I find it by no means easy to do this. Oscar baffled me.

The first words of any importance which he addressed to me were spoken on

our way to the station. Rousing himself from his own thoughts, he said

very earnestly----

"I want to know what conclusion you have drawn from Mrs. Finch's letter."

Naturally enough, under the circumstances, I tried to avoid answering

him. He was not to be put off in that way.

"You will do me a favor," he went on, "if you will reply to my question.

The letter has bred in me such a vile suspicion of my dear good brother,

who never deceived me in his life, that I would rather believe I am out

of my mind than believe in my own interpretation of it. Do _you_ infer

from what Mrs. Finch writes, that Nugent has presented himself to Lucilla

under my name? Do _you_ believe that he has persuaded her to leave her

friends, under the impression that she has yielded to My entreaties, and

trusted herself to My care?"

I answered in the fewest and plainest words, "That is what your brother

has done."

A sudden change passed over him. My reply seemed to have set his last

doubts at rest in an instant.

"That is what my brother has done," he repeated. "After all that I

sacrificed to him--after all that I trusted to his honor--when I left

England." He paused, and considered a little. "What does such a man

deserve?" he went on; speaking to himself, in a low threatening tone that

startled me.

"He deserves," I said, "what he will get when we reach England. You have

only to show yourself to make him repent his wickedness to the last day

of his life. Are exposure and defeat not punishment enough for such a man

as Nugent?" I stopped, and waited for his answer.

He turned his face away from me, and said no more until we arrived at the

station. There, he drew me aside for a moment out of hearing of the

strangers about us.

"Why should I take you away from your father?" he asked abruptly. "I am

behaving very selfishly--and I only see it now."

"Make your mind easy," I said. "If I had not met you to-day, I should

have gone to England to-morrow for Lucilla's sake."

"But now you _have_ met me," he persisted, "why shouldn't I spare you the

journey? I could write and tell you every thing--without putting you to

this fatigue and expense."

"If you say a word more," I answered, "I shall think you have some reason

of your own for wishing to go to England by yourself."

He cast one quick suspicious look at me--and led the way back to the

booking-office without uttering another word. I was not at all satisfied

with him. I thought his conduct very strange.

In silence we took our tickets; in silence, we got into the

railway-carriage. I attempted to say something encouraging, when we

started. "Don't notice me," was all he replied. "You will be doing me a

kindness, if you will let me bear it by myself." In my former experience

of him, he had talked his way out of all his other troubles--he had

clamorously demanded the expression of my sympathy with him. In this

greatest trouble, he was like another being; I hardly knew him again!

Were the hidden reserves in his nature (stirred up by another serious

call on them) showing themselves once more on the surface as they had

shown themselves already, on the fatal first day when Lucilla tried her

sight? In that way I accounted for the mere superficial change in him, at

the time. What was actually going on below the surface it defied my

ingenuity even to guess. Perhaps I shall best describe the sort of vague

apprehension which he aroused in me--after what had passed between us at

the station--by saying that I would not for worlds have allowed him to go

to England by himself.

Left as I now was to my own resources, I occupied the first hours of the

journey, in considering what course it would be safest and best for us to

take, on reaching England.

I decided, in the first place, that we ought to go straight to Dimchurch.

If any tidings had been obtained of Lucilla, they would be sure to have

received them at the rectory. Our route, after reaching Paris, must be

therefore by way of Dieppe; thence across the Channel to Newhaven, near

Brighton--and so to Dimchurch.

In the second place--assuming it to be always possible that we might see

Lucilla at the rectory--the risk of abruptly presenting Oscar to her in

his own proper person might, for all I knew to the contrary, be a very

serious one. It would relieve us, as I thought, of a grave

responsibility, if we warned Grosse of our arrival, and so enabled him to

be present, if he thought it necessary, in the interests of Lucilla's

health. I put this view (as also my plan for returning by way of Dieppe)

to Oscar. He briefly consented to everything--he ungraciously left it all

to me.

Accordingly, on our arrival at Lyons, having some time for refreshment at

our disposal before we went on, I telegraphed to Mr. Finch at the

rectory, and to Grosse in London; informing them (as well as I could

calculate it) that, if we were lucky in catching trains and steamboats,

Oscar and I might be in Dimchurch in good time, on the next night--that

is to say, on the night of the eighteenth. In any case, they were to

expect us at the earliest possible moment.

