CHAPTER EIGHTEEN

Neil turned into Post-office Square just on the stroke of four. The

square was as empty and strange to the eye as his mother's kitchen,

though this was the rush hour of the day in that business centre upon

ordinary days, when the fair had not emptied the town.

A solitary Ford of prehistoric make stood before the post-office, and

even that was just cranking up. It lurched dispiritedly off, leaving a

cloud of dust behind. A dejected-looking group of children hung about

the door of the ice-cream parlour, and appeared to lack the initiative

to enter in. Half the shops were shut. In the big show-window of the

central section of Ward's Emporium Luther Ward, usually on parade and

magnificently in charge of his shop and his staff of employees at this

time of day, stood in his shirt sleeves, embracing an abnormally slender

lady in a mauve velveteen tailored suit.

At first glance he seemed to be instructing her in the latest dance

steps, but on a nearer view the visible part of her proved to be wax,

and the suit was ticketed nineteen-fifty. He jerked her into place,

turned and saw Neil, and hailed him cheerfully, waving him round to the

main entrance door, where he joined him, still wiping his brow.

"If you want a thing well done, do it yourself," he said, explaining his

late exertions with the air of believing the explanation was original

with him and did credit to his intellect. "What are you here for,

brother? Isn't Madison good enough for you?"

"No," Neil said. "Not with the big race called off."

"Called off? How's that?"

"Because you weren't there, Luther."

Mr. Ward gave a gratified laugh at this graceful compliment, and

descended to facts.

"I'm too old for horse racing. It's my boy's turn. He went over with

Willard Nash's crowd to-day. Why didn't you?" Mr. Ward demanded

severely.

"Oh, Willard asked me all right. He's quite strong for me now." Mr. Ward

had doubted this, being on the watch for slights to Neil and resenting

them, though he never made an effort to prevent them. This was the usual

attitude of Neil's more influential friends.

"Willard's a shrimp," said Mr. Ward gruffly. "And I like you," he added

in a burst of frankness. "I always did like you, Neil. You've pulled

yourself up by your boot-straps, and I hope you hang on to them tight.

There's nobody better pleased than I am. Oh, I got a rig and sent all

the help from the store over to the fair to-day," he added, turning

quickly to impersonal subjects.

"You always do treat them right."

"Well, this wasn't my idea. I got it from the Colonel." A look of

harmless but plainly evident pride came into Mr. Ward's open and ruddy

countenance as he mentioned the great man's name. It was only the week

before that he had received his first dinner invitation from the

Everards. It came at the eleventh hour and did not include his wife, but

he was dazzled by it still. "You know what he's doing? Closing his

house, practically, for all three days of the fair, and sending all the

help on the place over there--two touring cars full. It's a fine thing

for them. They're high-class help and don't have it any too interesting

down here. Anybody that says he's not democratic don't know the Colonel.

This town don't half know him yet."

"You're right," Neil put in softly.

"Democratic," declaimed Mr. Ward, "and public spirited. Look at the

fountain he's going to put up in the square. Look at the old Grant house

going to be fitted up for a library. Look at him running for mayor, when

he's been turning down chances at bigger offices for years--willing to

stay here and serve for the good of the town. There's talk against him

more than ever this year. I know that. It amounts to an indignation

meeting when the boys get together at Halloran's. Well, failures hate a

successful man, and their talk don't count. It will die down. But I hate

to hear of it. For the Colonel's put this town on the map. He's not

perfect, but who is? And suppose he does have a good time his own way?

We've got a right to--all of us. It's a free country."

Mr. Ward delivered this last sentiment with touching faith in its force

and freshness, and waved a plump hand of invitation toward the little

private office back of the main section of his store, where he had

developed his unfailing eloquence of speech upon subjects of public

interest, and liked best to practise it. But Neil, himself listened to

with growing deference by the groups that forgathered there, was not to

be lured to that sanctum to-day. Speaking hastily and vaguely of work to

be done, he escaped from his good friend and across the street to Judge

Saxon's office.

He climbed the stairs heavily, and did not linger before the door to

picture the sign changed to "Saxon, Burr, and Donovan," as he had done

more times than he cared to admit. The office was not a thing to be

proud of as a step up in life for him to-day; it was a place to be alone

in, as men feel alone and safe in the place that is their own because

they have worked there.

Showing this in every move, Neil locked the door, threw off his cap, and

dropped into the broken-springed chair at the desk that was nominally

Theodore Burr's, but really his. He groped mechanically for the handle

of the drawer where he usually rested his feet, found it hard to open,

gave up the attempt and, leaning back without its support, stared at Mr.

