A Desultory Pilgrimage

Many of our friends seem to be taking automobile trips during the summer

months--very rapid trips, since, as they explain, "it strains the

machine to go too slowly, you know." Jonathan and I wanted to take a

trip too, and we looked about us on the old farm for a conveyance. The

closest scrutiny failed to discover an automobile, but there were other

vehicles--there was the old sleigh in the back of the woodshed, where

the hens loved to steal nests, and the old surrey, shabby but willing,

and the business wagon, still shabbier but no less willing; there were

the two lumber wagons, one rather more lumbering than the other; and

there were also various farming vehicles whose names and uses I have

never fathomed, with knives and long raking arrangements, very

uncomfortable to step over when hunting in the dark corners of the barns

for hens' nests or new kittens.

Moreover, there was Kit, the old bay mare, also shabby but willing. That

is, willing "within reason," although it must be admitted that Kit's

ideas of what was reasonable were distinctly conservative. The chief

practical difference between Kit and an automobile, considered as a

motive power, was that it did not strain Kit in the least to go slowly.

This we considered an advantage, slow-going being what we particularly

wished, and we decided that Kit would do.

For our conveyance we chose the business wagon--a plain box body, with a

seat across and room behind for a trunk; but in addition Jonathan put in

a shallow box under the seat, nailed to cleats on the bottom of the

wagon so that it would not shift and rain would run under it. In this we

put the things we needed by the roadside--the camping-kit,

drinking-cups, bait-boxes, camera, and so on. Then we stowed our trout

rods and baskets, and one morning in June we started.

Our plan was to drive and fish through the day, cook our own noon meal,

and put up at night wherever we could be taken in, avoiding cities and

villages as far as possible. Beyond that we had no plan. Indeed, this

was the best of it all, that we did not have to get anywhere in

particular at any particular time. We did not decide on one day where we

would go the next; we did not even decide in the morning where we would

go in the afternoon. If we found a brook where the trout bit, and there

was no inhospitable "poster" warning us away, we said, "Let's stay! who

cares whether we get on or not?" And we tied Kit to a tree, took out our

rods and baskets, and followed the brook. If noon found us still

fishing, we came back to the wagon, fed Kit, got out our camping-outfit,

and cooked our fish for luncheon. It did not take long. I collected

kindling and firewood while Jonathan was laying a few big stones for a

fireplace shaped like a squared letter "C," open towards the wind and

big enough to hold our frying-pan. Then we started the fire, and while

it was settling into shape Jonathan dressed the fish and cut a long

stick to fit into the hollow handle of the frying-pan, and I had time to

slice bits of pork and set out the rest of the luncheon--bread and

butter, milk if we happened to have passed a dairy farm, a pineapple or

oranges if we happened to have met a peddler, strawberries if we had

chanced upon one of the sandy spots where the wild ones grow so thickly.

Then the pan was set over, the pork was laid in, and soon the little

fish were curling up their tails in the fragrant smoke. If they were big

and needed long cooking, I had time to toast bread or biscuit in the

embers underneath for an added luxury, and when all was ready we sat

down in supreme contentment. And we never forgot to give Kit a lump of

sugar, or some clover tops, that she might share in the picnic. But

every now and then she would turn and regard us with eyes that expressed

many things, but chiefly wonder at the queerness of folks who could

prefer not to go back to their own stable to eat. When luncheon was

over, the dishes washed in the brook, and the wagon repacked, we ambled

on, leaving our little fireplace, with its blackened stones and its

heart of gray ashes.

No one who has never tried such an aimless life can realize its charm

and its restfulness. Most of us spend our days catching trains, and

running to the telephone, and meeting engagements. Even our pleasures

are seldom emancipated from these requirements; they are dependent on

boats and trolley cars and trains, they are measured out in hours and

minutes, and we snatch them running, as the Israelites did their water.

But this trip of ours was bounded only by the circle of the week, and

conditioned only by the limitations of Kit. No one could telephone to

us, even at night, because no one knew where we were to be. As for

trains, we never once saw one. Now and then we heard one whistle, so far

away that it merely emphasized its own remoteness, and a few times we

were compelled to cross over or under a track--a very little track, and

single at that; beyond this our connection with the symbol of Hurry did

not go.

