I heard from Juno regularly and she came to this country once a year to
visit me. There was very little comfort for me in those visits, but
still I wanted to see her, hoping all the time I would find that she had
tired of her life with Irish.
We tried to break off entirely. I did not write to her for several
months, nor did she to me at my request. Then came entreaties again from
Irish that it was cruel to keep up the silence and that Juno was pining
for my letters. So again I yielded and resumed the correspondence.
The rich relative died and Juno was left a very comfortable fortune. She
came to this country until her affairs were settled and was with me much
of the time. Finally, at the opening of the war when she was again in
Paris, she had to come home and she took a lovely apartment in the city.
Soon she sent for Irish to come over to be with her, as she had money
enough for two at that time. I was compelled to receive them both at my
home in the country where I was engaged in the work which I have
described. This was very upsetting to me. At last I felt that I could
not see another with the one who had been my all in all, so I decided
this time to put the continent between us and went to the other side of
America.
I resolved not to go back to my work in the East and resigned my
position. The whole town and the children and parents protested and
petitioned me to come back. But I could not face the heartaches that
would be waiting for me.
I established myself in a little home in the mountains where I could
conduct a business which would bring me a living. I hoped to live and
die there. About the time that I was well settled and was making some
headway in conquering my sorrow, Juno wrote to me that she had at last
become tired of Irish and had made her marry a man from her own home in
Ireland who had long been a suitor. Juno accomplished this by promising
that she would go with her to Ireland and see her married, which she did
during the war. Juno had returned and wanted to come to visit me in my
mountain home the next spring, promising that she would stay six weeks.
When she came I was again in raptures, but there was no resumption of
anything intimate. She then told me of her love for a married man and
that it was returned. Well, that is her history. It was another
heartbreaker for me, however, when, after she had been with me for ten
days, the man appeared and demanded that she should go home with him the
next day, which she did.
The following Christmas, Juno’s brother wired for me to come for the
holidays and sent me the money for the trip. He said he needed me. I
went. Juno did not know of my coming until her brother asked her to go
with him to meet a friend who was coming that night. When she saw me she
was far from pleased, and my stay in New York was anything but pleasant.
Her brother was distressed at the thought that his sister could become
entangled with a married man, and thought that I could persuade her to
give the thing up and go back to me.
I got back to my mountain home as soon as possible and have never seen
the lady since. The man got his divorce and they were duly married. Her
husband has gone through all of Juno’s money. We still write
occasionally and I do not suffer all the time, but even now I have the
old sorrow come back and I will always look upon those years with my
beloved Juno as the most perfect that anyone could have, and worth all
the suffering they have brought into my life.
THE END
Transcriber’s Notes
This text was transcribed from the unchanged reprint edition in the
collection _HOMOSEXUALITY. Lesbians and Gay Men in Society, History and
Literature_, Arno Press: New York, 1975. Materials from a later date
than the original publication year 1930, such as series title, editorial
information, or publisher advertisements, have been omitted.
The original spelling was mostly preserved. A few obvious typographical
and punctuation errors were silently amended. All other changes are
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