Burr's ornate, brass-mounted blotter with unseeing eyes.

Sitting there, he was no longer the boy who had the privilege of

intimate talk with prominent citizens like Mr. Ward and valued it; or

the boy who had laughed at his mother's anxiety so bravely. He was not

even the boy that he used to be, sullen, but rebellious, too. To-day for

the first time he was something worse, a defeated boy. The long minutes

dragged like hours, and he sat through them as he would have sat through

hours, silent and motionless, losing run of time and acknowledging

defeat.

For there was something that this boy wanted, and had always wanted, as

he could never want other things, even success or love, as a boy or a

man can want one thing only in one lifetime. It was a remote and

preposterous dream that he had, a dream that nobody else in Green River

was foolhardy enough to cherish long, but this boy belonged to the race

of poets and dreamers, the race that must sometimes dream true, because

it always dreams. His dream had taken different forms: sometimes he saw

himself doing desperate things, setting fire to a house that he knew and

hated, striking a blow in the dark for which nobody thanked him, but the

issue was always the same, and the dream never left him. He was to find

Green River a new master. He was to save the town. That was his dream.

It had never left him till now.

He was only a lean, tense boy, crouched over a battered desk and staring

out of the window at a country street with absent, beautiful eyes, but

he was living through a tragic hour; the terrible hour that poets and

dreamers know when they lose hold upon their dreams. Measured by

minutes, this hour was not long. Neil passed a hand across his forehead

and sat up, reaching for his cap in a dazed way, for he was not to be

permitted to hide longer from his trouble here. The plump and personable

figure of Mr. Theodore Burr was crossing the square and disappearing

into the door below. His unhurried step climbed the stairs. Neil opened

the door to him.

"Hello, stranger. Why aren't you at Madison?" Neil said.

"I didn't go," said Mr. Burr lucidly. "Where are you going? I don't want

to drive you away from here."

"Oh, just out. I was going anyway."

"You don't invite me. I don't blame you. I'm poor company, and I've got

business to attend to here."

"No!"

"Why shouldn't I have business here?" snapped Mr. Burr.

"You should, you should, Theodore. Say"--the question had been troubling

Neil subconsciously all the time he sat at the desk--"what's wrong with

that lower drawer? I can't open it."

"It's locked."

"What for?"

"That," said Mr. Burr with dignity, "is my private drawer--for private

papers."

"Papers!" Mr. Burr's private papers were known to consist chiefly of a

file of receipted bills and a larger file of unreceipted bills, both

kept with his usual fastidious neatness. "What papers?"

"That's my business. I've got some rights here, if I am a figurehead.

I've got some privileges."

"Sure. Don't you feel right to-day, Theodore?"

"That," said Mr. Burr, "is my business, too."

Neil stared at his friend. Mr. Burr was faultlessly groomed, as always,

his tie was of the vivid and unique blue that he affected so often, and

a very recent close shave had acted upon him as usual, giving him a pink

and new-born appearance, but his eyes looked old and tired, as if he had

not slept for weeks and had no immediate prospect of sleeping, and there

were lines of strain about his weak mouth. He was not himself. Even a

boy preoccupied with his own troubles could not ignore it.

"Don't you feel right?" Neil said. "Don't you want me to do something,

Theodore?"

"Yes. Get out of here. Leave me alone," Mr. Burr snapped angrily.

"Sure," said Neil soothingly.

Suddenly Mr. Burr gripped Neil's reluctant, shy, boy's hand, kept it in

his for a minute in silence, and then abruptly let it go, pushing Neil

toward the door.

"Don't begrudge me one locked drawer when you'll own the whole place

some day," he said, with all the dignity that his fretful burst of

irritation had lacked. "I'd like to see that day. You're a good boy,

Donovan."

"You're not right. You've got a grouch. Come with me and walk it off,"

Neil said uneasily, but he did not press the invitation, and his friend

had little more to say. His silence was perhaps the most unusual thing

about his behaviour, which was all out of key to-day. Neil remembered

afterward that just as he closed the door upon Mr. Burr and his

vagaries, shutting them at the same time out of his mind, Mr. Burr,

sitting rather heavily down in the broken-springed desk chair, was

bending and stretching out a faultlessly manicured, slightly unsteady

hand toward the locked drawer of the desk.

Neil stepped out into the street with a cautious eye upon the Emporium

across the way, but no portly form was in sight there now, and no hearty

voice hailed him. He crossed the square and turned north, walking

quickly, soon leaving the larger houses behind, and then the smaller

houses above the railroad track, always climbing gradually as he walked.

