Ludovic came accordingly, with his little daughter Effie--a sentimental
little maiden, with a likeness to her aunt Grace, and very anxious
to be “of use” to Margaret, who, though only six months older than
herself, was her aunt also. Ludovic himself was a serious, silent
man--not like the Leslies, everybody said, taking after his mother,
who had been a Montgomery, and of a more steady-going race. While Mrs.
Bellingham sat by her father’s side and talked to him about what was to
be done when he was better, saying, “Oh yes, you are mending--slowly,
making a little progress every day, though you will not believe it;”
and Grace stood, eager, too, to “be of use,” touching his cheek--most
generally, poor lady, with her nose, which was cold, and not agreeable
to the patient--and saying, “Dearest papa!” Ludovic, for his part,
would come and sit at the foot of the bed for an hour at a time, not
saying anything, but keeping his serious eyes upon the old man, who was
more glad than ever to doze, and keep his eyes shut, now that so many
affectionate watchers were round him. Now and then Sir Ludovic would
rouse up when they were all taking a rest from their anxious duties, as
Grace expressed it, and “was just his ain man again,” Bell would say.
“Oh, if my children would but neglect me!” he said, when one of these
blessed intervals came.
“There is nobody but me here now, papa,” said Margaret, like a little
shadow in the corner, with her red eyes.
“And that is just as it ought to be, my little Peggy; but who,” he
said, with that faint little laugh, which scarcely sounded now at all,
but abode in his eyes with all its old humor--“who will look after your
pronouns when I am away, my little girl?” But sometimes he moaned a
little, and complained that it was long. “Could you not give me a jog,
John?” he would say; “I’m keeping everybody waiting. Jean and Grace
will lose their usual holiday, and Ludovic has his business to think
of.”
“They’re paying you every respect, Sir Ludovic,” said John, not feeling
that his master was fully alive to the domestic virtue exhibited by
his children. Perhaps John, too, felt that to keep up all the forms of
anxious solicitude was hard for such a lengthened period, which made
the “respect” of the group around Sir Ludovic’s death-bed more striking
still. Sir Ludovic smiled, and repeated the sentiment with which he
began the conversation--“I wish my children would but neglect me.” But
he was always patient and grateful and polite. He never said anything
to Grace about her cold nose; he did not tell Ludovic that his steady
stare fretted him beyond measure; he let Jean prattle on as she would,
though he knew that what she said was all a fiction. Sir Ludovic was
never a more high-bred gentleman than in this last chapter of his life.
He was bored beyond measure, but he never showed it. Only when he was
alone with his little daughter, with the old servants who loved him,
who always understood him more or less, and always amused him, which
was, perhaps, as important, he would rouse up by moments and be his old
self.
As for Margaret, she led the strangest double life--a life which no
one suspected, which she did not herself realize. They made her go to
bed every night, though she came and went, a white apparition, all the
night through, to her father’s door to listen, lest anything should
happen while she was away from him; and in the evenings after dinner,
when the family were all about Sir Ludovic’s bed, she would steal out,
half reluctant, half eager, half guilty, half happy; guilty because of
the strange flutter of sick and troubled happiness that would come upon
her.
“Yes, my bonnie lamb, ye’ll get a moment to yoursel’; gang your ways
and get a breath of air,” Bell would say, all unwitting that something
else was waiting for Margaret besides the fresh air and soft soothing
of the night.
“I will be in the wood, Bell, where you can cry upon me. You will be
sure to cry upon me if there’s any need.”
“My bonnie doo! I’ll cry soon enough; but there will be no need,” said
the old woman, patting her shoulder as she dismissed her.
And Margaret would flit along the broken ground where the potatoes had
been, where her feet had made a path, and disappear into the sighing
of the firs, which swept round and hid her amidst the perplexing
crowd of their straight columns. There was one tree, beneath the
sweeping branches of which some one was always waiting for her. It
was a silver-fir, with great angular limbs, the biggest in the wood,
and the little mossy knoll between its great roots was soft and green
as velvet. There Rob Glen was always waiting, looking out anxiously
through the clear evenings, and with a great gray plaid ready to wrap
her in when it was cold or wet. They did not feel the rain under the
great horizontal branches of the firs, and the soft pattering it made
was more soothing than the wild sweep of the wind coming strong from
the sea. There the two would sit sheltered, and look out upon the gray
mass of Earl’s-hall, with that one ruddy lighted window.
