TRAVELOGUE

"Within Easy View Of Vesuvius, Sorrento Lies

Dreaming In The Sun. Note Donkeys In Distance."

Quiver of hills....

"In Capri The Italian Takes His Best Girl Out

Riding In A Sail Boat. Better Than The Subway,

Isn't It?"

To ride in a slim sailboat....

"Sunset in Venice."

"Lake Como's Twilights Are Deep Purple."

***

There on the outside of herself, a twilight the color of her silence.

Grays--with the purple bleeding in. She cried out at its passing----

"Shh-h-h-h----

Mountains next. And after them a magnified view of a rosebud

opening. An intrusion almost, to behold this slim thing bowing with

life. Once petals like that had kissed the very sides of her being.

She began to cry....

Next, a love story. A shoddy sop to reality. A man and a maid

worrying at their emotions like terriers. Scurrying little field

mouse motions that live on chaff.

And yet to Bertha and the rows and rows like her sitting there in the

darkness, it was as if they had been kissed on a bunched-up mouth by

love in a brown velveteen smoking jacket and prettified eyes.

Stinging vicarious sweetness....

Lights. The pale froufrou of shifting audience. Of course--lavatory

floors to be swabbed. The water scurried in little pools before her

brush.

All the way home, while the sleet flew at and bit her, she kept

smiling. "Lake Como's Twilights Are Deep Purple." Herself on the

outside of herself.

At one corner, a taxicab skidded within an inch of pinning her to the

curb. Oaths. A blur of faces, fatty looking with curiosity. A

policeman brushing the water and ice off the flank of her reefer.

The taxicab driver had a zigzag of cut on his face from flying glass.

Red through the glassy fog and he sopped it against his bare hand,

great fellow, and was sick.

She stalked on, big, boxed and smiling, the bulk of her displacing

the dance of the storm.

"Lake Como's Twilights Are Deep Purple." To think of that! The deep

winey purple of her forests.

***

Banners. Banners. Banners. Streamers of them from roofs and poles.

Little licking tongues of flame curling out. The ripple and snap of

them was a pleasant dazzle. Even the cartwright had a two-penny flag

in his window and a photograph of Roosevelt pasted flat against the

pane.

That was the occasion. The return of Roosevelt from African

adventure. The city fluttered, knife edges of stone softened into

waves by the dance of pennants; the street a fluted alley of them.

Willy, vociferous as ever over his tripe stew, was wild to be off.

"The parade will pass the house. Me and the boy--you watch--we'll be

in the window!"

"Willy--he'll be in the window?"

"Sure. We got broncho caps. I made them. Slk-k-k-k--Roosevelt--he

shoots lions. We'll be watching for him in broncho caps."

He was sly, he was excited, and he jumped up and down again, until he

choked on his coffee and was horrid and she left him there.

It was delicate June in the streets. Pink and blue sky and awnings

with stripes. The bazaar of the city in spring. Bertha was due for

her weekly day's work in a rooming house in West Fortieth Street near

Eighth Avenue. Her feet were so loth. Again and again she dragged

them toward Eighth Avenue, only to turn back and eastward toward

Madison. In two years, with the exception of those days when the

water pipes were frozen, she had not failed a day's assignment.

Flags kept snapping. The air was May wine. The city ran of

excitement. Quickened steps. Pennants. A great man was coming

home. The boy at the window. There would be a boy at the window to

greet him.

The window! Her feet kept trying to walk on resolutely. Seventh

Avenue. Eighth Avenue. Finally, it was no use. She turned back and

began to run a little, with the quickened city. Clumps of people

hurrying and dragging children by the hand. Curbs and balconies and

wagon-tops began to blacken and one truck filled with chairs rattled

by, to shouts and squawking horns.

It was hard not to run. Madison Avenue! The jammed curbs. They

were three deep. And the sidewalk was a little groove between walls

of buildings and of human flesh. The blazing balconies. The

fluttering windows! A window of the house was black. She could not

look. She stood on the opposite curb, and with the tail of her eyes

she knew that a window of the house was black! But she could not

look. For the life of her, the life of her, she could not look.

Blare! A curve of music through the sunlight. Brass. Bright.

Screaming. The street a metal strip. A major domo came over the top

of the hill. Everything ran toward him. The fluttering. The sway

of the crowds. The blowing hair from the heads out of windows. The

shouts.

She stood wedged, her elbows pinned to her hips. The window. She

could not, could not look, but the tail of her eye kept tattling.

There were heads and halves of bodies out of it. Flutterings. One

head was very bright. It caught the light in pools, like the silver

ball of the major domo. She fainted a little standing up there.

Just let go, and the crowd sustained her of its denseness.

The pulse of the living wall that held her--it sang against her--it

wakened her--she leaned out--the major domo was stalking past.

Roosevelt then, standing up in a motor car and flashing and bowing,

with the light on his spectacles and his teeth and his cheek bones.

_There_ was a man who felt the little vibratory messages run in and

flashed them out again, broadcast! He was like a magnet with them

and the nap of the crowd rose up to his passing! Cheers! He stood

as he rode, always smiling, and always with the light on his

spectacles and his teeth and his cheek bones.

Smiling! Bowing! Bowing to the window! Bowing to the window! Her

eyes would not lift, but the tail of her glance kept knowing. The

Colonel bowing to the window. The Colonel and that very bright head

that caught the light in pools.

The crowd began to loosen. A disintegrating snowbank. It was

frightening to feel the support withdraw. The Colonel had passed.

It was easier to move. She was going to look. She had found the

strength to look. It was hard to breathe and to swing her heavy

burning eyes just a little upward--there!

But the heads were withdrawn and someone was jerking down a shade.

The window stared over at her blandly. A slap in the face.

***

All the little flutterings had run out of the street. The asphalt

flowed in a stiff river up to the peak, over which the major domo had

come up shining. The houses, the brown, proper, hateful houses that

could look so closed, had bowed back into themselves. She kicked in

the impotence of her despair, against the stone trim of one of them,

stubbing her shoes and her toes. It was hard for her to cry. The

sobs came through her throat slowly and inflamed it. But for blocks

she walked weeping them, dryly.

Her boy shining up there in the window. Her boy upon whose face she

had not dared to look.

***

Willy was building something. The small mousy noises of his boring

seemed suddenly to have destination. Sometimes an hour or two after

she had fallen asleep on her wagon seat behind the curtain, Bertha

would wake up to the sound of hammering. For the first time

Something was taking shape under his tinkerings.

"Willy, what are you making?"

"Slk-k-k-k-k!"

"Huh? Tell me, Willy."

"Slk-k-k-k-k--wouldn't you like to know?"

"What is it, Willy?"

"Puddintame, ask me again and I'll tell you the same."

One evening, however, the object took shape as he puttered at it. A

box with hinges and a little padlock and various little compartments

inside for irregular shaped objects. That same evening as Bertha

rinsed off the dishes and ranged them in their poor array above the

faucet, he painted it a bright green and with a surprising ingenuity

for him, finished off with a large yellow polka dot on the lid. This

dot seemed to punctuate the finality of his achievement. He could

not keep his hands off the box there drying beside the stove,

touching it every few moments for the assurance of drying paint,

going through the ludicrous pantomime of carrying it before him like

a page. In the bit of broken mirror above the faucet Bertha watched

him. Silly Willy.

Suddenly he came up behind her, making the boring sound between his

tongue and cheek that went in through the back of her ear like a

gimlet.

"Slk-k-k-k--a tool box! I made it. Slk-k-k-k. It's for him.

To-morrow is his birthday. I made it."

Birthday. The birthday of the boy! The clang of an ambulance

through the mauve of a dawn. The incredible warm little bulb of a

head in the crook of her arm. The music of the chimes tranced

goldily there on the outside of her. The birthday of the boy.

To-morrow! Why, it must be--yes--the hurrying, hurrying years!

She put on her pancake of a hat with a new and skiddering rose she

had fashioned from a bit of ribbon. There were forty-five cents in

her small black pad of a purse.

It was spring again. The lovely quality to it of a petal to the

cheek. Somewhere through that night as it traveled, buds had dozed

into it, cozily. Even the city could not entirely dissipate that

smell of garden. Faces on stoops, dim lily pads lifted to the

warmth. The thin high clink of water running along gutters.

Children with dry noses. The open doors of shops and the musk smells

of winter pouring out of them. The delicate mist with the lavender

in it smeared with the soft gold of lighted show windows. Show

windows! The blocks and blocks of them. They were beginning to

blink out as Bertha roved them. Flimsy painted toys, with the glue

bleeding out of the jointures and forming scabs. Stale candies in

glass jars and powdered with city grime. Sticks of wood. Lumps of

glucose. The abominable makeshifts of poverty.

Up and down a score of city blocks, not a toy, for ten times the

forty cents in her pad of purse, worthy of the birthday of the boy.

The curve of lavender in the evening; that rill of beauty clinking in

the gutters. Something as tender as these for the birthday of the

boy! She could have cried, and did on the homeward turn.

Willy was asleep. There was a darkish mound of him on his cot, and a

white night flowed in and filled the room with light the pallor of a

bridal veil. That dreadful room, and its green box with the yellow

polka dot drying by the stove. Willy face downward and clutched into

his pillow, with his silly heels up. And yet it could be the color

of moon, that dreadful room. Clear and cool and strewn with bridal

veil. There was a gift for you! To capture that color of moon into

a balloon that might burst with a pop in the heart of the boy.

She sat behind the muslin curtain, her mouth moving for the words

that could bring this frail thought out without shattering it into

the blunt grunting things she could say.

