LITTLE GENEVRA.
Morris had telegraphed to New York, receiving in reply that Wilford was
hourly expected home, and would at once hasten on to Silverton. The
clergyman, Mr. Kelly, had also been seen, but owing to a funeral which
would take him out of town, he could not be at the farmhouse until five
in the afternoon, when, if the child still lived, he would be glad to
officiate as requested. All this Morris had communicated to Katy, who
listened in a kind of stupor, gasping for breath, when she heard that
Wilford would so soon be there, and moaning "that will be too late,"
when told that the baptism could not take place till night. Then,
kneeling by the crib where the child was lying, she fastened her great,
sad blue eyes upon the pallid face with an earnestness as if thus she
would hold till nightfall the life flickering so faintly and seeming so
nearly finished. The wailings had ceased, and they no longer carried it
within their arms, but had placed it in its crib, where it lay perfectly
still, save as its eyes occasionally unclosed and turned wistfully
toward the cups, where it knew was something which quenched its raging
thirst. Once, indeed, as the hours crept on to noon and Katy bent over
it so that her curls swept its face, it seemed to know her, and the
little wasted hand was for a moment uplifted and rested on her cheek
with the same caressing motion it had been wont to use in health. Then
hope whispered that it might live, and with a great cry of joy Katy
sobbed: "She knows me, Morris--mother, see; she knows me. Maybe she will
live."
But the dull stupor which succeeded to that act swept all hope away, and
again Katy resumed her post, watching first her dying child, and then
the long hands of the clock which crept on so slowly, pointing to only
two when she thought it must be five. Would that hour never come, or
coming, would it find baby there? None could answer that last
question--they could only wait and pray, and as they waited thus the
warm September sun neared the western sky till its yellow beams came
stealing through the window and across the floor to where Katy sat
watching its onward progress and looking sometimes out upon the hills
where the purplish autumnal haze was lying just as she once loved to see
it; but she did not heed it now, or care how bright the day with the
flitting shadows dancing on the grass, the tall flowers growing by the
door and old Whitey standing by the gate, his head stretched toward the
house in a kind of dreamy, listening attitude, as if he, too, knew of
the great sorrow hastening on so fast. The others saw all this, and it
made their hearts ache more as they thought of the beautiful little
child, so much fairer than sky or day or flowers could be, going from
their midst when they wished so much to keep her. But Katy had only one
idea, and that was of the child growing very restless now and throwing
up its arms as if in pain. It is striking five, and with each stroke the
dying baby moans, while Katy strains her ear to catch another sound, the
sound of horses' hoofs hurrying up the road. The clergyman has come and
anon the inmates of the house gather around in silence, while he makes
ready to receive the child into Christ's flock, where it so soon will
really be.
Mrs. Lennox had questioned Helen about the name and Helen had answered:
"Katy knows, I presume. It does not matter," but no one had spoken
directly to Katy, who had scarcely given it a thought, caring more for
the rite she had deferred so long.
"He must hasten," she said to Morris, her eyes fixed upon the panting
child she had lifted to her own lap, and thus abjured the clergyman
failed to make the usual inquiry concerning the name he was to give.
Calm and white as a marble statue, Marian Hazelton glided to the back of
Katy's chair, pressing both her hands upon it, and leaning over Katy so
that her eyes too were fixed upon the little face, from which they never
turned but once, and that when the clergyman's voice was heard asking
for a name. There was an instant's silence, and Katy's lips began to
move, when one of Marian's hands was laid upon her head, while the other
took in its own the limp, while baby fingers, and Marian's voice was
very steady in its tone as it said: "Genevra."
"Yes, Genevra," Katy whispered, and then the solemn words were heard:
"Genevra, I baptize thee in the name of the Father, the Son, and the
Holy Ghost."
Softly the baptismal waters fell upon the pale forehead, and at their
touch the little Genevra's eyes unclosed, the waxen fingers withdrew
themselves from Marian's grasp, and again sought the mother's cheek,
resting there for an instant; while a smile broke around the baby lips,
which tried to say "Mam-ma." Then the hand fell back, down upon
Marian's, the soft eyes closed, the limbs grew rigid, the shadow of
death grew deeper, and while the prayer was said, and Marian's tears
fell with Katy's upon the brow where the baptismal waters were not
dried, the angel came, and when the prayer was ended, Morris, who knew
what the rest did not, took the lifeless form from Katy's lap, and
whispered to her gently: "Katy, your baby is dead!"