Finally, at the entrance to an overgrown road that led off to his left,

and at the highest point of his long and slow ascent, he turned and

looked back at the town.

The town that Colonel Everard had put on the map hardly deserved the

honour, seen so in a glitter of afternoon light, with the long, sloping

hill leading down to it, and the white tower of the church pointing high

above it, a cozy huddle of houses at the foot of the hill. It looked

unassuming and sheltered and safe, only a group of homes to make a

simple and sheltered home in. The boy looked long at it, then turned

abruptly and plunged into the road before him.

It led straight across a shallow belt of fields and deep into the woods.

Only a cart-track at first, it soon lost itself here in a path, and the

path in turn grew fainter and became a brown, alluring ghost of a path.

It was hard to trace, but this was ground that Neil knew, a favourite

haunt of his, though few other boys ventured to trespass here. The woods

were part of the Everard estate.

Neil had found his first May flowers here on the first spring that he

was privileged to give them to Judith. Last year she had helped him look

for them here. His errand here was not so pleasant to-day. The brown

path did not really lead to the heart of the woods as it seemed to. It

was not so long as it looked. It was a fairly direct short cut to the

Everard house.

The boy followed it quickly, with no eyes for the dim lure of the woods

to-day.

"You've beat me," he muttered once to himself; "I'll have a look at

you."

Soon the woods were not so thick. They fell away around him, carelessly

thinned at first, littered with fallen trees and stumps, but nearer the

house combed out accurately by the relentless processes of landscape

gardening, and looking orderly and empty. The little path vanished

entirely here. Ahead of Neil, through a thin fringe of trees, was the

Colonel's rose garden; beyond it, the broad stretch of lawn and the

house, bulky and towered and tall.

Neil broke through the trees and stood and looked at it, straight ahead,

seen through the frame of the trellised entrance to the garden,

upstanding and ugly and arrogant.

"You've beat me," he said to the Colonel's house. "You've beat me; you

and him. I hate you!"

His voice had a hollow sound in the empty garden. Garden and lawn and

house had the same look that the whole deserted town had caught to-day;

the look of suddenly empty rooms where much life has been, a breathless

strangeness that holds echoes of what has happened there, and even hints

of what is to happen; haunted rooms. It is not best to linger there.

Neil turned uneasily toward the path again.

He turned, then he turned back, stood for a tense minute listening, then

broke through the rose garden and began to run across the lawn. Very

faint and small, so that he could not tell whether it was in a man's

voice or a woman's, but echoing clearly across the deserted garden, he

had heard a scream from the house.

It came from the house somewhere, though as Neil ran toward it the house

still looked tenantless. The veranda was without its usual gay litter of

cushions and books and serving trays. At the long windows that opened on

it all the curtains were close drawn--or at all but one.

As Neil reached the house he saw that the middle window was thrown high

and the long, pale-coloured curtain was dragged from its rod and

dangling over the sill. Just then he heard a second scream from the

house. It was so choked and faint that he barely heard it. Neil ran up

the steps and slipped through the open window into the Everards'

library.

Little light came through the curtained windows. The green room,

sparsely scattered with furniture in summer covers of light chintz that

glimmered pale and forbidding, looked twice its unfriendly length in the

gloom. There was a heavy, dead scent of too many flowers in the air. On

a table across the room a bowl of hothouse hyacinths, just overturned,

crushed the flowers with its weight and dripped water into the sodden

rug.

Neil, at the window looking uncertainly into the half-dark room, saw the

bowl and the white mass of crushed flowers, and then something else,

something that shifted and stirred in a far corner of the room. He saw

it dimly at first, a dark, struggling group. There were two men in it.

One was a man who had screamed, but he was not screaming now. It would

hardly have been convenient for him to scream, for the other, the

smaller and slighter man of the two, was clutching him by the throat,

gripping it with a hand that he could not shake off as the two figures

swayed back and forth.

"Who's there?" Neil cried.

Nobody answered him. Nobody needed to, for just then the two men who

seemed to be fighting swung into the narrow strip of light before the

uncurtained window and he could see their faces. He could see, too, that

they were not fighting now, though they had seemed to be. The bigger man

was choked into submission already. No sound came from him and he hung

limp and still in the little man's hold. Just in the centre of the strip

of light the little man relaxed his grip, and let him fall. He dropped

to the floor in a limp, untidy looking heap, and lay still there, with

the light full on his face, closed eyes and grinning mouth. The man was

Colonel Everard, the man who stood over him was Charlie Brady.