These difficulties disposed of, and a little store of refreshment for the

night packed in my basket, we re-entered the train, for our long journey

to Paris.

Among the new passengers who joined us at Lyons was a gentleman whose

face was English, and whose dress was the dress of a clergyman. For the

first time in my life, I hailed the appearance of a priest with a feeling

of relief. The reason was this. From the moment when I had read Mrs.

Finch's letter until now, a horrid doubt, which a priest was just the man

to solve, had laid its leaden weight on my mind--and, I firmly believe,

on Oscar's mind as well. Had time enough passed, since Lucilla had left

Ramsgate, to allow of Nugent's marrying her, under his brother's name?

As the train rolled out of the station, I, the enemy of priests, began to

make myself agreeable to _this_ priest. He was young and shy--but I

conquered him. Just as the other travelers were beginning (with the

exception of Oscar) to compose themselves to sleep, I put my case to the

clergyman. "A and B, sir, lady and gentleman, both of age, leave one

place in England, and go to live in another place, on the fifth of this

month--how soon, if you please, can they be lawfully married after that?"

"I presume you mean in church?" said the young clergyman.

"In church, of course." (To that extent I believed I might answer for

Lucilla, without any fear of making a mistake.)

"They may be married by License," said the clergyman--"provided one of

them continues to reside in that other place to which they traveled on

the fifth--on the twenty-first, or (possibly) even the twentieth of this

month."

"Not before?"

"Certainly not before."

It was then the night of the seventeenth. I gave my companion's hand a

little squeeze in the dark. Here was a glimpse of encouragement to cheer

us on the journey. Before the marriage could take place, we should be in

England. "We have time before us," I whispered to Oscar. "We will save

Lucilla yet."

"Shall we find Lucilla?" was all he whispered back.

I had forgotten that serious difficulty. No answer to Oscar's question

could possibly present itself until we reached the rectory. Between this

and then, there was nothing for it but to keep patience and to keep hope.

I refrain from encumbering this part of my narrative with any detailed

account of the little accidents, lucky and unlucky, which alternately

hastened or retarded our journey home. Let me only say that, before

midnight on the eighteenth, Oscar and I drove up to the rectory gate.

Mr. Finch himself came out to receive us, with a lamp in his hand. He

lifted his eyes (and his lamp) devotionally to the sky when he saw Oscar.

The two first words he said, were:--

"Inscrutable Providence!"

"Have you found Lucilla?" I asked.

Mr. Finch--with his whole attention fixed on Oscar--wrung my hand

mechanically, and said I was a "good creature;" much as he might have

patted, and spoken to, Oscar's companion, if the companion had been a

dog. I almost wished myself that animal for the moment--I should have had

the privilege of biting Mr. Finch. Oscar impatiently repeated my

question; the rector, at the time, officiously assisting him to descend

from the carriage, and leaving me to get out as I could.

"Did you hear Madame Pratolungo?" Oscar asked. "Is Lucilla found?"

"Dear Oscar, we hope to find her, now you have come."

That answer revealed to me the secret of Mr. Finch's extraordinary

politeness to his young friend. The last chance, as things were, of

preventing Lucilla's marriage to a man who had squandered away every

farthing of his money, was the chance of Oscar's arrival in England

before the ceremony could take place. The measure of Oscar's importance

to Mr. Finch was now, more literally than ever, the measure of Oscar's

fortune.

I asked for news of Grosse as we went in. The rector actually found some

comparatively high notes in his prodigious voice, to express his

amazement at my audacity in speaking to him of anybody but Oscar.

"Oh, dear, dear me!" cried Mr. Finch, impatiently conceding to me one

precious moment of his attention. "Don't bother about Grosse! Grosse is

ill in London. There is a note for you from Grosse.--Take care of the

door-step, dear Oscar," he went on, in his deepest and gravest bass

notes. "Mrs. Finch is so anxious to see you. We have both looked forward

to your arrival with such eager hope--such impatient affection, so to

speak. Let me put down your hat. Ah! how you must have suffered! Share my

trust in an all-wise Providence, and meet this trial with cheerful

submission as I do. All is not lost yet. Bear up! bear up!" He threw open

the parlor door. "Mrs. Finch! compose yourself. Our dear adopted son. Our

afflicted Oscar!"