She began to undress, the white of her body climbing up out of the

muslin underthings. Great ox-like pallor. The slow rhythm of her

arms rising and falling. The two enormous and clankless chains of

her hair. The whisper of sliding into the boxy whiteness of the

coarse, clean nightgown. It stood off from her like a little

bathhouse, her calm, spatulate feet moving about under it.

The birthday of the boy! She sat on the edge of her carpetbag,

wrapped in the gray blanket that presently she would spread along the

leather wagon seat and roll herself into. The unbleached muslin

portières on their crazy draw string of twine blew in as if they were

animate and wanted to nudge her. They towered and were alive in the

white darkness and seemed to breathe back at her. The tears in her

heart, like the clink of the clear water in the gutter.

The birthday of the boy! Even Willy could bear him gifts. The pad

of black purse lay on the carpet bag beside her. Hateful symbol of

the shopkeeper's hand crawling down into the glass jars for the

glucose lumps! That was the limit of her purchasing power for the

birthday of the boy! The glucose lumps or the painted gimcracks.

She slid down finally with her cheek to the carpetbag. It had a give

to it that was friendly. Its nap cut softly up into her flesh. The

tears rolled down and made a smell of must, as when she scrubbed too

near a rug. A familiar smell that she dozed into, and cried into

through the doze. It was still the lightish night when she awoke.

There was a red triangle on her wet cheek where a sharp edge had cut

up through the carpetbag. She awoke to the small pain of it, pressed

there by the sharp edge of the concertina in her carpetbag. The

outlandish one with the steamship stamp upon it. Old World.

She fell at the straps of her bag. The concertina! It bulged up at

her there from a background of the lovely ocean of Mrs. Farley's

cast-off evening cloak. Silver ends to it and a silver label

engraved in a Russian phrase:

[Illustration: Russian text]

The little grin of white keys. The waffled sides. They were broken

at the creases, but there were some little fugitive notes. She knew

them. They ran upward as the keys sank down in a little delighted

crescendo. La-dee-da-dee! La-dee-da-dee! She made a cave of her

body over the pretty bleat. It ran up. It ran down. And then there

was a way to skip in the middle that made it seem like a mournful

dawn in a valley and another way to skip at the end that made it seem

very glad. Four beautiful tender little ways to play it.

She fell to polishing the silver label, breathing on it and rubbing

it with an edge of the green chiffon. It was a lovely chore,

polishing, dusting down into the tiny crannies with a broom-straw

wrapped in a bit of tissue paper, and every once in a while, down,

deep, under the cave of her body, greedily away from the ears of

Willy--La-dee-da-dee!

A spring day came up over the roofs. She dressed in its early chill,

her fingers bungling as she buttoned with too much haste.

She came out from behind her muslin portières bearing her gift shyly.

"It bane for the boy--his birthday," she said, and placed the

concertina on the table beside the plate of hominy she had fried and

dished up for him. "My gift."

"Say, say, a little old accordion! That's a good 'un--where'd you

dig that little old accordion up? Say now--Slk-k-k-k--won't he like

that!"

"It bane from me--Willy--he won't know it but--it bane from me----"

"What'll it play? A tune?"

She could not keep her fingers from fluttering over it.

"Don't be rough with it, Willy."

He broke the sinuous fluted case, his head cocked and his eyes in

their corners.

"La--dee--da--dee----

"Say--won't he like that! Me and the boy--we'll give a concert down

in the furnace room--slk-k-k-k."

He could scarcely wait to strut off, the green box and the concertina

crowded under one arm and tipping him lopsided.

He started off, his little pot belly leading and Bertha after him,

until at the corner, under the elevated, their ways parted.

"It bane from me, Willy--he won't know it--but it bane from me."

"Slk-k-k-k----"

It was Saturday, Bertha's day for the kindergarten floors of St.

Rose's Parochial School on Ninth Avenue.

The water ran in wide pools and her arm went in big swoops after it.

There was a rhythm to each stroke.

La-dee-da-dee. La-dee-da-dee.

***

The house in West Fortieth Street near Eighth Avenue was tall and

thin, and small grill work balconies, mere pretenses, swelled out

slightly from the two first-floor windows.

They were fairly neat windows, with a hideous _jardinière_ containing

cotton palms in each. Day by day they stood there revealing, between

the tiresome lace curtains, the brown and yellows of the bulbous

_jardinières_. The three upper stories were all closely drawn, dark

green shades blotting out the look of dwelling and leaving something

tall and thin, blind and a little sinister.

Every Wednesday morning when she arrived, Bertha was given a pail and

brush and put to washing down the hallways and the four flights of

stairs. A curious odor of lysol and scented soap drifted about in

the stale silence of these corridors, a nub of gaslight burning at

each landing. Sometimes in swabbing the woodwork, a flare of the

dirty scrub water ran under the padded stair-carpet. Then the musty

stench arose.

There was something mysterious about these halls. Occasional women

in kimonos scurried from room to room and laughter and voices

sometimes beat against the closed doors. But for the most part they

stood black and silent and orderly. Sometimes there were big

footsteps ground into the carpets and broken bits of glass, women's

elaborate garters, and evidences of unsavory revelry strewn about the

stairs, but Bertha's day was invariably long and black and narrow.

The four floors of airless hallways to be swept; woodwork to be

washed down; banisters to be rubbed with furniture oil, and the four

red gas globes with warts blown into them to be unscrewed, rinsed in

warm water, and readjusted.

Mrs. McMurtry, who walked without sound, supervised all this. She

was very prim and very slight, and her lips had the thin, unkissed

look of triumphant asceticism. A man's hand could have spanned the

width of her shoulders. She wore keys at her belt, a black alpaca

waist with a standing collar without ruche, so that there was a red

rim around her neck, and when she paid Bertha her two dollars and ten

cents every Wednesday evening, her thin dry fingers high-stepped

gingerly away from too close contact with the currency. She was

about forty and had let that forty come, grayly.

One Wednesday morning someone in the third-floor-back must have been

very ill. There was a sweetish, etheric odor in the house, and Mrs.

McMurtry hurried back and forth with ice packs and blankets. A

narrow black doctor with a narrow black bag oozed up through the

halls. A group of the kimono-clad women gathered at the end of the

hall, bleating like frightened quail. One of them had left her door

open. The room was papered in light red, the drawn shades were

green, and four of the jets on a very ornate center chandelier were

burning. An imitation tapestry of nude Leda and her swan hung over

the mantel. A man was seated on the side of the wide bed, bending to

lace his shoes. Mrs. McMurtry, passing with a bowl of cracked ice,

leaned in to close that door hurriedly. Then she shooed away the

girls. They scattered like doves off of crumbs. One of them,

trailing the edge of her light sateen kimono in the pool of Bertha's

scrub water so that it slapped against her bare legs, glanced down

with a kick and an oath.

It was Helga.

***

Helga was so thin! And pretty. A delicate, convalescent kind of

prettiness, as if she had been ill a long while, and her hands had

whitened and her skin softened and her eye sockets were like enormous

pans with a jewel in them. This soft-handed Helga whose wrists used

to crack open from chapping and bleed until she cried!

"Helga!"

"Fortheluvvaga! So help me--it's the lump! Bertha!"

Pretty, pretty Helga, with her brown hair frizzed and her face full

of pink light from the sateen kimono. Bertha on her knees, with her

hands dripping the sloppy water, could only sit back on her heels and

stare her fill.

"Helga, you remember me?"

"You're the square head from Farley's. You're the quitter walked off

one breakfast time and left us cold. If it ain't old Berth!"

She began to cry, for all the world like a convalescent too weak to

know quite why.

"It's old Berth--still scrubbing."

"You're so pretty, Helga--that way."

"And you're so white, Berth. Still like a white old tomb, you,

sittin' on the world, listening to it."

"You don't work no more, Helga? You're so fine. Helga--Helga--you

ain't----"

"Yes--I am! Oh I work all right, I work! Come in my room."

"Mrs. McMurtry won't like that!"

"The hell Mrs. McMurtry won't. I don't owe her nothing. She does

all the owing there is around here. I don't owe her nothing. Not

even an apology."

Helga's room was papered in light green and there was an atrocity of

a great green satin bow, sprawled like a spider, pinned on the lace

curtains. The shades were drawn against the relenting spring

sunshine and the gas jets sang. A brass bed and a base burner and a

carpet with an enormous floral wreath crowded up the room. Between

the windows was a full-length repetition of the tapestry of the nude

Leda and her Swan.

It was somehow a horrible room, the kind Willy was fond of looking at

through the lenses in the Fourteenth Street nickelodeons. You half

expected girls in corsets and ruffled panties to be sitting about

smoking cigarettes.

"Helga! Helga!"

"Why not? Whose got the right to stop me, I'd like to know? I've

slung my last pot for the privilege of keeping the slanting roof of

somebody's garret over my head."

"This place----?"

"Yah--yah--what do you think? A convent? Don't look so holy or

you'll sprout a halo. Sit down. Oh, I know all your Sunday school

gab. You're afraid to touch me. Your scrub water has made you clean

and I'm unclean. I know--the line of talk. You're clean with slops

and me I--I'm dirty with stinkin' perfume--you don't need to touch

me----"

"Why Helga--Helga--come here--kiss--me----"

Suddenly Helga began to cry again, the tears of physical weakness.

"I know what I'm doing. Pretty damn well. Where did I get off?

Nobody's ever yet answered me why I had to get up at six, every tooth

in my head rattling of cold and my back aching from a lumpy cot, so

that four hours later a thin-lipped icicle that never done nothing

for this world except get herself born into it right, could step out

of her soft bed into a warm bath and then to her hot breakfast that

three of us had been three hours bustling around in the cold dark

getting ready for her. Not much!"

"How long, Helga, since you quit the Farleys?"