Margaret leaned upon her lover, whom, in her trouble, she did not
think of as her lover, and cried and was comforted. He was the only
one, she felt, except, perhaps, Bell, who was really good to her, who
understood her, and did not want her to be composed and calm. He never
said she should not cry, but kissed her hands and her cheek, and said
soft caressing words: “My darling! my Margaret!” His heart was beating
much more loudly than she could understand; but Rob, if he was not all
good, had a certain tenderness of nature in him, and poetry of feeling
which kept him from anything which could shock or startle her. At
these moments, as the long summer day darkened and the soft gloaming
spread over them, he was as nearly her true and innocent and generous
lover as a man could be who was not always generous and true. He was
betraying her, but to what?--only to accept his love, the best thing
a man had to give; a gift, if you come to that, to give to a queen.
He was not feigning nor deceiving, but loved her as warmly as if he
had never loved any one before, nor meant to love any other again. And
then he would go toward the house with her, not so far as he went that
first night in over-boldness, when they were caught--an accident he
always remembered with shame and self-reproach, yet a certain pride,
as having proved to Randal Burnside, once for all, his own inferiority,
and that he, Rob Glen, had hopelessly distanced all competitors,
however they might build upon being gentlemen. He led her along the
edge of the wood always under cover, and stole with her, under shadow
of the garden-wall, to the corner, beyond which he did not venture.
Then he would take her into his arms unresisted, and they would linger
for a moment, while he lavished upon Margaret every tender name he
could think of--
“Remember that I am always thinking of you, always longing to be by
you, to support you, to comfort you, my darling.”
“Yes, I will remember,” Margaret said, meekly, and there fluttered a
little forlorn warmth and sweetness about her heart; and then he would
release her, and, more like a shadow than ever, would stand and watch
while she flitted along the wall to the great door.
And what thoughts were in Rob’s mind when she was gone! That almost
innocence, and nobleness and truth, which had existed in the emotion of
their meeting, disappeared with Margaret, leaving him in a tumult of
other and less noble thoughts. He knew very well that he had beguiled
her, though he meant nothing but love and devotion to her. He had
betrayed her, in the moment of her sorrow, into a tacit acceptance of
him, and committal of herself from which there was no escape. Rob knew
very well--no one better--that there were girls who took such love
passages lightly enough; but to a delicate little maiden, “a lady,”
like Margaret, he knew there could be but one meaning in this. Though
she had scarcely responded at all, she had accepted his tenderness,
and committed herself forever. And he knew he had betrayed her into
this, and was glad with a bounding sense of delight and triumph such
as made him almost spurn the earth. This occurrence gave him, not only
Margaret, whom he was in love with, and whose society was for the time
sweeter to him than anything in the world, but with her such a dazzling
flood of advantages as might well have turned any young man’s head:
a position such as he might toil all his life for, and never be able
to reach: money, such as would make him admired and looked up to by
everybody he knew: a life of intoxicating happiness and advancement,
with no need to do anything he did not care to do, or take any further
trouble about his living, one way or another. Rob’s organization was
not so fine as to make him unwilling to accept all these advantages
from his wife; in practical life there are indeed very few men who are
thus delicately organized; neither were his principles so high or so
honorable as to give him very much trouble about the manner in which he
had won all this, by surprise. He just felt it, just had a sense that
there was something here to be slurred over as much as possible--but it
did not spoil his pleasure. It was, however, terribly difficult to know
what it would be best to do in the circumstances, what step he should
next take: whether he should boldly face the family, on the chance that
Sir Ludovic would be glad before he died to see his daughter with a
protector and companion of her own, or whether it was wise to keep in
the background, and watch the progress of events, keeping that sure
hold upon Margaret herself, which he felt he could now trust to. He
had done her good; he had been more to her than any one else, and had
helped her to bear her burden; and he had thus woven himself in with
every association of her life, at its, as yet, most important period,
and made himself inseparable from her.
He had no fear of losing his hold of Margaret. But from the family,
the brother and sisters who were like uncle and aunts to the young
creature, Rob knew very well he should find little mercy. They would
all want to make their own out of her, he felt sure; for it is hard,
even when escaping from all sensation of vulgarity in one’s person, to
get rid of that deeply-rooted principle of vulgarity which shows itself
in attributing mean motives to other people. This birth-stain of the
meaner sort, not always confined to the lower classes, was strong in
him. He did not feel that it was her fortune and her importance which
made Margaret valuable in his own eyes (for was he not in love?), but
he had no hesitation in deciding that her family and all about her must
look at her in this mercenary light. They certainly would not let her
fortune slip through their fingers if they could help it. There might
be some hope of a legitimate sanction from Sir Ludovic, who was beyond
the reach of any advantage from his daughter’s money, and might like to
feel that she was “settled” and safe; but there could be no hope from
the others. They would have plans of their own for her. The Leslies
were known not to be rich, and an heiress was not a thing to be lightly
parted with. They would keep her to themselves; of that he was sure.
