ON THE ENJOYMENT OF UNPLEASANT PLACES

It is a difficult matter[1] to make the most of any given place, and

we have much in our own power. Things looked at patiently from one

side after another generally end by showing a side that is beautiful.

A few months ago some words were said in the _Portfolio_ as to an

"austere regimen in scenery"; and such a discipline was then

recommended as "healthful and strengthening to the taste." That is the

text, so to speak, of the present essay. This discipline in

scenery,[2] it must be understood, is something more than a mere walk

before breakfast to whet the appetite. For when we are put down in

some unsightly neighborhood, and especially if we have come to be more

or less dependent on what we see, we must set ourselves to hunt out

beautiful things with all the ardour and patience of a botanist after

a rare plant. Day by day we perfect ourselves in the art of seeing

nature more favourably. We learn to live with her, as people learn to

live with fretful or violent spouses: to dwell lovingly on what is

good, and shut our eyes against all that is bleak or inharmonious. We

learn, also, to come to each place in the right spirit. The traveller,

as Brantôme quaintly tells us, "_fait des discours en soi pour se

soutenir en chemin_";[3] and into these discourses he weaves something

out of all that he sees and suffers by the way; they take their tone

greatly from the varying character of the scene; a sharp ascent brings

different thoughts from a level road; and the man's fancies grow

lighter as he comes out of the wood into a clearing. Nor does the

scenery any more affect the thoughts than the thoughts affect the

scenery. We see places through our humours as though differently

colored glasses. We are ourselves a term in the equation, a note of

the chord, and make discord or harmony almost at will. There is no

fear for the result, if we can but surrender ourselves sufficiently to

the country that surrounds and follows us, so that we are ever

thinking suitable thoughts or telling ourselves some suitable sort of

story as we go. We become thus, in some sense, a centre of beauty; we

are provocative of beauty,[4] much as a gentle and sincere character

is provocative of sincerity and gentleness in others. And even where

there is no harmony to be elicited by the quickest and most obedient

of spirits, we may still embellish a place with some attraction of

romance. We may learn to go far afield for associations, and handle

them lightly when we have found them. Sometimes an old print comes to

our aid; I have seen many a spot lit up at once with picturesque

imaginations, by a reminiscence of Callot, or Sadeler, or Paul

Brill.[5] Dick Turpin[6] has been my lay figure for many an English

lane. And I suppose the Trossachs would hardly be the Trossachs[7] for

most tourists if a man of admirable romantic instinct had not peopled

it for them with harmonious figures, and brought them thither their

minds rightly prepared for the impression. There is half the battle in

this preparation. For instance: I have rarely been able to visit, in

the proper spirit, the wild and inhospitable places of our own

Highlands. I am happier where it is tame and fertile, and not readily

pleased without trees.[8] I understand that there are some phases of

mental trouble that harmonise well with such surroundings, and that

some persons, by the dispensing power of the imagination, can go back

several centuries in spirit, and put themselves into sympathy with the

hunted, houseless, unsociable way of life that was in its place upon

these savage hills. Now, when I am sad, I like nature to charm me out

of my sadness, like David before Saul;[9] and the thought of these

past ages strikes nothing in me but an unpleasant pity; so that I can

never hit on the right humour for this sort of landscape, and lose

much pleasure in consequence. Still, even here, if I were only let

alone, and time enough were given, I should have all manner of

pleasure, and take many clear and beautiful images away with me when I

left. When we cannot think ourselves into sympathy with the great

features of a country, we learn to ignore them, and put our head among

the grass for flowers, or pore, for long times together, over the

changeful current of a stream. We come down to the sermon in

stones,[10] when we are shut out from any poem in the spread

landscape. We begin to peep and botanise, we take an interest in birds

and insects, we find many things beautiful in miniature. The reader

will recollect the little summer scene in _Wuthering Heights_[11]--the

one warm scene, perhaps, in all that powerful, miserable novel--and

the great feature that is made therein by grasses and flowers and a

little sunshine: this is in the spirit of which I now speak. And,

lastly, we can go indoors; interiors are sometimes as beautiful, often

more picturesque, than the shows of the open air, and they have that

quality of shelter of which I shall presently have more to say.

With all this in mind, I have often been tempted to put forth the

paradox that any place is good enough to live a life in, while it is

only in a few, and those highly favoured, that we can pass a few hours

agreeably. For, if we only stay long enough, we become at home in the

neighbourhood. Reminiscences spring up, like flowers, about

uninteresting corners. We forget to some degree the superior

loveliness of other places, and fall into a tolerant and sympathetic

spirit which is its own reward and justification. Looking back the

other day on some recollections of my own, I was astonished to find

how much I owed to such a residence; six weeks in one unpleasant

country-side had done more, it seemed, to quicken and educate my

sensibilities than many years in places that jumped more nearly with

my inclination.

