CHAPTER XVI

AN ACCIDENT IN THE MOUNTAINS

In view of her recent stormy mood, Nature seemed full of regretful

relentings on Monday, and, as if to make amends for her harshness,

assumed something of a summer softness. The sun had not the glaring

brightness that dazzles, and the atmosphere, purified by the recent

rain, revealed through its crystal depths objects with unusual

distinctness.

"It is a splendid day for a mountain ramble," said Annie, with

vivacity, at the breakfast-table.

"Why don't you take old Dolly and the mountain wagon, and show Mr.

Gregory some of our fine views this afternoon?" asked Mr. Walton.

"Nothing would please me more," said his daughter, cordially; "that is,

if Mr. Gregory feels equal to the fatigue."

"I'd be at my last gasp if I refused such an offer," said Gregory,

eagerly. "It would do me good, for I feel much stronger than when I

first came, and Miss Walton's society is the best tonic I know of."

"Very well," said she, laughing. "You shall take me this afternoon as a

continuation of the tonic treatment under which you say you are

improving."

"To carry on the medical figure," he replied, "I fear that I am to you

the embodiment of the depletive system."

"From my feelings this bright morning you have very little effect. I

prescribe for you a quiet forenoon, as our mountain roads will give you

an awful jolting. You, if not your medicine, will be well shaken

to-day."

"You are my medicine, as I understand it, so I shall take it according

to the old orthodox couplet."

"No, the mountain is your medicine, and I anticipate no earthquakes."

"It is settled then," said Mr. Walton, smiling, "that you adopt

Mahomet's compromise and go to the mountain. I will tell Jeff to fit

you out in suitable style."

Gregory, in excellent spirits, retired to his room for a quiet morning.

The prospect for the afternoon pleased him greatly, and a long

tete-a-tete with Annie among the grand and beautiful solitudes of

nature had for him an attraction that he could scarcely understand.

"She is just the one for a companion on such an expedition," he said to

himself. "She seems a part of the scenes we shall look upon. The free,

strong mountain spirit breathes in her every word and act. Old Greek

mythology would certainly make her a nymph of the hills."

After dinner they started, Gregory's interest centring mainly in his

companion, but Annie regarding him as a mere accessory to a sort of

half-holiday in her busy life, and expecting more enjoyment from the

scenery and the exhilarating air than from his best efforts to

entertain her. And yet in this respect she was agreeably disappointed.

Gregory was in a mood that he scarcely understood himself. If Annie had

been somewhat vain and shallow, though possessing many other good

traits, with the practiced skill of a society man he would have made

the most of these weaknesses, amused himself with a piquant flirtation,

and soon have been ready for his departure for New York with a

contemptuous French shrug at the whole affair. But her weaknesses did

not lie in that direction. Her naturally truthful and earnest nature,

deepened and strengthened by Christian principle, from the first had

foiled his unworthy purposes, and disturbed his contemptuous cynicism.

Then as he was compelled to believe in her reality, her truth and

nobleness, all that was in his own nature responsive to these traits

began to assert itself. Even while he clung to it and felt that he had

no power to escape it, the evil of his life grew more hateful to him,

and he condemned himself with increasing bitterness. When good

influences are felt in a man's soul, evil seems to become specially

active. The kingdom of darkness disputes every inch of its ill-gotten

power. Winter passes away in March storms. It is the still cold of

indifference that is nearest akin to death.

The visit to his old home, and the influence of Annie Walton, were

creating March weather in Walter Gregory's soul. There were a few

genial moods like gleams of early spring sunshine. There were sudden

relentings and passionate longings for better life, as at times gentle,

frost-relaxing showers soften the flinty ground. There were fierce

spiritual conflicts, wild questionings, doubts, fears, and forebodings,

and sometimes despair, as in this gusty month nature often seems

resolving itself back to primeval chaos. But too often his mood was

that of cold hard scepticism, the frost of midwinter. The impetus of

his evil life would evidently be long in spending itself.

And yet the quiet influence of the hallowed Sabbath evening, and Annie

Walton's hymns of faith and love, could not readily be lost. The

father's prayer still echoed in his soul, and even to him it seemed

that the heavens could not be deaf to such entreaty. These things

affected him as no direct appeals possibly could. They were like the

gentle but irresistible south wind.

He was now simply drifting. He had not definitely abandoned his purpose

of tempting Annie, nor did he consciously thrust it from him. Quite

convinced that she was what she seemed, and doubting greatly whether

during his brief visit there would be time to affect her mind seriously

by any evil influences he could bring to bear, and won unwittingly by

her pure spirit to better things himself, he let the new and unexpected

influence have full play.

He was like a man who finds himself in the current above Niagara, and

gives up in despair, allowing his boat to glide onward to the fatal

plunge. A breeze springs up and blows against the current. He spreads a

sail and finds his downward progress checked. If the wind increases and

blows steadily, he may stem the rushing tide and reach smooth, safe

waters.

A faint glimmering of hope began to dawn in his heart. An unexpected

gale from heaven, blowing against the current of evil, made it seem

possible that he too might gain the still waters of a peaceful faith.

