CHAPTER VIII.

JOURNAL: NOVEMBER 14, 1813--APRIL 19, 1814.

If this had been begun ten years ago, and faithfully kept!!!--heigho!

there are too many things I wish never to have remembered, as it is.

Well,--I have had my share of what are called the pleasures of this

life, and have seen more of the European and Asiatic world than I have

made a good use of. They say "Virtue is its own reward,"--it certainly

should be paid well for its trouble. At five-and-twenty, when the better

part of life is over, one should be _something_;--and what am I? nothing

but five-and-twenty--and the odd months. What have I seen? the same man

all over the world,--ay, and woman too. Give _me_ a Mussulman who never

asks questions, and a she of the same race who saves one the trouble of

putting them. But for this same plague--yellow fever--and Newstead

delay, I should have been by this time a second time close to the

Euxine. If I can overcome the last, I don't so much mind your

pestilence; and, at any rate, the spring shall see me there,--provided I

neither marry myself, nor unmarry any one else in the interval. I wish

one was--I don't know what I wish. It is odd I never set myself

seriously to wishing without attaining it--and repenting. I begin to

believe with the good old Magi, that one should only pray for the

nation, and not for the individual;--but, on my principle, this would

not be very patriotic.

No more reflections.--Let me see--last night I finished "Zuleika," my

second Turkish Tale. I believe the composition of it kept me alive--for

it was written to drive my thoughts from the recollection of:

"Dear sacred name, rest ever unreveal'd." [1]

At least, even here, my hand would tremble to write it. This afternoon I

have burnt the scenes of my commenced comedy. I have some idea of

expectorating a romance, or rather a tale in prose;--but what romance

could equal the events:

"quæque ipse......vidi,

Et quorum pars magna fui." [2]

To-day Henry Byron [3] called on me with my little cousin Eliza. She

will grow up a beauty and a plague; but, in the mean time, it is the

prettiest child! dark eyes and eyelashes, black and long as the wing of

a raven. I think she is prettier even than my niece, Georgina,--yet I

don't like to think so neither: and though older, she is not so clever.

Dallas called before I was up, so we did not meet. Lewis [4], too,--who

seems out of humour with every thing.

What can be the matter? he is not married--has he lost his own mistress,

or any other person's wife? Hodgson, too, came. He is going to be

married, and he is the kind of man who will be the happier. He has

talent, cheerfulness, every thing that can make him a pleasing

companion; and his intended is handsome and young, and all that. But I

never see any one much improved by matrimony. All my coupled

contemporaries are bald and discontented. W[ordsworth] and S[outhey]

have both lost their hair and good humour; and the last of the two had a

good deal to lose. But it don't much signify what falls _off_ a man's

temples in that state.

Mem. I must get a toy to-morrow for Eliza, and send the device for the

seals of myself and----Mem. too, to call on the Stael and Lady Holland

to-morrow, and on----, who has advised me (without seeing it, by the

by) not to publish "Zuleika;" [5] I believe he is right, but experience

might have taught him that not to print is _physically_ impossible. No

one has seen it but Hodgson and Mr. Gifford. I never in my life _read_ a

composition, save to Hodgson, as he pays me in kind. It is a horrible

thing to do too frequently;--better print, and they who like may read,

and if they don't like, you have the satisfaction of knowing that they

have, at least, _purchased_ the right of saying so.

I have declined presenting the Debtors' Petition [6], being sick of

parliamentary mummeries. I have spoken thrice; but I doubt my ever

becoming an orator. My first was liked; the second and third--I don't

know whether they succeeded or not. I have never yet set to it _con

amore_;--one must have some excuse to one's self for laziness, or

inability, or both, and this is mine. "Company, villanous company, hath

been the spoil of me;" [7]--and then, I "have drunk medicines," not to

make me love others, but certainly enough to hate myself.

Two nights ago I saw the tigers sup at Exeter 'Change. Except Veli

Pacha's lion in the Morea,--who followed the Arab keeper like a

dog,--the fondness of the hyæna for her keeper amused me most. Such a

conversazione!--There was a "hippopotamus," like Lord Liverpool in the

face; and the "Ursine Sloth" had the very voice and manner of my

valet--but the tiger talked too much. The elephant took and gave me my

money again--took off my hat--opened a door--_trunked_ a whip--and

behaved so well, that I wish he was my butler. The handsomest animal on

earth is one of the panthers; but the poor antelopes were dead. I should

hate to see one _here:_--the sight of the _camel_ made me pine again

for Asia Minor. _"Oh quando te aspiciam?_"

[Footnote 1:

"Dear fatal name! rest ever unrevealed,

Nor pass these lips in holy silence sealed."

Pope's 'Eloisa to Abelard', lines 9, 10.]

[Footnote 2: Virgil, 'Æneid', ii. 5:

". ... quoeque ipse miserrima vidi

Et quorum pars magna fui."]

[Footnote 3: The Rev. Henry Byron, second son of the Rev. and Hon.

Richard Byron, and nephew of William, fifth Lord Byron, died in 1821.

His daughter Eliza married, in 1830, George Rochford Clarke. Byron's

"niece Georgina" was the daughter of Mrs. Leigh.]

[Footnote 4: Matthew Gregory Lewis (1775-1818), intended by his father

for the diplomatic service, was educated at Westminster and Christ

Church, Weimar, and Paris. He soon showed his taste for literature. At

the age of seventeen he had translated a play from the French, and

written a farce, a comedy called 'The East Indian' (acted at Drury Lane,

April 22, 1799), "two volumes of a novel, two of a romance, besides

numerous poems" ('Life, etc., of M. G. Lewis', vol. i. p. 70). In 1794

he was attached to the British Embassy at the Hague. There, stimulated

('ibid'., vol. i. p. 123) by reading Mrs. Radcliffe's 'Mysteries of

Udolpho', he wrote 'Ambrosio, or the Monk'. The book, published in 1795,

made him famous in fashionable society, and decided his career. Though

he sat in Parliament for Hindon from 1796 to 1802, he took no part in

politics, but devoted himself to literature.

The moral and outline of 'The Monk' are taken, as Lewis says in a letter

to his father ('Life, etc.', vol. i. pp. 154-158), and as was pointed

out in the 'Monthly Review' for August, 1797, from Addison's "Santon

Barsisa" in the 'Guardian' (No. 148). The book was severely criticized

on the score of immorality. Mathias ('Pursuits of Literature', Dialogue

iv.) attacks Lewis, whom he compares to John Cleland, whose 'Memoirs of

a Woman of Pleasure' came under the notice of the law courts:

"Another Cleland see in Lewis rise.

Why sleep the ministers of truth and law?"

An injunction was, in fact, moved for against the book; but the

proceedings dropped.

Lewis had a remarkable gift of catching the popular taste of the day,

both in his tales of horror and mystery, and in his ballads. In the

latter he was the precursor of Scott. Many of his songs were sung to

music of his own composition. His 'Tales of Terror' (1799) were

dedicated to Lady Charlotte Campbell, afterwards Bury, with whom he was

in love. To his 'Tales of Wonder' (1801) Scott, Southey, and others

contributed. His most successful plays were 'The Castle Spectre' (Drury

Lane, December 14, 1797), and 'Timour the Tartar' (Covent Garden, April

29, 1811).

In 1812, by the death of his father, "the Monk" became a rich man, and

the owner of plantations in the West Indies. He paid two visits to his

property, in 1815-16 and 1817-18. On the voyage home from the last visit

he died of yellow fever, and was buried at sea. His 'Journal of a West

Indian Proprietor', published in 1834, is written in sterling English,

with much quiet humour, and a graphic power of very high order.

Among his 'Detached Thoughts' Byron has the following notes on Lewis:

"Sheridan was one day offered a bet by M. G. Lewis: 'I will bet you,

Mr. Sheridan, a very large sum--I will bet you what you owe me as

Manager, for my 'Castle Spectre'.'

"'I never make _large bets_,' said Sheridan, 'but I will lay you a

_very small_ one. I will bet you _what it is_ WORTH!'"

"Lewis, though a kind man, hated Sheridan, and we had some words upon

that score when in Switzerland, in 1816. Lewis afterwards sent me the

following epigram upon Sheridan from Saint Maurice:

"'For worst abuse of finest parts

Was Misophil begotten;

There might indeed be _blacker_ hearts,

But none could be more _rotten_.'"

Lewis at Oatlands was observed one morning to have his eyes red, and

his air sentimental; being asked why? he replied 'that when people

said anything 'kind' to him, it affected him deeply, and just now the

Duchess had said something so kind to him'--here tears began to flow

again. 'Never mind, Lewis,' said Col. Armstrong to him, 'never

mind--don't cry, she could not mean it'.'