Is it necessary to say what Mrs. Finch was about, and how Mrs. Finch

looked?

There were the three unchangeable institutions--the novel, the baby, and

the missing pocket-handkerchief There was the gaudy jacket over the long

trailing dressing-gown--and the damp lady inside them, damp as ever!

Receiving Oscar with a mouth drawn down at the corners, and a head that

shook sadly in sympathy with him, Mrs. Finch's face underwent a most

extraordinary transformation when she turned my way next. To my

astonishment, her dim eyes actually sparkled; a broad smile of

irrepressible contentment showed itself cunningly to _me,_ in place of

the dismal expression which had welcomed Oscar. Holding up the baby in

triumph, the lady of the rectory whispered these words in my ear:--"What

do you think he has done since you have been away?"

"I really don't know," I answered.

"He has cut two teeth! Put your finger in and feel."

Others might bewail the family misfortune. The family triumph filled the

secret mind of Mrs. Finch, to the exclusion of every other earthly

consideration. I put my finger in as instructed, and got instantly bitten

by the ferocious baby. But for a new outburst of the rector's voice at

the moment, Mrs. Finch (if I am any judge of physiognomy) must have

certainly relieved herself by a scream of delight. As it was, she opened

her mouth; and (having lost her handkerchief as already stated) retired

into a corner, and gagged herself with the baby.

In the meantime, Mr. Finch had produced from a cupboard near the

fireplace, two letters. The first he threw down impatiently on the table.

"Oh, dear, dear! what a nuisance other people's letters are!" The second

he handled with extraordinary care; offering it to Oscar with a heavy

sigh, and with eyes that turned up martyr-like to the ceiling. "Rouse

yourself, and read it," said Mr. Finch in his most pathetic pulpit tones.

"I would have spared you, Oscar, if I could. All our hopes depend, dear

boy, on what you can say to guide us when you have read those lines."

Oscar took the enclosure out of the envelope--ran over the first

words--glanced at the signature--and, with a look of mingled rage and

horror, threw the letter on the floor.

"Don't ask me to read it!" he cried, in the first burst of passion which

had escaped him yet. "If I read it, I shall kill him when we meet." He

dropped into a chair, and hid his face in his hands. "Oh, Nugent! Nugent!

Nugent!" he moaned to himself, with a cry that was dreadful to hear.

It was no time for standing on ceremony. I picked up the letter, and

looked at it without asking leave. It proved to be the letter from Nugent

(already inserted at the close of Lucilla's Journal), informing Miss

Batchford of her niece's flight from Ramsgate, and signed in Oscar's

name. The only words which it is necessary to repeat here, are

these:--"She accompanies me, at my express request, to the house of a

married lady who is a relative of mine, and under whose care she will

remain, until the time arrives for our marriage."

Those lines instantly lightened my heart of the burden that had oppressed

it on the journey. Nugent's married relative was Oscar's married relative

too. Oscar had only to tell us where the lady lived--and Lucilla would be

found!

I stopped Mr. Finch, in the act of maddening Oscar by administering

pastoral consolation to him.

"Leave it to me," I said, showing him the letter. "I know what you want."

The rector stared at me indignantly. I turned to Mrs. Finch.

"We have had a weary journey," I went on. "Oscar is not so well used to

traveling as I am. Where is his room?"

Mrs. Finch rose to show the way. Her husband opened his lips to

interfere.

"Leave it to me," I repeated. "I understand him; and you don't."

For once in his life, the Pope of Dimchurch was reduced to silence. His

amazement at my audacity defied even his powers of expression. I took

Oscar's arm, and said, "You are worn out. Go to your room. I will make

you something warm and bring it up to you myself in a few minutes." He

neither looked at me nor answered me--he yielded silently and followed

Mrs. Finch. I took from the sideboard, on which supper was waiting, the

materials I wanted; set the kettle boiling; made my renovating mixture;

and advanced to the door with it--followed from first to last, move where

I might, by the staring and scandalized eyes of Mr. Finch. The moment in

which I opened the door was also the moment in which the rector recovered

himself. "Permit me to inquire, Madame Pratolungo," he said with his

loftiest emphasis, "in what capacity are You here?"

