In response to the brusque introduction that followed, Amy turned her
eyes to Helen. The motion was evidently without volition on her part,
only obedience to an unexpressed command. She advanced timidly, with
outstretched hand.
"I am glad to see you; I have heard my husband speak of you very often."
There was a touch of the pride of possession in the words, "My husband,"
but it sounded pleading and doubtful, rather than confident. With the
words, the eyes again sought Elijah.
Helen was outwardly self possessed, inwardly, her thoughts were
confused.
"He speaks _to_ me quite often; I didn't know that he spoke of me."
Elijah was sizzling with impatience.
"This doesn't look much like breakfast." Without even a glance at Amy,
he turned toward the cottage. His words seemed to crowd each other, as
he called back through the door, "You two stay and talk women stuff.
I'll rustle breakfast."
Helen turned to Amy.
"That's considerate, if not complimentary."
"Elijah has no time for compliments; he's too busy." Amy spoke rather
stiffly. She longed with all her heart to follow Elijah; but at the same
time, she was glad of the opportunity to show Helen that she had talents
along other lines than "women stuff."
Helen laughed.
"'Women stuff' isn't so bad as it's painted."
"Why?" Amy inquired blankly.
"Oh, it fills in. One can't always be so terribly in earnest."
"Elijah is."
Helen restrained herself with difficulty. She felt an hysterical and
unreasonable desire to laugh.
"That's why I'm in his office, probably. I'm a relief."
Helen's reply was reassuring to Amy. It was a new reason for the
relations between Elijah and Helen. She accepted it without question.
"I'm afraid that I am too much interested in his work. It isn't good for
him, but I can't help it. I think you are right about his being too much
in earnest." Amy spoke laboriously; she evidently had some ulterior
purpose in view, more evident to Helen than she knew. With all the guile
that she could muster, Amy looked at Helen. "What is your work?"
Helen did not feel the pathos of what was passing before her eyes, she
only saw the absurdity of it.
"Oh, nothing much. I just keep the books. That's easy. Then I write
letters, and see that they are mailed, and for amusement, I have
arguments with Ralph Winston; he's the engineer, you know."
"Yes, I know Mr. Winston. I don't think much of him. He's rather
conceited, don't you think so?"
"Very."
"I am sure he is. My husband knows more about orange trees, and land,
and irrigation than anybody, and yet I have heard Mr. Winston contradict
him time and time again. My husband is very patient with him."
Again Helen felt an almost uncontrollable impulse to laughter.
"Ralph tries everyone's patience when he doesn't agree with them."
Amy felt that she was wandering from her purpose. She had a vague idea
of returning to it by a graceful transition, but one did not suggest
itself to her, and she dared temporize no further.
"Is book-keeping so very hard?" she asked.
"Not at all; it's just a little puzzling once in a while."
"Where did you learn?"
"At a business college. I took a regular course."
"I can't--that is--I--" Amy stumbled, her face flushed with confusion.
She had almost disclosed her purpose in so many words. "Really," she
continued, regaining her mental foothold, "I know nothing about such
things. Do you really have to go to college to learn book-keeping?"
"No, indeed." Helen was moved to pity. "Get 'A and B's elements,' any
book store has them; a little paper and pencil, a small journal, a cash
book and ledger. A little practice, and the thing is done."
Helen's face was smiling and imperturbable. A glance at it convinced Amy
that her purpose was undivined.
"Thank you. I have always been curious about such things." Then she grew
oblivious of Helen, more completely absorbed than she had ever been
before in her life. Her face flushed a delicate pink with the glow of
the resolution which had at last taken definite shape in her mind. It
was all so simple. Why hadn't she thought of it before? Helen was
watching her with a pitying smile on her lips, but the pity was for
Elijah, not for Amy. She recalled involuntarily her first meeting with
Elijah, the intangible something that had puzzled her about him. Then
the incidents of the morning came to her with a rush that overpowered
her. She saw everything now, and the smile died from her lips. "What
might he not have accomplished, had he married a different sort of a
woman?--if,"--her face was scarlet now.
"Breakfast!" Elijah stood in the door, flourishing a dauby spoon.
"Oatmeal!" he called, looking at Helen. "Come!"
He darted forward, flung one arm with the spoon attached around Amy's
waist and swept her towards the open door.
Helen followed, laughing. The laugh was not the hearty, spontaneous
expression of innocent mirth, of--was it only hours, or was it ages ago?
Helen could not answer. She was not clearly conscious of the question.
She was not certain whether the present was a reality, or whether it was
a vague, disagreeable dream, threatening hideous things that were
nameless and terrifying, as the demon-peopled shadows surrounding a
shrinking child. Her eager anticipations, the sudden, indefinite
repugnance to the ride with Elijah, the chill morning, the huddled
numbness of the blanketed Mexicans, the hunched-up cattle by the
roadside, the clammy, milky fog, the fierce blast of the smiting sun,
the land of promise in the blazing light, Elijah's "My work, mine and
yours," the consuming enthusiasm of Elijah, the empty, inane beauty of
Amy, these two people, twain and one flesh, and she, apart or a part;
which should it be? Weaving out and in, confusing, tantalizing, and she,
drifting and floating like an errant leaf on these currents of destiny,
going hither and thither, to find a resting place, where?
