VII

Even to myself,” the Major sighed, “the story which I am about to tell

sounds incredible. My reason for confiding it to a stranger is that,

when you have heard it, you may dispense with chivalry and become stern

enough to do your duty. To protect a woman, whatever her age or

looks, is an instinct as primitive as religion. When she happens to be

beautiful and the object of your affection, not to protect her is a

kind of blasphemy. You and I, though you deny it, are both in love

with Santa. I am her husband, while you are no more than her chance-met

admirer. Yet you, in her hour of danger, are prepared to shield her with

your honor, whereas I am among the most relentless of her pursuers.

“The best part of my life has been spent in India. I went there with

my regiment when I was little more than a boy. The fascination of an

ancient civilization took possession of my imagination. I became a

student of it and soon acquired a knowledge of native habits which was

more fitting to a secret agent than to a soldier. I learned to speak

many dialects and could pass myself off as an Asiatic with the minimum

amount of disguise. Instead of frequenting clubs and idling away my

leisure in the usual round of social futilities which make up the

average Anglo-Indian's life, I formed the practice of slipping out into

the night and losing my identity in the teeming, Oriental shadow-world

by which I was surrounded.

“On one of my wanderings--when or where it is not necessary to

particularize--I strolled into a temple and saw a young girl dancing. As

perhaps you know, girls are dedicated to the worship of certain gods and

goddesses at a very early age. They are for the most part deities who

symbolize fecundity; the ritual with which they are celebrated is gross.

The temple girls are chosen for their beauty and are trained by the

priesthood to perform sensual dances, which are as old as time. They

are not nuns or priestesses; their social status, if they may be said to

have any in a land where woman is at best a plaything, approximates to

that of temple slaves. They are taken from their parents at an age when

sahibs' children are in nurseries. From the moment they are dedicated,

their minds and souls are left to stagnate; they are treated like

performing animals--fed and drilled and degraded that they may employ

their bodies with the utmost grace.

“This girl, the moment I saw her, impressed me as being the most

fascinating human creature I had ever set eyes on. I had pressed in with

the crowd from the evil-smelling, moonlit street. The temple was dim

with the smoke of swaying censers. Its walls seemed vast with the flash

of gold and jewels. At the far end, scarcely discernible, a huge god

squatted, gloating and sinister. From somewhere in the shadows, swelling

into frenzy, came the pounding of drums and the clash of barbaric music.

Across the open pavement, between the god and the spectators, a chain of

girls coiled and twisted like a snake.

“At the time I entered, the dance was nearly ended. It had evidently

been going on for a long while. One by one the girls were slipping down

exhausted. There they lay disordered, with their hair twined about them

and their slim, bronze bodies twitching.

“But one girl danced on, ever quickening her pace, till she alone

remained. She was like a streak of flame, a will-o'-the-wisp, a spring

petal blown before the wind: she seemed the symbol of everything that

is young and pagan. Her childish face was masked in an unchanging smile.

Her lips were parted; her body gleamed golden among the muted lights.

She stooped and darted like a lizard across her fallen comrades; with

one leap she floated through the air, perched for a moment on the knees

of the god, and vanished into his bosom. Instantly the censers were

extinguished, and I was carried out into the evil-smelling street by the

rush of the perspiring crowd.

“From that night it was as though I were bewitched. There was never an

hour when that drifting blossom of a girl was absent from my mind. I

idealized her into a nobility that was more than earthly. I flung

aside all sense of caste and race. I forgot that I was a sahib and over

thirty, whereas she was a dancing girl and little more than a child. I

excused my infatuation on the ground of magnanimity, telling myself that

if I could possess her, I could save her from certain degradation. Above

all, I wanted to wipe out her houri's smile and to cause the soul to

appear in her eyes. Every hour that I could spare, I disguised myself as

a native and haunted the temple. At rare intervals I caught glimpses of

her. And so six months went by.

“Gradually my desire strengthened into determination. I was insane with

chivalry--utterly quixotic, as quixotic as you are now. I had raised her

to such a pinnacle of worship that a liaison was not to be contemplated.

What I planned was to carry her off and marry her. When you remember

the gulf which the Anglo-Indian places between himself and the races he

governs, you can estimate the measure of my madness. Such an act would

entail resigning from my regiment and inviting social ostracism on every

hand. It meant ruin, but to my impassioned mind no price seemed too high

to pay.

“There was an old priest who, unknown to me, had observed my comings and

goings. One evening he addressed me by name. While I was hesitating as

to what could be his motive, he volunteered to obtain the girl for me if

I would reward him with a sufficient bribe.