And at such a moment as this, what chance was there of reaching Sir
Ludovic’s bedside, and gaining his consent? It would be impossible to
do so without running the gauntlet of all the family; it would make a
scene, and probably hurt the old man or kill him.
Thus he was musing, as after an interval he followed Margaret’s course
under the shadow of the garden-wall, meaning to make his way out by
what was called the avenue, though it was merely a path opened through
the belt of wood, which was thin on that side, to the gate in the
high-road. But this spot was evidently unlucky to Rob. When he was
about to pass the door of Earl’s-hall, he met Mr. Leslie coming out.
Mr. Leslie was one of the men who are always more or less suspicious,
and he had just seen Margaret, with her hat in her hand and the fresh
night air still about her, going up the winding stair. Ludovic looked
at the man walking along under the wall with instinctive mistrust.
“Did you want anything?” he asked, hastily. “This path is private, I
think.”
“I think not,” said Rob; “at least everybody has been free to pass as
long as I can remember; but I was on my way,” he added, thinking it
good to try any means of conciliation, “to ask for Sir Ludovic.”
“There is no change,” said Mr. Leslie, stiffly. He was himself, to tell
the truth, very weary of this invariable answer, but there was nothing
else to be said; and he tried to see who the inquirer was, but was
unable to make him out in the late dusk. He had never seen him before,
for one thing. “You are from--”
“I am from nowhere,” said Rob. “I don’t suppose you know me at all, Mr.
Leslie, or even my name. I am Robert Glen; but Sir Ludovic has been
very kind to me. He has allowed me to come and sketch the house, and
latterly I have seen a great deal of him. His illness has grieved me as
much--as if I had a right to be grieved. He was very kind. Latterly I
saw a great deal of him.”
“Ah!” said Mr. Leslie. He had heard the people at the Manse talking
of Rob Glen, and he had seen Margaret’s return a minute before.
What connection there might be between these two things he did not
very clearly perceive; but there seemed to be something, and he was
suspicious, as indeed he had a right to be.
“Is he too ill--to ask to see him?” said Rob, with a sense that a
refusal would take all the responsibility off his shoulders. If he
could see Sir Ludovic it might be honorable to explain everything; but
if not--
“See him!” said Mr. Leslie; “I don’t know what your acquaintance
may be with my father, Mr. Glen, but he is much too ill to see
anybody--scarcely even his own children. I am leaving early, as you
perceive, because I feel that it is too much for him to have even all
of ourselves there.”
“I am very sorry to hear it,” said Rob, with the proper expression in
his voice; but in reality he was relieved; no need now to say anything
to the family. He had Margaret only to deal with, and in her he could
fully trust, he thought. “I began a sketch of Sir Ludovic,” he said,
“for which he had promised me a second sitting; will you kindly ask
Miss Margaret Leslie to send it back to me, that I may finish it for
her as well as I can? Poor though my drawing was, it will have its
value now.”
“I will tell my sister,” said Mr. Leslie, and he swung open the gate
and waited till Rob passed through. “Good-night,” said the young man.
It was better in any case to be courteous and friendly, if they would
permit it, with “the family.” But Mr. Leslie only made an indistinct
murmur in the darkness. He gave no articulate response; there was no
cordiality on his side; and why, indeed, should he be cordial to the
farmer’s son? Rob went quickly homeward, forcing a smile of contempt,
though there was nobody to see. This haughty and distant personage
would yet learn to respond to any salutation his sister’s husband
might make; he would have to be civil, if nothing more, Rob said
within himself. What was he that he should be so high and mighty? An
Edinburgh advocate working for his living, a poor laird at the best,
with a ramshackle old house for all his inheritance. Thus the vulgar
came uppermost again in Rob’s heart; he scorned for his poverty the man
with whom he was indignant for scorning him, because he was unknown
and poor. He hurried home with this little fillip of additional energy
given to all his schemes. His mother was standing at the door as he
approached, looking out for him, or perhaps only looking to see the
last of the cows looming through the dusk coming in from the fields.