"Lewis was a good man--a clever man, but a bore--a damned bore, one

may say. My only revenge or consolation used to be setting him by the

ears with some vivacious person who hated bores especially--Me. de

Staël or Hobhouse, for example. But I liked Lewis; he was a Jewel of a

Man had he been better set, I don't mean _personally_, but less

_tiresome_, for he was tedious, as well as contradictory to everything

and everybody. Being short-sighted, when we used to ride out together

near the Brenta in the twilight in summer, he made me go _before_ to

pilot him. I am absent at times, especially towards evening, and the

consequence of this pilotage was some narrow escapes to the Monk on

horseback. Once I led him into a ditch, over which I had passed as

usual, forgetting to warn my convoy; once I led him nearly into the

river instead of on the 'moveable' bridge which _in_commodes

passengers; and twice did we both run against the diligence, which,

being heavy and slow, did communicate less damage than it received in

its leaders, who were 'terrasséd' by the charge. Thrice did I lose him

in the gray of the gloaming and was obliged to bring to, to his

distant signals of distance and distress. All the time he went on

talking without intermission, for he was a man of many words. Poor

fellow, he died a martyr to his new riches--of a second visit to

Jamaica.

"'I'd give the lands of Deloraine

Dark Musgrave were alive again!'

_that is_

'I would give many a Sugar Cane

Monk Lewis were alive again!'

"Lewis said to me, 'Why do you talk 'Venetian' (such as I could

talk, not very fine to be sure) to the Venetians, and not the usual

Italian?' I answered, partly from habit and partly to be understood,

if possible. 'It may be so,' said Lewis, 'but it sounds to me like

talking with a 'brogue' to an _Irishman_.'"

In a MS. note by Sir Walter Scott on these passages from Byron's

'Detached Thoughts', he says,

"Mat had queerish eyes; they projected like those of some insect, and

were flattish in their orbit. His person was extremely small and

boyish; he was, indeed, the least man I ever saw to be strictly well

and neatly made. I remember a picture of him by Saunders being handed

round at Dalkeith House. The artist had ungenerously flung a dark

folding mantle round the form, under which was half hid a dagger, or

dark lanthorn, or some such cut-throat appurtenance. With all this the

features were preserved and ennobled. It passed from hand to hand into

that of Henry, Duke of Buccleuch, who, hearing the general voice

affirm that it was very like, said aloud, 'Like Mat Lewis? Why, that

picture is like a 'man'.' He looked, and lo! Mat Lewis's head was at

his elbow. His boyishness went through life with him. He was a child,

and a spoiled child, but a child of high imagination, so that he

wasted himself in ghost stories and German nonsense. He had the finest

ear for the rhythm of verse I ever heard--finer than Byron's.

"Lewis was fonder of great people than he ought to have been, either

as a man of talent or a man of fortune. He had always dukes and

duchesses in his mouth, and was particularly fond of any one who had a

title. You would have sworn he had been a 'parvenu' of yesterday, yet

he had been all his life in good society.

"He was one of the kindest and best creatures that ever lived. His

father and mother lived separately. Mr. Lewis allowed his son a

handsome income; but reduced it more than one half when he found that

he gave his mother half of it. He restricted himself in all his

expenses, and shared the diminished income with his mother as before.

He did much good by stealth, and was a most generous creature.

"I had a good picture drawn me, I think by Thos. Thomson, of Fox, in

his latter days, suffering the fatigue of an attack from Lewis. The

great statesman was become bulky and lethargic, and lay like a fat ox

which for sometime endures the persecution of a buzzing fly, rather

than rise to get rid of it; and then at last he got up, and heavily

plodded his way to the other side of the room."

Referring to Byron's story of Lewis near the Brenta, Scott adds,

"I had a worse adventure with Mat Lewis. I had been his guide from the

cottage I then had at Laswade to the Chapel of Roslin. We were to go

up one side of the river and come down the other. In the return he was

dead tired, and, like the Israelites, he murmured against his guide

for leading him into the wilderness. I was then as strong as a poney,

and took him on my back, dressed as he was in his shooting array of a

close sky-blue jacket, and the brightest 'red' pantaloons I ever saw

on a human breech. He also had a kind of feather in his cap. At last I

could not help laughing at the ridiculous figure we must both have

made, at which my rider waxed wroth. It was an ill-chosen hour and

place, for I could have served him as Wallace did Fawden--thrown him

down and twisted his head off. We returned to the cottage weary

wights, and it cost more than one glass of Noyau, which he liked in a

decent way, to get Mat's temper on its legs again."]

[Footnote 5: 'The Bride of Abydos' was originally called 'Zuleika'. ]

[Footnote 6: The petition, directed against Lord Redesdale's Insolvent

Debtors Act, was presented by Romilly in the House of Commons, November

11, 1813, and by Lord Holland in the House of Lords, November 15, 1813.]

[Footnote 7: Henry IV., Part I. act in. sc. 3.]

* * * * *

November 16.

Went last night with Lewis to see the first of 'Antony and Cleopatra'

[1]. It was admirably got up, and well acted--a salad of Shakspeare and

Dryden. Cleopatra strikes me as the epitome of her sex--fond, lively,

sad, tender, teasing, humble, haughty, beautiful, the devil!--coquettish

to the last, as well with the "asp" as with Antony. After doing all she

can to persuade him that--but why do they abuse him for cutting off that

poltroon Cicero's head? Did not Tully tell Brutus it was a pity to have

spared Antony? and did he not speak the Philippics? and are not "_words

things_?" [2] and such "_words_" very pestilent "_things_" too? If he

had had a hundred heads, they deserved (from Antony) a rostrum (his was

stuck up there) apiece--though, after all, he might as well have

pardoned him, for the credit of the thing. But to resume--Cleopatra,

after securing him, says, "yet go--it is your interest," etc.--how like

the sex! and the questions about Octavia--it is woman all over.

To-day received Lord Jersey's invitation to Middleton--to travel sixty

miles to meet Madame De Stael! I once travelled three thousand to get

among silent people; and this same lady writes octavos, and _talks_

folios. I have read her books--like most of them, and delight in the

last; so I won't hear it, as well as read.

Read Burns to-day. What would he have been, if a patrician? We should

have had more polish--less force--just as much verse, but no

immortality--a divorce and a duel or two, the which had he survived, as

his potations must have been less spirituous, he might have lived as

long as Sheridan, and outlived as much as poor Brinsley. What a wreck is

that man! and all from bad pilotage; for no one had ever better gales,

though now and then a little too squally. Poor dear Sherry! I shall

never forget the day he and Rogers and Moore and I passed together; when

_he_ talked, and _we_ listened, without one yawn, from six till one in

the morning.

Got my seals----. Have again forgot a play-thing for _ma petite

cousine_ Eliza; but I must send for it to-morrow. I hope Harry will

bring her to me. I sent Lord Holland the proofs of the last "_Giaour_"

and "_The Bride of Abydos_" He won't like the latter, and I don't think

that I shall long. It was written in four nights to distract my dreams

from----. Were it not thus, it had never been composed; and had I not

done something at that time, I must have gone mad, by eating my own

heart,--bitter diet;--Hodgson likes it better than "_The Giaour_" but

nobody else will,--and he never liked the Fragment. I am sure, had it

not been for Murray, _that_ would never have been published, though the

circumstances which are the ground-work make it----heigh-ho!

To-night I saw both the sisters of----; my God! the youngest so like! I

thought I should have sprung across the house, and am so glad no one was

with me in Lady H.'s box. I hate those likenesses--the mock-bird, but

not the nightingale--so like as to remind, so different as to be painful

[3].

One quarrels equally with the points of resemblance and of distinction.

[Footnote 1: 'Antony and Cleopatra' was revived at Covent Garden,

November 15, 1813, with additions from Dryden's 'All for Love, or the

World Well Lost'(1678). "Cleopatra" was acted by Mrs. Fawcit; "Marc

Antony" by Young. (See for the allusions, act v. se. 2, and act i. sc.

3.)]

[Footnote 2:

"But words are things; and a small drop of ink,

Falling, like dew, upon a thought, produces

That which makes thousands, perhaps millions, think."

'Don Juan', Canto III. stanza lxxxviii.]

[Footnote 3:

"-----my weal, my woe,

My hope on high--my all below;

Earth holds no other like to thee,

Or, if it doth, in vain for me:

For worlds I dare not view the dame

Resembling thee, yet not the same."

'The Giaour'.]

* * * * *

Nov. 17.

