XXVI.

Annie knew from the light in the kitchen window that Mrs. Bolton, who had

not gone to the meeting, was there, and she inferred from the silence of

the house that Bolton had not yet come home. She went up to her room, and

after a glance at Idella asleep in her crib, she began to lay off her

things. Then she sat down provisionally by the open window, and looked out

into the still autumnal night. The air was soft and humid, with a scent of

smoke in it from remote forest fires. The village lights showed themselves

dimmed by the haze that thickened the moonless dark.

She heard steps on the gravel of the lane, and then two men talking, one

of whom she knew to be Bolton. In a little while the back entry door was

opened and shut, and after a brief murmur of voices in the library Mrs.

Bolton knocked on the door-jamb of the room where Annie sat.

“What is it, Mrs. Bolton?”

“You in bed yet?”

“No; I'm here by the window. What is it?”

“Well, I don't know but what you'll think it's pretty late for callers, but

Mr. Peck is down in the library. I guess he wants to speak with you about

Idella. I told him he better see _you_.”

“I will come right down.”

She followed Mrs. Bolton to the foot of the stairs, where she kept on to

the kitchen, while Annie turned into the library. Mr. Peck stood beside her

father's desk, resting one hand on it and holding his hat in the other.

“Won't you be seated, Mr. Peck?”

“I thank you. It's only for a moment. I am going away to-morrow, and I wish

to speak with you about Idella.”

“Yes, certainly. But surely you are not going to leave Hatboro', Mr. Peck!

I hoped--we all did--that after what you had seen of the strong feeling in

your favour to-night you would reconsider your determination and stay with

us!” She went on impetuously. “You must know--you must understand now--how

much good you can do here--more than any one else--more than you could do

anywhere else. I don't believe that you realise how much depends upon your

staying here. You can't stop the dissensions by going away; it will only

make them worse. You saw how Colonel Marvin and Mr. Wilmington were with

you; and Mr. Gates--all classes. I oughtn't to speak--to attempt to teach

you your duty; I'm not of your church; and I can only tell you how it seems

to me: that you never can find another place where your principles--your

views--”

He waited for her to go on; but she really had nothing more to say, and he

began: “I am not hoping for another charge elsewhere, at least not for the

present; but I am satisfied that my usefulness here is at an end, and I do

not think that my going away will make matters worse. Whether I go or stay,

the dissensions will continue. At any rate, I believe that there are those

who need help more, and whom I can help more, in another field--”

“Yes,” she broke in, with a woman's relevancy to the immediate point,

“there is nothing to do here.”

He went on as if she had not spoken: “I am going to Fall River to-morrow,

where I have heard that there is work for me--”

“In the mills!” she exclaimed, recurring in thought to what he had once

said of his work in them. “Surely you don't mean that!” The sight, the

smell, the tumult of the work she had seen that day in the mill with Lyra

came upon her with all their offence. “To throw away all that you have

learnt, all that you have become to others!”

“I am less and less confident that I have become anything useful to others

in turning aside from the life of toil and presuming to attempt the

guidance of those who remained in it. But I don't mean work in the mills,”

he continued, “or not at first, or not unless it seems necessary to my work

with those who work in them. I have a plan--or if it hardly deserves that

name, a design--of being useful to them in such ways as my own experience

of their life in the past shall show me in the light of what I shall see

among them now. I needn't trouble you with it.”

“Oh yes!” she interposed.

“I do not expect to preach at once, but only to teach in one of the public

schools, where I have heard of a vacancy, and--and--perhaps otherwise. With

those whose lives are made up of hard work there must be room for willing

and peaceful service. And if it should be necessary that I should work in

the mills in order to render this, then I will do so; but at present I

have another way in view--a social way that shall bring me into immediate

relations with the people.” She still tried to argue with him, to prove him

wrong in going away, but they both ended where they began. He would not or

could not explain himself further. At last he said: “But I did not come to

urge this matter. I have no wish to impose my will, my theory, upon any

one, even my own child.”

“Oh yes--Idella!” Annie broke in anxiously. “You will leave her with me,

Mr. Peck, won't you? You don't know how much I'm attached to her. I see her

faults, and I shall not spoil her. Leave her with me at least till you see

your way clear to having her with you, and then I will send her to you.”