The country to which I refer was a level and treeless plateau, over

which the winds cut like a whip. For miles on miles it was the same. A

river, indeed, fell into the sea near the town where I resided; but

the valley of the river was shallow and bald, for as far up as ever I

had the heart to follow it. There were roads, certainly, but roads

that had no beauty or interest; for, as there was no timber, and but

little irregularity of surface, you saw your whole walk exposed to you

from the beginning: there was nothing left to fancy, nothing to

expect, nothing to see by the wayside, save here and there an

unhomely-looking homestead, and here and there a solitary, spectacled

stone-breaker;[12] and you were only accompanied, as you went doggedly

forward by the gaunt telegraph-posts and the hum of the resonant wires

in the keen sea-wind. To one who has learned to know their song in

warm pleasant places by the Mediterranean, it seemed to taunt the

country, and make it still bleaker by suggested contrast. Even the

waste places by the side of the road were not, as Hawthorne liked to

put it, "taken back to Nature" by any decent covering of vegetation.

Wherever the land had the chance, it seemed to lie fallow. There is a

certain tawny nudity of the South, bare sunburnt plains, coloured like

a lion, and hills clothed only in the blue transparent air; but this

was of another description--this was the nakedness of the North; the

earth seemed to know that it was naked, and was ashamed and cold.[13]

It seemed to be always blowing on that coast. Indeed, this had passed

into the speech of the inhabitants, and they saluted each other when

they met with "Breezy, breezy," instead of the customary "Fine day" of

farther south. These continual winds were not like the harvest breeze,

that just keeps an equable pressure against your face as you walk, and

serves to set all the trees talking over your head, or bring round you

the smell of the wet surface of the country after a shower. They were

of the bitter, hard, persistent sort, that interferes with sight and

respiration, and makes the eyes sore. Even such winds as these have

their own merit in proper time and place. It is pleasant to see them

brandish great masses of shadow. And what a power they have over the

colour of the world! How they ruffle the solid woodlands in their

passage, and make them shudder and whiten like a single willow! There

is nothing more vertiginous than a wind like this among the woods,

with all its sights and noises; and the effect gets between some

painters and their sober eyesight, so that, even when the rest of

their picture is calm, the foliage is coloured like foliage in a

gale.[14] There was nothing, however, of this sort to be noticed in a

country where there were no trees and hardly any shadows, save the

passive shadows and clouds or those of rigid houses and walls. But the

wind was nevertheless an occasion of pleasure; for nowhere could you

taste more fully the pleasure of a sudden lull, or a place of

opportune shelter. The reader knows what I mean; he must remember how,

when he has sat himself down behind a dyke on a hill-side, he

delighted to hear the wind hiss vainly through the crannies at his

back; how his body tingled all over with warmth, and it began to dawn

upon him, with a sort of slow surprise, that the country was

beautiful, the heather purple, and the faraway hills all marbled with

sun and shadow. Wordsworth, in a beautiful passage[15] of the

"Prelude," has used this as a figure for the feeling struck in us by

the quiet by-streets of London after the uproar of the great

thoroughfares; and the comparison may be turned the other way with as

good effect:

"Meanwhile the roar continues, till at length,

Escaped as from an enemy we turn,

Abruptly into some sequestered nook,

Still as a shelter'd place when winds blow loud!"

I remember meeting a man once, in a train, who told me of what must

have been quite the most perfect instance of this pleasure of escape.

He had gone up, one sunny, windy morning, to the top of a great

cathedral somewhere abroad; I think it was Cologne Cathedral, the

great unfinished marvel by the Rhine;[16] and after a long while in

dark stairways, he issued at last into the sunshine, on a platform

high above the town. At that elevation it was quite still and warm;

the gale was only in the lower strata of the air, and he had forgotten

it in the quiet interior of the church and during his long ascent; and

so you may judge of his surprise when, resting his arms on the sunlit

balustrade and looking over into the _Place_ far below him, he saw the

good people holding on their hats and leaning hard against the wind as

they walked. There is something, to my fancy, quite perfect in this

little experience of my fellow-traveller's. The ways of men seem

always very trivial to us when we find ourselves alone on a

church-top, with the blue sky and a few tall pinnacles, and see far

below us the steep roofs and foreshortened buttresses, and the silent

activity of the city streets; but how much more must they not have

seemed so to him as he stood, not only above other men's business, but

above other men's climate, in a golden zone like Apollo's![17]

This was the sort of pleasure I found in the country of which I write.

