CHAPTER SIX

It did not follow because Seymour had promised to back the Las Cruces

Water Company to the extent of one hundred thousand dollars, that he

intended to put in that amount of his own money; nor because he had

promised a certain sum, that that sum was the limit. He had become

thoroughly convinced that the enterprise was well conceived and that

with proper management it was bound to succeed and to "succeed big." He

wisely concluded that those who had conceived the project and had

figured out so minutely the cost and detail, were the proper ones to

trust with its execution. He was too cold blooded to be figurative, but

Winston's figure to Elijah exactly expressed his attitude of mind.

Elijah furnished the fizz of enthusiasm, while Winston supplied the

necessary body to the wine, with his well-balanced, matter-of-fact mind.

There was nothing in his contract to prevent his disposing at par of one

half of the two hundred thousand shares which he had acquired at fifty,

and this was the step which he proposed to take and which he did take.

He too regarded the laborer as worthy of his hire.

Mr. Seymour was a business man. He was shrewd and he was very

successful. It did not necessarily follow that he was unscrupulous. In

fact, from a purely business standpoint, he was not; but he had no

Quixotic limitations to the end that he was his brother's keeper. The

world was full of disastrous mistakes; he took it as he found it. He did

not count as a sin of his own, the omission to do good unto others when

opportunity offered; but he regarded the opportunity as an indication of

sin or at least of poor judgment in his fellow. He was a church

communicant in good and regular standing; but religion was one thing,

business another. He did not search the scriptures either for

approbation or for defense. He acted upon the principle that offenses

must be and that woe was the lot of the one through whom they came. The

woe that was visited upon the offender was in reality no less a reward

of merit than the benefit which accrued to the one who was wise enough

to take advantage of the offense. He never pointed to the decalogue with

the smug assertion that this had been kept from his youth up. If his

business record did not show this, words would be useless. He wasted no

love on his neighbor, for love was a dissipater of energy. Love

engendered pity, pity sacrifice, and sacrifice precluded success. Every

tub must stand on its own bottom. If his neighbor's tub leaked, it was

his neighbor's fault for not keeping it calked. His neighbor had no

ground for complaint if the liquor which he spilled, was gathered by a

more fitting vessel.

Mr. Seymour's one hundred thousand shares of Las Cruces had cost him

nothing, save a little energy. If he did no better, he would have so

much clear. That was worth while. If Winston and Berl made a mess of the

affair, that was no concern of his. One man's extremity was to him

another man's opportunity. He intended to be the other man. Elijah was

an enthusiast, Winston a professional man. Enthusiasm would inflate

iridescent bubbles, professional pride would be an absorbing end in

itself. Both were essential, neither would necessarily supply the third

element of success, business acumen. At the proper time he would supply

this himself and at his own price. In any event, he would be perfectly

safe.

The orderly bustle which succeeded Seymour's departure, argued well for

the success of the new company. Experienced Ysleta boomers saw in "Las

Cruces" a new kind of boom, and beyond offering to put their experience

and methods at the service of the new company, did nothing further. The

idea of taking up land on a venture near Elijah's ranch, was discussed,

but the conclusion was reached that this land was too far from Ysleta to

be advantageous and that attention distracted from their own kettle of

fish would result in the deadening of the fires that were keeping their

own pot boiling.

The division of the entailed labor fell naturally. The engineering work

demanded Winston's presence in the field. The office duties fell to

Elijah. It was Winston who suggested to Elijah the necessity of a

bookkeeper and that there was no one better fitted in every way than

Helen Lonsdale. Winston had no doubts of Elijah's intentional integrity

and he had great confidence in Helen Lonsdale's ability both in business

and in looking out for herself. So she was installed as an essential

feature of the company. She felt herself in a position of great and

growing responsibility.

Days slipped into weeks and weeks into months with the easy motion of

well-organized work. Helen hardly surpassed Winston's expectations, but

as he darted in and out of the office, full of his work, he felt no more

than a passing sense of satisfaction at the readiness with which

everything that he wanted came to his hands. Helen might have a personal

pride in never being caught unprepared, but she never displayed the

emotion. It was Winston himself who was first caught off his guard. He

rushed into the office one afternoon with a look of annoyance, almost of

disgust on his face.