"I couldn't stand the young one! Rollo's wife. There's the one

finished me. I stuck it out two years after she came. There was a

hell-cat for you. The kind of a house-devil that wakes up with her

eyes glued shut and can't straighten herself out into a presentable

creature until along about noon when the society stuff starts to

begin. I know 'em--the smooth-faced kind with the smooth-parted hair

and the pecan-shaped faces. There was a woman could subscribe to a

charity ball with one hand and pinch an orphan with another. She led

me a merry hell for two years I won't soon forget. And Rollo--that

poor piece of white meat! He can thank God he made himself famous

writing a book before she copped him. He'll never write another.

He's married to one that takes all and gives nothing. She couldn't

inspire a man to write an entry in the butcher book."

"Why did you quit, Helga?"

"One month she had the old woman dock me for a little old terra cotta

statue I knocked off of Rollo's desk, dusting it. She said Rollo had

written his greatest poem in front of that little terra cotta on his

desk and that no money could repay it, but she was for learning me a

lesson. I learned her one. There was ten coming to dinner that

night and me on second-floor duty. Well, that dinner party had to

slide out of its fur coats and powder its noses alone that night. I

quit!"

"And this?"

"I got to thinking, that's all. All back doors and slop cans for

some--front doors and canopies for others--no reason--just happening

that way. God couldn't mean it like that. And what if He did? He

was God. I'm me! Little! Weak. I get so tired, Bertha. Nobody

gets so tired as I do. My floatin' kidney. I love to sleep so.

It's a sickness. I can't pull out of it. I ain't strong, Bertha. I

couldn't--I--I ain't strong and white and all on the inside of me

like you! Lye water hurts my hands! Slops stink. It eats my heart

to have to peek through the swinging doors at the good things of life

being gobbled by others that ain't earned 'em as much as we have.

That's why I'm here. I thought maybe--God--I thought maybe----"

"Maybe--what?"

"Maybe some of the easiness--was coming to me. There--there was a

fellow--you remember--while you was at Farley's--Joe Dike, the little

plumber that always used to kid you about sitting and listening to

the oleander tree grow. Joe liked me. I never made no bones,

Bertha. I wanted kids. A two-by-four of my own somewheres and kids.

That's all I ever asked out of it. Joe, he strung me along a while

after you left and then--he quit. It used to go against his grain

not even to be allowed to sit in the kitchen. He had self-respect

Joe did. He didn't like courting in alleyways and elevated trains.

I--didn't have nowheres except to sneak him--up. That's where I lost

my chance, Bertha. Joe liked me while I was straight and used to

talk marrying, but when he seen me up there in that dirty

hole--living like a rat--he--I--aw--after him--I didn't--care--that's

all. I don't care now!"

"I care, Helga."

"You! Lots anybody cares for me. But I fooled 'em. I fooled

'em--I--got a place--now--I--got a place now--to invite 'em in!"

Suddenly Helga, whose prettiness was drawn back from her face as if

someone were pulling her by the hair, fell forward in a pink sateen

huddle against Bertha.

"And now the worst of it is, I hate them, Bertha. Some day I'll kill

one. Their mouths. Their ugly wet mouths. McMurtry sends me the

slobbiest ones. She hates me, because she knows I hate her. They

begin coming as early as six--mouths all loose and wet that slide

around in their faces like something alive crawling over them! I'll

kill one some day! Help me, Bertha. Where can I turn to? Where, oh

God, where?"

Then Mrs. McMurtry came in. A neat little, black little engine

without a puff.

"What's this?"

"I spilt a bottle of medicine and she wiped it up for me."

"Go back to your work, Bertha."

Out in the hallways the twilight was like smoke. It wound and it

thickened and it flowed around the little nubs of light. The waiting

webby water in Bertha's pail lapped on to her wrists as she plunged

them into the pail again. Clung there.

At six o'clock Mrs. McMurtry paid her off. The two one dollar bills

again and the ten cent piece.

"Next Wednesday, Bertha."

"Next Wednesday, Mrs. McMurtry."

Going downstairs she crowded up against the wall to let someone pass.

He had a wet mouth. Like a live thing crawling across his face.

***

Sometimes in summer, Willie went away with the family to a square

house by the sea. Bertha knew it well from the picture post card

view of it that he kept tacked up over the table. The edge of the

vast smooth lawn was walled into a fortress, against which the sea

plunged in a fury of spray. A row of imported poplar trees, straight

as young boys, bisected this sleek lawn into an Italian garden on one

side and a cleared area of playground for the boy on the other.

There was a swing with an awning; a small wooden chute-the-chutes,

carefully railed, and by scanning with the eye almost touching the

card, tiny croquet hoops and pegs could be discerned against the

turf, which undulated along, supple as a caterpillar, until the sea

brought it up, sheerly.

There was something terrifying about that rebuffed surf, as It showed

up on the post card, bending back with spray. Terrifying thought of

the boy bounding down that springy sod with the wind in his face and

the thwarted sea full of its licking tongues.

Often at night Bertha awoke trembling with that fear. It helped

somehow to have Willie there with him--and yet--just silly

Willie--and the leaping, grinding, gnashing sea running up to the

feet of the boy.

So the summers could be long, even cruel, except that it was pleasant

to have the muslin portières drawn back and never to feel the

skulking putterings of Willie, or to waken to the grimace which he

loved to hang over her pillow. The room could be very hot. It

seemed to pant at night, as if the long scorching trail of the day

had left it exhausted. Warm breath stole out of its walls. The

leather wagon seat was hot to the touch.

One August evening she dragged the old thing to the window and lay on

it there, where she could lift her face to the sill every little

while in the hope of a fugitive passing breeze. It was horrible.

Babies cried and died in that welter. The bare, tossing little limbs

were sprawled on the stoops and fire escapes. She could rest her

chin upon the sill and look out on the litter of them and on the

mothers whose arms were filled with the hot, sick droop of prostrated

children. The tired senile infants in the thick of their battle with

the tenements. The secret exultancy of Bertha. An exultancy that

could burn in her like wine.

Puling, mewling sons of the mothers whose arms were rich with them.

Bertha's were empty. So empty that sometimes, for the relief of

tangible pain, she would wrap them around her body until the hands

clasped in back, for the ache of the pulling sockets. Those mothers

out there who thought that their arms were rich with the mewling and

puny sons. Bertha's were empty, but her son was in a white square

house by the sea, where the nights blew in life-giving with salt, and

a green lawn flowed all about him, growing and shimmering so that his

swift boy's feet might beat it down. Tormented exultancy of Bertha!

Sometimes Helga came. She was only half a Helga now, so slim, and

the indoor pallor made her very lovely. Until she spoke she was

delicate as an old perfume and then her voice came out of this

frailty with all of its old husky quality. The same berating Helga

who could box an iceman's ears or shrill down Mrs. Farley over the

strewn mass of her slovenly bed.

Her slippers. They were so pretty. Slim with tall heels and buckles

of bronze beads across the instep. Twinkling feet. And a pleated

silk dress with a skirt that opened out in a fan. And there was

money in her purse. You could see the green of the bills through the

gilt mesh. More than once her impulse had been to leave some of

these bills with Bertha.

"I suppose if I was to give you a ten spot, you would sprout a

sanitary halo and tear up the dirty stuff."

"I got enough. Day work is good."

"Yeh,--you got enough. Smoked fish and a horse blanket. Oh, I know.

Even you are too good for prostitute money."

"Even--me----"

They seldom lit the gas. It cost, and besides in the heat it was

unbearable. Sometimes, with the silk dress spread around her in a

great flower, Helga sat on the floor with her cheek against the sill,

her dry feverish face thrust up for a breath of air. Bertha,

barefoot, upright on the soap box that served as the room's second

chair, and a bit back from the window, the dark silence thick and

luxurious to her as sealskin.

"Fortheluvvaga, why don't you say something? You give me the

jimjams. I'd sooner have you say what's on your mind than sit there

like you was sitting up on top of the world brooding over it. Whadda

you keep looking at me like that for? You ought to set yourself in a

gilt frame with some candles burning up to yourself. It's my

funeral--not yours----"

"And mine--Helga--to see it go bad--with--you----"

"I'm nothing to you----"

"Nothing--and everything."

"Huh?"

"Nothing."

"Bertha--who are you----?"

"Yoost--me."

"Well, whoever you are, I won't be saved, if that's what's on your

mind. I know the slick ways of the savers. Words. Words. Words

from the teeth out never saved anybody. I know them. I hate a

professional thin-lipped saver like I hate the ripple in a snake--I

know what I'm doing, I do. Saved for what? Saved for going back to

scrubbing somebody's pots and pans in somebody's kitchen? That's a

helluva life, ain't it, to want to be saved for? You or any of the

professional savers got a swell chance to save me from that."

"That--don't matter----"

"Yeh--yeh--I know! I know! Dishwater don't need to soak through to

the soul. I know the line of talk. Well, it soaks through me!

Makes me sick with the meaning of living. If there's got to be pot

slingers for ladies who breakfast in pink silk boudoirs, then all of

us on the kitchen side of the door ought to have been made with

machinery inside instead of hearts and souls."

"Somebody has got to----"

"Well, that don't make it no easier to be one of the pot-slinging

somebodies. If you've got a heart and a soul, then you're going to

ask questions about what made you one of the somebodies on the

kitchen side of the door, instead of on the pink silk side, and if

you ask questions it's a helluva lot of satisfaction you get.

Somebody's got to sling the pots. That's about all the answer

anybody has been able to give me yet. Oh, it's all right about being

too deep down inside yourself to mind the scum on your hands. Maybe

you can pull a dead rat out of its hole like you was picking a lily,

I've seen you do it, but I'm one of the human ones. I'm glad I done

what I done. I'd do it all over again."

