Book Eighth

I

Strether rambled alone during these few days, the effect of the

incident of the previous week having been to simplify in a marked

fashion his mixed relations with Waymarsh. Nothing had passed between

them in reference to Mrs. Newsome’s summons but that our friend had

mentioned to his own the departure of the deputation actually at

sea—giving him thus an opportunity to confess to the occult

intervention he imputed to him. Waymarsh however in the event confessed

to nothing; and though this falsified in some degree Strether’s

forecast the latter amusedly saw in it the same depth of good

conscience out of which the dear man’s impertinence had originally

sprung. He was patient with the dear man now and delighted to observe

how unmistakeably he had put on flesh; he felt his own holiday so

successfully large and free that he was full of allowances and

charities in respect to those cabined and confined: his instinct toward

a spirit so strapped down as Waymarsh’s was to walk round it on tiptoe

for fear of waking it up to a sense of losses by this time

irretrievable. It was all very funny he knew, and but the difference,

as he often said to himself, of tweedledum and tweedledee—an

emancipation so purely comparative that it was like the advance of the

door-mat on the scraper; yet the present crisis was happily to profit

by it and the pilgrim from Milrose to know himself more than ever in

the right.

Strether felt that when he heard of the approach of the Pococks the

impulse of pity quite sprang up in him beside the impulse of triumph.

That was exactly why Waymarsh had looked at him with eyes in which the

heat of justice was measured and shaded. He had looked very hard, as if

affectionately sorry for the friend—the friend of fifty-five—whose

frivolity had had thus to be recorded; becoming, however, but obscurely

sententious and leaving his companion to formulate a charge. It was in

this general attitude that he had of late altogether taken refuge; with

the drop of discussion they were solemnly sadly superficial; Strether

recognised in him the mere portentous rumination to which Miss Barrace

had so good-humouredly described herself as assigning a corner of her

salon. It was quite as if he knew his surreptitious step had been

divined, and it was also as if he missed the chance to explain the

purity of his motive; but this privation of relief should be precisely

his small penance: it was not amiss for Strether that he should find

himself to that degree uneasy. If he had been challenged or accused,

rebuked for meddling or otherwise pulled up, he would probably have

shown, on his own system, all the height of his consistency, all the

depth of his good faith. Explicit resentment of his course would have

made him take the floor, and the thump of his fist on the table would

have affirmed him as consciously incorruptible. Had what now really

prevailed with Strether been but a dread of that thump—a dread of

wincing a little painfully at what it might invidiously demonstrate?

However this might be, at any rate, one of the marks of the crisis was

a visible, a studied lapse, in Waymarsh, of betrayed concern. As if to

make up to his comrade for the stroke by which he had played providence

he now conspicuously ignored his movements, withdrew himself from the

pretension to share them, stiffened up his sensibility to neglect, and,

clasping his large empty hands and swinging his large restless foot,

clearly looked to another quarter for justice.

This made for independence on Strether’s part, and he had in truth at

no moment of his stay been so free to go and come. The early summer

brushed the picture over and blurred everything but the near; it made a

vast warm fragrant medium in which the elements floated together on the

best of terms, in which rewards were immediate and reckonings

postponed. Chad was out of town again, for the first time since his

visitor’s first view of him; he had explained this necessity—without

detail, yet also without embarrassment, the circumstance was one of

those which, in the young man’s life, testified to the variety of his

ties. Strether wasn’t otherwise concerned with it than for its so

testifying—a pleasant multitudinous image in which he took comfort. He

took comfort, by the same stroke, in the swing of Chad’s pendulum back

from that other swing, the sharp jerk towards Woollett, so stayed by

his own hand. He had the entertainment of thinking that if he had for

that moment stopped the clock it was to promote the next minute this

still livelier motion. He himself did what he hadn’t done before; he

took two or three times whole days off—irrespective of others, of two

or three taken with Miss Gostrey, two or three taken with little

Bilham: he went to Chartres and cultivated, before the front of the

cathedral, a general easy beatitude; he went to Fontainebleau and

imagined himself on the way to Italy; he went to Rouen with a little

handbag and inordinately spent the night.