"In the capacity of Oscar's friend," I answered. "You will get rid of us

both to-morrow." I banged the door behind me, and went up-stairs. If I

had been Mr. Finch's wife, I believe I should have ended in making quite

an agreeable man of him.

Mrs. Finch met me in the passage on the first floor, and pointed out

Oscar's room. I found him walking backwards and forwards restlessly. The

first words he said alluded to his brother's letter. I had arranged not

to disturb him by any reference to that painful matter until the next

morning; and I tried to change the topic. It was useless. There was an

anxiety in his mind which was not to be dismissed at will. He insisted on

my instantly setting that anxiety at rest.

"I don't want to see the letter," he said. "I only want to know all that

it says about Lucilla."

"All that it says may be summed up in this. Lucilla is perfectly safe."

He caught me by the arm, and looked me searchingly in the face.

"Where?" he asked. "With _him?_"

"With a married lady who is a relative of his."

He dropped my arm, and considered for a moment.

"My cousin at Sydenham!" he exclaimed.

"Do you know the house?"

"Perfectly well."

"We will go there to-morrow. Let that content you for tonight. Get to

rest."

I gave him my hand. He took it mechanically--absorbed in his own

thoughts.

"Didn't I say something foolish down stairs?" he asked, putting the

question suddenly, with an odd suspicious look at me.

"You were quite worn out," I said, consolingly. "Nobody noticed it."

"You are sure of that?"

"Quite sure. Good night."

I left the room, feeling much as I had felt at the station at Marseilles.

I was not satisfied with him. I thought his conduct very strange.

On returning to the parlor, I found nobody there but Mrs. Finch. The

rector's offended dignity had left the rector no honorable alternative

but to withdraw to his own room. I ate my supper in peace; and Mrs. Finch

(rocking the cradle with her foot) chattered away to her heart's content

about all that had happened in my absence.

I gathered, here and there, from what she said, some particulars worth

mentioning.

The new disagreement between Mr. Finch and Miss Batchford, which had

driven the old lady out of the rectory almost as soon as she set foot in

it, had originated in Mr. Finch's exasperating composure when he heard of

his daughter's flight. He supposed, of course, that Lucilla had left

Ramsgate with Oscar--whose signed settlements on his future wife were

safe in Mr. Finch's possession. It was only when Miss Batchford had

communicated with Grosse, and when the discovery followed which revealed

the penniless Nugent as the man who had eloped with Lucilla, that Mr.

Finch's parental anxiety (seeing no money likely to come of it) became

roused to action. He, Miss Batchford, and Grosse, had all, in their

various ways, done their best to trace the fugitives--and had all alike

been baffled by the impossibility of discovering the residence of the

lady mentioned in Nugent's letter. My telegram, announcing my return to

England with Oscar, had inspired them with their first hope of being able

to interfere, and stop the marriage before it was too late.

The occurrence of Grosse's name in Mrs. Finch's rambling narrative,

recalled to my memory what the rector had told me at the garden gate. I

had not yet received the letter which the German had sent to wait my

arrival at Dimchurch. After a short search, we found it--where it had

been contemptuously thrown by Mr. Finch--on the parlor table.

A few lines comprised the whole letter. Grosse informed me that he had so

fretted himself about Lucilla, that he had been attacked by "a visitation

of gouts." It was impossible to move his "foots" without instantly

plunging into the torture of the infernal regions. "If it is you, my goot

dear, who are going to find her," he concluded, "come to me first in

London. I have something most dismal-serious to say to you about our poor

little Feench's eyes."

No words can tell how that last sentence startled and grieved me. Mrs.

Finch increased my anxiety and alarm by repeating what she had heard Miss

Batchford say, during her brief visit to the rectory, on the subject of

Lucilla's sight. Grosse had been seriously dissatisfied with the state of

his patient's eyes, when he had seen them as long ago as the fourth of

the month; and, on the morning of the next day, the servant had reported

Lucilla as being hardly able to distinguish objects in the view from the

window of her room. Later on the same day, she had secretly left

Ramsgate; and Grosse's letter proved that she had not been near her

surgical attendant since.

Weary as I was after the journey, this miserable news kept me waking long

after I had gone to my bed. The next morning, I was up with the

servants--impatient to start for London, by the first train.

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