II

After the fashion of self-absorbed youth, Oliver had never noticed Mrs.

Lannithorne especially. She had been to him simply a sallow little

figure in the background of Ruth's vivid young life; someone to be

spoken to very politely, but otherwise of no particular moment.

If his marital negotiations did nothing else for him, they were at least

opening his eyes to the significance of the personalities of older

people.

The things Ruth said about her mother had prepared him to find that

lady querulous and difficult, but essentially negligible. Face to face

with Mrs. Lannithorne, he had a very different impression. She received

him in the upstairs sitting-room to which her semi-invalid habits

usually confined her. Wrapped in a white wool shawl and lying in a long

Canton lounging-chair by a sunshiny window, she put out a chilly hand in

greeting, and asked the young man to be seated.

Oliver, scanning her countenance, received an unexpected impression of

dignity. She was thin and nervous, with big dark eyes peering out of a

pale, narrow face; she might be a woman with a grievance, but he

apprehended something beyond mere fretfulness in the discontent of her

expression. There was suffering and thought in her face, and even when

the former is exaggerated and the latter erroneous, these are impressive

things.

'Mrs. Lannithorne, have you any objection to letting Ruth marry me?'

'Mr. Pickersgill, what are your qualifications for the care of a wife

and family?'

Oliver hesitated. 'Why, about what anybody's are, I think,' he said, and

was immediately conscious of the feebleness of this response. 'I mean,'

he added, flushing to the roots of his blond hair, 'that my prospects in

life are fair. I am in my father's office, you know. I am to have a

small share in the business next year. I needn't tell you that the firm

is a good one. If you want to know about my qualifications as a

lawyer--why, I can refer you to people who can tell you if they think I

am promising.'

'Do your family approve of this marriage?'

'I haven't talked to them about it yet.'

'Have you ever saved any money of your own earning, or have you any

property in your own name?'

Oliver thought guiltily of his bank account, which had a surprising way

of proving, when balanced, to be less than he expected.

'Well,--not exactly.'

'In other words, then, Mr. Pickersgill, you are a young and absolutely

untried man; you are in your father's employ and practically at his

mercy; you propose a great change in your life of which you do not know

that he approves; you have no resources of your own, and you are not

even sure of your earning capacity if your father's backing were

withdrawn. In these circumstances you plan to double your expenses and

assume the whole responsibility of another person's life, comfort, and

happiness. Do you think that you have shown me that your qualifications

are adequate?'

All this was more than a little disconcerting. Oliver was used to being

accepted as old Pickersgill's only son--which meant a cheerfully

accorded background of eminence, ability, and comfortable wealth. It had

not occurred to him to detach himself from that background and see how

he looked when separated from it. He felt a little angry, and also a

little ashamed of the fact that he did not bulk larger as a personage,

apart from his environment. Nevertheless, he answered her question

honestly.

'No, Mrs. Lannithorne, I don't think that I have.'

She did not appear to rejoice in his discomfiture. She even seemed a

little sorry for it, but she went on quietly:--

'Don't think I am trying to prove that you are the most ineligible young

man in the city. But it is absolutely necessary that a man should stand

on his own feet, and firmly, before he undertakes to look after other

lives than his own. Otherwise there is nothing but misery for the woman

and children who depend upon him. It is a serious business, getting

married.'

'I begin to think it is,' muttered Oliver blankly.

'I don't _want_ my daughters to marry,' said Mrs. Lannithorne. 'The life

is a thousand times harder than that of the self-supporting

woman--harder work, fewer rewards, less enjoyment, less security. That

is true even of an ordinarily happy marriage. And if they are not

happy--Oh, the bitterness of them!'

She was speaking rapidly now, with energy, almost with anguish. Oliver,

red in the face, subdued, but eager to refute her out of the depths and

heights of his inexperience, held himself rigidly still and listened.

'Did you ever hear that epigram of Disraeli--that all men should marry,

but no women? That is what I believe! At least, if women must marry, let

others do it, not my children, not my little girls!--It is curious, but

that is how we always think of them. When they are grown they are often

uncongenial. My daughter Ruth does not love me deeply, nor am I greatly

drawn to her now, as an individual, a personality,--but Ruth was such a

dear baby! I can't bear to have her suffer.'

Oliver started to protest, hesitated, bit his lip, and subsided. After

all, did he dare say that his wife would never suffer? The woman

opposite looked at him with hostile, accusing eyes, as if he incarnated

in his youthful person all the futile masculinity in the world.

'Do you think a woman who has suffered willingly gives her children over

to the same fate?' she demanded passionately. 'I wish I could make you

see it for five minutes as I see it, you, young, careless, foolish! Why,

you know nothing--nothing! Listen to me. The woman who marries gives up

everything, or at least jeopardizes everything: her youth, her health,

her life perhaps, certainly her individuality. She acquires the

permanent possibility of self-sacrifice. She does it gladly, but she

does not know what she is doing. In return, is it too much to ask that

she be assured a roof over her head, food to her mouth, clothes to her

body? How many men marry without being sure that they have even so much

to offer? You yourself, of what are you sure? Is your arm strong? Is

your heart loyal? Can you shelter her soul as well as her body? I know

your father has money. Perhaps you can care for her creature needs, but

that isn't all. For some women life is one long affront, one slow

humiliation. How do I know you are not like that?'

'Because I'm not, that's all!' said Oliver Pickersgill abruptly, getting

to his feet.

He felt badgered, baited, indignant, yet he could not tell this frail,

excited woman what he thought. There were things one didn't say,

although Mrs. Lannithorne seemed to ignore the fact. She went on

ignoring it.

'I know what you are thinking,' she said, 'that I would regard these

matters differently if I had married another man. That is not wholly

true. It is because Peter Lannithorne was a good man at heart, and tried

to play the man's part as well as he knew how, and because it was partly

my own fault that he failed so miserably, that I have thought of it all

so much. And the end of all my thinking is that I don't want my

daughters to marry.'

Oliver was white now, and a little unsteady. He was also confused. There

was the note of truth in what she said, but he felt that she said it

with too much excitement, with too great facility. He had the justified

masculine distrust of feminine fluency as hysterical. Nothing so

presented could carry full conviction. And he felt physically bruised

and battered, as if he had been beaten with actual rods instead of

stinging words; but he was not yet defeated.

'Mrs. Lannithorne, what do you wish me to understand from all this. Do

you forbid Ruth and me to marry--is that it?'

She looked at him dubiously. She felt so fiercely the things she had

been saying that she could not feel them continuously. She, too, was

exhausted.

Oliver Pickersgill had a fine head, candid eyes, a firm chin, strong

capable hands. He was young, and the young know nothing, but it might be

that there was the making of a man in him. If Ruth must marry, perhaps

him as well as another. But she did not trust her own judgment, even of

such hands, such eyes, and such a chin. Oh, if the girls would only

believe her, if they would only be content to trust the wisdom she had

distilled from the bitterness of life! But the young know nothing, and

believe only the lying voices in their own hearts!

'I wish you would see Ruth's father,' she said suddenly. 'I am

prejudiced. I ought not to have to deal with these questions. I tell

you, I pray Heaven none of them may marry--ever; but, just the same,

they will! Go ask Peter Lannithorne if he thinks his daughter Ruth has a

fighting chance for happiness as your wife. Let him settle it. I have

told you what I think. I am done.'

'I shall be very glad to talk with Ruth's father about the matter,' said

Oliver with a certain emphasis on _father_. 'Perhaps he and I shall be

able to understand each other better. Good-morning, Mrs. Lannithorne!'