One afternoon he did something quite different; finding himself in the

neighbourhood of a fine old house across the river, he passed under the

great arch of its doorway and asked at the porter’s lodge for Madame de

Vionnet. He had already hovered more than once about that possibility,

been aware of it, in the course of ostensible strolls, as lurking but

round the corner. Only it had perversely happened, after his morning at

Notre Dame, that his consistency, as he considered and intended it, had

come back to him; whereby he had reflected that the encounter in

question had been none of his making; clinging again intensely to the

strength of his position, which was precisely that there was nothing in

it for himself. From the moment he actively pursued the charming

associate of his adventure, from that moment his position weakened, for

he was then acting in an interested way. It was only within a few days

that he had fixed himself a limit: he promised himself his consistency

should end with Sarah’s arrival. It was arguing correctly to feel the

title to a free hand conferred on him by this event. If he wasn’t to be

let alone he should be merely a dupe to act with delicacy. If he wasn’t

to be trusted he could at least take his ease. If he was to be placed

under control he gained leave to try what his position _might_

agreeably give him. An ideal rigour would perhaps postpone the trial

till after the Pococks had shown their spirit; and it was to an ideal

rigour that he had quite promised himself to conform.

Suddenly, however, on this particular day, he felt a particular fear

under which everything collapsed. He knew abruptly that he was afraid

of himself—and yet not in relation to the effect on his sensibilities

of another hour of Madame de Vionnet. What he dreaded was the effect of

a single hour of Sarah Pocock, as to whom he was visited, in troubled

nights, with fantastic waking dreams. She loomed at him larger than

life; she increased in volume as she drew nearer; she so met his eyes

that, his imagination taking, after the first step, all, and more than

all, the strides, he already felt her come down on him, already burned,

under her reprobation, with the blush of guilt, already consented, by

way of penance, to the instant forfeiture of everything. He saw

himself, under her direction, recommitted to Woollett as juvenile

offenders are committed to reformatories. It wasn’t of course that

Woollett was really a place of discipline; but he knew in advance that

Sarah’s salon at the hotel would be. His danger, at any rate, in such

moods of alarm, was some concession, on this ground, that would involve

a sharp rupture with the actual; therefore if he waited to take leave

of that actual he might wholly miss his chance. It was represented with

supreme vividness by Madame de Vionnet, and that is why, in a word, he

waited no longer. He had seen in a flash that he must anticipate Mrs.

Pocock. He was accordingly much disappointed on now learning from the

portress that the lady of his quest was not in Paris. She had gone for

some days to the country. There was nothing in this accident but what

was natural; yet it produced for poor Strether a drop of all

confidence. It was suddenly as if he should never see her again, and as

if moreover he had brought it on himself by not having been quite kind

to her.

It was the advantage of his having let his fancy lose itself for a

little in the gloom that, as by reaction, the prospect began really to

brighten from the moment the deputation from Woollett alighted on the

platform of the station. They had come straight from Havre, having

sailed from New York to that port, and having also, thanks to a happy

voyage, made land with a promptitude that left Chad Newsome, who had

meant to meet them at the dock, belated. He had received their

telegram, with the announcement of their immediate further advance,

just as he was taking the train for Havre, so that nothing had remained

for him but to await them in Paris. He hastily picked up Strether, at

the hotel, for this purpose, and he even, with easy pleasantry,

suggested the attendance of Waymarsh as well—Waymarsh, at the moment

his cab rattled up, being engaged, under Strether’s contemplative

range, in a grave perambulation of the familiar court. Waymarsh had

learned from his companion, who had already had a note, delivered by

hand, from Chad, that the Pococks were due, and had ambiguously,

though, as always, impressively, glowered at him over the circumstance;