An hour later, and the sweet little creature, which had been a sunbeam
in that house for a few happy days, lay upon the bed where Katy said it
must be laid; its form shrouded in the christening robe which Grandma
Cameron had bought, flowers upon its pillow, flowers upon its bosom,
flowers in its hands, which Marian had put there; for Marian's was the
mind which thought of everything concerning the dead child; and Helen,
as she watched her, wondered at the mighty love which showed itself in
every lineament of her face, the blue veins swelling in her forehead,
her eyes bloodshot, and her lips shut firmly together, as if it were by
mere strength of will that she kept back the scalding tears as she
dressed the little Genevra. They spoke of that name in the kitchen when
the first great shock was over, and Helen explained why it had been
Katy's choice. Poor stricken Katy, it was Morris' task to comfort
her--Morris, who sat by her holding the hot, feverish hand she had
placed in his, and telling her of the blessed Savior who loved the
little children while here on earth, and to whom her darling had surely
gone.
"Safe in His arms it would not come back if it could," he said, "and
neither would you have it."
But Katy was the mother, and human love could not so soon submit, but
went out after the lost one with a piteous agonizing wail, which hurt
Morris cruelly.
"Oh, I want my baby back. I know she is safe, but I want her back. She
was my life--all I had to love," Katy moaned, rocking to and fro in this
first hour of her bereavement.
"You forget your husband," Morris said. "You have him left, and
husbands, I supposed, were dearer than one's children."
"Yes," Katy answered, "I have Wilford, and am glad of that; but he will
blame me so much for bringing baby here to die. He will say it was my
fault; and that I can't bear. I know it was, know I killed my baby; but
I did not mean to. I would give my life for hers, if like her I was
ready," and into Katy's face there came a look of fear which Morris
failed to understand, not knowing Wilford as well as Katy knew him.
Surely no man could reproach the half-crazed creature, who all that
night sat by the bedside of her dead child, sleeping a little in her
chair, but obtaining no real rest, so that by the morning her face was
like some white rose on which a fierce storm has beaten, breaking off
its petals and crushing out its life. At nine o'clock there came to her
a telegram. Wilford had reached New York and would be in Silverton that
afternoon, accompanied by Bell. At this last Marian Hazelton caught
eagerly as an excuse for what she intended doing. She could not remain
there after Wilford came, nor was it necessary. Her task was done, or
would be when she had finished the wreath and cross of flowers she was
making for the coffin. Laying them on baby's pillow, Marian went in
quest of Helen, to whom she explained that as Bell Cameron was coming,
and the house would be full, she had decided upon going to West
Silverton, especially as she wished to see the lady with whom she once
boarded, and who had been so kind to her.
"I might stay," she added, as Helen began to protest, "but you do not
need me. I have done all I can, and would rather go where I can be quiet
for a little."
To this last argument there could be no demur, and so the same carriage
which at ten o'clock went for Wilford Cameron carried Marian Hazelton
to the village where she preferred being left.
* * * * *
In much anxiety and distress Wilford Cameron read the telegram
announcing baby's illness.
"At Silverton!" he said. "How can that be when the child was at New
London?" and he glanced at the words:
"Your child is dying at Silverton. Come at once.
"M. GRANT."
There could be no mistake, and Wilford's face grew dark, for he guessed
the truth, censuring Katy much, but censuring her family more. They, of
course, had encouraged her in the plan of taking her child from New
London, where it was doing so well, and this was the result. Wilford was
proud of his daughter now, and during the few weeks he had been with it
the little thing had found a strong place in his love. Many times he had
thought of it during his journey West, indulging in bright anticipations
of the coming winter, when he would have it home again. It would not be
in his way now. On the contrary, it would add much to his luxurious
home, and the young father's heart bounded as Wilford Cameron had never
believed his heart could bound, with thoughts of the beautiful baby as
he had last seen it in Katy's arms, crowing its good-by to him and
trying to lisp his name, its sweet voice haunting him for weeks, and
making him a softer, better man, who did not frown impatiently as he
used to do upon the children in the cars, but who took notice of them
all, even laying his hand once on a little curly head which reminded him
of baby's.
Alas for him, he little dreamed of the great shock in store for him. The
child was undoubtedly very sick, he said, but that it could die was not
possible; and so, though he made ready to hasten to it, he did withhold
his opinion of the rashness, as he termed it, which had brought it to
such peril.
"Had Katy obeyed me it would not have happened," he said, pacing up and
down the parlor and preparing to say more, when Bell came to Katy's aid,
and lighting furiously upon him, asked what he meant by blaming his
wife so much.