No letter from----; but I must not complain. The respectable Job says,

"Why should a _living man_ complain?" [1] I really don't know, except it

be that a _dead man_ can't; and he, the said patriarch, _did_ complain,

nevertheless, till his friends were tired and his wife recommended that

pious prologue,"Curse--and die;" the only time, I suppose, when but

little relief is to be found in swearing. I have had a most kind letter

from Lord Holland on "_The Bride of Abydos_," which he likes, and so

does Lady H. This is very good-natured in both, from whom I don't

deserve any quarter. Yet I _did_ think, at the time, that my cause of

enmity proceeded from Holland House, and am glad I was wrong, and wish I

had not been in such a hurry with that confounded satire, of which I

would suppress even the memory;--but people, now they can't get it, make

a fuss, I verily believe, out of contradiction.

George Ellis [2] and Murray have been talking something about Scott and

me, George _pro Scoto_,--and very right too. If they want to depose him,

I only wish they would not set me up as a competitor. Even if I had my

choice, I would rather be the Earl of Warwick than all the _kings_ he

ever made! Jeffrey and Gifford I take to be the monarch-makers in poetry

and prose. The 'British Critic', in their Rokeby Review, have

presupposed a comparison which I am sure my friends never thought of,

and W. Scott's subjects are injudicious in descending to. I like the

man--and admire his works to what Mr. Braham calls _Entusymusy_. All

such stuff can only vex him, and do me no good. Many hate his

politics--(I hate all politics); and, here, a man's politics are like

the Greek _soul_--an [Greek: eidolon], besides God knows what _other

soul_; but their estimate of the two generally go together.

Harry has not brought _ma petite cousine_. I want us to go to the play

together;--she has been but once. Another short note from Jersey,

inviting Rogers and me on the 23d. I must see my agent to-night. I

wonder when that Newstead business will be finished. It cost me more

than words to part with it--and to _have_ parted with it! What matters

it what I do? or what becomes of me?--but let me remember Job's saying,

and console myself with being "a living man."

I wish I could settle to reading again,--my life is monotonous, and yet

desultory. I take up books, and fling them down again. I began a comedy,

and burnt it because the scene ran into _reality_;--a novel, for the

same reason. In rhyme, I can keep more away from facts; but the thought

always runs through, through ... yes, yes, through. I have had a letter

from Lady Melbourne--the best friend I ever had in my life, and the

cleverest of women.

Not a word from----[Lady F. W. Webster], Have they set out from----?

or has my last precious epistle fallen into the lion's jaws? If so--and

this silence looks suspicious--I must clap on my "musty morion" and

"hold out my iron." [3]

I am out of practice--but I won't begin again at Manton's now. Besides,

I would not return his shot. I was once a famous wafer-splitter; but

then the bullies of society made it necessary. Ever since I began to

feel that I had a bad cause to support, I have left off the exercise.

What strange tidings from that Anakim of anarchy--Buonaparte [4]!

Ever since I defended my bust of him at Harrow against the rascally

time-servers, when the war broke out in 1803, he has been a _Héros de

Roman_ of mine--on the Continent; I don't want him here. But I don't

like those same flights--leaving of armies, etc., etc. I am sure when I

fought for his bust at school, I did not think he would run away from

himself. But I should not wonder if he banged them yet. To be beat by

men would be something; but by three stupid, legitimate-old-dynasty

boobies of regular-bred sovereigns--O-hone-a-rie!--O-hone-a-rie! It must

be, as Cobbett says, his marriage with the thick-lipped and thick-headed

_Autrichienne_ brood. He had better have kept to her who was kept by

Barras. I never knew any good come of your young wife, and legal

espousals, to any but your "sober-blooded boy" who "eats fish" and

drinketh "no sack." [5] Had he not the whole opera? all Paris? all

France? But a mistress is just as perplexing--that is, _one_--two or

more are manageable by division.

I have begun, or had begun, a song, and flung it into the fire. It was

in remembrance of Mary Duff, [6] my first of flames, before most people

begin to burn. I wonder what the devil is the matter with me! I can do

nothing, and--fortunately there is nothing to do. It has lately been in

my power to make two persons (and their connections) comfortable, _pro

tempore_, and one happy, _ex tempore_,--I rejoice in the last

particularly, as it is an excellent man. [7] I wish there had been more

convenience and less gratification to my self-love in it, for then there

had been more merit. We are all selfish--and I believe, ye gods of

Epicurus! I believe in Rochefoucault about _men_, and in Lucretius (not

Busby's translation) about yourselves. [8] Your bard has made you very

_nonchalant_ and blest; but as he has excused _us_ from damnation, I

don't envy you your blessedness much--a little, to be sure. I remember,

last year,----[Lady Oxford] said to me, at----[Eywood], "Have we not

passed our last month like the gods of Lucretius?" And so we had. She is

an adept in the text of the original (which I like too); and when that

booby Bus. sent his translating prospectus, she subscribed. But, the

devil prompting him to add a specimen, she transmitted him a subsequent

answer, saying, that "after perusing it, her conscience would not permit

her to allow her name to remain on the list of subscribblers." Last

night, at Lord H.'s--Mackintosh, the Ossulstones, Puységur, [9] etc.,

there--I was trying to recollect a quotation (as _I_ think) of Stael's,

from some Teutonic sophist about architecture. "Architecture," says this

Macoronico Tedescho, "reminds me of frozen music." It is somewhere--but

where?--the demon of perplexity must know and won't tell. I asked M.,

and he said it was not in her: but Puységur said it must be _hers_, it

was so _like_. H. laughed, as he does at all "_De l'Allemagne_"--in

which, however, I think he goes a little too far. B., I hear, contemns

it too. But there are fine passages;--and, after all, what is a

work--any--or every work--but a desert with fountains, and, perhaps, a

grove or two, every day's journey? To be sure, in Madame, what we often

mistake, and "pant for," as the "cooling stream," turns out to be the

"_mirage_" (criticè _verbiage_); but we do, at last, get to something

like the temple of Jove Ammon, and then the waste we have passed is only

remembered to gladden the contrast.

Called on C--, to explain----. She is very beautiful, to my taste, at

least; for on coming home from abroad, I recollect being unable to look

at any woman but her--they were so fair, and unmeaning, and _blonde_.

The darkness and regularity of her features reminded me of my "Jannat al

Aden." But this impression wore off; and now I can look at a fair woman,

without longing for a Houri. She was very good-tempered, and every thing

was explained.

To-day, great news--"the Dutch have taken Holland,"--which, I suppose,

will be succeeded by the actual explosion of the Thames. Five provinces

have declared for young Stadt, and there will be inundation,

conflagration, constupration, consternation, and every sort of nation

and nations, fighting away, up to their knees, in the damnable quags of

this will-o'-the-wisp abode of Boors. It is said Bernadotte is amongst

them, too; and, as Orange will be there soon, they will have (Crown)

Prince Stork and King Log in their Loggery at the same time. Two to one

on the new dynasty!

Mr. Murray has offered me one thousand guineas for _The Giaour_ and _The

Bride of Abydos_. I won't--it is too much, though I am strongly tempted,

merely for the _say_ of it. No bad price for a fortnight's (a week each)

what?--the gods know--it was intended to be called poetry.

I have dined regularly to-day, for the first time since Sunday

last--this being Sabbath, too. All the rest, tea and dry biscuits--six

_per diem_. I wish to God I had not dined now!--It kills me with

heaviness, stupor, and horrible dreams; and yet it was but a pint of

Bucellas, and fish.[10] Meat I never touch,--nor much vegetable diet. I

wish I were in the country, to take exercise,--instead of being obliged

to _cool_ by abstinence, in lieu of it. I should not so much mind a

little accession of flesh,--my bones can well bear it. But the worst is,

the devil always came with it,--till I starved him out,--and I will

_not_ be the slave of _any_ appetite. If I do err, it shall be my heart,

at least, that heralds the way. Oh, my head--how it aches?--the horrors

of digestion! I wonder how Buonaparte's dinner agrees with him?

Mem. I must write to-morrow to "Master Shallow, who owes me a thousand

pounds," [11] and seems, in his letter, afraid I should ask him for it;

[12]--as if I would!--I don't want it (just now, at least,) to begin

with; and though I have often wanted that sum, I never asked for the

repayment of £10. in my life--from a friend. His bond is not due this

year, and I told him when it was, I should not enforce it. How often

must he make me say the same thing?

I am wrong--I did once ask----[13] to repay me. But it was under

circumstances that excused me _to him_, and would to any one. I took no

interest, nor required security. He paid me soon,--at least, his

_padre_. My head! I believe it was given me to ache with. Good even.

[Footnote 1: "Wherefore doth a living man complain?" ('Lam'. iii. 39).]