carrying himself in a manner in which Strether was now expert enough to

recognise his uncertainty, in the premises, as to the best tone. The

only tone he aimed at with confidence was a full tone—which was

necessarily difficult in the absence of a full knowledge. The Pococks

were a quantity as yet unmeasured, and, as he had practically brought

them over, so this witness had to that extent exposed himself. He

wanted to feel right about it, but could only, at the best, for the

time, feel vague. “I shall look to you, you know, immensely,” our

friend had said, “to help me with them,” and he had been quite

conscious of the effect of the remark, and of others of the same sort,

on his comrade’s sombre sensibility. He had insisted on the fact that

Waymarsh would quite like Mrs. Pocock—one could be certain he would: he

would be with her about everything, and she would also be with _him_,

and Miss Barrace’s nose, in short, would find itself out of joint.

Strether had woven this web of cheerfulness while they waited in the

court for Chad; he had sat smoking cigarettes to keep himself quiet

while, caged and leonine, his fellow traveller paced and turned before

him. Chad Newsome was doubtless to be struck, when he arrived, with the

sharpness of their opposition at this particular hour; he was to

remember, as a part of it, how Waymarsh came with him and with Strether

to the street and stood there with a face half-wistful and half-rueful.

They talked of him, the two others, as they drove, and Strether put

Chad in possession of much of his own strained sense of things. He had

already, a few days before, named to him the wire he was convinced

their friend had pulled—a confidence that had made on the young man’s

part quite hugely for curiosity and diversion. The action of the

matter, moreover, Strether could see, was to penetrate; he saw that is,

how Chad judged a system of influence in which Waymarsh had served as a

determinant—an impression just now quickened again; with the whole

bearing of such a fact on the youth’s view of his relatives. As it came

up between them that they might now take their friend for a feature of

the control of these latter now sought to be exerted from Woollett,

Strether felt indeed how it would be stamped all over him, half an hour

later for Sarah Pocock’s eyes, that he was as much on Chad’s “side” as

Waymarsh had probably described him. He was letting himself at present,

go; there was no denying it; it might be desperation, it might be

confidence; he should offer himself to the arriving travellers

bristling with all the lucidity he had cultivated.

He repeated to Chad what he had been saying in the court to Waymarsh;

how there was no doubt whatever that his sister would find the latter a

kindred spirit, no doubt of the alliance, based on an exchange of

views, that the pair would successfully strike up. They would become as

thick as thieves—which moreover was but a development of what Strether

remembered to have said in one of his first discussions with his mate,

struck as he had then already been with the elements of affinity

between that personage and Mrs. Newsome herself. “I told him, one day,

when he had questioned me on your mother, that she was a person who,

when he should know her, would rouse in him, I was sure, a special

enthusiasm; and that hangs together with the conviction we now

feel—this certitude that Mrs. Pocock will take him into her boat. For

it’s your mother’s own boat that she’s pulling.”

“Ah,” said Chad, “Mother’s worth fifty of Sally!”