"For my part," she said, "I think there has been too much fault-finding
and dictation from the very day of the child's birth till now, and if
God takes it, as he may, I shall think it a judgment upon you. First you
were half vexed with Katy because it was not a boy, as if she were to
blame; then you did not like it because it was not more promising and
fair; next it was in your way, and so you sent it off, never considering
Katy any more than if she were a mere automaton, to turn which way you
said. Then you must needs forbid her taking it home to her own family,
as if they had no right, no interest in it. I tell you, Will, it is not
all Cameron--there is some Barlow blood in its veins--Aunt Betsy
Barlow's, too, and you cannot wash it out. Katy had a right to take her
own child where she pleased, and you are not a man if you censure her
for it, as I see in your eyes you mean to do. Suppose it had stayed in
New London and been struck with lightning--you would have been to blame,
of course, according to your own view of things."
There was too much truth in Bell's remarks for Wilford to retort, even
had he been disposed, and he contented himself with a haughty toss of
his head as she left the room to get herself in readiness for the
journey she insisted upon taking. Wilford was glad she was going, as her
presence at Silverton would relieve him of the awkward embarrassment he
always felt when there; and magnanimously forgiving her for the
plainness of her speech, he was the most attentive of brothers until
Silverton was reached and he found Dr. Grant waiting for him. Something
in his face, as he came forward to meet them, startled both Wilford and
Bell, the latter of whom asked quickly:
"Is the baby better?"
"Baby is dead," was the brief reply, and Wilford staggered back against
the doorpost, where he leaned a moment for support in that first great
shock for which he was not prepared.
"Dead," he repeated, "our baby dead," and Morris was glad that he said
our, as it indicated a thought of Katy as a mutual sharer in the loss.
Upon the doorstep Bell sat down, crying quietly, for she had loved the
little child, and she listened anxiously while Morris repeated the
particulars of its illness and then spoke of Katy's reproaching herself
so bitterly for having brought it from New London. "She seems entirely
crushed," he continued, when they were driving toward the farmhouse.
"For a few hours I trembled for her reason, while the fear that you
might reproach her added much to the poignancy of her grief."
Morris said this very calmly, as if it were not what he had all the
while intended saying, and his eye turned toward Wilford, whose lips
were compressed with the emotion he was evidently trying to control. It
was Bell who spoke first. Bell who said impulsively; "Poor Katy, I knew
she would feel so, but it is unnecessary, for none but a savage would
reproach her now, even if she were in fault."
Morris blessed Bell Cameron in his heart, knowing how much influence her
words would have upon her brother, who brushed away the first tear he
had shed, and tried to say that "of course she was not to blame."
They were in sight of the farmhouse now, and Bell, with her city ideas,
was looking curiously at it, mentally pronouncing it a nicer, pleasanter
place than she had supposed, inasmuch as it reminded her of the
description she had read of the Virginia farmhouse, where a young
officer was encamped for a few days, an officer who wore a lieutenant's
uniform and who signed himself as Bob. It was very quiet about the
house, and old Whitey's neigh as Morris' span of bays came up was the
only sound which greeted them. In the woodshed door Uncle Ephraim sat
smoking his clay pipe and likening the feathery waves which curled above
his head to the little soul so recently gone upward, while by his side,
upon a log of wood, holding a pan of the luscious peaches she was
slicing up for tea, sat a woman whom Bell knew at once for Aunt Betsy
Barlow, thinking more of the peaches than of the old lady who, pan in
hand, came forward to met her, curtseying very low when introduced by
Morris, and asking to be excused from shaking hands, inasmuch as hers
were not fit to be touched. Bell's quick eye took her in at a glance,
from her clean spotted gown to her plain muslin cap tied with a black
ribbon, put on that day with a view to mourning, and then darted off to
Uncle Ephraim, who won her heart at once when she heard how his voice
trembled as he took Wilford's hand and said so pityingly, so
father-like: "Young man, this is a sad day for you and you have my
sympathy, for I remember well how my heart ached when, on just such a
day as this, my only child lay dead as yours is lying."
Every muscle of Wilford's face quivered then, but he was too proud to
show all that he felt, and he was glad when Helen appeared in the door,
as that diverted his mind somewhat, and he greeted her most cordially,
even stooping down and kissing her smooth forehead, a thing he had never
done before. But sorrow is a great softener and Wilford was very sorry,
feeling his loss more here where everything was so quiet, so suggestive
of death.
"Where is Katy?" he asked.
"She is sleeping for the first time since the baby died. She is in here
with the child. She will stay nowhere else," Helen said, opening softly
the door of the bedroom and motioning Wilford in.