“Three nights later, as I waited, a door in the temple wall opened, and

a muffled figure emerged. Without a word, obeying the instructions I had

received, I turned away, and she followed. Through the sleeping city we

crept, like a pair of shadows.

“In the European quarter I had secretly rented a bungalow which had long

been deserted. It stood in a wilderness of overgrown shrubberies; a high

wall went about it. Not until the rusty gate had closed behind us did I

dare to acknowledge her presence; then, taking her in my arms, I carried

her up the path to the unlighted house. We entered. There were just the

two of us; I had not risked engaging servants. In the darkness I set her

down and lighted a lamp. As the flame quickened and I knelt beside her,

she uncovered her face. So far, I had seen her only distantly. It was

the moment for which I had waited. Her face was white.”

The Major passed his hand across his forehead. His lips tightened. He

betrayed every sign of a man doing his best to conceal an overpowering

emotion. He leaned back and gazed up at the ceiling, blowing out a cloud

of smoke. When he had watched it disperse, he turned to Hindwood with a

deprecating smile.

“I hope I don't bore you. I'll omit the ardors and ecstasies of my

love-affair and stick to the bare outline. What I discovered was that

she was an Eurasian. She was fourteen years of age--a woman by Indian

standards, but still a child by ours. Her eyes were gray, and her

complexion was so light that, with any one but an expert, she could have

passed for a European. There are millions of darkhaired women with her

coloring to be found in any Latin country. Given the proper manners and

a European setting, scarcely a soul would have suspected her. Certainly

no one would dare to voice his suspicions who met her as my wife.

“Her history I pieced together from many conversations. Her father had

been a tea-planter--an Englishman of good family. Her mother had been

a Burmese. They both had died in a cholera epidemic; their half-caste

child had been picked up from the highways and placed in the temple.

“Seeing that I was out to be chivalrous, I made up my mind to do the

thing thoroughly. I hurried up a furlough that was due me and, taking

her to France, placed her in a convent. My reason for choosing France

was that, when she became my wife, there would be fewer chances of

discovery if she passed as French instead of English. In the south,

especially in Provence, there are many women of her type descended from

the Saracens. If you've been to Arles, you must have noticed them. At

the end of three years, when she was seventeen, I returned, married her,

and took her back to India. If any one detected the deception, no one

was bold enough to proclaim it. Every circumstance argued against such

a surmise. She had forgotten much of the English she had known, and

pretended to speak only French. I had coached her in her part; she acted

it to perfection. By no hint or sign did she let the knowledge escape

her that she could understand a word of any native dialect. So far as I

am aware, she was accepted at her face value, as a young Provençal whom

I had courted in her own country.

“For some time my romantic folly brought us nothing but happiness. We

invented a legend to account for her family, which, through continual

repetition, we almost came to believe ourselves. No two people were ever

more in love. Despite our difference in age and the racial gulf which

divided us, no man and woman ever seemed more wisely mated. Apparently

whatever shameful knowledge she had acquired in the temple had been

blotted out by her superimposed refinement. Even to me she betrayed no

hint of grossness; she appeared to be as sweet and innocent as the girl

I claimed her to be--the girl I said I had surprised in the passionless

tranquility of a French convent.

“Her devotion to myself was pathetic--it verged on adoration. She was

continually contriving new ways of rewarding me for the horrors from

which I had saved her. To me the ground she trod was sacred. I delighted

in making myself her slave. We competed with each other in generosity.

With each of us the other's slightest whim was law. She was unbelievably

beautiful, the most mysteriously beautiful woman in India. I was more

than twice her years and the envy of every man who saw her. Her beauty

seemed only the outshining of her goodness. Save for an accident, I

should never have known otherwise.

“We had been married two years when she bore me a child. Our dread, when

we knew that she was to become a mother, was that our offspring might

reveal the Asiatic strain. We took every precaution to hide the fact, if

this should happen. But even this was spared us. Our boy was blue-eyed

and flaxen-haired as any Anglo-Saxon. She worshiped him. He seemed to

symbolize Heaven's blessing on the lie we practiced. He was never out of

her sight. In her fear lest he might develop some native characteristic,

she refused to have an _ayah_ and cared for him entirely. Wherever she

went, she kept him with her; he slept in our room at night. So perfectly

had she drilled herself that, up to this point, I can not recall an

instance in which she had fallen below the level of a well-born

white woman. It was the finest instinct in her nature that proved her

undoing--her mother-love that trapped her into the self-revelation which

produced our tragedy.