“A thousand; but when you presently meet her, all the same you’ll be

meeting your mother’s representative—just as I shall. I feel like the

outgoing ambassador,” said Strether, “doing honour to his appointed

successor.” A moment after speaking as he had just done he felt he had

inadvertently rather cheapened Mrs. Newsome to her son; an impression

audibly reflected, as at first seen, in Chad’s prompt protest. He had

recently rather failed of apprehension of the young man’s attitude and

temper—remaining principally conscious of how little worry, at the

worst, he wasted, and he studied him at this critical hour with renewed

interest. Chad had done exactly what he had promised him a fortnight

previous—had accepted without another question his plea for delay. He

was waiting cheerfully and handsomely, but also inscrutably and with a

slight increase perhaps of the hardness originally involved in his

acquired high polish. He was neither excited nor depressed; was easy

and acute and deliberate—unhurried unflurried unworried, only at most a

little less amused than usual. Strether felt him more than ever a

justification of the extraordinary process of which his own absurd

spirit had been the arena; he knew as their cab rolled along, knew as

he hadn’t even yet known, that nothing else than what Chad had done and

had been would have led to his present showing. They had made him,

these things, what he was, and the business hadn’t been easy; it had

taken time and trouble, it had cost, above all, a price. The result at

any rate was now to be offered to Sally; which Strether, so far as that

was concerned, was glad to be there to witness. Would she in the least

make it out or take it in, the result, or would she in the least care

for it if she did? He scratched his chin as he asked himself by what

name, when challenged—as he was sure he should be—he could call it for

her. Oh those were determinations she must herself arrive at; since she

wanted so much to see, let her see then and welcome. She had come out

in the pride of her competence, yet it hummed in Strether’s inner sense

that she practically wouldn’t see.

That this was moreover what Chad shrewdly suspected was clear from a

word that next dropped from him. “They’re children; they play at

life!”—and the exclamation was significant and reassuring. It implied

that he hadn’t then, for his companion’s sensibility, appeared to give

Mrs. Newsome away; and it facilitated our friend’s presently asking him

if it were his idea that Mrs. Pocock and Madame de Vionnet should

become acquainted. Strether was still more sharply struck, hereupon,

with Chad’s lucidity. “Why, isn’t that exactly—to get a sight of the

company I keep—what she has come out for?”

“Yes—I’m afraid it is,” Strether unguardedly replied.

Chad’s quick rejoinder lighted his precipitation. “Why do you say

you’re afraid?”

“Well, because I feel a certain responsibility. It’s my testimony, I

imagine, that will have been at the bottom of Mrs. Pocock’s curiosity.

My letters, as I’ve supposed you to understand from the beginning, have

spoken freely. I’ve certainly said my little say about Madame de

Vionnet.”

All that, for Chad, was beautifully obvious. “Yes, but you’ve only

spoken handsomely.”

“Never more handsomely of any woman. But it’s just that tone—!”

“That tone,” said Chad, “that has fetched her? I dare say; but I’ve no

quarrel with you about it. And no more has Madame de Vionnet. Don’t you

know by this time how she likes you?”

“Oh!”—and Strether had, with his groan, a real pang of melancholy. “For

all I’ve done for her!”

“Ah you’ve done a great deal.”

Chad’s urbanity fairly shamed him, and he was at this moment absolutely

impatient to see the face Sarah Pocock would present to a sort of

thing, as he synthetically phrased it to himself, with no adequate

forecast of which, despite his admonitions, she would certainly arrive.

“I’ve done _this!_”

“Well, this is all right. She likes,” Chad comfortably remarked, “to be

liked.”

It gave his companion a moment’s thought. “And she’s sure Mrs. Pocock

_will_—?”

“No, I say that for you. She likes your liking her; it’s so much, as it

were,” Chad laughed, “to the good. However, she doesn’t despair of

Sarah either, and is prepared, on her own side, to go all lengths.”

“In the way of appreciation?”

“Yes, and of everything else. In the way of general amiability,

hospitality and welcome. She’s under arms,” Chad laughed again; “she’s

prepared.”

Strether took it in; then as if an echo of Miss Barrace were in the

air: “She’s wonderful.”

“You don’t begin to know _how_ wonderful!”

There was a depth in it, to Strether’s ear, of confirmed luxury—almost

a kind of unconscious insolence of proprietorship; but the effect of

the glimpse was not at this moment to foster speculation: there was

something so conclusive in so much graceful and generous assurance. It

was in fact a fresh evocation; and the evocation had before many

minutes another consequence. “Well, I shall see her oftener now. I

shall see her as much as I like—by your leave; which is what I hitherto

haven’t done.”

“It has been,” said Chad, but without reproach, “only your own fault. I

tried to bring you together, and _she_, my dear fellow—I never saw her

more charming to any man. But you’ve got your extraordinary ideas.”