With hushed breath and a beating heart, Wilford stepped across the
threshold and Helen closed the door, leaving him alone with the living
and the dead. Pure and beautiful as some fair blossom, the dead child
lay upon the bed, the curls of golden hair clustering about its head,
and on its lips the smile which had settled there when it tried to say
"mamma"--its dimpled hands folded upon its breast, where lay the cross
of flowers which Marian Hazelton had made--flowers upon its pillow,
flowers around its head, flowers upon its shroud, flowers everywhere,
and itself the fairest flower of all, Wilford thought as he stood gazing
at it and then let his eye move on to where poor, tired, worn-out Katy
had crept up so close beside it that her breath touched the marble cheek
and her own disordered hair rested upon the pillow of her child. Even in
her sleep her tears kept dropping from the long eyelashes, and the pale
lips quivered in a grieved, touching way. Hard indeed would Wilford have
been had he cherished one bitter thought against the wife so wounded. He
could not when he saw her, but no one ever knew just what passed through
his mind during the half hour he sat there beside her, scarcely
stirring and not daring to kiss his child lest he should awaken her. He
could hear the ticking of his watch and the beating of his heart as he
waited for the first sound which should herald Katy's waking.
Suddenly there was a low, gasping moan, and Katy's eyes unclosed and
rested on her husband. He was bending over her in an instant, and her
arms were around his neck, while she said to him so sadly:
"Our baby is dead--you've nobody left but me; and oh! Wilford, you will
not blame me bringing baby here? I did not think she would die. I'd give
my life for hers if that would bring her back. Say, Wilford, would you
rather it was me lying as baby lies, and she here in your arms?"
"No, Katy," Wilford answered, and by his voice Katy knew that she was
wholly forgiven, crying on his neck in a plaintive, piteous way, while
Wilford soothed and pitied and caressed, feeling subdued and humbled,
and we must confess it, feeling too how very good and generous he was to
be thus forbearing, when but for Katy's act of disobedience they might
not now be childless!
* * * * *
With a great gust of tears Bell Cameron bent over the little form, and
then enfolded Katy in a more loving embrace than he had ever given her
before; but whatever she might have said was prevented by the arrival of
the coffin and the confusion which followed.
Much Wilford regretted that New York was so far away, for a city coffin
was more suitable, he thought, for a child of his, than the one which
Dr. Grant had ordered. But that was really of less consequence than the
question where should the child be buried? A costly monument at
Greenwood was in accordance with his ideas, but all things indicated
a contemplated burial there in the country churchyard, and sorely
perplexed he called on Bell as the only Cameron at hand, to know what
he should do.
"Do just as Katy prefers," was Bell's reply, as she led him to the
coffin and pointed to the name: "Little Genevra Cameron, aged nine
months and twenty days."
"What is it, Wilford--what is the matter?" she asked, as her brother
turned whiter than his child, and struck his hand upon his head as if
a blow had fallen there.
Had "Genevra Lambert, aged twenty-two," met his eye, he could not have
been more startled than he was; but soon rallying, he said to Morris,
who came near:
"The child was baptized then?"
"Yes, baptized Genevra. That was Katy's choice, I understand," Morris
replied, and Wilford bowed his head, wishing the Genevra across the sea
might know that his child bore her name.
"Perhaps she does," he thought, and his heart grew warm with the fancy
that possibly in that other world, whose existence he never really
doubted, the Genevra he had wronged would care for his child, if
children there need care. "She will know it is mine at least," he said,
and with a thoughtful face he went in quest of Katy, whom he found
sobbing by the side of the mourning garments just sent in for her
inspection.
Wilford was averse to black. It would not become Katy, he feared, and it
would be an unanswerable reason for her remaining closely home for the
entire winter.
"What's this?" he asked, lifting the crape veil and dropping it again
with an impatient gesture as Helen replied: "It is Katy's mourning
veil."
Contrary to his expectations, black was becoming to Katy, who looked
like a pure white lily, as, leaning on Wilford's arm next day, she stood
by the grave where they were burying her child.
Wilford had spoken to her of Greenwood, but she had begged so hard that
he had given up that idea, suggesting next, as more in accordance with
city custom, that she remain at home while he only followed to the
grave; but from this Katy recoiled in such distress that he gave up too,
and bore, magnanimously, as he thought, the sight of all the Barlows
standing around that grave, alike mourners with himself, and all a right
to be there. Wilford felt his loss deeply, and his heart ached to its
very core as he heard the gravel rattling down upon the coffin lid which
covered the beautiful child he had loved so much. But amid it all he
never for a moment forgot that he was Wilford Cameron, and infinitely
superior to the crowd around him--except, indeed, his wife, his sister,
Dr. Grant, and Helen. He could bear to see them sorry, and feel that by
their sorrow they honored the memory of his child. But for the rest--the
village herd, with the Barlows in their train--he had no affinity, and
his manner was as haughty and distant as ever as he passed through their
midst back to the carriage, which took him again to the farmhouse.