms was,
during the first three months of his career at Helmingham, merely to
exchange active purpose for passive existence. Now, his life did but
begin when the labours of the day were over, and he and his wife
passed the evenings together, in planning to combat with the present,
in delightful anticipations of the future. Mr. Ashurst unwittingly,
and without the least intending it, had made a very lucky hit in his
selection of a wife, so far as the Helmingham people were concerned.
He was "that bumptious" as they expressed it, or as we will more
charitably say, he was sufficiently independent, not to care one rap
what the Helmingham people thought of anything he did, provided he
had, as indeed at that time he always had--for he was conscientious in
the highest degree--the knowledge that he was acting rightly according
to his light. In a very few weeks the actual sweetness, the quiet
frankness, the most enthusiastic charm of Mrs. Ashurst's demeanour had
neutralised all the ill-effects of her husband's three months'
previous career. She was a small-boned, small-featured,
delicate-looking little woman, and as such excited a certain amount of
compassion and kindness amid the midland-county ladies, who, as their
husbands said of them, "ran big." It was a positive relief to one to
hear her soft little treble voice after the booming diapason of the
Helmingham ladies, or to see her pretty little fat dimpled hands
flashing here and there in some coquetry of needlework after being
accustomed to looking on at the steady play of particularly bony and
knuckly members in the unremitting torture of eminently utilitarian
employment. High and low, gentle and simple, rich and poor, still felt
equally kindly disposed towards Mrs. Ashurst. Mrs. Peacock, wife of
Squire Peacock, a tremendous magnate and squire of the neighbouring
parish, fell so much in love with her that she made her husband send
their only son, a magnificent youth destined eventually for Eton,
Oxford, Parliament, and a partnership in a brewery, to be introduced
to the Muses as a parlour-boarder in Mr. Ashurst's house; and Hiram
Brooks, the blacksmith and minister of the Independent Chapel, who was
at never-ending war with all the members of the Establishment, made a
special exception in Mrs. Ashurst's favour, and doffed his greasy
leathern cap to her as she passed the forge.
And his pretty little wife brought him good fortune, as well as
domestic happiness? James Ashurst delighted to think so. His
popularity in the village, and in the surrounding country, was on the
increase; the number of scholars on the foundership had reached its
authorised limit (a source of great gratification, though of no
pecuniary profit to the head master); and Master Peacock had now two
or three fellow-boarders, each of whom paid a fine annual sum. The
governors thought better of their head master now, and the old rector
had lived long enough to see his recommendation thoroughly accepted,
and his prophecy, as regards the improved status of the school, duly
fulfilled. Popular, successful in his little way, and happy in his
domestic relations, James Ashurst had but one want. His wife was
childless, and this was to him a source of discomfort, always felt and
occasionally expressed. He was just the man who would have doated on a
child, would have suffered himself to have been pleasantly befooled by
its gambols, and have worshipped it in every phase of its tyranny. But
it was not to be, he supposed; that was to be the one black drop in
his draught of happiness: and then, after he had been married for five
or six years, Mrs. Ashurst brought him a little daughter. His hopes
were accomplished, but he nearly lost his wife in their
accomplishment; while he dandled the newly born treasure in his arms,
Mrs. Ashurst's life was despaired of; and when the chubby baby had
grown up into a strong child, and from that sphere of life had
softened down into a peaceful girl, her mother, always slight and
delicate, had become a constant invalid, whose ill-health caused her
husband the greatest anxiety, and almost did away with the delight he
had in anticipating every wish of his darling little Marian.
James Ashurst had longed for a child, and he loved his little daughter
dearly when she came; but even then his wife held the deepest and most
sacred place in his heart, and as he marked her faded cheek and
lustreless eye, he felt a pang of remorse, and accused himself of
having set himself up against the just judgment of Providence, and
having now received the due reward of his repining. For one who
thought his darling must be restored to health, no sacrifice could be
too great to accomplish that result; and the Helmingham people, who
loved Mrs. Ashurst dearly, but who in their direst straits were never
accustomed to look for any other advice than that which could be
afforded them by Dr. Osborne, or his village opponent, Mr. Sharood,
were struck with admiration when Dr. Langton, the great county
physician, the oracle of Brocksopp, was called into consultation. Dr.
Langton was a very little man, noted almost as much for his reticence
as his skill. He never wasted a word. After a careful examination of
Mrs. Ashurst he pronounced it to be a tiresome case, and prescribed a
four months' residence at the baths of Ems as the likely treatment to
effect a mitigation, if not a cure. Dr. Osborne, after the great man's
departure, laughed aloud in his bluff way at the idea of a country
schoolmaster sending his wife to Ems.
"Langton is so much in the habit of going about among the country
families, and these _novi homines_ of manufacturers who stink of
brass, as they say in these parts, that he forgets there is such a
thing as having to look carefully at ways and means, my dear Ashurst,
and make both dovetail. Baths of Ems, indeed! I'm afraid you've thrown
away your ten guineas, my good friend, if that's all you've got out of
Langton!"
But Dr. Osborne's smile was suddenly checked when Mr. Ashurst said
very quietly that as his wife's health was dearer to him than anything
on earth, and that there was no sacrifice which he would not make to
accomplish its restoration, he should find means of sending her to
Germany, and keeping her there until it was seen what effect the
change had on her.
And he did it! For two successive summers Mrs. Ashurst went to Ems
with the old nurse who had brought her up, and accompanied her from
her pretty river-side home to Helmingham; and at the end of the second
season she returned comparatively well and strong. But she needed all
her strength and health when she looked at her husband, who came to
meet her in London, and found him thin, changed, round-shouldered, and
hollow-eyed, the very shadow of his former self. James Ashurst had
carried through his plans as regarded his wife at enormous sacrifice.
He had no ready money to meet the sudden call upon his purse which
such an expedition rendered necessary, and he had recourse to
money-lenders to raise the first loans required, then to friends to
pay the interest on and obtain renewals of these loans, then to other
moneylenders to replace the original sums, and to other friends to
repay a portion of the first friendly loans, until by the time his
wife returned from the second visit to the Continent he found himself
so inextricably involved that he dare not face his position, dare not
think of it himself, much less have taken her into his confidence, and
so went blindly on, paying interest on interest, and hoping ever with
a vague hope for some relief from his troubles.
That relief never came to James Ashurst in his lifetime. He struggled
on in the same hopeless, helpless, hand-to-mouth fashion for about
eight years more, always impecunious in the highest degree, always
intending to retrieve his fallen fortune, always slowly but surely
breaking and becoming less and less of a man under the harass of
pecuniary troubles, when the illness which for some time had
threatened him set in, and, as we have seen, he died.