CHAPTER VIII

Early on the following morning--the morning of the Christian Sunday--

Nina Balatka received a note, a very short note, from her lover the

Jew. "Dearest, meet me on the bridge this evening at eight. I will be

at your end on the right-hand pathway exactly at eight. Thine, ever and

always, A. T." Nina, directly she had read the words, rushed out to the

door in order that she might give assurance to the messenger that she

would do as she was bidden; but the messenger was gone, and Nina was

obliged to reconcile herself to the prospect of silent obedience. The

note, however, had made her very happy, and the prospect pleased her

well. It was on this very day that she had intended to go to her lover;

but it was in all respects much pleasanter to her that her lover should

come to her. And then, to walk with him was of all things the most

delightful, especially in the gloom of the evening, when no eyes could

see her--no eyes but his own. She could hang upon his arm, and in this

way she could talk more freely with him than in any other. And then the

note had in it more of the sweetness of a love-letter than any written

words which she had hitherto received from him. It was very short, no

doubt, but he had called her "Dearest," instead of "Dear Nina," as had

been his custom, and then he had declared that he was hers ever and

always. No words could have been sweeter. She was glad that the note

was so short, because there was nothing in it to mar her pleasure. Yes,

she would be there at eight. She was quite determined that she would

not keep him waiting.

At half-past seven she was on the bridge. There could be no reason, she

thought, why she should not walk across it to the other side and then

retrace her steps, though in doing so she was forced, by the rule of

the road upon the bridge, to pass to the Old Town by the right-hand

pathway in going, while he must come to her by the opposite side. But

she would walk very quickly and watch very closely. If she did not see

him as she crossed and recrossed, she would at any rate be on the spot

indicated at the time named. The autumn evenings had become somewhat

chilly, and she wrapped her thin cloak close round her, as she felt the

night air as she came upon the open bridge. But she was not cold. She

told herself that she could not and would not be cold. How could she be

cold when she was going to meet her lover? The night was dark, for the

moon was now gone and the wind was blowing; but there were a few stars

bright in the heaven, and when she looked down through the parapets of

the bridge, there was just light enough for her to see the black water

flowing fast beneath her. She crossed quickly to the figure of St John,

that she might look closely on those passing on the other side, and

after a few moments recrossed the road. It was the figure of the saint,

St John Nepomucene, who was thrown from this very bridge and drowned,

and who has ever since been the protector of good Christians from the

fate which he himself had suffered. Then Nina bethought herself whether

she was a good Christian, and whether St John of the Bridge would be

justified in interposing on her behalf, should she be in want of him.

She had strong doubts as to the validity of her own Christianity, now

that she loved a Jew; and feared that it was more than probable that St

John would do nothing for her, were she in such a strait as that in

which he was supposed to interfere. But why now should she think of any

such danger? Lotta Luxa had told her to drown herself when she should

find herself to have been jilted by her Jew lover; but her Jew lover

was true to her; she had his dear words at that moment in her bosom,

and in a few moments her hand would be resting on his arm. So she

passed on from the statue of St John, with her mind made up that

she did not want St John's aid. Some other saint she would want, no

doubt, and she prayed a little silent prayer to St Nicholas, that he

would allow her to marry the Jew without taking offence at her. Her

circumstances had been very hard, as the saint must know, and she had

meant to do her best. Might it not be possible, if the saint would help

her, that she might convert her husband? But as she thought of this,

she shook her head. Anton Trendellsohn was not a man to be changed in

his religion by any words which she could use. It would be much more

probable, she knew, that the conversion would be the other way. And she

thought she would not mind that, if only it could be a real conversion.

But if she were induced to say that she was a Jewess, while she still

believed in St Nicholas and St John, and in the beautiful face of the

dear Virgin--if to please her husband she were to call herself a Jewess

while she was at heart a Christian--then her state would be very

wretched. She prayed again to St Nicholas to keep her from that state.

If she were to become a Jewess, she hoped that St Nicholas would let

her go altogether, heart and soul, into Judaism.

