III

Twenty years earlier, when Mrs. Bowen was Miss Lina Ridgely, she used to

be the friend and confidante of the girl who jilted Colville. They were

then both so young that they could scarcely have been a year out of

school before they left home for the year they were spending in Europe;

but to the young man's inexperience they seemed the wisest and maturest

of society women. His heart quaked in his breast when he saw them

talking and laughing together, for fear they should be talking and

laughing about him; he was even a little more afraid of Miss Ridgely

than of her friend, who was dashing and effective, where Miss Ridgely

was serene and elegant, according to his feeling at that time; but he

never saw her after his rejection, and it was not till he read of her

marriage with the Hon. Mr. Bowen that certain vague impressions began to

define themselves. He then remembered that Lina Ridgely in many fine

little ways had shown a kindness, almost a compassion, for him, as for

one whose unconsciousness a hopeless doom impended over. He perceived

that she had always seemed to like him--a thing that had not occurred to

him in the stupid absorption of his passion for the other--and fragments

of proof that she had probably defended and advocated him occurred to

him, and inspired a vain and retrospective gratitude; he abandoned

himself to regrets, which were proper enough in regard to Miss Ridgely,

but were certainly a little unlawful concerning Mrs. Bowen.

As he walked away toward his hotel he amused himself with the conjecture

whether he, with his forty-one years and his hundred and eighty five

pounds, were not still a pathetic and even a romantic figure to this

pretty and kindly woman, who probably imagined him as heart-broken as

ever. He was very willing to see more of her, if she wished; but with

the rain beginning to fall more thick and chill in the darkening street,

he could have postponed their next meeting till a pleasanter evening

without great self-denial. He felt a little twinge of rheumatism in his

shoulder when he got into his room, for your room in a Florentine hotel

is always some degrees colder than outdoors, unless you have fire in it;

and with the sun shining on his windows when he went out after lunch, it

had seemed to Colville ridiculous to have his morning fire kept up. The

sun was what he had taken the room for. It was in it, the landlord

assured him, from ten in the morning till four in the afternoon; and so,

in fact, it was, when it shone; but even then it was not fully in it,

but had a trick of looking in at the sides of the window, and painting

the chamber wall with a delusive glow. Colville raked away the ashes of

his fire-place, and throwing on two or three fagots of broom and pine

sprays, he had a blaze that would be very pretty to dress by after

dinner, but that gave out no warmth for the present. He left it, and

went down to the reading-room, as it was labelled over the door, in

homage to a predominance of English-speaking people among the guests;

but there was no fire there; that was kindled only by request, and he

shivered at the bare aspect of the apartment, with its cold piano, its

locked bookcases, and its table, where the London _Times_, the _Neue

Freie Presse_ of Vienna, and the _Italie_ of Rome exposed their titles,

one just beyond the margin of the other. He turned from the door and

went into the dining-room, where the stove was ostentatiously roaring

over its small logs and its lozenges of peat, But even here the fire had

been so recently lighted that the warmth was potential rather than

actual. By stooping down before the stove, and pressing his shoulder

against its brass doors, Colville managed to lull his enemy, while he

studied the figures of the woman-headed, woman-breasted hounds

developing into vines and foliage that covered the frescoed trellising

of the quadrangularly vaulted ceiling. The waiters, in their veteran

dress-coats, were putting the final touches to the table, and the sound

of voices outside the door obliged Colville to get up. The effort

involved made him still more reluctant about going out to Mrs. Bowen's.

The door opened, and some English ladies entered, faintly acknowledging,

provisionally ignoring, his presence, and talking of what they had been

doing since lunch. They agreed that it was really too cold in the

churches for any pleasure in the pictures, and that the Pitti Gallery,

where they had those braziers, was the only place you could go with

comfort. A French lady and her husband came in; a Russian lady followed;

an Italian gentleman, an American family, and three or four detached men

of the English-speaking race, whose language at once became the law of

the table.

As the dinner progressed from soup to fish, and from the _entrée_ to the

roast and salad, the combined effect of the pleasant cheer and the

increasing earnestness of the stove made the room warmer and warmer.

They drank Chianti wine from the wicker-covered flasks, tied with tufts

of red and green silk, in which they serve table wine at Florence, and

said how pretty the bottles were, but how the wine did not seem very

good.

"It certainly isn't so good as it used to be," said Colville.

"Ah, then you have been in Florhence before." said the French lady,

whose English proved to be much better than the French that he began to

talk to her in.

"Yes, a great while ago; in a state of pre-existence, in fact," he said.

The lady looked a little puzzled, but interested. "In a state of

prhe-existence?" she repeated.

"Yes; when I was young," he added, catching the gleam in her eye. "When

I was twenty-four. A great while ago."

