Chapter 16

Next morning I rose somewhat before the breakfast hour. As I descended

the stairs, Edith stepped into the hall from the room which had been

the scene of the morning interview between us described some chapters

back.

"Ah!" she exclaimed, with a charmingly arch expression, "you thought to

slip out unbeknown for another of those solitary morning rambles which

have such nice effects on you. But you see I am up too early for you

this time. You are fairly caught."

"You discredit the efficacy of your own cure," I said, "by supposing

that such a ramble would now be attended with bad consequences."

"I am very glad to hear that," she said. "I was in here arranging some

flowers for the breakfast table when I heard you come down, and fancied

I detected something surreptitious in your step on the stairs."

"You did me injustice," I replied. "I had no idea of going out at all."

Despite her effort to convey an impression that my interception was

purely accidental, I had at the time a dim suspicion of what I

afterwards learned to be the fact, namely, that this sweet creature, in

pursuance of her self-assumed guardianship over me, had risen for the

last two or three mornings at an unheard-of hour, to insure against the

possibility of my wandering off alone in case I should be affected as

on the former occasion. Receiving permission to assist her in making up

the breakfast bouquet, I followed her into the room from which she had

emerged.

"Are you sure," she asked, "that you are quite done with those terrible

sensations you had that morning?"

"I can't say that I do not have times of feeling decidedly queer," I

replied, "moments when my personal identity seems an open question. It

would be too much to expect after my experience that I should not have

such sensations occasionally, but as for being carried entirely off my

feet, as I was on the point of being that morning, I think the danger

is past."

"I shall never forget how you looked that morning," she said.

"If you had merely saved my life," I continued, "I might, perhaps, find

words to express my gratitude, but it was my reason you saved, and

there are no words that would not belittle my debt to you." I spoke

with emotion, and her eyes grew suddenly moist.

"It is too much to believe all this," she said, "but it is very

delightful to hear you say it. What I did was very little. I was very

much distressed for you, I know. Father never thinks anything ought to

astonish us when it can be explained scientifically, as I suppose this

long sleep of yours can be, but even to fancy myself in your place

makes my head swim. I know that I could not have borne it at all."

"That would depend," I replied, "on whether an angel came to support

you with her sympathy in the crisis of your condition, as one came to

me." If my face at all expressed the feelings I had a right to have

toward this sweet and lovely young girl, who had played so angelic a

role toward me, its expression must have been very worshipful just

then. The expression or the words, or both together, caused her now to

drop her eyes with a charming blush.

"For the matter of that," I said, "if your experience has not been as

startling as mine, it must have been rather overwhelming to see a man

belonging to a strange century, and apparently a hundred years dead,

raised to life."

"It seemed indeed strange beyond any describing at first," she said,

"but when we began to put ourselves in your place, and realize how much

stranger it must seem to you, I fancy we forgot our own feelings a good

deal, at least I know I did. It seemed then not so much astounding as

interesting and touching beyond anything ever heard of before."

"But does it not come over you as astounding to sit at table with me,

seeing who I am?"

"You must remember that you do not seem so strange to us as we must to

you," she answered. "We belong to a future of which you could not form

an idea, a generation of which you knew nothing until you saw us. But

you belong to a generation of which our forefathers were a part. We

know all about it; the names of many of its members are household words

with us. We have made a study of your ways of living and thinking;

nothing you say or do surprises us, while we say and do nothing which

does not seem strange to you. So you see, Mr. West, that if you feel

that you can, in time, get accustomed to us, you must not be surprised

that from the first we have scarcely found you strange at all."

"I had not thought of it in that way," I replied. "There is indeed much

in what you say. One can look back a thousand years easier than forward

fifty. A century is not so very long a retrospect. I might have known

your great-grand-parents. Possibly I did. Did they live in Boston?"

"I believe so."

"You are not sure, then?"

"Yes," she replied. "Now I think, they did."