"Helga----"

"I've nothing to be saved for. I've worked in the kitchens of the

good ones and the bad ones and it don't make it any easier. Going

around the alley way for someone whose heart is made no different

than your heart and whose soul wasn't made in a special heaven.

Yeh--I'd do it all over again--and I hate 'em, I tell you--hate

them--I hate them--their wet slippery mouths----"

She fell down into the huddle then of the accordion-pleated silk

skirt, racked with the sobs she had not the strength for, and she had

to be cooed and soothed out of what seemed almost delirium. Cooed

and soothed as if she had been a child. Bertha's.

***

It was raining in a soft, fast whisper. The first September gusts

fanned sprays of it through the open window. A tin spout dribbled.

It was an evening for placing a growing plant on the window sill.

The gusts came stronger and full of rain. Finally the window had to

be lowered and then the fine fizz went after the pane. An evening

with a sense of hurry to it. Pedestrians hurrying with slant

umbrellas. The waiter from Tom's Eating Place across the way,

hurrying into the Crescent Billiard Parlors with a covered tray. And

how the soft rain did hurry. It had a melody. Bertha dried her cup

and plate to it. Sleet--te--tee! Sleettee--tee! Sleeeeeee!

The twilight was a little mouse, and the rain full of tiny scuttling

feet. The old cup and the plate with a V chopped out, shone in a

pale, jagged grin when she set them on the shelf. It was hard to

light the gas because the matches were damp, There!

Someone was coming up the stairs. In clumps. It was Willie, home

from the three months of country. There was the rocking-chair derby,

with a little rill of water dripping from the gutter of the brim, and

a large newspaper bundle of his belongings throwing him a little

lopsided.

"Slk-k-k-k," he said, and stood in the doorway.

She flew at him and took his wet hat and shook it and dragged the

soap box for him up to the stove, so that he sat down in an immediate

exudation of steam.

"Willie--the boy---you bane home again!"

He was sullen and held her off with his elbow.

"Don't shove. Don't shove."

"I won't--the boy?"

"Don't shove----"

She poured him a cup of the still warm coffee and he drank it gulping

and sighing and staring, with the rims of his eyes stretched and

contemplating the red doorway to the stove. There was something

irate and dozy about him, like a man who has been jerked out of a nap.

"Willie--you--the boy?"

He began to swing what was left of the coffee around in the cup. He

made a game of it. Swinging and swirling and then he threw it down

his throat at a gulp.

"Ah"--he said--"Hell."

A dart of fear shot through her.

"Willie--the boy--quick--the boy--my boy?"

She had him by the scruff of his neck, so that he came up loosely

like a sack of potatoes.

"Scat you! Crazy!"

"Willie----"

"Aw let up. I'm out of a job," he said, and sat looking groggily

into the door of the stove.

"Then the boy--all right----?"

"Whadda you mean--all right?--All wrong!"

"Willie----"

"All wrong for me. They're takin' him to Europe to-morrow. For two

years--maybe five. Leaves me flat of a job. All of us. There's a

dirty trick to play on the staff. Not even opening the town house

this year."

"Europe--the boy----"

"Yeh--all of a sudden the staff of us, except the old woman that

learns him his books, gets notice. Could knock us down. Taking him

to Europe to study the piano. Beat that! The boy's a great one for

piddling on the piano. Nobuddy notices it much and then all of a

sudden--Europe. And where does that leave us? Out of a job. And

where do we get off because they're taking him to learn the bloomin'

old piano? That's what a fella gets. Stays after hours to play with

the boy and in the end it's the boy that costs him his job."

"The--boy--plays--the--piano?"

"Naw, he plays the scissors grinder, in case you didn't hear me the

first time I said it. Piano. You get me? Piano."

Suddenly Willie leaped up, the grimace he loved to hang over her

couch on his face. The vicious, drooly, half-wit mask.

"I know! You! You done it! You gave him that damned concertina!

That was the beginning. He never played before then. That got him

started. He couldn't leave off that damned thing. They kept making

him play it for company. Had him down standing on the dinner table

one night at a party, showing him off on that old accordion. Then

they got him a new one, but he wouldn't leave off with the old. The

one that you sent him. That's what got him started to fumbling out

tunes all day on the piano. That dirty concertina. Yours! You lost

me my job, sending it to him, and now you owe me my living for

starting it all with your old concertina!"

"Willie!"

"You! God damn you." He lunged and struck her on the right cheek

bone with a loud cracking sound and then, as the other cheek swung

around from the impact, struck her again on the left, shambled

downstairs and went out.

A little scarlet tear of blood began to trickle down toward the

corner of her mouth. The taste of it was sickish, and the flesh

began to flame up around her eyes. Waving purple flags.

She stood with her lips fallen apart in what might have been a smile.

"You started it all with that damn concertina." Ecstasy of that! It

made it easy not to faint through the waving purple and to walk over

through the muslin curtains and there, from behind the overturned

wagon-top marked in a red star and "R.H. Stacy and Company," to drag

out the old carpetbag and pack it with unfumbling hands.

***

The rain had ceased. A warmish night was left that was soft as an

oyster and felt clammy to the cheek. The street lights went down in

corkscrews into the sidewalks, and when you glanced up the heavens

were all moving with the hurry of low clouds. And yet the murkiness

parted like a curtain. Bertha's feet were so swift and her face

thrust ahead like a blade cutting. A lovely, draped kind of a night,

through which she could pass to the swish of her own tingling blood.

Street cars clanged angrily and almost touched her as she darted.

The carpetbag hit softly.

The balls of her feet were part of this business of being glad. She

felt big and silly, jiggling along on them. It was hard to keep the

lip down firmly over the teeth. It kept quivering to smile.

Sometimes the street ran in darts of color because of the bonfires

underneath her eyes. Bonfires of exultant flame.

The petty shops and the soiled look of poverty began to peter out.

The tenement badges of fire escape and clothes line, of prowling cats

and strewn gutters, left off suddenly after Lexington Avenue, and by

the hair line of a bisecting street, the respectable brownstone march

began. Blocks of solemn, riveted, stare after stare. The monotony

of the desert, captive in city streets.

In the well-to-do aridity of one of these crosstown blocks, as she

worked her way zigzag toward boarding a car for Front Street, a pair

of women walking ahead turned in at one of the ornate stoops. A

street lamp burned before it and its reflection ran up along the wet

steps in yellow shafts. In this light the quick, avian face of one

of the women spun around upon Bertha and she grasped her companion by

the coat sleeve.

"I tell you, there is a good girl leaving a situation. I know the

look of them. Neat as a pin. There is no harm asking."

The second face was hung on delicately. Like a pear.

"Tilda, how can you? It's not only an insulting thing to do, but in

a city like New York it isn't safe. Come, dear."

"I've picked up some of the best servants I ever had that way. That

is how I found Aggie one Saturday morning, right off the cornet of

Madison and Fifty-first Street. She reminds me something of Aggie,

too. New York or no New York, I know a good servant when I see one.

Say, you--girl----"

"Tilda!"

"Say, you! Come here, please."

"Me?"

"Yes. I merely wish to ask, you don't mind, I'm sure, if you are

leaving a situation, or if you happen to know of a good cook or

housemaid, who does want a place?"

"Tilda!"

"Paula, if you don't like it I wish you would go into the house. I

know what I am doing. My daughter thinks it shocking because I stop

you in this fashion. You don't mind, do you?"

"No."

"Then do you wish a place?"

"Yah----."

"There, didn't I tell you! Thank goodness, I am sufficiently

strong-minded to follow my own intuition and ask for what I want in

this world when I see it. Are you a cook?"

"Tilda dear, if you must have this out, at least take her into the

house and don't air the transaction to the entire neighborhood."

"Don't mind my daughter. You know how young people are about doing

anything a little off the beaten trail. Come into the house. I want

to talk to you. Never mind the servant's entrance, although that's

what I like. A girl who instinctively knows her place. Come up the

front steps with me. I'll talk to you in the front hall."

The front hall was cold, with a wainscoting of white marble and there

was the duenna touch of the black lace of iron grill work across the

door. A cold stately lady of a hall. An alabaster Mercury lunged

off the newel post and thrust up a lighted electric torch. A

Baluchistan rug swayed a little under the feet in a springy turf.

"That's right, Paula, you go upstairs. I can talk much more freely

with you away."

"You always did have and always will have your own way of doing

things, dear," she said and disappeared around a charming curve of

balustrade.

Her mother had the nervous intimacy about her of being always about

to pluck a thread off of someone's collar or to moisten her

handkerchief with her tongue and rub off a streak of soot from some

nose.

She sat Bertha down with a pluck at her collar, on the lower-most

step, plopping herself opposite on a Spanish marble bench.

"Don't mind my children. They get provoked at me because I insist

upon doing things my own way. I said to my daughter as we passed you

at the corner, 'There is a good strong girl for someone. There is

something about her. I can tell a good girl when I see one.'

Ordinarily I keep a laundress four days a week, a cook, a housemaid,

a second girl, and a chauffeur, but since Aggie, the excellent cook

who was with me for years, was obliged to leave, I haven't succeeded

in engaging a staff that satisfies me. But that's one thing about

me, when my staff is incomplete, I can pitch in and take a hand

myself. Are you a good cook?"

"I bane good, plain cook."

"Of course. There never was one who wasn't a good, plain cook, to

hear her tell it. Well, we are four in family, although one of my

children is away most of the time. I have three young lady daughters

and I am perfectly free to say that the girl who gets a place with us

is fortunate. I am extremely active about the house, and I expect my

servants to treat me with the same consideration that I give them.

Do I make myself clear?"

"Yah."

"References?"