"You must be an Amerhican," said the lady, with a laugh.

"Why do you think so? From my accent?"

"Frhom your metaphysics too. The Amerhicans like to talk in that way."

"I didn't know it," said Colville.

"They like to strhike the key of personality; they can't endure not

being interhested. They must rhelate everything to themselves or to

those with whom they are talking."

"And the French, no?" asked Colville.

The lady laughed again. "There is a large Amerhican colony in Parhis.

Perhaps we have learned to be like you."

The lady's husband did not speak English, and it was probably what they

had been saying that she interpreted to him, for he smiled, looking

forward to catch Colville's eye in a friendly way, and as if he would

not have him take his wife's talk too seriously.

The Italian gentleman on Colville's right was politely offering him the

salad, which had been left for the guests to pass to one another.

Colville thanked him in Italian, and they began to talk of Italian

affairs. One thing led to another, and he found that his new friend, who

was not yet his acquaintance, was a member of Parliament, and a

republican.

"That interests me as an American," said Colville. "But why do you want

a republic in Italy?"

"When we have a constitutional king, why should we have a king?" asked

the Italian.

An Englishman across the table relieved Colville from the difficulty of

answering this question by asking him another that formed talk about it

between them. He made his tacit observation that the English, since he

met them last, seemed to have grown in the grace of facile speech with

strangers; it was the American family which kept its talk within itself,

and hushed to a tone so low that no one else could hear it. Colville did

not like their mumbling; for the honour of the country, which we all

have at heart, however little we think it, he would have preferred that

they should speak up, and not seem afraid or ashamed; he thought the

English manner was better. In fact, he found himself in an unexpectedly

social mood; he joined in helping to break the ice; he laughed and

hazarded comment with those who were new-comers like himself, and was

very respectful of the opinions of people who had been longer in the

hotel, when they spoke of the cook's habit of underdoing the vegetables.

The dinner at the Hotel d'Atene made an imposing show on the _carte du

jour_; it looked like ten or twelve courses, but in fact it was five,

and even when eked out with roast chestnuts and butter into six, it

seemed somehow to stop very abruptly, though one seemed to have had

enough. You could have coffee afterward if you ordered it. Colville

ordered it, and was sorry when the last of his commensals, slightly

bowing him a good-night, left him alone to it.

He had decided that he need not fear the damp in a cab rapidly driven to

Mrs. Bowen's. When he went to his room he had his doubts about his

dress-coat; but he put it on, and he took the crush hat with which he

had provided himself in coming through London. That was a part of the

social panoply unknown in Des Vaches; he had hardly been a dozen times

in evening dress there in fifteen years, and his suit was as new as his

hat. As he turned to the glass he thought himself personable enough, and

in fact he was one of those men who look better in evening dress than in

any other: the broad expanse of shirt bosom, with its three small studs

of gold dropping, points of light, one below the other, softened his

strong, almost harsh face, and balanced his rather large head. In his

morning coat, people had to look twice at him to make sure that he did

not look common; but now he was not wrong in thinking that he had an air

of distinction, as he took his hat under his arm and stood before the

pier-glass in his room. He was almost tempted to shave, and wear his

moustache alone, as he used to do: he had let his beard grow because he

found that under the lax social regimen at Des Vaches he neglected

shaving, and went about days at a time with his face in an offensive

stubble. Taking his chin between his fingers, and peering closer into

the mirror, he wondered how Mrs. Bowen should have known him; she must

have remembered him very vividly. He would like to take off his beard

and put on the youthfulness that comes of shaving, and see what she

would say. Perhaps, he thought, with a last glance at his toilet, he was

overdoing it, if she were only to have a few people, as she promised. He

put a thick neckerchief over his chest so as not to provoke that

abominable rheumatism by any sort of exposure, and he put on his ulster

instead of the light spring overcoat that he had gone about with all

day.

He found that Palazzo Pinti, when you came to it, was rather a grand

affair, with a gold-banded porter eating salad in the lodge at the great

doorway, and a handsome gate of iron cutting you off from the regions

above till you had rung the bell of Mrs. Bowen's apartment, when it

swung open of itself, and you mounted. At her door a man in modified

livery received Colville, and helped him off with his overcoat so

skilfully that he did not hurt his rheumatic shoulder at all; there were

half a dozen other hats and coats on the carved chests that stood at

intervals along the wall, and some gayer wraps that exhaled a faint,

fascinating fragrance on the chilly air. Colville experienced the slight

exhilaration, the mingled reluctance and eagerness, of a man who

formally re-enters an assemblage of society after long absence from it,

and rubbing his hands a little nervously together, he put aside the

yellow Abruzzi blanket _portière_, and let himself into the brilliant

interior.