When she reached the end of the long bridge she looked anxiously up the

street by which she knew that he must come, endeavouring to discover

his figure by the glimmering light of an oil-lamp that hung at an angle

in the street, or by the brighter glare which came from the gas in a

shop-window by which he must pass. She stood thus looking and looking

till she thought he would never come. Then she heard the clock in the

old watch-tower of the bridge over her head strike three-quarters, and

she became aware that, instead of her lover being after his time, she

had yet to wait a quarter of an hour for the exact moment which he

had appointed. She did not in the least mind waiting. She had been

a little uneasy when she thought that he had neglected or forgotten

his own appointment. So she turned again and walked back towards the

Kleinseite, fixing her eyes, as she had so often done, on the rows of

windows which glittered along the great dark mass of the Hradschin

Palace. What were they all doing up there, those slow and faded

courtiers to an ex-Emperor, that they should want to burn so many

candles? Thinking of this she passed the tablet on the bridge, and,

according to her custom, put the end of her fingers on it. But as she

was raising her hand to her mouth to kiss it she remembered that the

saint might not like such service from one who was already half a Jew

at heart, and she refrained. She refrained, and then considered whether

the bridge might not topple down with her into the stream because of

her iniquity. But it did not topple down, and now she was standing

beyond any danger from the water at the exact spot which Trendellsohn

had named. She stood still lest she might possibly miss him by moving,

till she was again cold. But she did not regard that, though she

pressed her cloak closely round her limbs. She did not move till she

heard the first sound of the bell as it struck eight, and then she

gave a little jump as she found that her lover was close upon her.

"So you are here, Nina," he said, putting his hand upon her arm.

"Of course I am here, Anton. I have been looking, and looking, and

looking, thinking you never would come; and how did you get here?"

"I am as punctual as the clock, my love."

"Oh yes, you are punctual, I know; but where did you come from?"

"I came down the hill from the Hradschin. I have had business there. It

did not occur to your simplicity that I could reach you otherwise than

by the direct road from my own home."

"I never thought of your coming from the side of the Hradschin," said

Nina, wondering whether any of those lights she had seen could have

been there for the use of Anton Trendellsohn. "I am so glad you have

come to me. It is so good of you."

"It is good of you to come and meet me, my own one. But you are cold.

Let us walk, and you will be warmer."

Nina, who had already put her hand upon her lover's arm, thrust it in

a little farther, encouraged by such sweet words; and then he took her

little hand in his, and drew her still nearer to him, till she was

clinging to him very closely. "Nina, my own one," he said again. He had

never before been in so sweet a mood with her. Walk with him? Yes; she

would walk with him all night if he would let her. Instead of turning

again over the bridge as she had expected, he took her back into the

Kleinseite, not bearing round to the right in the direction of her

own house, but going up the hill into a large square, round which

the pathway is covered by the overhanging houses, as is common for

avoidance of heat in Southern cities. Here, under the low colonnade, it

was very dark, and the passengers going to and fro were not many. At

each angle of the square where the neighbouring streets entered it,

in the open space, there hung a dull, dim oil-lamp; but other light

there was none. Nina, however, did not mind the darkness while Anton

Trendellsohn was with her. Even when walking close under the buttresses

of St Nicholas--of St Nicholas, who could not but have been offended--

close under the very niche in which stood the statue of the saint--she

had no uncomfortable qualms. When Anton was with her she did not much

regard the saints. It was when she was alone that those thoughts on her

religion came to disturb her mind. "I do so like walking with you," she

said. "It is the nicest way of talking in the world."

"I want to ask you a question, Nina," said Anton; "or perhaps two

questions." The tight grasping clasp made on his arm by the tips of her

fingers relaxed itself a little as she heard his words, and remarked

their altered tone. It was not, then, to be all love; and she could

perceive that he was going to be serious with her, and, as she feared,

perhaps angry. Whenever he spoke to her on any matter of business, his

manner was so very serious as to assume in her eyes, when judged by her

feelings, an appearance of anger. The Jew immediately felt the little

movement of her fingers, and hastened to reassure her. "I am quite sure

that your answers will satisfy me."