"Yah--I----"

"Don't take them out. If they contain anything bad you wouldn't show

them to me, and if they are good I can find it all out quickly enough

for myself. You're not a gadabout, are you? I always contend that a

girl's chief interests should lie between her kitchen and her room,

just as a business man's lie between his office and his home. Simple

pleasures now and then if she will, but I give my girls nice dry

rooms and I expect them to appreciate them enough to avail

themselves. Now I am willing to give you a trial if you are willing

to try us. I pay forty dollars and expect my money's worth. Yes?"

"Why--yah----"

"You see, I do not even ask you why you are leaving a position at

this hour of the night. I depend solely upon my own judgments. I

like your looks. What are you? German? Scandinavian? Pole? No?

Well, it doesn't matter, you seem to be a little of everything. That

isn't a black eye you are getting, is it? Well, that doesn't matter,

either. I hope you haven't any kind of vermin or any bad habits.

But if you have I will find them out quickly enough for myself. You

look spick and span enough to suit me. I have my breakfast at

eight-thirty. Downstairs. I'll come up and awake you at six. This

way, please, and I'll show you up the rear stairs to your room.

Don't bump your head on that slanting ceiling. I take one sliced

orange, two three-minute eggs, two strips of crisp bacon, two level

tablespoons of coffee to the cup, three slices of dry toast for

breakfast. My girls have coffee and toast in their rooms. I have no

waitress or second girl at present, but help from the agency comes in

by the day. Nuisance. Don't bump your head on that slanting

ceiling. Have you a friend--your type of girl, who wants an

excellent position as waitress? I would be willing to engage her at

once."

"Yah--maybe----"

"Here you are. I don't say my servants' quarters are palatial, but

this much I can say for them. They are dry."

"I have a friend, maybe. Helga. Not right away but maybe some day."

"That is good, but first we shall see how we get along. Put your

things down there. As my grandfather used to say of his stables,

good dry floors, fresh water trough, add a little fodder to that, and

no man or beast could ask more! No, don't look around for an alarm

clock, if that's what you're after. I am the alarm clock in this

family. There is your bed. Lie on it."

Such was Bertha's initiation into the house of Mathilda Oessetrich.

***

It was the tempo as much as anything else that tired you so. The

household ran. Upstairs. Downstairs. From room to room. And even

from kitchen to dining room, when there was no waitress, and usually

there was none. Bertha ran, too, slapping her way breathlessly

through the swinging doors, dishing up the foods with her tongue

caught between her teeth and her spoons flashing.

The reason was that Mathilde Oessetrich ran. She was heavy, but she

ran upstairs like some one playing an arpeggio scale. She brushed

her thin electric hair in a series of such rapid strokes that it

stood off her head in spikes. She drained her coffee cup in three

firm gulps, and with one gesture plunged into her gloves down to

their very finger tips.

There was no way to live under the roof with Mathilde Oessetrich and

not feel this shimmer of her haste. Her second daughter, Ermangarde,

was nervous with it. Olga, who attended a school for social research

and wore her hair short in the days when it was referred to as

"docked," lived away from the strain of it in a studio in East

Seventeenth Street.

Paula was meekest under it, probably because it had defeated her

first. But even Paula, who at twenty-five had the pale silk hair of

a baby and a pear-shaped face that dipped down over a swan-like neck

after the fashion of Fra Lippo Lippi's ladies, had her retreat from

it. The large, fourth-floor-front room adjoining Bertha's little

cubicle. There was a grand piano in there. For hours, sometimes for

days at a time, Paula would disappear into this retreat, the incense

of her tender, lovely, ruminating music stealing out through the

crack under the door. She played Schubert like a heart-ache and sang

his tender lieder under her breath. Her playing beat softly against

the wall of Bertha's cubicle. Schubert. The dithyrambic brilliancy

of Liszt. Chopin, that could seem to make out of that lathed and

plastered wall between Bertha and Paula at her piano, a fan bowing

softly in the darkness. Sometimes Paula could seem, at her piano, a

little mad. The glints, that were like steel spears, a vertical one

in each of her eyes, must have made her play that way. D'Indy. "Eye

of newt and toe of frog ... like a hell-broth boil and bubble." And

Debussy--lanterns the shape of gargoyles, swung on poles, nosing

among the stars.... The sweet forest where Goland discovers

Mesilande....

Waving tonal wall, between Bertha huddled there on her bed and Paula,

with the vertical spears in her eyes.

There was a day's end for you. Evening after evening of Paula on her

side of the wall. The wall that could sway like a lantern, or bow

like a fan....

It made the days themselves easier. You ran all morning, chiefly

because Mrs. Oessetrich ran behind you. Calling you off of one

half-completed task to begin another and creating in the great square

kitchen an uproar of slamming doors, rattling tins, and the thin high

clatter of her constant voice.

"_Get me the brown sugar, Bertha. I am going to make some of my

panocha for the suffrage bazaar. What's that? Never let me see a

spot of rust on the aluminum pots. That's one thing I am particular

about. That girl does not eat enough to keep a bird alive. Here

you, little delivery boy, never walk into anyone's kitchen in muddy

boots. That's a certain sign of a slovenly character. If Miss Olga

comes this afternoon, Bertha, while I am out, tell her that I expect

her to be here for eight o'clock dinner ta-night when her Aunt Mary

and her godfather Oessetrich are here. My brother-in-law likes his

sauce to leg-of-lamb very minty. I won't have her ignore the family

in this fashion. She is already sufficiently out of favor with her

godfather as it is, on account of her extreme ideas. Oh dear, not

that way. You must beat egg whites as if you meant it. Elbow

grease! Oh dear, run up in the library, Bertha, and see if I left my

glasses on the desk. Is that Miss Ermangarde going out? Run up and

bring me that small bag on my dressing table. I want her to exchange

those tan walking gloves at Alberts. Quick. And, Bertha, tell Eddie

I want the sedan here in an hour and that Miss Olga will use the big

car this afternoon to take some of the girls from her vocational

guidance class out for a drive. I don't know how a boy who thinks as

slowly as Eddie does, can make a successful chauffeur. Hand me the

telephone book, first, Bertha, I want to look up that caterer on

Madison and Fifty-second--her godfather Oessetrich likes pistachio._"

The afternoons were easier. In the sedan with the haggled Eddie at

the wheel she shopped and visited, matched up samples of silk, sought

out seamstresses, interviewed at the employment agencies, sat on

hospital and suffrage boards, stormed in upon Olga's aloofness in the

Seventeenth Street studio, and about every hour found out a telephone

to jangle up the silence she had left behind her.

"_Hello--Bertha, that you? I forgot to lock the linen closet. Do

it. If Madam Gerbhardt calls up, tell her I have an extra seat for

her for 'William Tell' to-night. 'Bye._"

An hour later:

"_Hello, Bertha, that you? Anybody call? Who? Miss Ermangarde?

She what? Won't be home until six. Well? If she calls again,

Bertha, tell her that I do not want her spending her afternoons down

in that Greenwich Village atmosphere and that I expect her to come

directly home from her drawing lesson. Fix caper sauce with the

fish. 'Bye._"

That was how the days flew before her. Shooed like a flapping flock

of tormented hens.

Sometimes Ermangarde exploded into little crying rages that made her

very flushed and appealing. She was nineteen, thickly built, but

with a square kind of Teutonic prettiness. Thin, badly arranged

hair, but her gray eyes made extremely peculiar and intent by a

fringe of thick black lashes. Under stress the pupils swam out into

fine black areas.

"Mother, Mother, Mother," she cried one Sunday evening, jumping up

from the tea table just as Bertha was trying to pass the lemon and

the waffles in two directions at the same time. "Don't direct Bertha

to pass fifty things at once. It's not humanly possible to bend six

ways, even to your will. Don't! Don't!"

"Hear, hear." said Olga from where she sat cross-kneed and a bit back

from the table, waving her cigarette in its long meerschaum holder

and watching the smoke from under almost closed eyes. She had the

same Oessetrich squareness, enhanced by the Hans Memling medieval

look to her hair, the good gray eyes, the skin inclined to be muddy,

and she wore tweeds, thick, expensive, and unbecoming, and a stiff

white shirtwaist with cuffs which made the expression of her hands

broad and masculine. The nails were unmanicured, but clean and

square, as if they had been pared with a knife.

"Oh, it's all very well for you, Olga. You live away from the strain

of trying to keep up with Mother. I notice it became too much for

you! The pretext of your nearness to the School of Philanthropy

doesn't deceive anybody. Stop driving us, Mother. Stop expecting

the rest of us to keep up with you. Stop, dearest, stop!"

Mrs. Oessetrich popped one of the little German _simpfkuchen_ which

graced these Sunday evening tea times whole into her mouth and washed

it down with a generous gulp of strong black coffee. She was crisp

and entirely unassailed.

"Sit down and finish your meal. Eat some of those stewed apples.

They are good for you. And, Bertha, always see to it that Miss

Ermangarde has her bottle of tonic on her breakfast tray. Sit down,

Ermangarde, you are getting pimply."

At that, of course, an entirely crushed Ermangarde left the table,

crying bitterly down into her hands, Paula, whose long pale face was

always thrust forward like a flower eager for dew, turning after her.

"Mother, how could you? What a horrible kind of ridicule, and you

know what a nervous state she is in!"

"Exactly. Self-pity is at the bottom of most neurasthenia."

"Oh--oh, why is it that the members of a family feel privileged to

treat one another with a cruelty they would not exhibit to the merest

stranger?"

"Nonsense," said Olga, reaching forward to knock off her cigarette

ash and leaning back to watch the smoke. "Napoleon was very clever

in the way she handled that case of nerves."