[Footnote 2: George Ellis (1753-1815), a contributor to the 'Rolliad'

and the 'Anti-Jacobin', and "the first converser" Walter Scott "ever

knew."]

[Footnote 3:

"I dare not fight; but I will wink, and hold out mine iron."

'Henry V.', act ii. sc. I.]

[Footnote 4: Byron was not always, even at Harrow, attached to

Buonaparte, for, if we may trust Harness, he "roared out" at a

Buonapartist schoolfellow:

"Bold Robert Speer was Bony's bad precursor.

Bob was a bloody dog, but Bonaparte a worser."

His feeling for him was probably that which is expressed in the

following passage from an undated letter, written to him by Moore:

"We owe great gratitude to this thunderstorm of a fellow for clearing

the air of all the old legitimate fogs that have settled upon us, and

I sincerely trust his task is not yet over."

Ticknor ('Life', vol. i. p. 60) describes Byron's reception of the news

of the battle of Waterloo:

"After an instant's pause, Lord Byron replied, 'I am damned sorry for

it;' and then, after another slight pause, he added, 'I didn't know

but I might live to see Lord Castlereagh's head on a pole. But I

suppose I shan't now.'"

Byron's liking for Buonaparte was probably increased by his dislike of

Wellington and Blucher. The following passages are taken from the

'Detached Thoughts'(1821):

"The vanity of Victories is considerable. Of all who fell at Waterloo

or Trafalgar, ask any man in company to 'name you ten off hand'.

They will stick at Nelson: the other will survive himself. 'Nelson

was' a hero, the other is a mere Corporal, dividing with Prussians

and Spaniards the luck which he never deserved. He even--but I hate

the fool, and will be silent."

"The Miscreant Wellington is the Cub of Fortune, but she will never

lick him into shape. If he lives, he will be beaten; that's certain.

Victory was never before wasted upon such an unprofitable soil as this

dunghill of Tyranny, whence nothing springs but Viper's eggs."

"I remember seeing Blucher in the London Assemblies, and never saw

anything of his age less venerable. With the voice and manners of a

recruiting Sergeant, he pretended to the honours of a hero; just as if

a stone could be worshipped because a man stumbled over it."]

[Footnote 5: Henry IV., Part II. act iv. se. 3.]

[Footnote 6: Mary Duff, his distant cousin, who lived not far from the

"Plain-Stanes" of Aberdeen, in Byron's childhood. She married Mr. Robert

Cockburn, a wine-merchant in Edinburgh and London.]

[Footnote 7: The first is, perhaps, Dallas; the second probably is

Francis Hodgson, to whom he gave, from first to last, £1500.]

[Footnote 8:

"L'intérêt est l'ame de l'amour-propre, de sorte que comme le corps,

privé de son ame, est sans vue, sans ouïe, sans connoissance, sans

sentiment, et sans mouvement; de même l'amour-propre, séparé, s'il le

faut dire ainsi, de son intérêt, ne voit, n'entend, ne sent, et ne se

remue plus," etc., etc.

(Rochefoucault, Lettre à Madame Sablé). The passage in Lucretius

probably is 'De Rerum Naturâ', i. 57-62.]

[Footnote 9:

"Monsieur de Puységur," says Lady H. Leveson Gower ('Letters of

Harriet, Countess of Granville', vol. i. p. 23), "is really

'concentré' into one wrinkle. It is the oldest, gayest, thinnest, most

withered, and most brilliant thing one can meet with. When there are

so many young, fat fools going about the world, I wish for the

transmigration of souls. Puységur might animate a whole family."

The phrase, of which Byron was in search, is Goethe's, 'eine erstarrte

Musik' (Stevens's 'Life of Madame de Staël', vol. ii. p. 195).]

[Footnote 10: That the poet sometimes dined seems evident from the

annexed bill:

Lord Byron.

To M. Richold

1813-- £ s. d.

Ballance of last bill 0 13 10

Aug. 9. To dinner bill 1 6 0

10. To do. do. 4 13 6

11. To do. do. 1 4 0

14. To do. do. 1 6 0

15. To share of do. 4 4 6

16. To dinner bill 1 6 0

17. To do. do. 1 6 6

19. To do. do. 1 2 6

20. To share of do. 4 19 0

21. To dinner bill 1 1 6

22. To do. do. 1 2 0

23. To do. do. 1 2 0

25. To do. do. 1 9 0

Aug. 26. To dinner bill 1 1 6

27. To do. do. 1 8 6

Sept 2. To do. do. 1 4 0

3. To do. do. 1 2 0

4. To do. do. 1 11 0

5. To do. do. 1 6 6

7. To do. do. 5 7 0

9. To do. do. 1 6 6

26. To do. do. 1 9 0

Nov. 14. To do. do. 1 0 6

21. To do. do. 0 19 0

-- -- --

£44 11 10]

[Footnote 11: Henry IV., Part II. act v. sc. 5.]

[Footnote 12: James Wedderburn Webster (see p. 2, note 1 [Footnote 1 of

Letter 170]).]

[Footnote 13: Probably John Cam Hobhouse, whose expenses on the tour of

1809-10 were paid by Byron, and repaid by Sir Benjamin Hobhouse.]

* * * * *

Nov. 22, 1813.

"Orange Boven!" [1] So the bees have expelled the bear that broke open

their hive. Well,--if we are to have new De Witts and De Ruyters, God

speed the little republic! I should like to see the Hague and the

village of Brock, where they have such primitive habits. Yet, I don't

know,--their canals would cut a poor figure by the memory of the

Bosphorus; and the Zuyder Zee look awkwardly after "Ak-Denizi" [2]. No

matter,--the bluff burghers, puffing freedom out of their short

tobacco-pipes, might be worth seeing; though I prefer a cigar or a

hooka, with the rose-leaf mixed with the milder herb of the Levant. I

don't know what liberty means,--never having seen it,--but wealth is

power all over the world; and as a shilling performs the duty of a pound

(besides sun and sky and beauty for nothing) in the East,--_that_ is the

country. How I envy Herodes Atticus [3]!--more than Pomponius. And yet a

little _tumult_, now and then, is an agreeable quickener of sensation;

such as a revolution, a battle, or an _aventure_ of any lively

description. I think I rather would have been Bonneval, Ripperda,

Alberoni, Hayreddin, or Horuc Barbarossa, or even Wortley Montague, than

Mahomet himself. [4]

Rogers will be in town soon?--the 23d is fixed for our Middleton visit.

Shall I go? umph!--In this island, where one can't ride out without

overtaking the sea, it don't much matter where one goes.

I remember the effect of the _first Edinburgh Review_ on me. I heard of

it six weeks before,--read it the day of its denunciation,--dined and

drank three bottles of claret, (with S. B. Davies, I think,) neither ate

nor slept the less, but, nevertheless, was not easy till I had vented my

wrath and my rhyme, in the same pages, against every thing and every

body. Like George, in the _Vicar of Wakefield_,--"the fate of my

paradoxes" [5] would allow me to perceive no merit in another. I

remembered only the maxim of my boxing-master, which, in my youth, was

found useful in all general riots,--"Whoever is not for you is against

you--_mill_ away right and left," and so I did;--like Ishmael, my hand

was against all men, and all men's anent me. I did wonder, to be sure,

at my own success:

"And marvels so much wit is all his own," [6]

as Hobhouse sarcastically says of somebody (not unlikely myself, as we

are old friends);--but were it to come over again, I would _not_. I have

since redde the cause of my couplets, and it is not adequate to the

effect. C----told me that it was believed I alluded to poor Lord

Carlisle's nervous disorder in one of the lines. I thank Heaven I did

not know it--and would not, could not, if I had. I must naturally be the

last person to be pointed on defects or maladies.

Rogers is silent,--and, it is said, severe. When he does talk, he talks

well; and, on all subjects of taste, his delicacy of expression is pure

as his poetry. If you enter his house--his drawing-room--his

library--you of yourself say, this is not the dwelling of a common mind.

There is not a gem, a coin, a book thrown aside on his chimney-piece,

his sofa, his table, that does not bespeak an almost fastidious elegance

in the possessor. But this very delicacy must be the misery of his

existence. Oh the jarrings his disposition must have encountered through

life!

Southey, I have not seen much of. His appearance is _Epic_; and he is

the only existing entire man of letters. All the others have some

pursuit annexed to their authorship. His manners are mild, but not those

of a man of the world, and his talents of the first order. His prose is

perfect. Of his poetry there are various opinions: there is, perhaps,

too much of it for the present generation; posterity will probably

select. He has _passages_ equal to any thing. At present, he has _a

party_, but no _public_--except for his prose writings. The life of

Nelson is beautiful.