"I've made a mess, Helen. I want you to help me out."

"Short of powder at No. 1?" Helen hardly looked up from her work.

"Yes. How did you know?"

"I ordered two tons from the magazine. It's on its way there now."

"Good! But how did you know that I was short?"

"From the reports. I thought you wouldn't be in, so I ordered it."

"You are a jewel, Helen. I haven't had time to tell you so before, but

I've known it all along."

"Jewels are ornamental, not useful."

"You are both."

Helen glanced at the clock.

"Office hours aren't over yet and the company isn't paying me to trade

sugar plums."

"All right. I'll see you off shift sometime."

Elijah's work kept him much in the office and he was held to business

quite as closely as was Winston. Helen showed her appreciation of his

work by saying nothing, but doing everything that came to her hands. He

longed to drink of the sparkling waters of his dreams, and with all that

was in her, Helen was trying to convert these iridescent dreams into

material facts. Elijah longed also to see Helen's eyes kindle, to hear

her words of commendation; but she never spoke now of his idea. Thus it

happened that one phase of his nature was hungered, the other fully

satisfied.

Poor Amy was the only party to the new order of things who was unhappy.

She had accepted the necessity of Elijah's absence at the Ysleta office,

not with resignation, but with unprotesting grief. She regarded this as

the dregs of her cup of bitterness; but when she learned of Elijah's

assistant, she discovered her mistake. She mourned over his absence, yet

utterly refused to consider the idea of moving to Ysleta. He must come

to her at her bidding; she could not bring herself to go to him at his.

This was her touchstone of love and devotion. It was failing her, and in

sackcloth and ashes she was mourning it. She made a brave attempt at

cheerfulness when Elijah broached the subject, but she could neither

keep the color in her cheeks nor her lips steady when she made reply.

"Don't ask me, Elijah. I can't bear it."

"Why?" he asked in surprise.

"Because," she paused for a moment. "We have been here almost four

years, just you, and I and the children. Every spot of it is a part of

you. It would be like death to leave it. While you are away, I shall

look forward to your coming back. If I should go to Ysleta, you wouldn't

be coming back."

"Of course not. I'd be there all the time. You'd have lots of company. I

could run in to lunch and bring my friends." Elijah lifted his head and

squared his shoulders. He caught not the slightest glimpse of Amy's real

feeling. His words and gestures showed that only too plainly even to

her.

Amy smiled wanly.

"I wouldn't have you all to myself there. I would rather have you all to

myself part of the time, than part of you all the time." It was a

tremendous thought for Amy. She almost stood in awe of herself over its

utterance.

"You are a silly goose." Elijah caught her in his arms and swung her to

and fro as if she were a child. "You have me all the time, wherever I

am."

Amy lay in his arms with closed eyes. The color came back to her face.

It was only a dream; a dream of what had been. She knew it was only a

dream and she tried to close her mental eyes to this knowledge. She was

aroused when Elijah set her on her feet.

"I have lots to do at the office now."

Amy's face showed a sudden gleam of inspiration.

"Couldn't I be in the office with you?"

"Of course not, goose. You'd be in the way."

"Is the bookkeeper in the way?" The words were almost gasped.

"Of course not. She'd be in the way if she wasn't there."

"Why?" The word was spoken perforce and with fear.

"Because I couldn't get along without her. She's no end of help to me in

my work."

"Couldn't I help you? I would try hard."

Elijah laughed long and loud. Not brutally, at least he had no intention

of brutality; but the thought of Amy's doing Helen Lonsdale's work

incited his thoughtless mirth. It was inconsiderate rather than

thoughtless, for he had not personified Amy's words. Her white face

brought the truth home. He grew sober.

"Not the way you mean, Amy. You will have to help me in your way, and

Miss Lonsdale in another. Goodbye, dear. Don't scare yourself with

pictures, as I said before."

Amy watched him as on a former occasion; then she had thought her lot

hard. She would now be glad to exchange forever and to ask no more.

