SUSPENSE.

I felt as if I had passed through an immeasurable spell, both of memory

and anguish, before Monsieur Laurentie came to me, though he had

responded to my summons immediately. I told him, in hurried, broken

sentences, what Pierre had confessed to me. His face grew overcast and

troubled; yet he did not utter a word of his apprehensions to me.

"Madame," he said, "permit me to take my breakfast first; then I will

seek Monsieur Foster without delay. I will carry with me some food for

him. We will arrange this affair before I return; Jean shall bring the

_char à bancs_ to the factory, and take him back to Noireau."

"But the fever, monsieur? Can he pass a night there without taking it?"

"He is in the hands of his Creator," he answered; "we can know nothing

till I have seen him. We cannot call back the past."

"Ought I not to go with you?" I asked.

"Wherefore, my child?"

"He is my husband," I said, falteringly; "if he is ill, I will nurse

him."

"Good! my poor child," he replied, "leave all this affair to me; leave

even thy duty to me. I will take care there shall be no failure in it,

on thy part."

We were not many minutes over our frugal breakfast of bread-and-milk,

and then we set out together, for he gave me permission to go with him,

until we came within sight of the factory and the cottage. We walked

quickly and in foreboding silence. He told me, as soon as he saw the

place, that I might stay on the spot where he left me, till the

church-clock struck eight; and then, if he had not returned to me, I

must go back to the village, and send Jean with the _char à bancs_. I

sat down on the felled trunk of a tree, and watched him, in his old

threadbare cassock, and sunburnt hat, crossing the baked, cracked soil

of the court, till he reached the door, and turned round to lift his hat

to me with a kindly gesture of farewell. He fitted the key into the

lock, passed out of my sight; but I could not withdraw my eyes from the

deep, thatched eaves, and glossy _fleur-de-lis_ growing along the roof.

How interminable seemed his absence! I sat so still that the crickets

and grasshoppers in the tufted grass about me kept up their ceaseless

chirruping, and leaped about my feet, unaware that I could crush their

merry life out of them by a single movement. The birds in the dusky

branches overhead whistled their wild wood-notes, as gayly as if no one

were near their haunts. Now and then there came a pause, when the

silence deepened until I could hear the cones, in the fir-trees close at

hand, snapping open their polished scales, and setting free the winged

seeds, which fluttered softly down to the ground. The rustle of a

swiftly--gliding snake through the fallen leaves caught my ear, and I

saw the blunted head and glittering eyes lifted up to look at me for a

moment; but I did not stir. All my fear and feeling, my whole life, were

centred upon the fever-cottage yonder.

There was not the faintest line of smoke from the chimney, when we first

came in sight of it. Was it not quite possible that Pierre might have

been mistaken? And if he had made a mistake in thinking he saw smoke

this morning, why not last night also? Yet the curé was lingering there

too long for it to be merely an empty place. Something detained him, or

why did he not come back to me? Presently a thin blue smoke curled

upward into the still air. Monsieur Laurentie was kindling a fire on the

hearth. _He_ was there then.

What would be the end of it all? My heart contracted, and my spirit

shrank from the answer that was ready to flash upon my mind. I refused

to think of the end. If Richard were ill, why, I would nurse him, as I

should have nursed him if he had always been tender and true to me. That

at least was a clear duty. What lay beyond that need not be decided

upon now. Monsieur Laurentie would tell me what I ought to do.

He came, after a long, long suspense, and opened the door, looking out

as if to make sure that I was still at my post. I sprang to my feet, and

was running forward, when he beckoned me to remain where I was. He came

across to the middle of the court, but no nearer; and he spoke to me at

that distance, in his clear, deliberate, penetrating voice.

"My child," he said, "monsieur is ill! attacked, I am afraid, by the

fever. He is not delirious at present, and we have been talking together

of many things. But the fever has taken hold upon him, I think. I shall

remain with him all the day. You must bring us what we have need of, and

leave it on the stone there, as it used to be."

"But cannot he be removed at once?" I asked.

"My dear," he answered, "what can I do? The village is free from

sickness now; how can I run the risk of carrying the fever there again?

It is too far to send monsieur to Noireau. If he is ill of it, it is

best for us all that he should remain here. I will not abandon him; no,

no. Obey me, my child, and leave him to me and to God. Cannot you

confide in me yet?"

"Yes," I said, weeping, "I trust you with all my heart."

"Go, then, and do what I bid you," he replied. "Tell my sister and Jean,

tell all my people, that no one must intrude upon me, no one must come

nearer this house than the appointed place. Monsieur le Vicaire must

remain in Ville-en-bois, and officiate for me, as though I were pursuing

my journey to England. You must think of me as one absent, yet close at

hand: that is the difference. I am here, in the path of my duty. Go, and

fulfil yours."

"Ought you not to let me share your work and your danger?" I ventured to

ask.

"If there be any need, you shall share both," he answered, in a tranquil

tone, "though your life should be the penalty. Life is nothing in

comparison with duty. When it is thy duty, my daughter, to be beside thy

husband, I will call thee without fail."

Slowly I retraced my steps to the village. The news had already spread,

from Pierre--for no one else knew it--that the Englishman, who had been

turned away from their doors the day before, had spent the night in the

infected dwelling. A group of weavers, of farmers, of women from their

household work, stopped me as I entered the street. I delivered to them

their curé's message, and they received it with sobs and cries, as

though it bore in it the prediction of a great calamity. They followed

me up the street to the presbytery, and crowded the little court in

front of it.

When mademoiselle had collected the things Monsieur Laurentie had sent

me for--a mattress, a chair, food, and medicine--every person in the

crowd wished to carry some small portion of them. We returned in a troop

to the factory, and stood beyond the stone, a group of sorrowful, almost

despairing people. In a few minutes we saw the curé open the door, close

it behind him, and stand before the proscribed dwelling. His voice came

across the space between us and him in distinct and cheerful tones.

"My good children," he said, "I, your priest, forbid any one of you to

come a single step nearer to this house. It may be but for a day or two,

but let no one venture to disobey me. Think of me as though I had gone

to England, and should be back again among you in a few days. God is

here, as near to me under this roof, as when I stand before him and you

at his altar."

He lifted up his hands to give them his benediction, and we all knelt to

receive it. Then, with unquestioning obedience, but with many

lamentations, the people returned to their daily work.

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