CHAPTER XXVIII

My brother's arrival--The interview--Night--A dying father--Christ.

At last my brother arrived; he looked pale and unwell; I met him at the

door. 'You have been long absent,' said I.

'Yes,' said he, 'perhaps too long; but how is my father?'

'Very poorly,' said I, 'he has had a fresh attack; but where have you

been of late?'

'Far and wide,' said my brother; 'but I can't tell you anything now, I

must go to my father. It was only by chance that I heard of his

illness.'

'Stay a moment,' said I. 'Is the world such a fine place as you supposed

it to be before you went away?'

'Not quite,' said my brother, 'not quite; indeed I wish--but ask me no

questions now, I must hasten to my father.' There was another question

on my tongue, but I forbore; for the eyes of the young man were full of

tears. I pointed with my finger, and the young man hastened past me to

the arms of his father.

I forbore to ask my brother whether he had been to old Rome.

What passed between my father and brother I do not know; the interview,

no doubt, was tender enough, for they tenderly loved each other; but my

brother's arrival did not produce the beneficial effect upon my father

which I at first hoped it would; it did not even appear to have raised

his spirits. He was composed enough, however: 'I ought to be grateful,'

said he; 'I wished to see my son, and God has granted me my wish; what

more have I to do now than to bless my little family and go?'

My father's end was evidently at hand.

And did I shed no tears? did I breathe no sighs? did I never wring my

hands at this period? the reader will perhaps be asking. Whatever I did

and thought is best known to God and myself; but it will be as well to

observe, that it is possible to feel deeply, and yet make no outward

sign.

And now for the closing scene.

At the dead hour of night, it might be about two, I was awakened from

sleep by a cry which sounded from the room immediately below that in

which I slept. I knew the cry, it was the cry of my mother; and I also

knew its import, yet I made no effort to rise, for I was for the moment

paralysed. Again the cry sounded, yet still I lay motionless--the

stupidity of horror was upon me. A third time, and it was then that, by

a violent effort, bursting the spell which appeared to bind me, I sprang

from the bed and rushed downstairs. My mother was running wildly about

the room; she had awoke, and found my father senseless in the bed by her

side. I essayed to raise him, and after a few efforts supported him in

the bed in a sitting posture. My brother now rushed in, and, snatching

up a light that was burning, he held it to my father's face. 'The

surgeon, the surgeon!' he cried; then, dropping the light, he ran out of

the room followed by my mother; I remained alone, supporting the

senseless form of my father; the light had been extinguished by the fall,

and an almost total darkness reigned in the room. The form pressed

heavily against my bosom--at last methought it moved. Yes, I was right,

there was a heaving of the breast, and then a gasping. Were those words

which I heard? Yes, they were words, low and indistinct at first, and

then audible. The mind of the dying man was reverting to former scenes.

I heard him mention names which I had often heard him mention before. It

was an awful moment; I felt stupefied, but I still contrived to support

my dying father. There was a pause, again my father spoke: I heard him

speak of Minden, and of Meredith, the old Minden sergeant, and then he

uttered another name, which at one period of his life was much in his

lips, the name of . . . but this is a solemn moment! There was a deep

gasp: I shook, and thought all was over; but I was mistaken--my father

moved, and revived for a moment; he supported himself in bed without my

assistance. I make no doubt that for a moment he was perfectly sensible,

and it was then that, clasping his hands, he uttered another name

clearly, distinctly--it was the name of Christ. With that name upon his

lips, the brave old soldier sank back upon my bosom, and, with his hands

still clasped, yielded up his soul.

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