To Miss Rivers, Clarges Street.
Quebec, March 6.
I cannot account, my dear, for what has happened to me. I left
Madame Des Roches's full of the warm impatience of love, and flew to my
Emily at Silleri: I was received with a disdainful coldness which I did
not think had been in her nature, and which has shocked me beyond all
expression.
I went again to-day, and met with the same reception; I even saw my
presence was painful to her, therefore shortened my visit, and, if I
have resolution to persevere, will not go again till invited by Captain
Fermor in form.
I could bear any thing but to lose her affection; my whole heart was
set upon her: I had every reason to believe myself dear to her. Can
caprice find a place in that bosom which is the abode of every virtue?
I must have been misrepresented to her, or surely this could not
have happened: I will wait to-morrow, and if I hear nothing will write
to her, and ask an explanation by letter; she refused me a verbal one
to-day, though I begged to speak with her only for a moment.
Tuesday.
I have been asked on a little riding party, and, as I cannot go to
Silleri, have accepted it: it will amuse my present anxiety.
I am to drive Mademoiselle Clairaut, a very pretty French lady: this
is however of no consequence, for my eyes see nothing lovely but Emily.
Adieu!
Your affectionate
Ed. Rivers.