“Our child was a sturdy little fellow of nearly two, just beginning to

run about, when suddenly he died. We had a house-party at the time. His

mother was playing tennis. While she was playing, he was strangled

and thrown down a well by a native servant who believed he had been

slighted. My wife, missing the child, went in search of him in panic and

caught the native in the act of getting rid of the body. Instantly she

reverted to what her mother had been before her. Snatching the man's

knife, she killed him before any of her guests could restrain her. In

the abandonment of her grief, she became an out and out Burmese woman,

scattering dust on her hair, beating her breasts, and rending her

clothes with the wildest lamentations. The fiction of her French origin

was utterly destroyed. There was no longer any doubt among those who

witnessed her that I was married to an Eurasian.

“Our position at once became intolerable. A halfcaste is despised the

world over, but in India especially. That night every servant left. None

of our friends came near us. We sat alone with our grief in a deserted

house. As her calmness returned, she grew tragically contrite--not

contrite from any moral sense, but because she had given away our

secret. She seemed incapable of appreciating that she had done any wrong

in depriving justice of its victim. When I tried to explain to her that

she had committed a crime, she shook her head impatiently, insisting

that she had done what any mother ought to do under the circumstances.

When I pressed the subject she became persuaded that I, too, was blaming

her, and then that I had never properly loved either her or her child.

And yet I think I never loved her more tenderly than at that moment.

“A week later, after miserable days and nights of suspense, we received

our sentence. Native sedition was running high. The Government did not

dare to bring the wife of a British officer to trial. Such a course

would have proved too damaging to the prestige of Anglo-Indian

officialdom. I was promised that the scandal would be hushed up and I

should be given a new employment, if I would agree to ship her out of

India at once and to see to it that she never returned. What it amounted

to for me was perpetual separation and for her perpetual banishment.

“I have often tried to arrive at a sane conclusion as to how far I am

the author of what she has become. Had I shared her banishment there

can be little doubt that her white blood would have kept control of her

poisoned heritage. Unfortunately I had a living to earn. Professionally

I was broken. My savings were inconsiderable. I had her to maintain. I

was past mid-life and by leaving India would have sacrificed the pension

that was already in sight. Moreover, I knew of no way of marketing my

training in any country outside India. So I played safe and bowed

to authority. I resigned from my regiment and was transferred to the

department of military intelligence. After knowing the security of

a home and wife, at past forty I became a secret agent, a spy and a

wanderer, a friendless and unfriendly man, unsociable and socially

unacceptable. As for my wife, aged only twenty-one, she was exiled to

England, a stranger in a gray, chill country, bankrupt in her happiness,

with no one to defend her, taking with her the temptation of her unusual

beauty and the treacherous inheritance of her intermingled blood.

“There seemed no justice in the world for either of us. The offending

cause of our punishment was the protective motherhood which had prompted

her to slay the killer of our child. But, to use your terse Americanism,

we were 'up against' blind angers and racial prejudices, which no amount

of bucking on our part could change. So far as she was concerned, even

before her life had started, she had been condemned. The initial sin had

been her parents' when they had allowed themselves to create her. Before

she had seen daylight, the uncharity of mankind had proclaimed her a

half-caste and a pariah. From her inherited fate I had tried to

snatch her when I had bought her from the temple. You may say that my

recklessness was nothing more than selfishness, pharisaically parading

as chivalry; in allowing her to bear me a child, I had only reduplicated

the crime of her parents. Nevertheless, I had tried to rescue her and

could have succeeded, had not her mother-love ensnared her. She was

betrayed by the purest instinct in her nature; she was shown no more

leniency than if it had been the basest. There lay the cruelty that

rankled. She was judged not by motives, but by results. She would have

been pardoned and applauded, had she been a full-blooded white woman.

“In spite of all these accumulated injustices, I believe she would have

retained the strength to go straight had there been any limit to our

separation. There was none. For all the comfort that I could be to her,

I might just as well have been dead or divorced from her. I was all that

remained out of the ruin that had overtaken her, yet the most to which

she could look forward, save for brief meetings at long intervals, was

that I would be restored to her in my useless old age, when the glorious

floodtide of her youth hud receded. You see I am sufficiently unbiased

to be able to plead her case.”

The Major rose and, going over to the window, stood with his back toward

Hindwood, gazing out into the night. Some minutes had elapsed, when he

turned quietly.