"I had a very large circle of acquaintances in the city," I said. "It

is not unlikely that I knew or knew of some of them. Perhaps I may have

known them well. Wouldn't it be interesting if I should chance to be

able to tell you all about your great-grandfather, for instance?"

"Very interesting."

"Do you know your genealogy well enough to tell me who your forbears

were in the Boston of my day?"

"Oh, yes."

"Perhaps, then, you will some time tell me what some of their names

were."

She was engrossed in arranging a troublesome spray of green, and did

not reply at once. Steps upon the stairway indicated that the other

members of the family were descending.

"Perhaps, some time," she said.

After breakfast, Dr. Leete suggested taking me to inspect the central

warehouse and observe actually in operation the machinery of

distribution, which Edith had described to me. As we walked away from

the house I said, "It is now several days that I have been living in

your household on a most extraordinary footing, or rather on none at

all. I have not spoken of this aspect of my position before because

there were so many other aspects yet more extraordinary. But now that I

am beginning a little to feel my feet under me, and to realize that,

however I came here, I am here, and must make the best of it, I must

speak to you on this point."

"As for your being a guest in my house," replied Dr. Leete, "I pray you

not to begin to be uneasy on that point, for I mean to keep you a long

time yet. With all your modesty, you can but realize that such a guest

as yourself is an acquisition not willingly to be parted with."

"Thanks, doctor," I said. "It would be absurd, certainly, for me to

affect any oversensitiveness about accepting the temporary hospitality

of one to whom I owe it that I am not still awaiting the end of the

world in a living tomb. But if I am to be a permanent citizen of this

century I must have some standing in it. Now, in my time a person more

or less entering the world, however he got in, would not be noticed in

the unorganized throng of men, and might make a place for himself

anywhere he chose if he were strong enough. But nowadays everybody is a

part of a system with a distinct place and function. I am outside the

system, and don't see how I can get in; there seems no way to get in,

except to be born in or to come in as an emigrant from some other

system."

Dr. Leete laughed heartily.

"I admit," he said, "that our system is defective in lacking provision

for cases like yours, but you see nobody anticipated additions to the

world except by the usual process. You need, however, have no fear that

we shall be unable to provide both a place and occupation for you in

due time. You have as yet been brought in contact only with the members

of my family, but you must not suppose that I have kept your secret. On

the contrary, your case, even before your resuscitation, and vastly

more since has excited the profoundest interest in the nation. In view

of your precarious nervous condition, it was thought best that I should

take exclusive charge of you at first, and that you should, through me

and my family, receive some general idea of the sort of world you had

come back to before you began to make the acquaintance generally of its

inhabitants. As to finding a function for you in society, there was no

hesitation as to what that would be. Few of us have it in our power to

confer so great a service on the nation as you will be able to when you

leave my roof, which, however, you must not think of doing for a good

time yet."

"What can I possibly do?" I asked. "Perhaps you imagine I have some

trade, or art, or special skill. I assure you I have none whatever. I

never earned a dollar in my life, or did an hour's work. I am strong,

and might be a common laborer, but nothing more."

"If that were the most efficient service you were able to render the

nation, you would find that avocation considered quite as respectable

as any other," replied Dr. Leete; "but you can do something else

better. You are easily the master of all our historians on questions

relating to the social condition of the latter part of the nineteenth

century, to us one of the most absorbingly interesting periods of

history: and whenever in due time you have sufficiently familiarized

yourself with our institutions, and are willing to teach us something

concerning those of your day, you will find an historical lectureship

in one of our colleges awaiting you."

"Very good! very good indeed," I said, much relieved by so practical a

suggestion on a point which had begun to trouble me. "If your people

are really so much interested in the nineteenth century, there will

indeed be an occupation ready-made for me. I don't think there is

anything else that I could possibly earn my salt at, but I certainly

may claim without conceit to have some special qualifications for such

a post as you describe."

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