"Yes, Olga, it is easy enough for you to encourage Mother in her

high-handedness, and call her Napoleon, now that you have up and

cleared out. You forget that you used to be the nervous wreck of the

household before you up and took the bull by the horns. It is a

simple enough matter for you to drop in once a week from Seventeenth

Street and view the situation with amused tolerance. But you know

Mother as well as we do. You know that no one in this household is

entitled to a will of her own except Mother."

"My dear Paula, you talk as if will power were a gift, like music or

painting. Will power can be developed like muscle."

"Oh no. Your will power, Mother, isn't normal any more than a

giant's muscle is normal. Yours is crushing. You--you've crushed me

with it. Crushed me with it as surely as if you had steam rolled me.

You crushed me with it the day you let--Harrison walk out of this

room----"

"Now, Paula----"

"You did. You did!"

There was something so stricken about Paula. She was as white as a

handkerchief left lying beside waters that were being dragged.

"Paula," said Olga, who had risen, white too, "if you want to make me

physically ill, then go into that all over again."

"I'm sorry, Olga."

"You poor weak child of mine. Is it possible you don't see yet that

what I did for you was----"

"I'm sorry, Mother. Please. No more. I--only that question of will

power coming up. I--I know so cruelly what--oh, what is the use of

deceiving ourselves? Mother, this young fellow Wells who is coming

here to see Ermie--you're not interfering there already?"

"The idea! As if one could even take him seriously."

"For heaven's sake, Paula, stop dramatizing an incident. The bare

fact of the matter is that Ermangarde indulges in a nervous chill

because the mater asks a big husky girl to pass the lemon and the

waffles at the same time. You--Bertha--your shoulders are pretty

broad, aren't they? I've an idea that you understand General

Napoleon pretty well."

"Yah, Miss Olga."

"Bertha is a good girl. A bit slow but a good listener. There is an

old German saying my father used to be fond of. It translates

something like this. 'He was strange with the wisdom of his ear to

the ground.' That reminds me of Bertha. Bring in some hot waffles,

please."

Paula's pale face, with the brow shaped like the upper bulge of a

pear and the thinning but pretty hair drawn so tiredly from it, was

still quivering and there was a beating vein in her temple.

"Olga, while you are here, won't you talk to Mother about this

servant situation? It is impossible for one girl to carry the work

of this household with only the wretched assistance of day help."

"Well, Paula, Mother hasn't been able to keep help in the twenty-five

years I've known her. What is the idea of unearthing the family

skeleton at this time?"

"Shh-h-h, Bertha doesn't need to hear this discussion. I remind

myself of the English government. I let my children talk revolution

from their soap boxes to their heart's content and in the din of

their mere words I sit back and run my sane and conservative

household."

"Paula is right, 'Tilda, either you ought to give up the house

entirely and go to a hotel like the Savoy or the Plaza, or learn to

curb your personality sufficiently to make it endurable here for the

average servant."

"Bertha is a jewel, but she is the only one we ever had who could

sort of seem to rise superior to Mother's domination."

"What is she, anyway? A Pole or a Swede? Sort of a Sacred Cow from

the look of her."

"She'd have to be, to be able to endure it here."

"Nonsense, she is a great serene peasant girl with that slow kind of

strength that makes an invaluable servant. She is one in a million.

I'll wager she is the only servant in New York in cotton stockings

to-day."

"I tell you, Olga, 'Tilda is so strong herself she doesn't realize

it, but it isn't fair to expect this household to run along with one

servant."

"One servant. What is the matter with you? I do the work of five."

"Exactly. That is what makes a driving machine out of you. The

average servant won't and doesn't have to stand being driven. There

is another side to the servant question, you know. Silk stockings!

Isn't it sufficient that they have to wash our pots and pans for

us--carry slops--are we to begrudge them even the silk stockings of

life!"

"Hear. Hear."

"The average servant, Mother, won't----"

"Oh, tush, tush, with the average servant. The average servant

doesn't interest me. I am not an average person."

"But Mother, we are average girls! Can't you see the cruel sapping

thing that life in this house has come to mean? Father--frankly ran

away from it----"

"There is neither taste nor justice in that remark."

"Olga has left."

"School of Philanthropy----"

"I find what retreat I can--since--since--Harrison----"

"Paula!"

"And now--little Ermangarde! Don't blame her for running down to

what you call the 'Isms' of Greenwich Village, Mother. Don't blame

any of us for--retreating. You're a general, Mother--Olga's right--a

Napoleon--we're only----"

"I am what is best for you all, only you don't know it. Thank God,

though, my skin is thick."

"But to get back to the subject, Mother. It is unendurable that a

home, I mean a house, like this must be run without servants, because

of your tyrannies."

"What is the matter with you? Hasn't Bertha been promising us a

house girl for sometime past? That Helga, a friend of hers."

"Why, we need at least five servants, Mother. We cannot even keep a

butler. You know that yourself, Olga. You know how you used to

storm every time a butler or a parlor maid left. Well, Mother hasn't

had but one servant in this big barn of a house all the months and

months that Bertha has been here...."

"You can't change a leopard's spots, Paula."

"Well, you girls must confess that this dreadful leopard mother of

yours is always willing to go on the dissecting table, for her family

to further discuss the immutability of those spots."

"Your spots are too like Mother's, Olga. That's why you've--escaped,

I guess."

"Nonsense. My rights are merely the inalienable rights of the

eldest."

"Then, in heaven's name, what are just the inalienable rights of

being just a daughter? A Terrible Meek--like me."

"Submission, my darling, is the terrible lot of the meek."

"Or disaster...."

"Oh, God," chanted Olga, extending her legs and yawning with a

crackle of mannish shirtwaist, "deliver us from the evil of those who

have our welfare at heart."

"He has delivered you," said Paula and regarded her sister with eyes

that were a little humorous and enormously tired.

"Come, come," cried Mrs. Oessetrich jumping up, "something tells me

there is a hiss behind all this patter. I have tickets for Professor

Hartwisch of Brooklyn Institute on Bismarck the Man and Myth."

"But, Mother, I loathe Hartwisch."

"Nonsense. Bertha, run upstairs and help Miss Paula with her wraps

and tell Miss Ermangarde that my masseuse will be here at eight

o'clock to give her a treatment for those pains in her shoulders. If

Mr. Taggart telephones while I am gone, tell him I will be in his

office at nine o'clock to-morrow morning on the matter of those

mortgages. Hurry, Paula, Hartwisch begins at eight. Bertha, oh

Bertha--dear me, what dull ears--Bertha, bring me down my moleskin

cape. She's a good listener, but I have come to the conclusion that

she only hears what she wants to hear."

"That's why you have been able to hold on to her all this time,

Tilda."

Mrs. Oessetrich cast quick, bird-like, and adoring eyes upon her

eldest.

"You're impertinent, darling," she said.

***

Yes, that was the secret. To inure oneself to Mathilda Oessetrich

until she was like a great old tower bell ringing out over a moor

that had not even a parish to summon.

Ding. Dong. The words beat up against Bertha so dimly. For years

she was to move through the tinny clatter of them, _ding, dong,_

around her head in a flock of dissonances.

Butlers and parlor maids simply would not remain. Agencies were

indefatigable and newspaper advertisements brought scant response.

It was as if some invisible symbol of a chalk mark were against the

Oessetrich portals. But there were always the fugitive day helpers,

and in a way Bertha preferred it so. It left her the sovereignty of

the servants' quarters, and the lovely evenings that Paula wove along

the keys. These evenings made the days seem merely like briary

little paths down which one must run to meet them. Cool dim gardens

of Paula's music. Schumann. Schubert. Brahms. Mozart. Paula

played Mozart as if the keys were little wounds that bled. Lyric

exaltation--morose mysticism of Richard Strauss. Salome. Electra.

Monstrous flowers of fancy. Conflagration of discord. Fiery

particles. Boiling darkness. Then again, so tenderly that it was

hard to bear, lacy loveliness of Chopin. Beethoven. Appassionata

Sonata.

Booming names that Bertha had never even heard. Deathless masters of

the deathless tonal torrents. Deathless masters--but one of them had

strolled with the girl with the flax-colored braids like Bertha's,

across the plushy meadow and at dawn had lain singing to her the

troubled wisps of melody that were not quite born. The wisps of old

sound....

***

Dudley Wells was the wavy-looking young man who was coming to visit

Ermangarde, wavy because his clothes seemed always too large for his

nervously slender body. He seemed to shrink from contact with them,

so that his trousers ran in little ripples along his legs and air

currents got somehow up under the back of his coat and flapped it

mildly.

He wrote poetry that looked on the page like the first footsteps

abroad in a snowstorm and edited a slender sporadic magazine that was

printed on arty deckle-edge, butcher's paper.

_The Whisk Broom_

Published Every Once in a While.

The two collections of his poetry which Ermangarde kept jealously on

her own desk were thin, too, ascetically bound in cardboard, and with

the verse stepping in a stark sort of straggle down the page. One of

them had its back broken from frequent opening to the same page; a

strange page, with words gleaming as if a lapidary had tossed them

willy nilly.

There was a copy of _The Cathedral Under the Sea_ on that desk, too.

It lay there so casually, sometimes open and face downward. It could

throb through the dust cloth. The slender volumes, one titled

"Lanterns" and the other "Sal Atticum," were very thumbed and even

wept upon.

Ermangarde and her titillating secret! Dainty little hours of

sipping into these books like a bird on the brink of a pool, but she

would thrust them beneath a cushion if Bertha came in to dust, or she

heard her mother's footsteps, and on the evenings that Wells came to

sit stiffly beside her, on the pale brocaded couch in the enormously

gold and brocaded drawing-room, the pink would come out in her face

hours beforehand, quite effacing the muddiness.

Mrs. Oessetrich trod the delicate lay of the land between Ermangarde

and the none too intrepid Wells, with spiked and characteristic boots.