A trouble showed itself in his face, ordinarily so impassive, and he seemed

at a loss how to answer her; but he said: “I--appreciate your kindness to

her, but I shall not ask you to be at the inconvenience longer than till

to-morrow. I have arranged with another to take her until I am settled, and

then bring her to me.”

Annie sat intensely searching his face, with her lips parted to speak.

“_Another!_” she said, and the wounded feeling, the resentment of his

insensibility to her good-will, that mingled in her heart, must have made

itself felt in her voice, for he went on reluctantly--

“It is a family in which she will be brought up to work and to be helpful

to herself. They will join me with her. You know the mother--she has lost

her own child--Mrs. Savor.”

At the name, Annie's spirit fell; the tears started from her eyes. “Yes,

she must have her. It is just--it is the only expiation. Don't you remember

that it was I who sent Mrs. Savor's baby to the sea-shore, where it died?”

“No; I had forgotten,” said the minister, aghast. “I am sorry--”

“It doesn't matter,” said Annie lifelessly; “it had to be.” After a pause,

she asked quietly, “If Mrs. Savor is going to work in the mills, how can

she make a home for the child?”

“She is not going into the mills,” he answered. “She will keep house for

us all, and we hope to have others who are without homes of their own join

us in paying the expenses and doing the work, so that all may share its

comfort without gain to any one upon their necessity of food and shelter.”

She did not heed his explanation, but suddenly entreated: “Let me go with

you. I will not be a trouble to you, and I will help as well as I can. I

can't give the child up! Why--why”--the thought, crazy as it would have

once seemed, was now such a happy solution of the trouble that she smiled

hopefully--“why shouldn't I go with Mr. and Mrs. Savor, and help to make a

home for Idella there? You will need money to begin your work; I will give

you mine. I will give it up--I will give it all up. I will give it to any

good object that you approve; or you may have it, to do what you think best

with; and I will go with Idella and I will work in the mills there--or

anything.”

He shook his head, and for the first time in their acquaintance he seemed

to feel compassion for her. “It isn't possible. I couldn't take your money;

I shouldn't know what to do with it.”

“You know what to do with your own,” she broke in. “You do good with that!”

“I'm afraid I do harm with it too,” he returned. “It's only a little, but

little as it has been, I can no longer meet the responsibility it brings.”

“But if you took my money,” she urged, “you could devote your life to

preaching the truth, to writing and publishing books, and all that; and so

could others: don't you see?”

He shook his head. “Perhaps others; but I have done with preaching for the

present. Later I may have something to say. Now I feel sure of nothing, not

even of what I've been saying here.”

“Will you send for Idella? When she goes with the Savors I will come too!”

He looked at her sorrowfully. “I think you are a good woman, and you mean

what you say. But I am sorry you say it, if any words of mine have caused

you to say it, for I know you cannot do it. Even for me it is hard to go

back to those associations, and for you they would be impossible.”

“You will see,” she returned, with exaltation. “I will take Idella to the

Savors' to-morrow--or no; I'll have them come here!”

He stood looking at her in perplexity. At last he asked, “Could I see the

child?”

“Certainly!” said Annie, with the lofty passion that possessed her, and she

led him up into the chamber where Idella lay sleeping in Annie's own crib.

He stood beside it, gazing long at the little one, from whose eyes he

shaded the lamp. Then he said, “I thank you,” and turned away.

She followed him down-stairs, and at the door she said: “You think I will

not come; but I will come. Don't you believe that?”

He turned sadly from her. “You might come, but you couldn't stay. You don't

know what it is; you can't imagine it, and you couldn't bear it.”

“I will come, and I will stay,” she answered; and when he was gone she

fell into one of those intense reveries of hers--a rapture in which she

prefigured what should happen in that new life before her. At its end

Mr. Peck stood beside her grave, reading the lesson of her work to the

multitude of grateful and loving poor who thronged to pay the last tribute

to her memory. Putney was there with his wife, and Lyra regretful of her

lightness, and Mrs. Munger repentant of her mendacities. They talked

together in awe-stricken murmurs of the noble career just ended. She heard

their voices, and then she began to ask herself what they would really say

of her proposing to go to Fall River with the Savors and be a mill-hand.

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