"I hope so," said Nina. But the pressure of her hand upon his arm was

not at once repeated.

"I have seen your cousin Ziska, Nina; indeed, I have seen him twice

lately; and I have seen your uncle and your aunt."

"I suppose they did not say anything very pleasant about me."

"They did not say anything very pleasant about anybody or about

anything. They were not very anxious to be pleasant; but that I did

not mind."

"I hope they did not insult you, Anton?"

"We Jews are used as yet to insolence from Christians, and do not mind

it."

"They shall never more be anything to me, if they have insulted you."

"It is nothing, Nina. We bear those things, and think that such of you

Christians as use that liberty of a vulgar tongue, which is still

possible towards a Jew in Prague, are simply poor in heart and

ignorant."

"They are poor in heart and ignorant."

"I first went to your uncle's office in the Ross Markt, where I saw him

and your aunt and Ziska. And afterwards Ziska came to me, at our own

house. He was tame enough then."

"To your own house?"

"Yes; to the Jews' quarter. Was it not a condescension? He came into

our synagogue and ferreted me out. You may be sure that he had

something very special to say when he did that. But he looked as though

he thought that his life were in danger among us."

"But, Anton, what had he to say?"

"I will tell you. He wanted to buy me off."

"Buy you off!"

"Yes; to bribe me to give you up. Aunt Sophie does not relish the idea

of having a Jew for her nephew."

"Aunt Sophie!--but I will never call her Aunt Sophie again. Do you mean

that they offered you money?"

"They offered me property, my dear, which is the same. But they did it

economically, for they only offered me my own. They were kind enough to

suggest that if I would merely break my word to you, they would tell me

how I could get the title-deeds of the houses, and thus have the power

of turning your father out into the street."

"You have the power. He would go at once if you bade him."

"I do not wish him to go. As I have told you often, he is welcome to

the use of the house. He shall have it for his life, as far as I am

concerned. But I should like to have what is my own."

"And what did you say?" Nina, as she asked the question, was very

careful not to tighten her hold upon his arm by the weight of a single

ounce.

"What did I say? I said that I had many things that I valued greatly,

but that I had one thing that I valued more than gold or houses--more

even than my right."

"And what is that?" said Nina, stopping suddenly, so that she might

hear clearly every syllable of the words which were to come. "What is

that?" She did not even yet add an ounce to the pressure; but her

fingers were ready.

"A poor thing," said Anton; "just the heart of a Christian girl."

Then the hand was tightened, or rather the two hands, for they were

closed together upon his arm; and his other arm was wound round her

waist; and then, in the gloom of the dark colonnade, he pressed her

to his bosom, and kissed her lips and her forehead, and then her lips

again. "No," he said, "they have not bribed high enough yet to get from

me my treasure--my treasure."

"Dearest, am I your treasure?"

"Are you not? What else have I that I make equal to you?" Nina was

supremely happy--triumphant in her happiness. She cared nothing for her

aunt, nothing for Lotta Luxa and her threats; and very little at the

present moment even for St Nicholas or St John of the Bridge. To be

told by her lover that she was his own treasure, was sufficient to

banish for the time all her miseries and all her fears.

"You are my treasure. I want you to remember that, and to believe it,"

said the Jew.

"I will believe it," said Nina, trembling with anxious eagerness. Could

it be possible that she would ever forget it?

"And now I will ask my questions. Where are those title-deeds?"

"Where are they?" said she, repeating his question.

"Yes; where are they?"

"Why do you ask me? And why do you look like that?"

"I want you to tell me where they are, to the best of your knowledge."

"Uncle Karil has them--or else Ziska."

"You are sure of that?"

"How can I be sure? I am not sure at all. But Ziska said something

which made me feel sure of it, as I told you before. And I have

supposed always that they must be in the Ross Markt. Where else can

they be?"

"Your aunt says that you have got them."

"That I have got them?"

"Yes, you. That is what she intends me to understand." The Jew had

stopped at one of the corners, close under the little lamp, and looked

intently into Nina's face as he spoke to her.