Mrs. Bowen stood in front of the fire in a brown silk of subdued

splendour, and with her hands and fan and handkerchief tastefully

composed before her. At sight of Colville she gave a slight start, which

would have betrayed to him, if he had been another woman, that she had

not really believed he would come, and came forward with a rustle and

murmur of pleasure to meet him; he had politely made a rush upon her, so

as to spare her this exertion, and he was tempted to a long-forgotten

foppishness of attitude as he stood talking with her during the brief

interval before she introduced him to any of the company. She had been

honest with him; there were not more than twenty-five or thirty people

there; but if he had overdone it in dressing for so small an affair, he

was not alone, and he was not sorry. He was sensible of a better

personal effect than the men in frock-coats and cut-aways were making,

and he perceived with self-satisfaction that his evening dress was of

better style than that of the others who wore it; at least no one else

carried a crush hat.--

At forty-one a man is still very much of a boy, and Colville was

obscurely willing that Mrs. Bowen, whose life since they last met at an

evening party had been passed chiefly at New York and Washington, should

see that he was a man of the world in spite of Des Vaches. Before she

had decided which of the company she should first present him to, her

daughter came up to his elbow with a cup of tea and some bread and

butter on a tray, and gave him good-evening with charming correctness of

manner. "Really," he said, turning about to take the cup, "I thought it

was you, Mrs. Bowen, who had got round to my side with a sash on. How do

you and Miss Effie justify yourselves in looking so bewitchingly alike?"

"You notice it, then?" Mrs. Bowen seemed delighted.

"I did every moment you were together to-day. You don't mind my having

been so personal in my observations?"

"Oh, not at all," said Mrs. Bowen, and Colville laughed.

"It must be true," he said, "what a French lady said to me at the

_table-d'hôte_ dinner to-night: 'the Amerhicans always strhike the note

of perhsonality.'" He neatly imitated the French lady's guttural accent.

"I suppose we do," mused Mis. Bowen, "and that we don't mind it in each

other. I wish _you_ would say which I shall introduce you to," she said,

letting her glance stray invisibly over her company, where all the

people seemed comfortably talking.

"Oh, there's no hurry; put it off till to-morrow," said Colville.

"Oh no; that won't do," said Mrs. Bowen, like a woman who has public

duties to perform, and is resolute to sacrifice her private pleasure to

them. But she postponed them a moment longer. "I hope you got home

before the rain," she said.

"Yes," returned Colville. "That is, I don't mind a little sprinkling.

Who is the Junonian young person at the end of the room?"

"Ah," said Mrs. Bowen, "you can't be introduced to _her_ first. But

_isn't_ she lovely?"

"Yes. It's a wonderful effect of white and gold."

"You mustn't say that to her. She was doubtful about her dress, because

she says that the ivory white with her hair makes her look just like

white and gold furniture."

"Present me at once, then, before I forget not to say it to her."

"No; I must keep you for some other person: anybody can talk to a pretty

girl."

Colville said he did not know whether to smile or shed tears at this

embittered compliment, and pretended an eagerness for the acquaintance

denied him.

Mrs. Bowen seemed disposed to intensify his misery. "Did you ever see a

more statuesque creature--with those superb broad shoulders and that

little head, and that thick braid brought round over the top? Doesn't

her face, with that calm look in those starry eyes, and that peculiar

fall of the corners of the mouth, remind you of some of those exquisite

great Du Maurier women? That style of face is very fashionable now: you

might think he had made it so."

"Is there a fashion in faces?" asked Colville.

"Why, certainly. You must know that."

"Then why aren't all the ladies in the fashion?"

"It isn't one that can be put on. Besides, every one hasn't got Imogene

Graham's figure to carry it off."

"That's her name, then--Imogene Graham. It's a very pretty name."

"Yes. She's staying with me for the winter. Now that's all I can allow

you to know for the present. Come! You must!"

"But this is worse than nothing." He made a feint of protesting as she

led him away, and named him to the lady she wished him to know. But he

was not really sorry; he had his modest misgivings whether he were equal

to quite so much young lady as Miss Graham seemed. When he no longer

looked at her he had a whimsical impression of her being a heroic statue

of herself.

The lady whom Mrs. Bowen left him with had not much to say, and she made

haste to introduce her husband, who had a great deal to say. He was an

Italian, but master of that very efficient English which the Italians

get together with unimaginable sufferings from our orthography, and

Colville repeated the republican deputy's saying about a constitutional

king, which he had begun to think was neat.

"I might prefer a republic myself," said the Italian, "but I think that

gentleman is wrong to be a republican where he is, and for the present.