The pleasure was to be out of the wind, and to keep it in memory all

the time, and hug oneself upon the shelter. And it was only by the sea

that any such sheltered places were to be found. Between the black

worm-eaten headlands there are little bights and havens, well screened

from the wind and the commotion of the external sea, where the sand

and weeds look up into the gazer's face from a depth of tranquil

water, and the sea-birds, screaming and flickering from the ruined

crags, alone disturb the silence and the sunshine. One such place has

impressed itself on my memory beyond all others. On a rock by the

water's edge, old fighting men of the Norse breed had planted a double

castle; the two stood wall to wall like semi-detached villas; and yet

feud had run so high between their owners, that one, from out of a

window, shot the other as he stood in his own doorway. There is

something in the juxtaposition of these two enemies full of tragic

irony. It is grim to think of bearded men and bitter women taking

hateful counsel together about the two hall-fires at night,[18] when

the sea boomed against the foundations and the wild winter wind was

loose over the battlements. And in the study we may reconstruct for

ourselves some pale figure of what life then was. Not so when we are

there; when we are there such thoughts come to us only to intensify a

contrary impression, and association is turned against itself.[19] I

remember walking thither three afternoons in succession, my eyes weary

with being set against the wind, and how, dropping suddenly over the

edge of the down, I found myself in a new world of warmth and shelter.

The wind, from which I had escaped, "as from an enemy,"[20] was

seemingly quite local. It carried no clouds with it, and came from

such a quarter that it did not trouble the sea within view. The two

castles, black and ruinous as the rocks about them, were still

distinguishable from these by something more insecure and fantastic in

the outline, something that the last storm had left imminent and the

next would demolish entirely. It would be difficult to render in words

the sense of peace that took possession of me on these three

afternoons. It was helped out, as I have said, by the contrast. The

shore was battered and bemauled by previous tempests; I had the memory

at heart of the insane strife of the pigmies who had erected these two

castles and lived in them in mutual distrust and enmity, and knew I

had only to put my head out of this little cup of shelter to find the

hard wind blowing in my eyes; and yet there were the two great tracts

of motionless blue air and peaceful sea looking on, unconcerned and

apart, at the turmoil of the present moment and the memorials of the

precarious past. There is ever something transitory and fretful in the

impression of a high wind under a cloudless sky; it seems to have no

root in the constitution of things; it must speedily begin to faint

and wither away like a cut flower. And on those days the thought of

the wind and the thought of human life came very near together in my

mind. Our noisy years did indeed seem moments[21] in the being of the

eternal silence: and the wind, in the face of that great field of

stationary blue, was as the wind of a butterfly's wing. The placidity

of the sea was a thing likewise to be remembered. Shelley speaks of

the sea as "hungering for calm,"[22] and in this place one learned to

understand the phrase. Looking down into these green waters from the

broken edge of the rock, or swimming leisurely in the sunshine, it

seemed to me that they were enjoying their own tranquillity; and when

now and again it was disturbed by a wind ripple on the surface, or the

quick black passage of a fish far below, they settled back again (one

could fancy) with relief.

On shore, too, in the little nook of shelter, everything was so

subdued and still that the least particular struck in me a pleasurable

surprise. The desultory crackling of the whin-pods[23] in the

afternoon sun usurped the ear. The hot, sweet breath of the bank, that

had been saturated all day long with sunshine, and now exhaled it into

my face, was like the breath of a fellow-creature. I remember that I

was haunted by two lines of French verse; in some dumb way they seemed

to fit my surroundings and give expression to the contentment that was

in me, and I kept repeating to myself--

"Mon coeur est un luth suspendu,[24]

Sitôt qu'on le touche, il résonne."

I can give no reason why these lines came to me at this time; and for

that very cause I repeat them here. For all I know, they may serve to

complete the impression in the mind of the reader, as they were

certainly a part of it for me.

And this happened to me in the place of all others where I liked least

to stay. When I think of it I grow ashamed of my own ingratitude. "Out

of the strong came forth sweetness."[25] There, in the bleak and gusty

North, I received, perhaps, my strongest impression of peace. I saw

the sea to be great and calm; and the earth, in that little corner,

was all alive and friendly to me. So, wherever a man is, he will find

something to please and pacify him: in the town he will meet pleasant

faces of men and women, and see beautiful flowers at a window, or hear

a cage-bird singing at the corner of the gloomiest street; and for the

country, there is no country without some amenity--let him only look

for it in the right spirit, and he will surely find.

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