"And you believe her?" said Nina.

But he went on without noticing her question. "She intends me

to believe that you have got them, and are keeping them from me

fraudulently! cheating me, in point of fact--that you are cheating me,

so that you may have some hold over the property for your own purposes.

That is what your aunt wishes me to believe. She is a wise woman, is

she not? and very clever. In one breath she tries to bribe me to give

you up, and in the next she wants to convince me that you are not worth

keeping."

"But, Anton--"

"Nay, Nina, I will not put you to the trouble of protestation. Look at

that star. I should as soon suspect the light which God has placed in

the heaven of misleading me, as I should suspect you."

"Oh, Anton, dear Anton, I do so love you for saying that! Would it be

possible that I should keep anything from you?"

"I think you would keep nothing from me. Were you to do so, you could

not be my own love any longer. A man's wife must be true to him in

everything, or she is not his wife. I could endure not only no fraud

from you, but neither could I endure falsehood."

"I have never been false to you. With God's help I never will be false

to you."

"He has given you His help. He has made you true-hearted, and I do not

doubt you. Now answer me another question. Is it possible that your

father should have the paper?"

Nina paused a moment, and then she replied with eagerness, "Quite

impossible. I am sure that he knows nothing of it more than you know."

When she had so spoken they walked in silence for a few yards, but

Anton did not at once reply to her. "You do not think that father is

keeping anything from you, do you," said Nina.

"I do not know," said the Jew. "I am not sure."

"You may be sure. You may be quite sure. Father is at least honest."

"I have always thought so."

"And do you not think so still?"

"Look here, Nina. I do not know that there is a Christian in Prague who

would feel it to be beneath him to rob a Jew, and I do not altogether

blame them. They believe that we would rob them, and many of us do so.

We are very sharp, each on the other, dealing against each other always

in hatred, never in love--never even in friendship."

"But, for all that, my father has never wronged you."

"He should not do so, for I am endeavouring to be kind to him. For your

sake, Nina, I would treat him as though he were a Jew himself."

"He has never wronged you; I am sure that he has never wronged you."

"Nina, you are more to me than you are to him."

"Yes. I am--I am your own; but yet I will declare that he has never

wronged you."

"And I should be more to you than he is."

"You are more--you are everything to me; but, still, I know that he has

never wronged you."

Then the Jew paused again, still walking onwards through the dark

colonnade with her hand upon his arm. They walked in silence the whole

side of the large square. Nina waiting patiently to hear what would

come next, and Trendellsohn considering what words he would use. He did

suspect her father, and it was needful to his purpose that he should

tell her so; and it was needful also, as he thought, that she should be

made to understand that in her loyalty and truth to him she must give

up her father, or even suspect her father, if his purpose required that

she should do so. Though she were still a Christian herself, she must

teach herself to look at other Christians, even at those belonging to

herself, with Jewish eyes. Unless she could do so she would not be true

and loyal to him with that troth and loyalty which he required. Poor

Nina! It was the dearest wish of her heart to be true and loyal to him

in all things; but it might be possible to put too hard a strain even

upon such love as hers. "Nina," the Jew said, "I fear your father. I

think that he is deceiving us."

"No, Anton, no! he is not deceiving you. My aunt and uncle and Ziska

are deceiving you."

"They are trying to deceive me, no doubt; but as far as I can judge

from their own words and looks, they do believe that at this moment the

document which I want is in your father's house. As far as I can judge

their thoughts from their words, they think that it is there."

"It is not there," said Nina, positively.

"That is what we must find out. Your uncle was silent. He said nothing,

or next to nothing."

"He is the best of the three, by far," said Nina.

"Your aunt is a clever woman in spite her blunder about you; and had I

dealt with her only I should have thought that she might have expressed

herself as she did, and still have had the paper in her own keeping. I

could not read her mind as I could read his. Women will lie better than

men."

"But men can lie too," said Nina.

"Your cousin Ziska is a fool."

"He is a fox," said Nina.