The monarchy is the condition of our unity; nothing else could hold us

together, and we must remain united if we are to exist as a nation. It's

a necessity, like our army of half a million men. We may not like it in

itself, but we know that it is our salvation." He began to speak of the

economic state of Italy, of the immense cost of freedom and independence

to a people whose political genius enables them to bear quietly burdens

of taxation that no other government would venture to impose. He spoke

with that fond, that appealing patriotism, which expresses so much to

the sympathetic foreigner in Italy: the sense of great and painful

uncertainty of Italy's future through the complications of diplomacy,

the memory of her sufferings in the past, the spirit of quiet and

inexhaustible patience for trials to come. This resolution, which is

almost resignation, poetises the attitude of the whole people; it made

Colville feel as if he had done nothing and borne nothing yet.

"I am ashamed," he said, not without a remote resentment of the

unworthiness of the republican voters of Des Vaches, "when I hear of

such things, to think of what we are at home, with all our resources and

opportunities."

The Italian would have politely excused us to him, but Colville would

have no palliation of our political and moral nakedness; and he framed a

continuation of the letter he began on the Ponte Vecchio to the

_Post-Democrat-Republican_, in which he made a bitterly ironical

comparison of the achievements of Italy and America in the last ten

years.

He forgot about Miss Graham, and had only a vague sense of her splendour

as he caught sight of her in the long mirror which she stood before. She

was talking to a very handsome young clergyman, and smiling upon him.

The company seemed to be mostly Americans, but there were a good many

evident English also, and Colville was dimly aware of a question in his

mind whether this clergyman was English or American. There were three or

four Italians and there were some Germans, who spoke English.

Colville moved about from group to group as his enlarging acquaintance

led, and found himself more interested in society than he could ever

have dreamed of being again. It was certainly a defect of the life at

Des Vaches that people, after the dancing and love-making period, went

out rarely or never. He began to see that the time he had spent so

busily in that enterprising city had certainly been in some sense

wasted.

At a certain moment in the evening, which perhaps marked its

advancement, the tea-urn was replaced by a jug of the rum punch, mild or

strong according to the custom of the house, which is served at most

Florentine receptions. Some of the people went immediately after, but

the young clergyman remained talking with Miss Graham.

Colville, with his smoking glass in his hand, found himself at the side

of a friendly old gentleman who had refused the punch. They joined in

talk by a common impulse, and the old gentleman said, directly, "You are

an American, I presume?"

His accent had already established the fact of his own nationality, but

he seemed to think it the part of candour to say, when Colville had

acknowledged his origin, "I'm an American myself."

"I've met several of our countrymen since I arrived," suggested

Colville.

The old gentleman seemed to like this way of putting it. "Well, yes,

we're not unfairly represented here in numbers, I must confess. But I'm

bound to say that I don't find our countrymen so aggressive, so loud, as

our international novelists would make out. I haven't met any of their

peculiar heroines as yet, sir."

Colville could not help laughing. "I wish _I_ had. But perhaps they

avoid people of our years and discretion, or else take such a filial

attitude toward us that we can't recognise them."

"Perhaps, perhaps," cried the old gentleman, with cheerful assent.

"I was talking with one of our German friends here just now, and he

complained that the American girls--especially the rich ones--seem very

calculating and worldly and conventional. I told him I didn't know how

to account for that. I tried to give him some notion of the ennobling

influences of society in Newport, as I've had glimpses of it."

The old gentleman caressed his elbows, which he was holding in the palms

of his hands, in high enjoyment of Colville's sarcasm. "Ah! very good!

very good!" he said. "I quite agree with you, and I think the other sort

are altogether preferable."

"I think," continued Colville, dropping his ironical tone, "that we've

much less to regret in their unsuspecting, unsophisticated freedom than

in the type of hard materialism which we produce in young girls,

perfectly wide awake, disenchanted, unromantic, who prefer the worldly

vanities and advantages deliberately and on principle, recognising

something better merely to despise it. I've sometimes seen them----"

Mrs. Bowen came up in her gentle, inquiring way. "I'm glad that you and

Mr. Colville have made acquaintance," she said to the old gentleman.

"Oh, but we haven't," said Colville. "We're entire strangers."

"Then I'll introduce you to Rev. Mr. Waters. And take you away," she

added, putting her hand through Colville's arm with a delicate touch

that flattered his whole being, "for your time's come at last, and I'm

going to present you to Miss Graham."

"I don't know," he said. "Of course, as there is a Miss Graham, I can't

help being presented to her, but I had almost worked myself up to the

point of wishing there were none. I believe I'm afraid."

"Oh, I don't believe that at all. A simple schoolgirl like that!" Mrs.

Bowen's sense of humour had not the national acuteness. She liked joking

in men, but she did not know how to say funny things back "You'll see,

as you come up to her."

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