The limitations of Kit were indeed definite and insurmountable. While

her speed on a level was most moderate, uphill it was actually glacial,

and going downhill it was little better. For Kit had come from the level

West, and being, as we have said, conservative, she could never reach

any real understanding of hills. She was willing and conscientious, but

prudent, and although she went downhill when she was requested to, she

did it very much as an old lady might go down a precipice--she let

herself down, half sitting, with occasional gentle groans, rocking from

side to side like a boat in a chop sea. Now all New England is

practically either uphill or downhill, and, if we had been in any haste,

these characteristics of Kit might have annoyed us; but inasmuch as we

did not care where we went or when we got there, what difference did it

make? In fact, it was rather a relief to be thus firmly bound to

sobriety.

In one respect we could not be absolutely irresponsible, however. We

found it advisable to seek out our night's lodging while it was yet

light enough for the farmer's wife to look us over and see that we were

respectable. Our first night out we failed to realize this, and we paid

for it by being forced to put up at a commonplace village inn, instead

of a farmhouse. After that we managed to begin our search for a hostess

about milking-time, and we had little further trouble. Indeed, one of

the pleasures of the week was the hospitality we received; and our

opinion of the New England farmer, his wife and his children, grew

higher as the days passed. Courteous hospitality, or, if hospitality had

to be withheld, courteous regret, was the rule. Twice, when one house

could not take us in, they telephoned--for the telephone is everywhere

now--about the neighborhood among friends until they found a lodging for

us. And pleasant lodgings they always proved.

One exception there was. We drew up one afternoon by a well-kept little

house with a good English name on the post-box, and, as usual, I held

the reins while Jonathan went up to the side door to make inquiries.

After he had started up the path I saw, from my vantage-point, the lady

of the farm returning from her "garden patch," and my heart went out in

pity to Jonathan. If I could have called him back I would have done so,

merely on the testimony of the lady's gait and figure. I had never fully

realized how expressive these could be. Her hips, her shoulders, the set

of her head, the way she planted her feet on the uneven flagging-stones

of the path, each heavy line and each sodden motion, bespoke

inhospitality, intolerance, impenetrable disapproval of everything

unfamiliar. I watched Jonathan turn back from the door at the sound of

her steps, and in the short colloquy that followed, though I could hear

nothing, I could see those hips and shoulders settling themselves yet

more decisively, while Jonathan's attitude grew more studiously

courteous. But when he had lifted his hat again and turned from that

monument of immobile unpleasantness I saw his face relax into lines,

partly of amusement, partly of chagrin; and as he took his seat beside

me and drove on, he murmured snatches of quotation--"No; couldn't

possibly," "No; don't know anybody that could," "No; never did such a

thing," "No; the people in the next house've just had a funeral; sure

_they_ couldn't"; and finally he broke into a chuckle as he quoted,

"Well, there _is_ some folks about two mile down might mebbe take ye;

they does sometimes harbor peddlers 'n' such like." Jonathan was hardly

willing to try again so near by; he regarded the whole neighborhood as

tainted. Yet it was little more than two miles beyond, on that same

afternoon, that we found lodgings with the most delightful, the most

hospitable friends of all--for friends they became, taking us into

their circle as if we belonged to it by right of birth, coddling us as

one ought never to expect to be coddled save by one's own mother or

grandmother.

Ostensibly, our drive was a trout-fishing trip, and part of the fun

certainly was the fishing. Not that we caught so many. If we had

seriously wished to make a score, we might better have stayed at home

and fished in our own haunts, where we knew every pool and just how and

when to fish it. But it was interesting to explore new brooks, and as we

never failed to get enough trout for at least one meal a day, what more

could we wish? And such brooks! New England is surely the land of

beautiful brooks. They are all lovely--the meadow brooks, gliding

silently beneath the deep-tufted grasses, where the trout live in shadow

even at noonday, and their speckled flanks are dark like the pools they

lie in; the pasture brooks, whose clear water is always golden from the

yellow sand and pebbles and leaves it ripples over, and the trout are

silvery and pale-spotted; the brooks of the deep woods, where the foam

of rapids and the spray of noisy little waterfalls alternate with the

stillness of rock-bound, hemlock-shadowed pools. All the brooks we

followed, whether with good luck or with bad, I remember with delight.