“Well, I _did_ have,” Strether murmured, while he felt both how they

had possessed him and how they had now lost their authority. He

couldn’t have traced the sequence to the end, but it was all because of

Mrs. Pocock. Mrs. Pocock might be because of Mrs. Newsome, but that was

still to be proved. What came over him was the sense of having stupidly

failed to profit where profit would have been precious. It had been

open to him to see so much more of her, and he had but let the good

days pass. Fierce in him almost was the resolve to lose no more of

them, and he whimsically reflected, while at Chad’s side he drew nearer

to his destination, that it was after all Sarah who would have

quickened his chance. What her visit of inquisition might achieve in

other directions was as yet all obscure—only not obscure that it would

do supremely much to bring two earnest persons together. He had but to

listen to Chad at this moment to feel it; for Chad was in the act of

remarking to him that they of course both counted on him—he himself and

the other earnest person—for cheer and support. It was brave to

Strether to hear him talk as if the line of wisdom they had struck out

was to make things ravishing to the Pococks. No, if Madame de Vionnet

compassed _that_, compassed the ravishment of the Pococks, Madame de

Vionnet would be prodigious. It would be a beautiful plan if it

succeeded, and it all came to the question of Sarah’s being really

bribeable. The precedent of his own case helped Strether perhaps but

little to consider she might prove so; it being distinct that her

character would rather make for every possible difference. This idea of

his own bribeability set him apart for himself; with the further mark

in fact that his case was absolutely proved. He liked always, where

Lambert Strether was concerned, to know the worst, and what he now

seemed to know was not only that he was bribeable, but that he had been

effectually bribed. The only difficulty was that he couldn’t quite have

said with what. It was as if he had sold himself, but hadn’t somehow

got the cash. That, however, was what, characteristically, _would_

happen to him. It would naturally be his kind of traffic. While he

thought of these things he reminded Chad of the truth they mustn’t lose

sight of—the truth that, with all deference to her susceptibility to

new interests, Sarah would have come out with a high firm definite

purpose. “She hasn’t come out, you know, to be bamboozled. We may all

be ravishing—nothing perhaps can be more easy for us; but she hasn’t

come out to be ravished. She has come out just simply to take you

home.”

“Oh well, with _her_ I’ll go,” said Chad good-humouredly. “I suppose

you’ll allow _that_.” And then as for a minute Strether said nothing:

“Or is your idea that when I’ve seen her I shan’t want to go?” As this

question, however, again left his friend silent he presently went on:

“My own idea at any rate is that they shall have while they’re here the

best sort of time.”

It was at this that Strether spoke. “Ah there you are! I think if you

really wanted to go—!”

“Well?” said Chad to bring it out.

“Well, you wouldn’t trouble about our good time. You wouldn’t care what

sort of a time we have.”

Chad could always take in the easiest way in the world any ingenious

suggestion. “I see. But can I help it? I’m too decent.”

“Yes, you’re too decent!” Strether heavily sighed. And he felt for the

moment as if it were the preposterous end of his mission.

It ministered for the time to this temporary effect that Chad made no

rejoinder. But he spoke again as they came in sight of the station. “Do

you mean to introduce her to Miss Gostrey?”

As to this Strether was ready. “No.”

“But haven’t you told me they know about her?”

“I think I’ve told you your mother knows.”

“And won’t she have told Sally?”

“That’s one of the things I want to see.”

“And if you find she _has_—?”

“Will I then, you mean, bring them together?”

“Yes,” said Chad with his pleasant promptness: “to show her there’s

nothing in it.”

Strether hesitated. “I don’t know that I care very much what she may

think there’s in it.”

“Not if it represents what Mother thinks?”

“Ah what _does_ your mother think?” There was in this some sound of

bewilderment.

But they were just driving up, and help, of a sort, might after all be

quite at hand. “Isn’t that, my dear man, what we’re both just going to

make out?”

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