Then, she feared. Now she knew that there were others, beside herself,

upon whom Elijah depended. Farther, she could not go, for she could not

see her own limitations.

At his office in Ysleta, Elijah found Helen Lonsdale bent over a map and

oblivious to her surroundings. A pad and pencil were at her elbow. She

was tracing the map with one finger which occasionally recurred to one

point, while with the other hand she was apparently recording memoranda.

Finally the maps were pushed aside and pad and pencil absorbed her

entire attention. There were pauses during which she looked at the map,

ran over her figures and then her pencil flew over the pad more rapidly

than before. At length she sat up straight, spread the slips of paper

before her, and, rolling her pencil meditatively between her fingers,

appeared absorbed in thought.

"You seem to be deeply interested." Elijah was standing at the door of

the inner office.

Helen turned her head sharply.

"You're just in time to sign these letters before the mail closes."

Elijah seated himself at his desk and signed the letters, as one by one,

she placed them before him.

"Do you want to look them over?" she asked.

"No, you never make mistakes."

She began reading and folding the letters.

"I think they are all right. You stamp them." She glanced at the clock.

"You'll have to hurry."

Elijah stamped the letters as she tossed them to him. As the last stamp

was affixed, she shuffled them together, and, with a glance over her

shoulder at the clock, started through the door.

"Have the boy take them over." Elijah called out.

"Boy and hurry aren't on intimate terms." She was already on the

threshold of the outer door. In a few moments she returned. "If I had

sent the boy, the letters would have lain over until tomorrow, I was

just in time." She drew a handkerchief over her flushed face. The

handkerchief was not purely ornamental, neither did it suggest unrefined

utilitarianism. It lacked lace, but not delicacy. The motion that swept

it over her face was decided, but not harsh. Her movements, as she

seated herself at her desk and turned her face full toward Elijah, were

quick, yet rhythmic and graceful. There was masculine alertness and

concentration; yet both were softened by a femininity, unobtrusive but

not to be ignored. For over six months, she had been "Helen" to him as

he was "Elijah" to her. Yet the barrier between man and woman that

seemed so frail, had effectively obstructed the path that led to

intimacy.

Elijah was half-conscious of a longing which he could not express,

half-conscious that every attempt to gratify it was repulsed by an

intangible atmosphere which seemed transparent and unresisting, yet was

dense and impenetrable. Had he been able to state his position to

himself at this time, he would have shrunk from the picture. He was not

analytical, therefore he did not know that the greater part of the sins

of the world are the result not of deliberate premeditation and

decision, but of the almost unconscious, initial yielding to apparently

innocent impulses which should be recognized for what they are, for what

they may be, and crushed out of existence at once.

Elijah was strong in his vision of possibilities, strong in his purpose

to wrest success from the teeth of defeat, strong in the enthusiasm that

made him tingle with restless impatience to be doing, strong in his

power to kindle others with the fire of his own purpose; yet he was

weak. Weak because of an unconscious, yet all-pervading selfishness.

Imperative as were his visions, even so were his desires, and

unconsciously both centred in himself. As in the rock-ribbed, narrow

confines of his New England home, so in the desolate, sun-burned deserts

of California, unchecked by contact with his fellow men, his thoughts

ran riot in the channels of his glowing soul. He had longed for

sympathetic companionship; but his solitary, isolated life forbade it.

This longing had found gratification in what he grew to believe was

fellowship with God. His youth fostered the idea, his growing, solitary

years developed it into a fanatical belief. If he was in doubt, he took

refuge in prayer, not for guidance, firmly as he may have believed it,

but for confirmation. From his youth up, he had had a fanatical belief

in the guidance of Divinity, and had placed the Bible as a lamp to his

feet. Elijah prayed to God for guidance in paths which he should have

chosen for himself, blindly putting aside the fact that in the very

seeking for guidance, he was longing to be confirmed in a course which

in the depths of his soul he knew to be wrong. Fortified by his belief,

armed by God's sanction, he followed his desires mercilessly and without

shame.