"He is a fool in comparison with his mother. And I had him in my own

house, under my thumb, as it were. Of course he lied. Of course he

tried to deceive me. But, Nina, he believes that the document is here--

in your house. Whether it be there or not, Ziska thinks that it is

there."

"Ziska is more fox than fool," said Nina.

"Let that be as it may. I tell you the truth of him. He thinks it is

here. Now, Nina, you must search for it."

"It is not there, Anton. I tell you of my own knowledge, it is not in

the house. Come and search yourself. Come to-morrow. Come to-night, if

you will."

"It would be of no use. I could not search as you can do. Tell me,

Nina; has your father no place locked up which is not open to you?"

"Yes; he has his old desk; you know it, where it stands in the

parlour."

"You never open that?"

"No, never; but there is nothing there--nothing of that nature."

"How can you tell? Or he can keep it about his person?"

"He keeps it nowhere. He has not got it. Dear Anton, put it out of your

head. You do not know my cousin Ziska. That he has it in his own hands

I am now sure."

"And I, Nina, am sure that it is here in the Kleinseite--or at least

am sure that he thinks it to be so. The question now is this: Will you

obey me in what directions I may give you concerning it?" Nina could

not bring herself to give an unqualified reply to this demand on the

spur of the moment. Perhaps it occurred to her that the time for such

implicit obedience on her part had hardly yet come--that as yet at

least she must not be less true to her father than to her lover. She

hesitated, therefore, in answering him. "Do you not understand me,

Nina?" he said roughly. "I asked you whether you will do as I would

have you do, and you make no reply. We two, Nina, must be one in all

things, or else we must be apart--in all things."

"I do not know what it is you wish of me," she said, trembling.

"I wish you to obey me."

"But suppose--"

"I know that you must trust me first before you can obey me."

"I do trust you. You know that I trust you."

"Then you should obey me."

"But not to suspect my own father!"

"I do not ask you to suspect him."

"But you suspect him?"

"Yes; I do. I am older than you, and know more of men and their ways

than you can do. I do suspect him. You must promise me that you will

search for this deed."

Again she paused, but after a moment or two a thought struck her, and

she replied eagerly, "Anton, I will tell you what I will do. I will ask

him openly. He and I have always been open to each other."

"If he is concealing it, do you think he will tell you?"

"Yes, he would tell me. But he is not concealing it."

"Will you look?"

"I cannot take his keys from him and open his box."

"You mean that you will not do as I bid you?"

"I cannot do it. Consider of it, Anton. Could you treat your own father

in such a way?"

"I would cling to you sooner than to him. I have told him so, and he

has threatened to turn me penniless from his house. Still I shall cling

to you, because you are my love. I shall do so if you are equally true

to me. That is my idea of love. There can be no divided allegiance."

And this also was Nina's idea of love--an idea up to which she had

striven to act and live when those around her had threatened her with

all that earth and heaven could do to her if she would not abandon the

Jew. But she had anticipated no such trial as that which had now come

upon her. "Dear Anton," she said, appealing to him weakly in her

weakness, "if you did but know how I love you!"

"You must prove your love."

"Am I not ready to prove it? Would I not give up anything, everything,

for you?"

"Then you must assist me in this thing, as I am desiring you." As he

said this they had reached the corner from whence the street ran in the

direction of the bridge, and into this he turned instead of continuing

their walk round the square. She said nothing as he did so; but

accompanied him, still leaning upon his arm. He walked on quickly and

in silence till they came to the turn which led towards Balatka's

house, and then he stopped. "It is late," said he, "and you had better

go home."

"May I not cross the bridge with you?"

"You had better go home." His voice was very stern, and as she dropped

her hand from his arm she felt it to be impossible to leave him in that

way. Were she to do so, she would never be allowed to speak to him or

to see him again. "Good-night," he said, preparing to turn from her.

"Anton, Anton, do not leave me like that."

"How then shall I leave you? Shall I say that it does not matter

whether you obey me or not? It does matter. Between you and me such

obedience matters everything. If we are to be together, I must abandon

everything for you, and you must comply in everything with me." Then

Nina, leaning close upon him, whispered into his ear that she would

obey him.

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