“Where had I got to? Ah, yes! To where I had to send her to England! I

accompanied her to Calcutta to see her safely on the liner. Shall I ever

forget that journey? It had the gloom of a funeral and the frenzy of

an elopement. Actually my rôle was that of a policeman deporting a

miscreant who happened to be his wife. We tried to pack into moments

the emotions of a lifetime. As background to our love-making was the

poignant memory of the puzzled child, whom seven years earlier I had

escorted on the same journey, _en route_ for France, where she was to

be made over into a sahib's lady. In her wondering attitude toward

the fortunes that assailed her, she was little changed. She was still

startlingly unsophisticated--a child-woman, dangerously credulous and

deceivingly unversed in masculine wiles. I had taught her to be so

dependent that I dared not imagine how she would do without me. She was

so artless. She took such pleasure in admiration. Love was so necessary

to her; it was the breath of her life. Its misuse had been the breath

and the means of life of her Burmese mother before her.

“Her complete lack of comprehension that I in any way shared her

sacrifice formed the most distressing part of my ordeal. She assumed

that she was being exiled by ray choice. She persisted in talking as

if she could stay, if I would only change my mind. Though she did

not accuse me in words, she believed that I was ridding myself of her

because she had disgraced me--that I was pushing her across the horizon,

where she would be forgotten and out of sight. Up to the last moment

she pleaded with and coaxed me, as though it were I who was refusing

to repeal her sentence. The ship cast off, bearing her from me with her

broken heart and her embittered memories of the newly-dug grave, while I

turned back to ferret through the gutters of Asia, that I might earn the

wherewithal to provide for her.

“At first she wrote many times a day; then every day; then regularly to

catch each outgoing mail. In the whole of England she knew nobody. In

her anger against British justice she wished to know nobody. She was

inconsolable, bruised in spirit, and crushed in her pride. After the

pomp and hubbub of the East, she found London drab and melancholy. From

her lodgings in Kensington she poured out her soul on paper. Much of

what she wrote consisted of memories, the tender trifles which a mother

treasures about her child.

“Gradually, almost imperceptibly, there came a change. A querulous note

crept in, a questioning of motives. Why had I sent her as far away as

England? Why had I sent her away at all? If it were true that it was not

I who had exiled her, why had I not accompanied her? Was it because I

was tired and ashamed of her? It would have been kinder to have left her

to dance in the temple. Then a new suspicion grew up, which betrayed an

evil that I had never traced in her. With whom was I living? Some white

woman? Was that why I had rid myself of her?

“What answers could I make? It was like arguing with a spiteful child.

Our misunderstandings were as wide as the distance that separated us.

She implored and finally demanded that I should join her. The more I

stated obstacles, the more convinced she became that I was cruel, like

all the sahibs who were torturing her--the proud sahibs who thought

nothing of a murdered baby, when it was only the child of a half-caste

woman.

“From then on her heart hardened, till at last I failed to recognize

in her any resemblance to the gentle wife who had been so much my

companion. She wrote vaguely about revenge, a revenge that should

embrace the whole white race. Contempt should be repaid with despising,

hatred with blows, blood with blood. Her beauty should be the weapon.

She seemed to have gone mad. Suddenly her letters ceased. My remittances

were returned; they had failed to reach her.

“For what follows I have but one explanation. By some species of

unconscious hypnotism, so long as I had exerted physical influence over

her, I had had the power to make the European in her predominate. As my

influence weakened with time and distance, she relapsed into the woman

she always would have been, if I had not found her: a smiling menace to

the nobilities of both the races from which she was descended, a

human jackal following the hunt. That sounds harsh? Then listen to the

conclusion of my story.

“One day, six months after I had lost touch with her, I was glancing

through an illustrated weekly when, on turning a page, I found her

portrait gazing up at me. She was photographed in almost the attitude

and attire in which I had first caught sight of her in the temple. The

very setting was similar; behind her the huge god squatted, gloating and

sinister--on her face was the unchanging houri's smile. On reading the

text I discovered that she had leaped into instant fame as an exponent

of Indian dancing. You will remember that in the last two years before

the war the dance craze was at its height. She had been acclaimed a

great artist; everything she said, did, and wore was fulsomely praised

and described. There was no false reticence about either her or her

admirers; she was frankly advertised as being possessed of the most

beautiful body in Europe. She had given herself a French name and

was announced as being of French ancestry. According to her printed

biography, her father had been an orchid-hunter who had taken her with

him on all his expeditions. On his last, in India, he had died; she

had been kidnaped for her beauty and sold into the service of a Hindoo

temple. From this bondage she had been rescued by an Englishman of title

who had chivalrously restored her to her family in Marseilles. There was

much more to the same effect--a jumble of perverted truth and romantic

lies, precisely the kind of adventurous nonsense which appeals to the

sensation-seeking public.

“From then on, _via_ the press, I was always getting news of her.

London, Paris, Berlin, St. Petersburg, each in turn went mad over her.