Helen Lonsdale was not analytical, she was not fanatical, nor was she

deeply religious. Her surroundings had precluded that. She had strong

common sense. When for lack of experience this failed her, she had

intuition. She moved among men fearlessly, because in the field of their

movements, sex was not thought of,--only things to be done. The two men

with whom, in her present relations, her lot was so intimately cast,

stood respectively on an entirely different footing. In their childhood

days, she and Ralph Winston had been playmates. Later, they had been

parted only to be thrown into closer relations by a strange turn of

Fortune's wheel. She had welcomed Ralph with the unreserve of the days

of their childhood. She was, perhaps, on this very account, unconscious

that his memories were the more faithful of the two.

Elijah had come into her life, full-fledged, with no childish memories

to blur the outlines of the image. However strong Winston was in the

eyes of others, there were yet in her eyes the clinging shreds of the

memory of other days. She was attracted by Elijah's enthusiasm, the

strength of his ideas, of his purpose to succeed. With a woman's

intuition she saw the barren stretch of his unsympathetic surroundings,

and, with no idea of injustice, the sight prompted her to give in full

that which had hitherto been denied him. Her sympathy was aroused, her

enthusiasm kindled by his work; but it was apparently impersonal. She

was surrounded by an atmosphere of womanliness as delicate as an

electric field, which warned off and repelled any disturbing element.

Yet her atmosphere was polar; it would respond to the proper element.

The element was existent, but as yet unrecognized.

Elijah again turned to Helen.

"How are things going?"

"Ralph is short of powder and cement at the dam. I sent up a pack-train

this morning. It will leave two tons of powder at No. 1 tunnel. The

magazine is getting low, but San Francisco is sending a carload. It will

be here tomorrow. That will keep Ralph supplied for a month. Seymour

writes from New York that Las Cruces is snapped at one-twenty; that he

is going to run it up to one-thirty. Everything is coming our way on the

run."

"We've got a pretty heavy balance to our credit." Elijah spoke

meditatively. "Pretty heavy to carry in the local banks."

"That's just what I was going to speak of. I'd let San Francisco carry

the bulk of our deposits. It's solid. The local banks may be called any

time. You can leave just enough here to keep them good-natured."

"All right. We'll deposit our next checks in 'Frisco. What were you

mulling over this morning?"

Helen laughed.

"How to get even with you and Ralph."

"Get even with us!" Elijah looked at her in surprise.

"Yes."

"What do you mean?"

"You wouldn't let me into Las Cruces on the ground floor, so I am

planning a building of my own."

"That was Ralph's doing; he didn't want you to run the risk of losing."

"My five thousand was as good, so far as it went, as Seymour's hundred.

He got in at fifty. He's made good at one hundred and forty. If you had

let me in, I would have had twelve thousand five hundred now. It will

take me a long time to earn that." She spoke with assumed levity.

Elijah was regarding her through half-closed eyes. He spoke very

deliberately.

"You are right, I wanted to do it, but Ralph wouldn't consent. He meant

all right," he added hastily. "I'll tell you what I'll do. I'll let you

have five thousand dollars of my stock at fifty. That will set you

straight."

"No it won't." There was no levity in Helen's voice.

"Why?" Elijah's eyes opened in surprise.

"Because that would be a present, and I don't want presents. What I get,

I want to get myself."

"It wouldn't be a present. It would be a reward. You've earned it."

Elijah spoke earnestly and warmly.

"From you, not from the company," she replied decidedly and with

finality. "Besides, I've discovered a way to help myself. That's

better."

"That brings us back to the first point. What were you mulling over?"

Helen drew the map toward them and weighted down the corners.

"Oranges don't mind a breath of cold air now and then; they're dead set

against a freeze out." She was looking quizzically at Elijah. An

expression of assured satisfaction came over her face at Elijah's

astonishment.

His head was thrown back as he raised his eyes to Helen's face.

"What do you mean?"

"As if I needed to tell you." Her lips were scornful at the limitations

Elijah had put upon her. A smile softened the scorn and left a doubt as

to which emotion was dominant. "You know that oranges on a hillside with

southwestern exposure will do better than in an unprotected river

bottom."

Elijah looked up fiercely.

"Has Ralph been talking?"

"No; but you have."