Ermangarde, a frightened child at the frailty of the lovely thing

that was newly hers, cried, and tried to stave her off.

"Mother, if you would only leave us be! Don't come tramping into the

drawing-room on us that way, vivisecting him with your lorgnettes and

calling him 'young man.' He's too sensitive. The things you say,

'Tilda, they make the room shiver, as if--as if a truck were rushing

through. It's not so much what you actually say, but the way you say

it, dear. So matter-of-factly. I--we--he isn't interested in your

Ethical Membership Drive or your Single Tax theories. At least,

dear, not when you tramp in on us--that way. So terribly

matter-of-fact that somehow--oh, I can't analyze it--but it makes us

feel ridiculous--futile--just sitting there. Mother, won't you

please not make us feel so----"

"So what? Pish. I hate mooning. It's servant-girly and

park-benchy."

"Mother!"

"Never did it in my life. That's one thing I can say for your sister

Olga. Faults aplenty, but a matter-of-fact head on her shoulders."

"But----"

"Marry, if you must, when the proper man comes along. Nature is sly

and catches most of us in the end, but don't piddle! Don't waste

time on that absurd game of falling in love with love!"

"Mother----"

"I hate puppy love. It nauseates me."

"Dudley and I----"

"Dudley. Is that his name? His name _would_ be Dudley."

"It is too bad to have to inform you, dear, that you are speaking of

one of the foremost poets of the younger school."

"What school? Kindergarten?"

"Oh, Mother, you are the cruelest woman I ever knew. You've a way of

making everything seem absurd. You--you could make Confucius seem

ridiculous."

"He is."

"If you must know it, Dudley is the only human being I have ever

known who--who--has shown me the way out of the hard crust of myself

into--into--beauty--I--if I have the courage to use a sheer word like

'beauty' before you."

"You use the word 'beauty' like the child you are."

"You don't know any kind of beauty, Mother, except the beauty you can

see with your mind. You're all mental."

"Thank God."

"You have never felt the sweep and surge of----"

"You are so callow that it is positively embarrassing to have to see

it happening."

"I----"

"Very well, let your pale-faced poet with adenoids sweep you and

surge you and see where it will land you----"

"Mother!"

"You say he edits the _Dust Broom_."

"The _Whisk Broom_, Mother, you know it isn't the _Dust Broom_."

"I beg your pardon, the _Whisk Broom_, of course. Well, you let one

of those ninety-pound fangle-dangle poets around Greenwich Village do

your sweeping and surging with his whisk broom and----."

"Mother, I know it is impossible to get the better of an argument

with you. Only don't ridicule us, dear. Dudley is so--so sensitive.

Don't make us feel silly and immature and drifting just because you

are so sure and level-headed and both your feet so firmly planted on

the ground. Let Dudley become more accustomed to us, Mother.

I--Mother, you see, Dudley, he's nothing but a boy, dear, a sensitive

boy--too sensitive to withstand your blasting kind of ridicule--if

you could be a little understanding with him--with us,

dear--Mother--don't drive off Dudley!"

"Well, if an old woman like me can drive off a suitor----"

"You can, Mother. Don't make me hark back to--to Paula and Harrison

again--but if it happened with a big, hale fellow like

Harrison--why--why everything about Dudley, Mother, is too sensitive

not to wither under your methods. Even his feelings for me. They

would be the first to go. Not because he wanted it that way--but

they would wither, dear. He will start by dreading you and then

dreading me because I am your--'Tilda dear--can't I make you see just

a little, the delicate fiber of a boy like Dudley?"

"I understand too much as it is."

"No. You can't. You don't. That's what frightens me so. You

can't. Why even Bertha--that great, white peasant girl out there in

your kitchen--why there--there is something about her comes nearer to

understanding the frail, delicate, tremendous little trifles about

life--than you, Mother--really."

"My two feet are on the ground."

"So terribly on the ground."

"Get out and interest yourself in things that matter. Suffrage.

Social work, like your sister. What about that course in economics

that I even agreed to take with you at Columbia?"

"I loathe economics...."

"Well, you expect your share of a big fortune some day, don't you?

If you do, learn how to take care of it first. Learn the history of

coffee before you inherit your coffee plantations, learn----"

"Coffee doesn't interest me, Mother, any more than----"

"It doesn't? Well then, trust that Whisk Broom fellow to take care

of you in the manner to which you have been accustomed. If you two

young people are really serious, stop mooning and go off and get

married and start on your own."

"Mother, you know we can't do that for a little while, anyway.

Dudley isn't a money maker. He wouldn't be himself if he were.

Mother, you--you've so much. So enormously much. That is one of the

sublime uses of money. To make it easy and possible for genius like

Dudley's to grow and expand. Mother--if you would!"

"Would what?"

"Would--I--somehow, I--we girls--not one of us, Mother, has worked

out her life very happily, yet. Olga is only insulating herself with

her bizarre way of living. Poor--poor Paula--and----"

"Paula!"

"Oh I'm not saying that Harrison was the man for her in the worldly

sense of the word any more than--than perhaps Dudley is for me---but

since--but since it happened that way with Paula--I--sometimes I fear

for Paula, Mother. Her eyes. They can look so big and glassy after

she's been locked up there for days and days playing to herself.

I--Mother, we are none of us happy girls. Wouldn't it be almost like

a symbol of the turning of the tide for all of us if Dudley and

I--well--it--Dudley's proud, Mother. We would have to do it so

delicately. As if he were granting us the privilege. And that's

what it is--isn't it--to make the creation of beauty possible? I--if

Dudley had me--Mother--he doesn't quite realize me yet, but he would.

He would. If Dudley had me--and leisure--if we could make him feel

that in permitting us to give, it is he, not us, who would be

conferring favor----"

"Oh I see," said Mrs. Oessetrich, her laughter like a burst string of

dropping beads, "my dear, clever second-born, the idea being to

prevail upon our whisk broom poet to overlook the crassness of the

offer and agree to live upon the bounty of a mother-in-law, whose

only excuse for being is that she apologetically may keep the poetic

hearth-fire burning."

"No--no----"

"Surely, my offspring, a plan to warm any parent's heart! Do

esoteric poets accept anything so crass in payment as coin of the

realm, or is there a more subtle way to cast gold-dust before the

whisk-broom suitor?"

Ermangarde let her head roll back as if she had been wounded.

"That's the trouble with mooning," said Mrs. Oessetrich. "It makes

fools of the best of us," and went out, sidestepping Bertha, who was

on her knees waxing the floor.

The woolen little polishing-pad made a soft, hurrying, whispering

noise and the floor began to gleam in pools and you walked on your

knees and squatted under the piano and stole in between the legs of

chairs.

Suddenly Ermangarde, left in a heap on the couch, thrust out her

hand, and Bertha, her own smelling of floor oil, took it and held it

there until the black wing of a December twilight came in through the

brocade window curtains and Ermangarde slept in such a tense little

ball, that in order to unhook her fingers, Bertha had finally to lift

them off one by one, like burrs.

***

In the center of Bertha's brow the hair ran down in a peak. One

spring that peak began to whiten. Ashes of roses. It was curious

and a little bit sickening, seeing the white push its way through the

yellow. The dainty hoar of a first frost and yet, with the

immemorial gesture of women, Bertha sat before her bit of mirror

plucking the new white hairs and spreading them sadly along the back

of her hand. It was many a day before the new pale tinge came really

to be noticeable, but the lovely jonquil braids that she could wind

three times around her head were Bertha's vanity and she wept at

their passing.

Something new, too, and subtle, was letting down in Bertha. The

slowing of the engine. New tirednesses. Strange flushed lassitudes.

The plunge of her arm from the socket was no longer straight as the

drive of a piston. It broke at the elbow. It was still easy enough

to drag heavy objects with the hoist of a man, or tear at the

entrails of fowls with the old fiery clutch, but sometimes in the

eternal upstairs and downstairs the knees had a sense of giving way.

An absurd, empty, tickled feeling, as if they had each gone off into

little faints. There was nothing to do but wait then, holding on to

the balustrade until the strength flowed back into them.

The old lunge that could drive a keg halfway up a hillside; that

fling of the wrist that could squeeze a mop dry at one

turn--something had gone with the imperceptible, the pussy-foot

years. Jonquils. That plunging bison sense of excess strength.

And the din, the din of Mrs. Oessetrich. Sometimes the clatter of it

made Bertha want to cry. That was because she tired more easily.

The years were at her, but she called it neck-ache and bought a

bottle of liniment.

It was impossible to spend the every-other-Thursday-afternoon-off,

indoors. Mathilde Oessetrich was at you like a woodpecker.

"Bertha, since you are not going out this afternoon, I wish you would

help me take an invoice of the flat-silver for the insurance

company." Or: "Bertha, how can you sit there doing nothing even if

it is your day off? Boil up some suds and wash the crystal

chandelier in the drawing-room. And be careful, those pendants are

the finest cut-crystal."

There was no lock on her door and the imminence of these invasions

made her sit stiffly away from the back of her chair, fearing them.

So willy, nilly, on her every-other-Thursday afternoon, Bertha went

out.

There was no place much to go except that Thurn's Department Store on

Fourteenth Street had a sheet music department, where they crashed

out the popular selections of the day on an upright piano. There was

always a little swirl of excitement around it and sometimes, if you

lingered on the edge, through the din and the clatter something sweet

came through.

And then one day, Mrs. Oessetrich sent her down to Arrow-maker's

department store to match some curtain net. That was a place to

know! You could walk all of every-other-Thursday afternoon in a

tropics of satin brocades and little wisps of fugitive perfume, and

at three o'clock an organ played out into the din and made it throb

like a heart. Then you could walk upstairs, the great stairs that

were as vain as the arch to the neck of a swan, and across an aerial

bridge that led from a Doge's palace into the dim Persia of the

Oriental room, where the rugs burned in strange, flameless fables

across the floor and squatting gods sat drowsy with centuries.

