THE CABIN IN THE PINES
He did not mean to go again. He did not mean to watch the wistaria
vine. He went, he told himself wildly, to evade the summons that was
sure to come from Adam Craig. But when the glimmer of wistaria swayed
beneath a footfall, madness came upon him and he went stealthily
through orchard and forest, stalking the flutter of a cloak.
The river turned. Joan followed the bend for a little way and struck
off again into the thick of the forest through the cloistered gloom of
many pines. She came, after what seemed to Kenny a long, long time, to
a rude cabin made of logs. There was a light in the window. Joan
opened the door and disappeared.
If he had known definitely what he thought, he told himself with an
Irish twist, the agony of his suspense would have been worse and less.
The sharp intensity of the pain in his heart terrified him. Whatever
lay in the cabin of logs was something apart from him. The night
noises of the forest blared strangely in his ears. He was conscious of
the odor of pines; conscious of a shower of pine-needles when he
brushed back against a tree. And there were cones beneath his feet.
But his madness would not bear him on to the cabin door. At intervals
with fire in his brain he knew he heard the voice of a man.
In a vague eternity of minutes he waited until the door opened and
lamplight streamed brightly over the sill. A man stepped forth.
Something seemed to snap in Kenny's heart. Relief roared in his ears
and rushed unbidden to his lips.
"Oh, my God!" he gasped.
It was the gentle, white-haired minister with a book beneath his arm.
Startled the old man drew back and peered uncertainly into the
darkness. Kenny approached.
"I--I beg your pardon," he said, wiping his forehead. "I'm sorry."
Joan came to the door and stared.
"Kenny!" she exclaimed. And her voice had in it a note of distress.
She glanced at Mr. Abbott, who glanced in turn at Kenny with an air of
gentle inquiry. His confidence in Mr. O'Neill, never very robust, had
waned that day upon the river. It was weakening more and more.
Tongue-tied and scarlet, Kenny stared into the cabin. Its single room
with its raftered walls, books and a lamp, an old-fashioned stove, a
work-basket, a faded rag-carpet and the trophies of childhood, boy and
girl, was snug and comfortable.
"It's Donald's and mine," said Joan. "We've always studied here with
Mr. Abbott."
"Mr. O'Neill," said the minister stiffly, "it--it has been a sort of
secret. Mr. Craig was strangely opposed to the tuition I offered years
ago. Joan settled the problem for herself."
It was evident all of it had lain a little sorely on the old man's
conscience. It had been a singular problem, deception or the welfare
of the two children suffering at the hands of Adam Craig; and the need
of choice had driven him to prayer.
Kenny, glad at last to find his tongue, warmly commended his decision.
Joan blew out the light and locked the door.
"How did you find the cabin, Kenny?" she asked wonderingly. "It's off
so in the wilder part of the forest. No one comes this way."
Kenny told fluently of walking toward a star.
It was like him. Joan smiled.
But the faith in her eyes upset him. He wanted to be truthful. Ah! if
only Fate would let him!
"And I startled you!" marveled Mr. Abbott.
"Yes," said Kenny.
He walked back through the silence of the pines with remorse in his
heart, paying little heed to Mr. Abbott's talk of vacation. The
wistaria ladder, the cloister of pines, the lonely cabin where Joan
spent truant hours of peace, were to him things of infinite pathos.
And like the day in the garret, yesterday seemed aeons back. He
wondered why, conscious of a subtle, unforgettable sense of change in
himself. Something mysteriously had altered.
The memory of the pain and horror in his heart, he dismissed with a
frown. As Adam said, he never dwelt upon the things that failed to
please him. The pain was past. The peace of the present lay in his
heart. It had even crowded out the memory of Adam and the notebook.
He was glad when Mr. Abbott said good night and took a footpath to the
west. Well, it had been a mystery this time that he hadn't wanted to
keep. But why, Oh, why, he wondered a little sadly, must all his
mysteries end in anticlimax? Absurd, the little man in his frock coat
trotting out of the cabin door!
"Joan, Joan!" he pleaded. "Why didn't you tell me? Am I then not your
friend?"
"I'm sorry, Kenny." She laid her hand wistfully upon his arm. "Mr.
Abbott asked me not to tell you."
"Why?"
"I don't know."
"You go there often?"
"Yes, at night. I sew there and read and study. To Donald and me it
was always a little like a home. I used to patch his clothes there.
He hated them so. You're not hurt?"
"Not--now."
"I'm glad."
At the wistaria ladder Kenny sighed.
"Must you?" he asked. "I mean, Joan, can't you steal in by the door?"
"It's better not," said Joan, one hand already on the vine. "Hughie
would scold if he knew. For the wood is lonely. And he would talk so
much of rain and snow. Now I can come and go as I please."
She caught her cloak up and fastened it to insure the freedom of both
her hands.
"Good night, Kenny," she said shyly. "I hope you find your star."
"I did," said Kenny. "'Twas hiding in a cabin. Good night, dear."