She captivated a continent. Kings and emperors commanded her to appear

before them. Her tours were royal triumphs. Little by little ugly rumors

began to spread. There was a Parisian banker who, when he had lavished

his all upon her, committed suicide, leaving his wife and children

penniless. There was another scandal; it had to do with a Russian

general who had betrayed his country. At his court-martial he poisoned

himself when her name was introduced into the evidence. As though a

conspiracy of silence had broken down, now that she began to be gossiped

about, scandals gathered thick and fast. Each new one was more infamous

than the last; out of each she emerged unpitying and smiling. It was

only her victims who suffered. Her progress was marked by a trail of

death and ruin. Nevertheless, infatuated by the exquisiteness of her

body, men fluttered about her unceasingly, like moths, shriveling their

souls in the flame of her fascination. When the peace of the world was

violated by the Germans--”

Hindwood leaned forward, tapping the Major's knee. “I can spare you

your eloquence. The rest of your story is common property. The woman you

describe stole the Allies' anti-submarine defense plans from her lover.

He was a British naval officer, temporarily in Paris. She was caught

red-handed. There was a sentimental agitation in her favor--an attempt

to argue that as a physical masterpiece of feminine perfection she ought

to be exempted. It accomplished nothing. She was a German spy, who had

sold men's lives for profit. She received and deserved no more mercy

than a rag-picker. After having been encouraged in her sins because

of her unrivaled loveliness, she was led out at dawn in the woods of

Vincennes, where the body which had maddened thousands of eyes was

riddled with bullets.”

The Major's lips were smiling crookedly. “How could she have been

riddled with bullets,” he questioned, “when you crossed the Atlantic in

her company?”

Hindwood shrugged his shoulders. “If you insist on propounding

conundrums, it's up to you to supply the answers.”

“I can supply them. The person executed in the woods of Vincennes was

not a woman.”

“That's a daring assertion. Who was it?”

“A distinguished French officer, a man who had been crippled in

defending his country and held the highest awards for gallantry. In

pre-war days he had been an old flame of hers, whom she had abandoned

with more than her ordinary callousness. On hearing of her predicament,

he begged to be allotted the duty of seeing that her sentence was

properly executed. The reason he gave was that he might clear himself

of the taint of ever having associated with a traitress. He was put in

charge of the guard on her last night. Making use of his opportunity, he

exchanged clothing with her and--”

Hindwood stifled a yawn. “You expect me to believe this?”

The Major mastered his anger. “I expect you to believe nothing. I'm here

to state facts and to warn you that your friend, who now calls herself

Santa Gorlof, is the same woman. My appeal to you for assistance

in bringing her to justice is both personal and patriotic. I am

her husband; my honor is involved. I am also an Englishman; all her

intrigues, even this last, in which Prince Rogovich met his fate, are

aimed against the friends of England--one of whom, I may remind you, is

your own great nation. All I can say is that each man has his separate

standard of loyalty. For me, an old soldier, my devotion to my country

is more important than my compassion for an erring woman.”

Hindwood rose. Uncomfortably, against his will, he had been impressed by

the stoical dignity of his persistent guest. “You deserve that I should

be frank with you. Here's the truth--I accept very little of what you've

told me. Either you've mistaken my traveling companion for another

woman, or else you've been trying to prejudice me with a fantastic

story. But even though I accepted your supposed revelation, I should

refuse to help you. On your own showing, you're endeavoring to bring the

mother of your child to the scaffold. I should respect you more if you

left her fate to other hands. Disbelieving you, as I do, I regard

the introduction of Miss Gorlof's name into the discussion as rank

impertinence. Your coupling of my name with hers increases the cowardice

of your discourtesy. If you had convinced me and I were eager to assist

you, I couldn't. I know nothing about her--our acquaintance was the most

casual. In all probability I've seen her for the last time; I haven't

the vaguest notion where she's to be found. If your half-caste vampire

actually escaped the bullets in the woods of Vincennes, I advise you to

search for her in another direction. You may take my word for it that if

Santa Gorlof learns of your activities, you'll find yourself in trouble.

I reckon myself some judge when it comes to character.”

The Major drew out his silk handkerchief from his breast pocket and

flicked a speck of dust from his immaculate white spats. With the utmost

deliberation he recovered his hat and gloves. For a few seconds he gazed

out of the window thoughtfully; then, turning slowly, he crossed the

room. With his hand on the door knob, he glanced back solemnly. He

passed his fingers across his lips and cleared his throat. “When she has

added you to her list of victims, if she gives you time before she kills

you, remember that I warned you.”

When Hindwood had recovered sufficiently from his surprise to follow him

out into the passage, every sign of his unwelcome visitor had vanished.

He had scarcely closed the door and reseated himself, when again there

came a tapping.

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