But the hope dwelt in his mind more as a passing thought, a

possibility, than an expectation.

In his wavering state the turn of the scales would depend mainly upon

the mood of his companion. If she had been trifling and inclined to

flirt, full of frivolous nonsense, bent upon having a good time in the

frequent acceptation of the phrase, little recking the consequences of

words or acts, as is often the case with girls in the main good-hearted

and well-meaning, Gregory would have fallen in with such a mood and

pushed it to the extreme.

But Annie was simply herself, bright and exhilarating as the October

sunshine, but as pure and strong. She was ready for jest and repartee.

She showed almost a childish delight in every odd and pretty thing that

met her eye, but never for a moment permitted her companion to lose

respect for her.

Her cheeks were like the crimson maple-leaves which overhung them. Her

eyes were like the dark sparkle of the little brook as it emerged from

the causeway over which they drove. Her brown hair, tossed by the wind,

escaped somewhat from its restraints and enhanced the whiteness of her

neck, and the thought occurred to Gregory more than once, "If she is

not pretty, I never saw a face more pleasant to look at."

The wish to gain her esteem and friendship grew stronger every moment,

and he exerted himself to the utmost to please her. Abandoning utterly

his gallantry, his morbid cynicism, he came out into the honest

sunlight of truth, where Annie's mind dwelt, and directed the

conversation to subjects concerning which, as an educated and travelled

man, he could speak frankly and intelligently. Annie had strong social

tastes and the fondness for companionship natural to the young, and she

was surprised to find how he stimulated and interested her mind, and

how much they had in common. He appeared to understand her immediately,

and to lead her thoughts to new and exciting flights.

It was their purpose to cross a spur of the main mountain range. After

a long and toilsome climb, stopping to give Dolly many a breathing

spell, they at last reached the brow of the wooded height, and turned

to look at the autumn landscape glimmering in the bright October

sunshine. It is impossible by either pen or brush to give a true

picture of wide reaches of broken and beautiful country, as seen from

some of the more favored points of outlook among the Highlands on the

Hudson. The loveliness of a pretty bit of scenery or of a landscape may

be enhanced by art, but the impressive grandeur of nature, when the

feature of vast and varied expanse predominates, cannot be adequately

expressed. The mind itself is oppressed by the extensiveness of the

scene, and tends to select some definite object, as a village, hamlet,

or tree-embowered farmhouse, on which to dwell. These accord more with

the finite nature of the beholder. Spires and curling wreaths of smoke

suggested to Annie and Gregory many a simple altar and quiet hearth,

around which gathered the homely, contented life, spiritual and

domestic, of those who occupied their own little niche in the great

world, and were all unburdened with thought or care for the indefinite

regions that stretched away beyond their narrow circle of daily

acquaintance. Only God can give to the whole of His creation the

all-seeing gaze that we bestow upon some familiar scene. His glance

around the globe is like that of a mother around her nursery, with her

little children grouped at her feet.

The laden orchards, with men climbing long ladders, and boys in the

topmost branches looking in the distance like huge squirrels, were

pleasant objects to the mountain ramblers. Huskers could be discerned

in the nearer cornfields, and the great yellow ears glistened

momentarily in the light, as they were tossed into golden heaps. There

was no hum of industry as from a manufacturing village, or roar of

turbulent life as from a city, but only the quiet evidence to the eye

of a life kindred to that which nature so silently and beautifully

elaborates.

"How insignificant we are!" said Gregory, gloomily; "how the great

world goes right on without us! It is the same when one dies and leaves

it, as we left it by climbing this mountain. In the main we are unknown

and uncared for, and even to those who know us it is soon the same as

if we had never been."

"But the world cannot go on without God. Though forgotten, He never

forgets! His friends need never have the sense of being lost or

lonely--any more than a child travelling with his father in a foreign

land among indifferent strangers. God does not look at us, His

creatures, as we do at the foliage of these forests, seeing only the

general effect. He sees each one as directly as I now look at you."

"I wish I could believe He looked as kindly."

"I wish you could, Mr. Gregory. It is sad to me that people can't

believe what is so true. The fondest look your mother ever gave you was

cold compared with the yearning, loving face God turns toward every one

of us, even as we go away from Him."

He looked at her earnestly for a moment and saw that sincerity was

written on her face. He shook his head sadly, and then said, rather

abruptly, "Those lengthening shadows remind us that we must be on our

way"; and then their thoughts dwelt on lighter subjects as they

ascended another lofty mountain terrace, and paused again to scan the

wider prospect that made the sense of daily life in the valleys below

as remote as the world seems to the hermit in his devotional seclusion.

Then they began to descend the sloping plateau which inclined toward

the brow of the hill overlooking the region of the Walton residence.

After one or two hours of broken but very agreeable conversation Annie

suddenly sighed deeply.

"Now, Miss Walton," said Gregory, "that sigh came from the depths. What

hidden sorrow could have caused it?"

With a slight flush and laugh, she said, "It was caused by a mere

passing thought, like that cloud there sailing over the mountain slope."

"Your simile is so pretty that I should like to know the thought."