He was absent every night, and Mrs. Glen wanted to know where he went.
She was getting impatient on all points, and had determined to wait no
longer for any information he might have to give.
“Where have you been?” she asked, as he came in sight.
“To Earl’s-hall.”
“To Earl’s-hall! And what have you been doing at Earl’s-hall? No
drawing and fiddling while the poor auld man lies dying? Ye’re ill
enough, but surely you have not the heart for that?”
“I have neither been drawing nor fiddling--indeed I did not know that
I could fiddle; but, all the same, I have come from Earl’s-hall,” he
said. “Let me in, mother; I’ve been sitting in the wood, and the night
has got cold.”
“What have you been doing--sitting in the wood? There’s no light to
take your views--tell me,” said Mrs. Glen, with determination, “what
have you been doing, once for all.”
“I may as well tell you,” he said; “I have been sitting in the wood
with Margaret.”
“With--Margaret? you’re no blate to speak o’ a young lady like that.
Rob, my bonnie man, I aye thought you were to be the lucky bairn of my
family. Have ye naething mair to tell me about--Margaret? I would like
weel, real weel, to hear.”
“Can you keep a secret, mother?” he said. “I will tell you something if
you will swear to me never to repeat it, never to hint at it, never to
brag of what is coming, or to give the slightest ground for suspicion:
if you will promise me this--”
“I was never a tale-pyet,” said Mrs. Glen, offended, “nobody ever laid
tittle-tattle, or bragging of ony kind, to my door. But if you canna
trust your mother without promises, I see not why you should trust her
at all.”
“It is not that I doubt you, mother; but you know how difficult it is
not to mention a thing that is much in your mind. Margaret Leslie is my
own; it is all settled and fixed between us. She came out to me in her
trouble when she found her father was dying, and what could I do but
comfort her, and support her, and show my feeling--”
“Oh, ay, Rob,” his mother interpolated, “you were aye grand at that!”
“What could a man do else?--a sweet young creature like Margaret Leslie
crying by his side! I told her, what I suppose she knew very well
before, for I never hide my feelings, mother, as you say. And the issue
is, she’s mine. However it was done, you will not say but what it was
well done. I have been fond of her since ever I can remember.”
“And of twa-three mair,” said Mrs. Glen, “but no a word o’ that, Rob my
man. Eh, but I’m weel pleased! That’s what I’ve been thinking of since
the very week you came hame. ‘Now if Rob, with all his cleverness,
could get that bonnie Miss Margret,’ I said to mysel’. The Lord bless
ye, my man! I aye thought you were born to be the lucky one of my
family. Is it a’ in her ain disposition, or have the family ony power
over it, Rob? Eh, my bonnie man, what a down-sitting! and the bonniest
leddy in Fife of her years. You’re a lucky lad, if ever there was one.”
“Let me in, mother; I don’t want to tell this to any ears but yours.”
“Ay, ay, my man, I’ll let you in,” said his mother, standing aside from
the door. “Come in and welcome, my lucky lad. Is there anything you
would like for your supper? Naething in a’ the house is ower good for
such good news. We’ll take a bottle o’ wine out of the press, or maybe
ye would like a drap toddy just as well, which is mair wholesome. Come
in, come in, my bonnie man. A bonnie lass, and plenty wi’ her; and a
real auld family an honor to anybody to be connected with. My word, Rob
Glen, you’re a lucky lad! Wha will look down upon you now? Wha will
say a word about your opinions? I’ve never upbraided you mysel’; I saw
your talents, and felt ye could bide your time. Eh,” cried Mrs. Glen,
exultant, “wha will say now but that marriages are made in heaven? And
Rob, my bonnie man, when is it to be?”
“We are not so far as that, mother,” he said; “do you think she has
the heart to think of marrying, and poor old Sir Ludovic lying on his
death-bed? We must wait for all that. I’m too happy in the mean time to
think of more. She’s mine; and that is more than I could have hoped.”
“That’s very true, my man: but still something settled would have been
a grand stand-by,” said Mrs. Glen, slightly disappointed; “I would have
thought now it would have been a great comfort to Sir Ludovic to see
his daughter married and settled before he slips away. But the gentry’s
ways are not as our ways. I’m doubting you’ll have some trouble with
the family, if nothing’s settled afore the auld gentleman dies.”
“I doubt I will, mother,” said Rob; “but whatever trouble I may have,
Margaret’s mine, and she will never go back from her word.”