Had a ball of fire, shot from the cloudless sky, smitten one of their
number to eternal silence, no greater, no more awesome hush could have
fallen upon the merry party below the dam. Men looked at each other with
stricken eyes, then turned to watch the speeding horsemen led by
Winston. As Helen rode nearer to them, questioning eyes were turned to
her, but she gave no heed. Only in the white, set face they read the
outlines of some awful tragedy. Uncle Sid was first at her side.
"Come with me," she commanded. Then she turned and rode slowly toward
the canyon. Uncle Sid rode close beside her.
"What is it, little girl?" There was a pitying, restful caress in the
softened voice.
Helen longed to throw herself in his arms, to bury her head on his
breast, to pour out her soul in confession before him. She controlled
herself, her voice.
"I have found Elijah." Then she told him all. It was good to unburden
herself. She told of the pitiful wreck from which reason had all but
fled; the burst of insane rage when Seymour's name was mentioned; the
dumb struggle to grasp the assurance that he was forgiven, was free; the
hopeless plaint, "Why didn't they trust me before it was too late,--"
the silence of the river; the wild cry,--"Is it too late, my God, is it
too late?" the mad ride, fury driven, up the canyon trail. She told him
of her fears for the dam, how easily it could be wrecked, and her voice,
steady until now, broke pitifully. "I should have told Ralph all. Only
my wicked pride kept me from it."
Uncle Sid reined his pony closer and laid a soothing hand on her arm.
"It isn't too late, little girl. Listen! You have saved Elijah. You have
saved the dam!"
They were near the canyon now, and a heavy murmur, growing in intensity,
pulsed in the quiet air. A great, hopeful light glowed in Helen's eyes;
then it suddenly gave place to anxious fear. Was it too late after all?
Had the dam given way? A moment and her questions would be answered. She
sat with parted lips, and straining eyes, waiting for the rending,
crashing thunder that would come if--then a sigh of relief escaped her.
At the canyon's mouth, the turbid, soil-stained waters of the Sangre de
Cristo were leaping and falling, but the volume was decreasing. She
turned to Uncle Sid.
"Wait here. I am going up the canyon."
She felt that she was losing control of herself; she was striving
against it, but in vain. Try as she would, she could lay hold of nothing
in the past that could aid her. What had been her past? A sense of right
and a determination to live in accord with it, and with what results? In
self-confident pride she had looked down with contempt upon Ysleta
boomers and their methods. At the first beck of Elijah, yielding to the
subtle, intangible influence which he had thrown around her, she had
abandoned her principles and had become as one of them. Not openly, not
strongly, not defiantly, here was the shame and the pain of it; she had
not been herself, but another. She had protested, to herself, to Elijah,
she had stood up against him and had gone down before him. Day after
day, the meshes of this sinister influence had held her more closely in
its silken web; day after day, her past stood out more clearly with all
its pitiful failures, and day after day the future, even with the light
of the past beating white upon it, saw her yet more strongly bound. What
deeper depths would have yawned to engulf her, had not Elijah's
declaration jarred her to a loathsome recognition of what she was, of
what she might become, she shuddered to forecast. A smile of bitter
self-contempt played over her lips for a moment; then was gone.
In her darkness, there was yet a ray of light. She had failed, failed
miserably. She bore this in upon her soul with no softening words. This
was her darkness.
Brave, strong, patient hands had laid hold upon Elijah. If they had not
saved him, they had saved his work. They had laid hold upon her. If they
had not saved her, they had made her failures harmless. This was her
light. She could forget herself, her pain, her shame, in the glory of
Ralph's triumph. From the dust of her humiliation, she could yet raise a
heart filled with unselfish love.
Yet was there not hope? Ralph had known all that had lain on the surface
and he had offered her his love and had asked for hers in return. She
would be brave. She would tell him all. Even though he cast her aside,
she would yet have her love for him which could not harm him, but save
her. She would tell him all. Then if the light of love still shone in
his eyes, the light of the love he offered, the light of the love he
asked, she would know it; she could trust it without fear. She was
learning a lesson that might not avail her; but she was learning a
lesson. On the somber background of repentance the brightest pictures of
life are painted.
Through the pine boughs that hung low over the trail, she caught a
glimpse of hatless men who were carrying a burden between them. For a
moment her heart stood still. It was death. Then her heart once more
beat high. She saw Ralph's face, a face clouded with grief but yet
lightened by a supernal glow. She slipped from her pony and with bowed
head waited for the covered burden to pass by. Then her eyes were raised
to Ralph's; her hand was in his.
"It is all over, Helen; but his death was glorious. It was worth a
thousand lives."
Her hand in Ralph's, she heard the story of Elijah's life redeemed in
death. Tears welled from her eyes and fell silently down her cheeks.
Ralph was drawing her nearer; his arm was around her.
"I know all now, Helen." He would have said more but she checked him
gently.
"No; you do not know all. I must tell you. I must." She was trying to
free herself.
"I want you to tell me just one thing."
"I must. Then--" her eyes met his bravely.
He laid his fingers gently on her lips.
"I know what you would tell me, but I do not care to hear. I will not
listen, Helen. Don't you believe that I know myself, that I know you?"
She hid her face in her hands.
"Ralph."
"Stop!" Ralph's voice was strong and commanding. "Every word you speak
condemns me."
Slowly the hands dropped from the face that was now raised to his. The
great, dark eyes were deep with questioning hope. The lips trembled with
a smile that a breath would fan into life.
"I must obey my master."
Ralph's face was close to hers. His voice was low and strong.
"Then tell me that you love me."
"I love you. With all my heart and soul and strength, I love you."
Gently she put him aside.
"Let me go now, Ralph. I must be with Amy."