Sotheby [7] is a _Littérateur_, the Oracle of the Coteries, of the----s

[8], Lydia White (Sydney Smith's "Tory Virgin") [9], Mrs. Wilmot [10]

(she, at least, is a swan, and might frequent a purer stream,) Lady

Beaumont, [11] and all the Blues, with Lady Charlemont [12] at their

head--but I say nothing of _her_--"look in her face and you forget them

all," and every thing else. Oh that face!--by _te, Diva potens Cypri_, I

would, to be beloved by that woman, build and burn another Troy.

Moore has a peculiarity of talent, or rather talents,--poetry, music,

voice, all his own; and an expression in each, which never was, nor will

be, possessed by another. But he is capable of still higher flights in

poetry. By the by, what humour, what--every thing, in the "_Post-Bag!_"

There is nothing Moore may not do, if he will but seriously set about

it. In society, he is gentlemanly, gentle, and, altogether, more

pleasing than any individual with whom I am acquainted. For his honour,

principle, and independence, his conduct to----speaks "trumpet-tongued."

He has but one fault--and that one I daily regret--he is not _here_.

[Footnote 1: Holland, constituted a kingdom for Louis Napoleon (1806),

was (1810) incorporated with the French Empire. On November 15, 1813,

the people of Amsterdam raised the cry of "Orange Boven!", donned the

Orange colours, and expelled the French from the city. Their example was

followed in other provinces, and on November 21, deputies arrived in

London, asking the Prince of Orange to place himself at the head of the

movement. He landed in Holland, November 30, and entered Amsterdam the

next day in state.

A play was announced at Drury Lane, December 8, 1813, under the title of

'Orange Boven', but it was suppressed because no licence had been

obtained for its performance. It was produced December 10, 1813, and ran

about ten nights.]

[Footnote 2: The Lake of Ak-Deniz, north-east of Antioch, into and out

of which flows the Nahr-Ifrin to join the Nahr-el-Asy or Orontes.]

[Footnote 3: A typically wealthy Greek, as Pomponius Atticus was a

typically wealthy Roman.]

[Footnote 4: Bonneval (1675-1747) was a French soldier of fortune, who

served successively in the Austrian, Russian, and Turkish armies.

Ripperda (died 1737) a Dutch adventurer, became Prime Minister of Spain

under Philip V., and after his fall turned Mohammedan. Alberoni

(1664-1752) was an Italian adventurer, who became Prime Minister of

Spain in 1714. Hayreddin (died 1547) and Horuc Barbarossa (died 1518)

were Algerine pirates. Edward Wortley Montague (1713-1776), son of Lady

Mary, saw the inside of several prisons, served at Fontenoy, sat in the

British Parliament, was received into the Roman Catholic Church at

Jerusalem (1764), lived at Rosetta as a Mohammedan with his mistress,

Caroline Dormer, till 1772, and died at Padua, from swallowing a

fish-bone.]

[Footnote 5: 'Vicar of Wakefield' (chap. xx.). The Vicar's eldest son,

George,

"resolved to write a book that should be wholly new. I therefore

dressed up three paradoxes with some ingenuity.... 'Well,' asks the

Vicar, 'and what did the learned world say to your paradoxes?' 'Sir,'

replied my son, 'the learned world said nothing to my paradoxes,

nothing at all.... I found that no genius in another could please me.

My unfortunate paradoxes had entirely dried up that source of comfort.

I could neither read nor write with satisfaction; for excellence in

another was my aversion, and writing was my trade.'"]

[Footnote 6: From Boileau ('Imitations, etc.', by J.C. Hobhouse):

"With what delight rhymes on the scribbling dunce.

He's ne'er perplex'd to choose, but right at once;

With rapture hails each work as soon as done,

And wonders so much wit was all his own."]

[Footnote 7: At Sotheby's house, Miss Jane Porter, author of 'The

Scottish Chiefs', etc., etc., met Byron. She made the following note of

his appearance, and after his death sent it to his sister:

"I once had the gratification of Seeing Lord Byron. He was at Evening

party at the Poet Sotheby's. I was not aware of his being in the room,

or even that he had been invited, when I was arrested from listening

to the person conversing with me by the Sounds of the most melodious

Speaking Voice I had ever heard. It was gentle and beautifully

modulated. I turned round to look for the Speaker, and then saw a

Gentleman in black of an Elegant form (for nothing of his lameness

could be discovered), and with a face I never shall forget. The

features of the finest proportions. The Eye deep set, but mildly

lustrous; and the Complexion what I at the time described to my

Sister as a Sort of moonlight paleness. It was so pale, yet with all

so Softly brilliant.

"I instantly asked my Companion who that Gentleman was. He replied,

'Lord Byron.' I was astonished, for there was no Scorn, no disdain,

nothing in that noble Countenance _then_ of the proud Spirit

which has since soared to Heaven, illuminating the Horizon far and

wide."]

[Footnote 8: Probably the Berrys.]

[Footnote 9: Miss Lydia White, the "Miss Diddle" of Byron's 'Blues', of

whom Ticknor speaks ('Life', vol. i. p. 176) as "the fashionable

blue-stocking," was a wealthy Irishwoman, well known for her dinners and

conversaziones

"in all the capitals of Europe. At one of her dinners in Park Street

(all the company except herself being Whigs), the desperate prospects

of the Whig party were discussed. Yes,' said Sydney Smith, who was

present, 'we are in a most deplorable condition; we must do something

to help ourselves. I think,' said he, looking at Lydia White, 'we had

better sacrifice a Tory Virgin'"

(Lady Morgan's 'Memoirs', vol. ii. p. 236). Miss Berry, in her 'Journal'

(vol. iii. p. 49, May 8, 1815), says,

"Lord and Lady Byron persuaded me to go with them to Miss White. Never

have I seen a more imposing convocation of ladies arranged in a circle

than when we entered, taking William Spencer with us. Lord Byron

brought me home. He stayed to supper."

Miss White's last years were passed in bad health. Moore called upon

Rogers, May 7, 1826:

"Found him in high good humour. In talking of Miss White, he said,

'How wonderfully she does hold out! They may say what they will, but

Miss White and 'Miss'olongi are the most remarkable things going"

('Memoirs, etc.', vol. v. p. 62). Lydia White died in February, 1827.]

[Footnote 10: Barberina Ogle (1768-1854), daughter of Sir Chaloner Ogle,

widow of Valentia Wilmot, married, in 1819, Lord Dacre. Her tragedy,

'Ina', was produced at Drury Lane, April 22, 1815. Her literary work

was, for the most part, privately printed: 'Dramas, Translations, and

Occasional Poems' (1821); 'Translations from the Italian' (1836). She

also edited her daughter's 'Recollections of a Chaperon' (1831), and

'Tales of the Peerage and Peasantry' (1835).]

[Footnote 11: Margaret Willes, granddaughter of Chief Justice Willes,

married, in 1778, Sir George Beaumont, Bart. (1753-1827), the

landscape-painter, art critic, and picture-collector, who founded the

National Gallery, was a friend of Sir Joshua Reynolds, of Dr. Johnson,

and of Wordsworth, and is mentioned by Byron in the 'Blues':

"Sir George thinks exactly with Lady Bluebottle."]

[Footnote 12: Francis William Caulfield, who succeeded his father, in

1799, as second Earl of Charlemont, married, in 1802, Anne, daughter of

William Bermingham, of Ross Hill, co. Galway. She died in 1876. Of Lady

Charlemont's beauty Byron was an enthusiastic admirer. In his 'Letter on

the Rev. W.L. Bowles's Strictures on Pope' (February 7, 1821) he says,

"The head of Lady Charlemont (when I first saw her, nine years ago)

seemed to possess all that sculpture could require for its ideal."

Moore ('Journals, etc.', vol. iii. p. 78) has the following entry in his

Diary for November 21, 1819:

"Called upon Lady Charlemont, and sat with her some time. Lady

Mansfield told me that the effect she produces here with her beauty is

wonderful; last night, at the Comtesse d'Albany's, the Italians were

ready to fall down and worship her."

For the two quotations, see Horace, 'Odes', I. iii. 1, and 'The Rape of

the Lock', ii. 18.]

* * * * *

Nov. 23.

Ward--I like Ward. By Mahomet! I begin to think I like every body;--a

disposition not to be encouraged;--a sort of social gluttony that

swallows every thing set before it. But I like Ward. He is _piquant_;

and, in my opinion, will stand very _high_ in the House, and every where

else, if he applies _regularly_. By the by, I dine with him to-morrow,

which may have some influence on my opinion. It is as well not to trust

one's gratitude _after_ dinner. I have heard many a host libelled by his

guests, with his burgundy yet reeking on their rascally lips.