"I hardly know whether to tell it to you. It might have the same effect

as if that cloud should expand and cover the sky."

"Might not the telling also have the same effect as if the cloud were

dissipated altogether?"

She looked at him quickly and said, "How apt your answer is! Yes, it

might if you would be sensible. I do not know you so very well yet. Are

you not a little ready to take offence?"

"You do not look as if about to say anything I should resent very

deeply. But I promise that the cloud shall vanish."

"I am not so sure about that. The cloud represents my thought; and yet

I hope it may eventually vanish utterly. The thought occurred to me

after the pleasant hours of this afternoon what congenial friends we

_might_ be."

"And that caused you to sigh so deeply?"

"I laid emphasis on the word _might_."

"And why should you, Miss Annie? Why need you?" he asked, eagerly.

"You have shown a great deal of tact and consideration this afternoon,

Mr. Gregory, in choosing topics on which we could agree, or about which

it is as nice to differ a little. I wish it were the same in regard to

those things that make up one's life, as it were;" and she looked at

him closely to see how he would take this.

After a moment he said, a little bitterly, "In order to be your friend,

must one look at everything through the same colored glass that you

employ?"

"Oh, no," she replied, earnestly; "it is not fair to say that. But you

seem almost hostile to all that I love best and think most of, and my

sigh was rather an earnest and oft-recurring wish that it were

otherwise."

Again he was silent for a short time, then said, with sudden vehemence,

"And I also wish it were otherwise"; adding more quietly, "but it is

not, Miss Walton. You know me too well, even if I wished to deceive

you. And yet I would give a great deal for such a friendship as you

could bestow. Why can you not give it as it is? The Founder of your

faith was a friend of publicans and sinners."

"He was indeed their friend, and has been ever since," she answered.

"But was it not natural that He found more that was attractive and

congenial in that little group of disciples who were learning to know

and believe in Him?"

"I understand you, Miss Walton. I was unfortunate in my illustration,

and you have turned it against me. You can be my friend, as the

missionary is the friend of the heathen."

"You go to extremes, Mr. Gregory, and are hardly fair. I am not a

missionary, nor are you a heathen. I make my meaning clear when I echo

your thought of a moment ago, and wish that just such a friendship

might exist between us as that between your father and mine."

"I am what I am," he said, with genuine sadness.

"I wish you had my faith in the possibilities of the future," she

replied, turning brightly toward him.

But he shook his head, saying, "I have about lost all faith in

everything as far as I am concerned. Still I feel that if any one could

do me any good, you might, but I fear it is a hopeless task." Then he

changed the subject in such a way as to show that it was painful, and

that he preferred it should be dropped.

After all, the cloud had overcast the sky. The inevitable separation

between those guided by divine principles and those controlled by

earthly influences began to dawn upon him. He caught a glimpse of the

"great gulf," that is ever "fixed" between the good and evil in their

deepest consciousness. The "loneliness of guilt" chilled and oppressed

him, even with the cheery, sympathetic companion at his side. But he

hid his feelings under a forced gayety, in which Annie joined somewhat,

though it gave her a vague shiver of pain. She felt they had been _en

rapport_ for a little while, but now a change had come, even as the

damp and chill of approaching night were taking the place of genial

sunshine.

Suddenly she said, as they were riding along on the comparatively level

plateau among thick copse-wood and overshadowing trees that already

created a premature twilight, "It is strange we do not come out on the

brow of the mountain overlooking our home. This road does not seem

familiar either, though it is two or three years since I have been over

it, and then Jeff drove. I thought I knew the way well. Can it be

possible we have taken the wrong turning?"

"I ought to be familiar with these roads, Miss Walton, but I am sorry

to say I too am confused. I hunted over these hills to some extent when

a boy, but did not pay much heed to the roads, as I took my own courses

through the woods."

"I think I must be right," said Annie, after a little time; "the brow

of the hill must be near;" and they hastened the old horse along as

fast as possible under the circumstances. But the road continually grew

rougher and gave evidence of very little travel, and the evening

deepened rapidly. At last they resolved to turn round at the first

place that would permit of it, but this was not readily found, there

being only a single wheel-track, which now stretched away before them

like a narrow cut between banks of foliage, that looked solid in the

increasing darkness; the road also was full of rocks, loose stones, and

deep ruts, over which the wagon jolted painfully. With a less

sure-footed horse than Dolly they would soon have come to grief.

Gregory was becoming greatly fatigued, though he strove to hide it, and

both were filled with genuine uneasiness at the prospect before them.

To make matters seemingly desperate, as they were descending a little

hill a fore-wheel caught between two stones and was wrenched sharply

off. Quick, agile Annie sprang as she felt the wagon giving, but Walter

was thrown out among the brushwood by the roadside. Though scratched

and bruised, he was not seriously hurt, and as quickly as possible came

to the assistance of his companion. He found her standing by Dolly's

head, holding and soothing the startled beast. Apparently she was

unhurt. They looked searchingly at the dusky forest, their broken

vehicle, and then at each other. Words were unnecessary to explain the

awkwardness of their situation.

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