"I never said anything of the kind to you."

"I'm not a phonograph."

"You've no right to make use of information that you get from a

confidential position." Elijah's voice was decided. There was a startled

look on his face that he could not keep from being anxious.

"Not even to make myself more useful?"

Elijah did not commit himself to words. His eyes were expectant. Helen

continued, pointing to the map.

"This land is practically vacant. It's owned by a Mexican. He would jump

at a dollar an acre. It is separated from this of yours by a hill. He

would never dream of a tunnel. Some one else may. There are thousands of

acres just as good as the land you control. What's the matter with

forming a land company independent of the Las Cruces? My five thousand

would cover five thousand acres. When water gets to it, say it's worth a

hundred; that will make me five hundred thousand to the good. That's

better than a present of Las Cruces at fifty, and it will come from

myself."

"I never told you about the tunnel. How did you find it out?"

Helen could not restrain a satisfied smile.

"You didn't tell me about a belt of country around here where the

temperature never falls to thirty-two?"

Elijah glanced hastily around the room.

"That's all right." Helen had noted the look. "We're all alone."

"What do you want?" Elijah's look was not yet wholly one of relief.

"To get a little closer."

"There's a big future in that idea. I have been thinking of forming a

land company. We can get control of the whole section." He swept his

hand over the map.

"We don't want the earth, Elijah. It would be too much work to handle

it. There wouldn't be any time for fun. We only want a goodly portion.

We want to do things, don't we?"

Elijah's eyes opened. An expression as of a revelation swept over his

face. The simple "we" thrilled him through and through. Unconsciousness

was dropping its mask and standing out in bold relief.

"We do, we do! and we will."

Helen was quite unconscious. She laughed at Elijah's enthusiasm.

"What kind of women have you lived with, I would like to know. This idea

would not have surprised you if it had come from a man."

Helen spoke in ignorance. Unconsciously she had opened Elijah's eyes

still wider. In a blinding flash, he saw Amy and Helen Lonsdale side by

side. The vision brought him face to face with his past life with Amy;

with its barren stretch, unwatered by sympathetic appreciation, only

parched and withered by the burning rays of selfish love. He had given;

but he had not received. What he had accomplished, he had accomplished

not only by himself, but in spite of a hostile influence. So long as his

work had been limited to the little patch of ground irrigated by the

developed springs of his home, Amy had offered no objections to his

enthusiasm. So far as it was possible for her, she had been interested,

almost encouraging. Even over his visions of greater things, which he

had laid before her unseeing eyes, she had smiled with acquiescence

which he mistook for appreciation. Only when the films began to grow

into material form, when the warp and woof must be gathered from others,

and the frame of the loom itself must be builded with another's aid, did

the real meaning of Elijah's dream suggest itself to Amy. Not that she

saw clearly, only intuitively, that in the carrying out of his plans he

would come in contact with others, that this contact would develop a

comparison of herself with others, that this comparison would be

unfavorable to her, and would end forever her ability to fill Elijah's

mental vision. Therefore, at the very first signs of expansion, she had

opposed the feeble barrier of her will. Elijah had no more recognized

the barrier than he had Amy's limitations which made the barrier

imperative to her. He had felt her opposition, and, without

understanding it, he had chafed against it. He had not compared her with

others, because up to this time he had not come in contact with those

who made a comparison imperative.

Now the comparison was coming to him, had indeed already come.

Appreciation, sympathy, energy, assistance were manifest to him in every

word and action of Helen Lonsdale. Her first suggestion of independent

action had startled, then brought to him a sudden, overpowering

realization of what she was, of what she might be to him in comparison

with Amy. His first emotion was fear lest she might leave him, and,

equipped with the knowledge which she had gained from her confidential

relation with the company, start out on an independent course of her

own. There was almost a feeling of resentment against Amy, as if she had

defrauded him, and this was a thing which Elijah should have put aside;

but he did not.

Helen was watching him. There was decided humor in her eyes, in the

motion of her lips.

"What are you mulling over?"

Elijah started as if waking from a dream. He spoke hastily, but none the

less decidedly.

"We must drive over together and see that land as soon as possible."

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