I have taken Lord Salisbury's box at Covent Garden for the season; and

now I must go and prepare to join Lady Holland and party, in theirs, at

Drury Lane, _questa sera_.

Holland doesn't think the man is _Junius_; but that the yet unpublished

journal throws great light on the obscurities of that part of George the

Second's reign.--What is this to George the Third's? I don't know what

to think. Why should Junius be yet dead? If suddenly apoplexed, would he

rest in his grave without sending his [Greek: eidolon] to shout in the

ears of posterity, "Junius was X.Y.Z., Esq., buried in the parish of

----. Repair his monument, ye churchwardens! Print a new edition of his

Letters, ye booksellers!" Impossible,--the man must be alive, and will

never die without the disclosure. I like him;--he was a good hater.

Came home unwell and went to bed,--not so sleepy as might be desirable.

Tuesday morning. I awoke from a dream!--well! and have not others

dreamed?--Such a dream!--but she did not overtake me. I wish the dead

would rest, however. Ugh! how my blood chilled,--and I could not

wake--and--and--heigho!

"Shadows to-night

Have struck more terror to the soul of Richard,

Than could the substance of ten thousand----s,

Arm'd all in proof, and led by shallow----." [1]

I do not like this dream,--I hate its "foregone conclusion." And am I to

be shaken by shadows? Ay, when they remind us of--no matter--but, if I

dream thus again, I will try whether _all_ sleep has the like visions.

Since I rose, I've been in considerable bodily pain also; but it is

gone, and now, like Lord Ogleby [2], I am wound up for the day.

A note from Mountnorris [3]--I dine with Ward;--Canning is to be there,

Frere [4] and Sharpe [5], perhaps Gifford. I am to be one of "the five"

(or rather six), as Lady----said a little sneeringly yesterday. They

are all good to meet, particularly Canning, and--Ward, when he likes. I

wish I may be well enough to listen to these intellectuals.

No letters to-day;--so much the better,--there are no answers. I must

not dream again;--it spoils even reality. I will go out of doors, and

see what the fog will do for me. Jackson has been here: the boxing world

much as usual;--but the club increases. I shall dine at Crib's [6]

to-morrow. I like energy--even animal energy--of all kinds; and I have

need of both mental and corporeal. I have not dined out, nor, indeed,

_at all_, lately: have heard no music--have seen nobody. Now for a

_plunge_--high life and low life. _Amant_ alterna _Camoenæ!_ [7].

I have burnt my _Roman_--as I did the first scenes and sketch of my

comedy--and, for aught I see, the pleasure of burning is quite as great

as that of printing. These two last would not have done. I ran into

_realities_ more than ever; and some would have been recognised and

others guessed at.

Redde the _Ruminator_--a collection of Essays, by a strange, but able,

old man [Sir Egerton Brydges] [8], and a half-wild young one, author of

a poem on the Highlands, called _Childe Alarique_ [9].

The word "sensibility" (always my aversion) occurs a thousand times in

these Essays; and, it seems, is to be an excuse for all kinds of

discontent. This young man can know nothing of life; and, if he

cherishes the disposition which runs through his papers, will become

useless, and, perhaps, not even a poet, after all, which he seems

determined to be. God help him! no one should be a rhymer who could be

any thing better. And this is what annoys one, to see Scott and Moore,

and Campbell and Rogers, who might have all been agents and leaders, now

mere spectators. For, though they may have other ostensible avocations,

these last are reduced to a secondary consideration.----, too,

frittering away his time among dowagers and unmarried girls. If it

advanced any _serious_ affair, it were some excuse; but, with the

unmarried, that is a hazardous speculation, and tiresome enough, too;

and, with the veterans, it is not much worth trying, unless, perhaps,

one in a thousand.

If I had any views in this country, they would probably be parliamentary

[10].

But I have no ambition; at least, if any, it would be _aut Cæsar aut

nihil_. My hopes are limited to the arrangement of my affairs, and

settling either in Italy or the East (rather the last), and drinking

deep of the languages and literature of both. Past events have unnerved

me; and all I can now do is to make life an amusement, and look on while

others play. After all, even the highest game of crowns and sceptres,

what is it? _Vide_ Napoleon's last twelvemonth. It has completely upset

my system of fatalism. I thought, if crushed, he would have fallen, when

_fractus illabitur orbis_, [11] and not have been pared away to gradual

insignificance; that all this was not a mere _jeu_ of the gods, but a

prelude to greater changes and mightier events. But men never advance

beyond a certain point; and here we are, retrograding, to the dull,

stupid old system,--balance of Europe--poising straws upon kings' noses,

instead of wringing them off! Give me a republic, or a despotism of one,

rather than the mixed government of one, two, three. A republic!--look

in the history of the Earth--Rome, Greece, Venice, France, Holland,

America, our short (_eheu!_) Commonwealth, and compare it with what they

did under masters. The Asiatics are not qualified to be republicans, but

they have the liberty of demolishing despots, which is the next thing to

it. To be the first man--not the Dictator--not the Sylla, but the

Washington or the Aristides--the leader in talent and truth--is next to

the Divinity! Franklin, Penn, and, next to these, either Brutus or

Cassius--even Mirabeau--or St. Just. I shall never be any thing, or

rather always be nothing. The most I can hope is, that some will say,

"He might, perhaps, if he would."

12, midnight.

Here are two confounded proofs from the printer. I have looked at the

one, but for the soul of me, I can't look over that _Giaour_ again,--at

least, just now, and at this hour--and yet there is no moon.

Ward talks of going to Holland, and we have partly discussed an

_ensemble_ expedition. It must be in ten days, if at all, if we wish to

be in at the Revolution. And why not?----is distant, and will be at

----, still more distant, till spring. No one else, except Augusta,

cares for me; no ties--no trammels--_andiamo dunque--se torniamo,

bene--se non, ch' importa?_ Old William of Orange talked of dying in

"the last ditch" of his dingy country. It is lucky I can swim, or I

suppose I should not well weather the first. But let us see. I have

heard hyeenas and jackalls in the ruins of Asia; and bull-frogs in the

marshes; besides wolves and angry Mussulmans. Now, I should like to

listen to the shout of a free Dutchman.

Alla! Viva! For ever! Hourra! Huzza!--which is the most rational or

musical of these cries? "Orange Boven," according to the 'Morning Post'.

[Footnote 1:

"By the apostle Paul, shadows to-night

Have struck more terror to the soul of Richard

Than can the substance of ten thousand soldiers,

Armed in proof, and led by shallow Richmond."

'Richard III'., act v. sc. 3.]

[Footnote 2: "Lord Ogleby" is a character in 'The Clandestine Marriage'

(by Colman and Garrick, first acted at Drury Lane, February 20, 1766).

"Brush," his valet, says (act ii.) of his master,

"What with qualms, age, rheumatism, and a few surfeits in his youth,

he must have a great deal of brushing, oyling, screwing, and winding

up, to set him a-going for the day."]

[Footnote 3: Viscount Valentia, created in 1793 Earl of Mountnorris, was

the father of Byron's friend, Viscount Valentia (afterwards second and

last Earl of Mountnorris, died in 1844); of Lady Frances Wedderburn

Webster; of Lady Catherine Annesley, who married Lord John Somerset, and

died in 1865; and of Lady Juliana Annesley, who married Robert Bayly, of

Ballyduff.]

[Footnote 4: John Hookham Frere (1769-1846), educated at Eton, and

Caius College, Cambridge (Fellow, 1792), M.P. for West Loe (1796-1802),

was a clerk in the Foreign Office. A school-friend of Canning, he joined

with him in the 'Anti-Jacobin' (November 20, 1797--July 9, 1798). Among

the pieces which he contributed, in whole or part, are "The Loves of the

Triangles," "The Friend of Humanity and the Knife-grinder," "The Rovers,

or the Double Arrangement," "_La Sainte Guillotine_" "New Morality," and

the "Meeting of the Friends of Freedom." He was British Envoy at Lisbon

(1800-1804) and to the Spanish Junta (October, 1808-April, 1809). From

this post he was recalled, owing to the fatal effects of his advice to

Sir John Moore, and he never again held any public appointment. From

1818 to 1846 he lived at Malta, where he died.

His translations of "The Frogs" of Aristophanes (1839), and of "The

Acharnians, the Knights, and the Birds" (1840), are masterpieces of

spirit and fidelity. His 'Prospectus and Specimen of an intended

National Work, by William and Robert Whistlecraft' (cantos i., ii.,

1817; cantos iii., iv., 1818), inspired Byron with 'Beppo'.