As Neil looked Brady dropped on his knees beside the Colonel, felt for

his heart, and found it. He knelt there, motionless, holding his hand

pressed over it and peering intently into his face. Presently he got to

his feet deliberately, gave a deep sigh of entire content with himself,

and looked about him. Then and not until then he saw Neil. He saw him

without surprise, if without much pleasure, it appeared.

"You're late," he remarked.

"You drunken fool," Neil began furiously, then stopped, staring at his

cousin. Whatever the meaning of this exhibition was, Charlie was not

drunk. The excitement that possessed him was excitement of some other

kind. It possessed him entirely, though it was under control for the

moment. His muscles twitched with it. His shoulders shifted restlessly.

His hands closed and unclosed. His eyes were strangely lit, and there

was an absent, exalted look about them. Whatever the excitement, it was

strong--stronger than Charlie. Neil, his eyes now used to the

half-light, could see no weapon in the room, dropped on the floor or

discarded. Mr. Brady, normally a coward in his cups and out of them, had

attacked his enemy with his bare hands.

"Charlie, what's got you?" Neil said. "What's come to you?"

"What's come to him, there?" Charlie said, in a voice that was changed,

too, and was as remote and as strange as his eyes, a low voice, with the

deceptive, terrible calm of gathering hysteria about it.

"Look what's come to him," the voice went on. "Don't he deserve it, and

worse? How did I find him to-day when I broke in through the window

there? At his old tricks again. There was a woman with him in the

library there, when he came out to me. He locked the door. She's there

now. Neil, you'd better get away from here. I don't know what you're

doing here, but you'd better go, and go quick."

He had given this advice indifferently. He made his next observation

indifferently, too, with his furtive, absent eyes on the library door.

"I've killed him."

"What's got you? Are you crazy?"

"No--not now. You'd better go. I want to take a look in there first. The

key's in the door."

"Charlie, come back here."

The note of command that he was used to responding to in his young

cousin's voice reached and controlled Mr. Brady even now; he obeyed and

swung round and stood still, looking at Neil. Neil's dark eyes, just

above the level of his own, and so like them, were unrecognizable now.

They were dull with anger, and they were angry with him.

"What's the matter?" he quavered. "What's the matter, Neil?"

Between the two cousins, as they stood facing each other, the Colonel

lay ominously still. The cruel eyes did not open, and the distorted

mouth did not change.

"Look! You can see for yourself. Feel his heart," Mr. Brady offered, but

his cousin's dark, disconcerting eyes did not leave his face. "What's

the matter, Neil? What are you going to do?"

"I'm going to make you talk out to me," Neil said. "You'll tell me

what's got you, and why you did this, which will be the ruin of you and

me, too, but first you'll tell me something else. You'll tell me what

you've hid from me for a year, you who can tell me the truth when you're

drunk and lie out of it when you're sober, till you've worn me out and

I'm sick of trying to get the truth from you. I'll be getting it now too

late, but I'll get it. Have you or have you not been living on this

man's money?"

"Yes."

"Was it hush money?"

"Yes," Mr. Brady said. "Neil, I'll tell you everything. You've guessed

most of it, but I'll tell you the rest. I can prove it. I can prove

everything I know. I did take hush money. It was dirty money, but I

didn't care. I didn't care what happened. I didn't care till to-day."

"To-day?"

"I got--a letter."

"Go on," Neil said.

As he spoke Mr. Brady's face began suddenly to change, lighting again

with that strange excitement which had gripped him, revived, and burning

through its thin veneer of control. His eyes blazed with it, and his

voice shook with it. He waved a trembling hand toward the library door.

A sound had come from the library, the faintest of sounds, a low,

frightened cry. It was like the ghost of a cry, but he heard. Neil heard

it, too, and was at the door before him, trying to unlock it, fumbling

with the key.

"She's there yet," Mr. Brady cried; "whoever she is. Well, she'll be the

last of them. I had a letter, I tell you, a letter from Maggie. She's

coming home, what's left of her--what he's left of her--Everard. I never

thought he was to blame. I said he was, but I was talked out of it. If

I'd thought so, if I'd suspected it, would I have touched a penny of his

dirty money? But she's coming home. Maggie's coming home."

For the moment Neil was not concerned with the fact. Graver revelations

might have passed over him unheeded. The key had turned at last. Then

Neil felt the door being pushed open from inside. He stepped back and

waited. The door opened cautiously for an inch or two, then swung

suddenly wide. Standing motionless, framed in the library door, was

Judith.

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