Sometimes the doors to the auditorium were open and no one cared if

you slipped in and sat down while the melody smoked out of the organ

pipes....

But then, gradually, Helga began to commandeer these afternoons. She

waited for Bertha in a drug store on Madison Avenue. Sometimes they

went to a motion picture theater or, if the weather was fine, walked

in Central Park. Strangely enough, for Helga, who was loquacious,

there was very little talk. So little that often they walked the

wind-swept rectangle of the reservoir in silence, their faces thrust

ahead for the slap of the gale and Helga's pretty fur scarf standing

out stiffly behind. Hand in hand. Helga liked to worm her palm up

into Bertha's as a child would, and then she had to take running

little steps to keep up. Bertha's strides were so long. Sometimes,

keeping up with her, Helga's breath began to come in gasps and tears

of effort popped out in her eyes. Tears that she seemed to like to

flagellate herself with, because she had to hurry with three steps to

Bertha's calm, unconscious one, until the blur before her eyes and

the pain in her side made the neat cinder path around the water a

morass, through which she began to stagger. Then they would sit,

still hand in hand, on a bench and watch the day wind down into dusk.

No talk, chiefly because when Helga began and her lips started to

shudder at what she had to say, she had not the strength, and had a

constant, a neurotic fear of fainting out in public places; and so

they sat silent or coaxed the squirrels or watched the children tear

past on roller skates and sometimes Bertha had little drony bits to

say of the Oessetrichs.

"Oessetrichs. Oessetrichs. I know why you are always rubbing it

into me that there's a good opening for a second girl, there. I

know!"

"I was yoost mentioning it, Helga."

"Ah no, you wasn't 'yoost mentioning it.' You're one of those

workers in the dark. It's not what you say. God knows where you got

the capacity for saying what you don't say. Well, lay off--don't you

worry about me."

"I--won't----"

"Well don't! Save it for the second girl at the Oessetrichs if they

are ever able to get one that's fool enough to stay."

But one Thursday evening long after, Helga sagged down so when they

came to their parting of the ways at the Madison Avenue drug store,

that Bertha had stiffly to hold her up by the arms for fear she was

going to fall.

"Helga?"

"You got me, Bertha. I--can't go--back--there. McMurtry--the

mouths--I can't go back. Take me, Bertha--do they still need

me--second girl----"

"I bane promising Mrs. Oessetrich I would get her a second girl.

You."

"I--I--never thought you would get me."

"Come, Helga."

And so the Oessetrichs acquired a second girl.

***

That was a winter to be remembered. Sometimes at night if Bertha so

much as threw herself across the bed for an instant before mustering

up the energy to undress, there she lay all night, prone, her heavy

shoes riveted to her feet and her clothing lumped clumsily between

her and complete rest.

To find the time and the strength somehow, so that it would seem as

if Helga herself had done it, to scour the pantry sinks. They were

of German silver and Mrs. Oessetrich was inordinately proud of them.

To beat the rugs for Helga's general cleaning day and keep for her

the enormous drawing-room pier glasses and the crystal chandeliers

and the bathroom fixtures glitteringly bright. To scurry upstairs

with the fire logs when Helga sank down crying with them on the

cellar stairs, and pile them outside the library door, so that all

there was left for Helga was to trip in and stack them in little

pyramids beside the copper scuttle.

It sapped you, not only the work of that, but the strain of that, and

then all the old querulousness was back in Helga. As the pretty

sheen to her hair dulled and the tips of her fingers began to spread

and the nails to break, her eyes sort of dimmed, as if two little

lamps had been hurried out of them and evenings up in the room she

shared with Bertha, the din of her talk beat down the sound of

Paula's playing and the wall was never a fan bowing, but of ochre and

green wallpaper, with one flap of it hanging down and showing the

naked plaster.

"Well, now you have me here, what are you going to do with me?"

"No, Helga, I--didn't----"

"Oh yes you did. You had your heart set on getting me here two years

before I give it a thought. Old Napoleon told me so herself. The

first night you was working here you promised to get her your friend

Helga for second girl. You got me here, you know you did!"

"Yes--Helga----"

"'Yes, Helga.' Well, I'm being a good girl. I'm back lugging the

wood to toast somebody else's toes and eating off the kitchen table

what's left off the dining room table. I'm back. I'm the servant

problem again. The problem without a chance. You have a thick hide,

you don't feel like I do."

"I feel----."

"Why, we ain't even got organization. The hodcarriers got that much.

We can't tell the truth about the kitchen side of the door, because

we ain't got the voice of organization. What's the answer? The

women who hire us call us an ungrateful lot and who is there to

answer back? Me? I got a fat chance getting listened to, ain't I?

Ungrateful! Ungrateful for what? That's what I want to know...."

"Helga, shh-h-h--Miss Paula----"

"There's nobody to get up and explain for us. The men don't know.

They get all their information from their women. That gives us a

helluva chance, don't it? And who is to dispute it all? We can't.

We ain't got the voice or the language. Nobody writes pieces or

prints articles about us from our side of the fence. We're not

interesting. Who wants to see a show about a servant? Who hears

anything about us except from what the women who hire us have to say

about us? God help a woman whose reputation depends entirely on what

another woman has to say about her. Well, it's that way with the

servant problem--every other kind of labor gets a hearing. We don't.

The public is satisfied to take the word of the women who hire us.

It's easier. Leave it to the public to take the easiest way!"

"Yah...."

"What kind of an angle on us do you think Mrs. Farley or Mrs.

Oessetrich give when they get up and spout about the servant problem

at one of their finger-roll-and-chicken-salad club meetings?"

"Helga, shh-h-h----"

"Yes, I said it. What do they know about us, except that we are

fourteen-hour-a-day machines that mustn't balk or break down, or we

get ungrateful? Ungrateful for what? Oh, God, tell me what?

Ungrateful because my life is chained to a sink. What's Ermangarde

Oessetrich done to make her so much better than I am that I got to

make her bed and pick up her silk nightgown after her? What's she

done that makes her the waited on and me the waiter on? Oh, you got

me back. But deep down in my heart I know it ain't worth being good

for. I'm like a kid sleeping on the floor. I can't fall outta bed

because there is no place to fall. See? That's me. I lose if I

win. There's a helluva lot of fun in a game like that. I lose if I

win."

Words. Words. Words. They beat about the little room in imprisoned

flutterings. Evenings of them. Weeks of them. Eternities of them.

Sometimes Helga fell asleep almost in the midst of what she was

saying, and had to be undressed and tucked in between the scrawny

covers.

She loved that moment of bed. The evening was like a nest to her,

into which she crawled drowsy with the sense of her safety.

Sometimes she sighed out and closed her eyes and snuggled her palm

very deeply up into Bertha's.

"I'm safe here with you, Bertha--never let anybody--get me. I'll

work. I'll pick up her nightgown and clean her shoes--my

side--that's what kills me--but keep me safe--Bertha--McMurtry--keep

me safe, Bertha----"

Then it was easiest to get her to sleep. She was like a child.

Relaxed.

***

About once a month the von Schlegels came to dine. He was president

of the Turnverein National Bank and also had enormous coffee

plantation holdings. She wore a diamond necklace entirely concealed

by the fold of fat at her neck. Hans von Schlegel was one day to die

at his desk of a stroke. He was already purpling.

One evening at a dinner to the von Schlegels, Ermangarde, who wore a

light blue taffeta dress sown in pearl passementerie and her hair in

two little round mats of braid over each ear, burst suddenly, and

apparently apropos of nothing, into such a fit of weeping that

between them, Paula and Bertha had literally to carry her upstairs.

The meal proceeded stiffly through, and Mrs. Oessetrich did not leave

the table. For an hour she and von Schlegel computed compound

interest, with Mrs. von Schlegel nodding and breathing down on her

bosom so loudly that the lace swayed. But after dessert she went

upstairs, holding her heavy green satin gown up about her as she bent

over Ermangarde, all her folderols of bead and bugle trimmings

dangling. The Oessetrichs dressed like that. Sharp hard colors.

Laid-on trimmings. Zouave jackets of spangled net. Appliqués. Not

even the girls dressed wisely. Olga, to be sure, had her somewhat

mannish, modish manner, but her tweeds were thick and her expensive

felt hats had a dowdy droop. Mrs. Oessetrich loved parrot green. It

covered her like a shellac, and her chapped-looking arms and bosom

rose out of it and made her as brilliant-looking as a cockatoo.

"What is this? Don't you feel well, Ermangarde? Bertha, go

downstairs and send Helga into the drawing-room with the coffee and

liqueurs."

By this time, Ermangarde, her storm of crying over, and lying wanly

in the crumple of blue taffeta dress, opened her salt-bitten eyes.

"No, Bertha, don't you go. Stay here. I'm sorry, Mother, I must

have been a little hysterical. I didn't mean to...."

"Does anything hurt you? Are you ill? No? Well then, bathe your

eyes and come downstairs. The von Schlegels want a little bridge."

Paula, who had been sitting at her sister's head, looked up at this,

her eyes the curious blue of flame burning along the top of cognac.

Thin flame through which you could see the clear empty bottoms.

"Why, Mother! Ermangarde can't go downstairs any more this evening.

She's had another nervous chill."

"Nonsense. A lovesick chill. A little self-control is the best kind

of treatment. It makes it extremely awkward----"

"I'll go down, Mother, in Ermie's place."

"Very well. I suppose it will appear no more peculiar to have

Ermangarde up here in a love trance, than it would be if you were to

remain upstairs mooning with your music."

"Mother, I----"