Ticknor describes him in 1819 ('Life', vol. i. p. 267):

"Frere is a slovenly fellow. His remarks on Homer, in the 'Classical

Journal', prove how fine a Greek scholar he is; his 'Quarterly

Reviews', how well he writes; his 'Rovers, or the Double Arrangement,'

what humour he possesses; and the reputation he has left in Spain and

Portugal, how much better he understood their literatures than they do

themselves; while, at the same time, his books left in France, in

Gallicia, at Lisbon, and two or three places in England; his

manuscripts, neglected and lost to himself; his manners, lazy and

careless; and his conversation, equally rich and negligent, show how

little he cares about all that distinguishes him in the eyes of the

world. He studies as a luxury, he writes as an amusement, and

conversation is a kind of sensual enjoyment to him. If he had been

born in Asia, he would have been the laziest man that ever lived."]

[Footnote 5: For "Conversation" Sharp, see p. 341, 'note' 2 [Footnote 2

of Journal entry for 24 November, 1813.]]

[Footnote 6: Thomas Cribb (1781-1848), born at Bitton, near Bristol,

began life as a bell-hanger, became first a coal-porter, then a sailor,

and finally found his vocation as a pugilist. In his profession he was

known, from one of his previous callings, as the "Black Diamond." His

first big fight was against George Maddox (January 7, 1805), whom he

defeated after seventy-six rounds. He twice beat the ex-champion, the

one-eyed Jem Belcher (April 8, 1807, and February 1, 1809), and with his

victory over Bob Gregson (October 25, 1808; see 'Letters', vol. i. p.

207, 'note' 1 [Footnote 2 of Letter 108]) became champion of England.

His two defeats of Molineaux, the black pugilist (December 18, 1810, and

September 28, 1811), established his title, which was never again

seriously challenged, and in 1821 it was conferred upon him for life.

Cribb was one of the prize-fighters, who, dressed as pages, kept order

at the Coronation of George IV. In 1813 he was landlord of the King's

Arms, Duke Street, St. James's, and universally respected as the honest

head of the pugilistic profession. He died in 1848 at Woolwich; three

years later a monument was erected to his memory by public subscription

in Woolwich Churchyard. It represents "a British lion grieving over the

ashes of a British hero," and on the plinth is the inscription, "Respect

the ashes of the brave."]

[Footnote 7: Virgil, 'Eclogues', iii. 59.]

[Footnote 8: Sir Samuel Egerton Brydges (1762-1837), poet, novelist,

genealogist, and bibliographer, published, in 1813, 'The Ruminator:

containing a series of moral, critical, and sentimental Essays'. Of the

104 Essays, 72 appeared in the 'Censura Literaria' between January,

1807, and June, 1809. The remainder were by Gillies, except two by the

Rev. Francis Wrangham and two by the Rev. Montagu Pennington. No. 50 is

a review of some original poems by Capell Lofft, including a Greek ode

on Eton College.

Gillies, in his 'Memoirs of a Literary Veteran' (vol. ii. p. 4), says

that in 1809 he addressed an anonymous letter to Brydges, containing

some thoughts on the advantages of retirement (the subject of 'Childe

Alarique'). The letter, printed in 'The Ruminator', began his literary

career and introduced him to Brydges. 'The Ruminator', 2 vols. (1813),

and 'Childe Alarique' (1813), are among the books included in the sale

catalogue of Byron's books, April 5, 1816.]

[Footnote 9: Robert Pearse Gillies (1788-1858) wrote 'Wallace, a

Fragment' (1813); 'Childe Alarique, a Poet's Reverie, with other Poems'

(1813); 'Confessions of Sir Henry Longueville, a Novel' (1814); and

numerous other works and translations. His 'Memoirs of a Literary

Veteran' was published in 1851. He was the founder and first editor of

the 'Foreign Quarterly Review' (1827).]

[Footnote 10: The following additional notes on Byron's Parliamentary

career are taken from his 'Detached Thoughts':--

"At the Opposition meeting of the peers, in 1812, at Lord Grenville's,

when Lord Grey and he read to us the correspondence upon Moira's

negociation, I sate next to the present Duke of Grafton. When it was

over, I turned to him and said, 'What is to be done next?' 'Wake the

Duke of Norfolk' (who was snoring away near us), replied he. 'I don't

think the Negociators have left anything else for us to do this

turn.'"

"In the debate, or rather discussion, afterwards, in the House of

Lords, upon that very question, I sate immediately behind Lord Moira,

who was extremely annoyed at G.'s speech upon the subject, and while

G. was speaking, turned round to me repeatedly and asked me whether I

agreed with him? It was an awkward question to me, who had not heard

both sides. Moira kept repeating to me, 'It was 'not so', it was so

and so,' etc. I did not know very well what to think, but I

sympathized with the acuteness of his feelings upon the subject."

"Lord Eldon affects an Imitation of two very different

Chancellors--Thurlow and Loughborough--and can indulge in an oath now

and then. On one of the debates on the Catholic question, when we were

either equal or within one (I forget which), I had been sent for in

great haste from a Ball, which I quitted, I confess somewhat

reluctantly, to emancipate five Millions of people. I came in late,

and did not go immediately into the body of the house, but stood just

behind the Woolsack. Eldon turned round, and, catching my eye,

immediately said to a peer (who had come to him for a few minutes on

the Woolsack, as is the custom of his friends), 'Damn them! they'll

have it now, by God!--the vote that is just come in will give it

them.'"]

[Footnote 11: Horace, 'Odes', III. iii. 7.]

* * * * *

Wednesday, 24.

No dreams last night of the dead, nor the living; so--I am "firm as the

marble, founded as the rock," [1] till the next earthquake.

Ward's dinner went off well. There was not a disagreeable person

there--unless _I_ offended any body, which I am sure I could not by

contradiction, for I said little, and opposed nothing. Sharpe [2] (a man

of elegant mind, and who has lived much with the best--Fox, Horne Tooke,

Windham, Fitzpatrick, and all the agitators of other times and tongues,)

told us the particulars of his last interview with Windham, [3] a few

days before the fatal operation which sent "that gallant spirit to

aspire the skies." [4] Windham,--the first in one department of oratory

and talent, whose only fault was his refinement beyond the intellect of

half his hearers,--Windham, half his life an active participator in the

events of the earth, and one of those who governed nations,--_he_

regretted,--and dwelt much on that regret, that "he had not entirely

devoted himself to literature and science!!!" His mind certainly would

have carried him to eminence there, as elsewhere;--but I cannot

comprehend what debility of that mind could suggest such a wish. I, who

have heard him, cannot regret any thing but that I shall never hear him

again. What! would he have been a plodder? a metaphysician?--perhaps a

rhymer? a scribbler? Such an exchange must have been suggested by

illness. But he is gone, and Time "shall not look upon his like again."

[5]

I am tremendously in arrear with my letters,--except to----, and to her

my thoughts overpower me:--my words never compass them. To Lady

Melbourne I write with most pleasure--and her answers, so sensible, so

_tactique_--I never met with half her talent. If she had been a few

years younger, what a fool she would have made of me, had she thought it

worth her while,--and I should have lost a valuable and most agreeable

_friend_. Mem. a mistress never is nor can be a friend. While you agree,

you are lovers; and, when it is over, any thing but friends.

I have not answered W. Scott's last letter,--but I will. I regret to

hear from others, that he has lately been unfortunate in pecuniary

involvements. He is undoubtedly the Monarch of Parnassus, and the most

_English_ of bards. I should place Rogers next in the living list (I

value him more as the last of the best school)--Moore and Campbell both

_third_--Southey and Wordsworth and Coleridge--the rest, [Greek: hoi

polloi]--thus:

W. SCOTT.

^

ROGERS.

MOORE.--CAMPBELL.

SOUTHEY.--WORDSWORTH.--COLERIDGE.

< THE MANY. >

There is a triangular _Gradus ad Parnassum_!--the names are too numerous

for the base of the triangle. Poor Thurlow has gone wild about the

poetry of Queen Bess's reign--_c'est dommage_. I have ranked the names

upon my triangle more upon what I believe popular opinion, than any

decided opinion of my own. For, to me, some of Moore's last _Erin_

sparks--"As a beam o'er the face of the waters"--"When he who adores

thee"--"Oh blame not"--and "Oh breathe not his name"--are worth all the

Epics that ever were composed.