No, all except one. But I do not blame the brook.

It happened in this way: One Monday morning, after an abstemious Sunday,

the zeal of Jonathan brought us forth at dawn--in fact, a little before

dawn. I had consented, because, although my zeal compared to Jonathan's

is as a flapping hen compared to a soaring eagle, yet I reflected that I

should enjoy the sunrise and the early bird-songs. We emerged,

therefore, in the dusk of young morning, and I had my first reward in a

lovely view of meadows half-veiled in silvery mist, where the brook

wound, and upland pastures of pale gray-green against ridges of shadowy

woods. But I was not prepared for the sensation produced by the actual

plunge into those same meadows. I say plunge advisedly. I shiver yet as

I recall the icy chill of that dew-drenched grass. It was worse than

wading a brook, because there was no reaction. Jonathan, however, did

not seem depressed by it, so I followed his eager steps without remark.

We reached the brook, we put our rods together, and baited. "Crawl,

now," admonished Jonathan; "they're shy fellows in those open pools." We

crawled, dropped in, and waited. My teeth were chattering, my lips felt

blue, but I would not be beaten by a little wet grass. After a few

casts, Jonathan murmured, "That's funny," and moved cautiously on to the

next pool. Then he tried swift water, then little rapids. I proceeded in

chilly meekness, glad of a chance at a little exercise now and then when

we had to climb around rocks or over a stone wall. Occasionally I

straightened up and gazed out over the meadows--those clammy

meadows--and up toward the high woods, brightening into the deep greens

of daylight. The east was all rose and primrose, but I found myself

unable to think of the sun as an aesthetic feature; I longed for its

good, honest heat. A stove, or a hot soapstone, would have done as well.

After a quarter of a mile of this I ventured a remark--"Jonathan, you

have often told me of the delights of dawn fishing." Jonathan was

extricating his line from an alder bush, and did not answer. I could not

resist adding, "I _think_ you said that the trout--bit--at dawn."

Continued silence warned me that I had said enough, and I tactfully

changed the subject: "What I am sorry for is the birds' nests up in

those fields. How do the eggs ever hatch--in ice water! And how do the

strawberries ever ripen, in cold storage every night--ugh! Let's go back

and get some hot coffee and go to bed!"

And that is my one experience with dawn fishing. But Jonathan, reacting

from the experience with the temper of the true enthusiast, still

maintains that trout do bite at dawn. Perhaps they do. But for me, no

more early-dewy meadows, except to look at.

Those hours of dawn fishing were the hardest work I did during the week.

A lazy week, in truth, and an irresponsible one. Every one who can

should snatch such a week and see what it does for him. In some ways it

was better than camping, because camping, unless you have guides, is

undoubtedly hard work, especially if you keep moving--work that one

would never grudge, yet hard work nevertheless. The omitting of the

night camp cut out practically all the work and made it more

comfortable for the horse, while our noon camps made us independent all

day, and gave us that sense of being at home outdoors that one never

gets if one has to run to cover for every meal.

And, curiously enough, the spots that seem homelike to me, as I linger

in memory among the scenes of that week, are not the places where we

spent the nights, pleasant though they were, but rather the spots where

we built our little fireplaces. Each was for an hour our

hearth-fire,--our own,--and I do not forget them,--some beside the open

road, one on a ridge where the sun slants across as it goes down among

purpling hills; one in the deep woods, by a little trout brook, where

the sound of running water never ceases; one in an open grove by the

river we love best, where a tiny brook with brown pools full of the

shadowy trout empties its cold waters into the big, warm current.

Perhaps no one else may notice them, but they are there, waiting for us,

if haply we may pass that way again. And if we do, we shall surely pause

and give them greeting.

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