The sound of her own laughter mocked her. She was conscious that her
smile was labored, that her spontaneous effort would be tears. This she
was resisting. Everything seemed strange to her. Why? She could not
answer.
The breakfast table was set on a verandah, shaded with climbing roses
and honeysuckle in full bloom. Flecks of sunshine pierced the clustered
leaves, but the fierceness of the sun was tempered to a soft glow by the
matted vines. The fragrance of flowers perfumed the air, and light and
perfume gave a heightened pleasure from consciousness of the conditions
without. A dish of steaming oatmeal was before Elijah, a pitcher of
thick cream and a bowl of powdered sugar. In the centre of the table was
a plate of oranges, golden and fair.
Elijah motioned Helen to a seat on the opposite side of the table, and
swung Amy into a chair by his side. His face was flushed, his motions
quick and nervous. Helen dumbly wondered if he too were conscious of a
struggle within himself, if his actions were forced, or if they were
natural, and she were reading her own unrest into them.
Elijah selected from the dish the largest and fairest orange, if choice
were possible. He poised it in the air for the fraction of a second.
"Catch," he said, and tossed it into Helen's hands. Another orange was
dropped into Amy's lap. Selecting one for himself, he began to tear the
acrid rind from the fruit and holding the stripped orange, looked at
Helen with eyes momentarily half-closed.
"Let's eat and drink to our success." His eyes opened wide as he turned
to Amy. "Here's food and drink, typical of all objects worth the
struggle.
'The bud may have a bitter taste,
But sweet will be the flower.'"
Elijah rose as he spoke, holding in one hand the stripped orange, in the
other the rind.
"This fruit is typical of life. It is fair to look upon. Its acrid rind
burns the lips; the thoughtless cast it aside. Only those who can see
beneath the bitter rind, the sweet, refreshing fruit, are worthy to
taste of it. We have tasted the bitterness, little girl, let us refresh
ourselves with the sweetness."
He raised the orange to his lips. Helen and Amy did the same. Helen was
still conscious of the tense muscles shaping her lips in a smile.
"Oatmeal?" Elijah was filling a dish and looking at Helen. Her face
flushed slightly.
"If you please."
Elijah laughed, and Amy gazed in mild wonder.
"It's our joke," he explained. "Miss Lonsdale said that she would have
fed me with something better than oatmeal if she had been my wife."
To this, Amy made no reply. She was absorbed in her thoughts. Her fear
of Helen was diminishing. In a way, she was enjoying her own cleverness.
It was clever in her to have drawn from Helen the secret of her hold
upon Elijah, without arousing any suspicions. "It's not so very hard,
just a little puzzling once in a while." These words stood out so
sharply and clearly. Amy's face clouded. She must not forget, and her
memory was not good. "A little practice and the thing is done." This was
clear. "A paper and pencil, a--" "What was it? Some kind of books." Her
face grew more perplexed and clouded. "Oh! What if she should forget? It
would never do to ask Helen again, Helen would suspect. She must
remember." Her eyes grew dim with tears that were demanding to be shed.
"Any book-seller has them." Her face cleared. She felt like shouting her
triumph. She could go to any book-seller and he would tell her what she
wanted to know.
"That's all." Elijah sprang from the table. He lifted Amy from her feet,
caught her in his arms, kissed her and darted through the house and out
into the drive-way.
"Hook up the horses, Jose! Move lively! We've got a long drive."
Helen and Amy were standing under a rose-covered trellis. Helen was
sober, Amy was peaceful.
"Sorry to leave you so soon, little girl. We're going out on business."
The team pulled up beside them. "We'll be home tonight." The words
floated back through the crush of wheels on the gravel.
Amy watched them drive away. This time she held no Fate-dealing daisy in
her hands; a full-blown rose was there instead. The flush of it was on
her cheeks, its perfume in her nostrils as she cleared the table, and
washing the dishes, put them away. She sang softly to herself, with her
sewing in her lap, as she rocked gently to and fro through the long, hot
day. In the shade of the rose and the honeysuckle, the tempered sunbeams
fell on her hair, on her work, the sweet perfume of the air mingling
with the perfume of her dreams.
It was almost six o'clock when Elijah and Helen returned. Following them
closely was a dusty horseman. Without dismounting the horseman handed a
note to Elijah. Elijah tore open the envelope, his face clouding as he
read. He turned to Helen.
"You're right, as usual. The Pacific will close its doors tomorrow.
We've got to get back to Ysleta tonight. The cashier tells me that we
can get our money out if we're on hand early when the bank opens in the
morning." Elijah turned to the stable man. "Take out these horses and
put in Chica and Lota. Hurry!" He slipped his arm through Amy's. "Too
bad, little girl. Thought we'd have an evening together. Let's go in and
have a bite. Jose will be ready in fifteen minutes. Sixty miles is a
long drive for one day; are you good for it?" He looked sharply at
Helen.
"Of course I am." The answer was brusque. The day, for very good
reasons, had not eased Helen's mind.
Amy stood bright-eyed and smiling, as Elijah kissed her goodbye. A
fleeting wonder swept over Elijah's mind; but he had no time for
riddles. Amy was still smiling as Elijah and Helen drove away. The
setting sun rested a halo on her hair, shone softly in her triumphant
eyes. A long time she stood looking towards the great ocean, then she
turned to the cottage. "A pencil and paper, and a little practice and
the thing is done."