Rogers thinks the 'Quarterly' will attack me next. Let them. I have been

"peppered so highly" in my time, _both_ ways, that it must be cayenne or

aloes to make me taste. I can sincerely say, that I am not very much

alive _now_ to criticism. But--in tracing this--I rather believe that it

proceeds from my not attaching that importance to authorship which many

do, and which, when young, I did also. "One gets tired of every thing,

my angel," says Valmont [6].

The "angels" are the only things of which I am not a little sick--but I

do think the preference of _writers_ to _agents_--the mighty stir made

about scribbling and scribes, by themselves and others--a sign of

effeminacy, degeneracy, and weakness. Who would write, who had any thing

better to do? "Action--action--action"--said Demosthenes:

"Actions--actions," I say, and not writing,--least of all, rhyme. Look at

the querulous and monotonous lives of the "genus;"--except Cervantes,

Tasso, Dante, Ariosto, Kleist (who were brave and active citizens),

Æschylus, Sophocles, and some other of the antiques also--what a

worthless, idle brood it is!

[Footnote 1: 'Macbeth', act iii. sc. 4--

"Whole as the marble, founded as the rock."]

[Footnote 2: Richard Sharp (1759-1835), a wealthy hat-manufacturer, was

a prominent figure in political and literary life. A consistent Whig, he

was one of the "Friends of the People," and in the House of Commons

(1806-12) was a recognized authority on questions of finance.

Essentially a "club-able man," he was a member of many clubs, both

literary and political. In Park Lane and at Mickleham he gathered round

him many friends--Rogers, Moore, Mackintosh, Macaulay, Coleridge,

Horner, Grattan, Horne Tooke, and Sydney Smith, who was so frequently

his guest in the country that he was called the "Bishop of Mickleham."

Horner (May 20, 1816) speaks of a visit paid to Sharp in Surrey, in

company with Grattan ('Memoirs', vol. ii. p. 355). Ticknor, who, in

1815, breakfasted with Sharp in Park Lane ('Life', vol. i. pp. 55, 56),

says of a party of "men of letters:"

"I saw little of them, excepting Mr. Sharp, formerly a Member of

Parliament, and who, from his talents in society, has been called

'Conversation Sharp.' He has been made an associate of most of the

literary clubs in London, from the days of Burke down to the present

time. He told me a great many amusing anecdotes of them, and

particularly of Burke, Porson, and Grattan, with whom he had been

intimate; and occupied the dinner-time as pleasantly as the same

number of hours have passed with me in England.... 'June

7'.--This morning I breakfasted with Mr. Sharp, and had a

continuation of yesterday,--more pleasant accounts of the great men of

the present day, and more amusing anecdotes of the generation that has

passed away."

Miss Berry, who met Sharp often, writes, in her Journal for March 26,

1808 ('Journal', vol. ii. p. 344),

"He is clever, but I should suspect of little real depth of intellect."

Sharp published anonymously a volume of 'Epistles in Verse' (1828).

These were reproduced, with additions, in his 'Letters and Essays',

published with his name in 1834. His "Epistle to an Eminent Poet" is

evidently addressed to his lifelong friend, Samuel Rogers:

"Yes! thou hast chosen well 'the better part,'

And, for the triumphs of the noblest art,

Hast wisely scorn'd the sordid cares of life."]

[Footnote 3: William Windham, of Felbrigg Hall (1750-1810), educated at

Eton, Glasgow, and University College, Oxford, became M.P. for Norwich

in 1784. In the following year he was made chief secretary to Lord

Northington, Lord-Lieutenant of Ireland. Expressing some doubts to Dr.

Johnson whether he possessed the arts necessary for Parliamentary

success, the Doctor said, "You will become an able negotiator; a very

pretty rascal." He resigned the secretaryship within the year, according

to Gibbon, on the plea of ill health. He was one of the managers of the

impeachment of Warren Hastings in 1788, Secretary at War from 1794 to

1801, and War and Colonial Secretary, 1806-7.

Windham, a shrewd critic of other speakers, called Pitt's style a

"State-paper style," because of its combined dignity and poverty, and

"verily believed Mr. Pitt could speak a king's speech off-hand." As a

speaker he was himself remarkably effective, a master of illustration

and allusion, delighting in "homely Saxon," and affecting provincial

words and pronunciation. Lord Sheffield, writing to Gibbon, February 5,

1793, says, "As to Windham, I should think he is become the best, at

least the most sensible, speaker of the whole." His love of paradox,

combined with his political independence and irresolution, gained him

the name of "Weathercock Windham;" but he was respected by both sides as

an honest politician. Outside the house it was his ambition to be known

as a thorough Englishman--a patron of horse-racing, cock-fighting,

bull-baiting, pugilism, and football. He was also a scholar, a man of

wide reading, an admirable talker, and a friend of Miss Berry and of

Madame d'Arblay, in whose Diaries he is a prominent figure. His own

'Diary' (1784-1810) was published in 1866.

On the 8th of July, 1809, he saw a fire in Conduit Street, which

threatened to spread to the house of his friend North, who possessed a

valuable library. In his efforts to save the books, he fell and bruised

his hip. A tumour formed, which was removed; but he sank under the

operation, and died June 4, 1810.]

[Footnote 4:

"O Romeo, Romeo, brave Mercutio's dead;

That gallant spirit hath aspired the clouds."

'Romeo and Juliet', act iii. sc. 1.]

[Footnote 5:

"He was a man, take him for all in all,

I shall not look upon his like again."

'Hamlet', act i. sc. 2.]

[Footnote 6: The allusion probably is to 'The Foundling of the Forest'

(1809), by William Dimond the Younger. But no passage exactly

corresponds to the quotation.]

* * * * *

12, Mezza Notte.

Just returned from dinner with Jackson (the Emperor of Pugilism) and

another of the select, at Crib's, the champion's. I drank more than I

like, and have brought away some three bottles of very fair claret--for

I have no headach. We had Tom Crib up after dinner;--very facetious,

though somewhat prolix. He don't like his situation--wants to fight

again--pray Pollux (or Castor, if he was the _miller_) he may! Tom has

been a sailor--a coal-heaver--and some other genteel profession, before

he took to the cestus. Tom has been in action at sea, and is now only

three-and-thirty. A great man! has a wife and a mistress, and

conversations well--bating some sad omissions and misapplications of the

aspirate. Tom is an old friend of mine; I have seen some of his best

battles in my nonage. He is now a publican, and, I fear, a sinner;--for

Mrs. Crib is on alimony, and Tom's daughter lives with the champion.

_This_ Tom told me,--Tom, having an opinion of my morals, passed her off

as a legal spouse. Talking of her, he said, "she was the truest of

women"--from which I immediately inferred she could _not_ be his wife,

and so it turned out.

These panegyrics don't belong to matrimony;--for, if "true," a man don't

think it necessary to say so; and if not, the less he says the better.

Crib is the only man except----, I ever heard harangue upon his wife's

virtue; and I listened to both with great credence and patience, and

stuffed my handkerchief into my mouth, when I found yawning

irresistible--By the by, I am yawning now--so, good night to

thee.--[Greek: Noairon] [1]

[Footnote 1: It is doubtful whether this is not a mistake for [Greek:

Npairon], a variant of [Greek: Mpairon], which is the correct

transliteration into modern Greek of 'Byron', but the MS. is

destroyed.]

* * * * *

Thursday, November 26.

Awoke a little feverish, but no headach--no dreams neither, thanks to

stupor! Two letters; one from----, the other from Lady Melbourne--both

excellent in their respective styles.----'s contained also a very

pretty lyric on "concealed griefs;" if not her own, yet very like her.

Why did she not say that the stanzas were, or were not, of her own

composition? I do not know whether to wish them _hers_ or not. I have no

great esteem for poetical persons, particularly women; they have so much

of the "ideal" in _practics_, as well as _ethics_.

I have been thinking lately a good deal of Mary Duff. How very odd that

I should have been so utterly, devotedly fond of that girl, at an age

when I could neither feel passion, nor know the meaning of the word. And

the effect! My mother used always to rally me about this childish amour;

and, at last, many years after, when I was sixteen, she told me one day,

"Oh, Byron, I have had a letter from Edinburgh, from Miss Abercromby,

and your old sweetheart Mary Duff is married to a Mr. Co'e." And what

was my answer? I really cannot explain or account for my feelings at

that moment; but they nearly threw me into convulsions, and alarmed my

mother so much, that after I grew better, she generally avoided the

subject--to _me_--and contented herself with telling it to all her

acquaintance. Now, what could this be? I had never seen her since her

mother's _faux pas_ at Aberdeen had been the cause of her removal to her

grandmother's at Banff; we were both the merest children. I had and have

been attached fifty times since that period; yet I recollect all we said

to each other, all our caresses, her features, my restlessness,

sleeplessness, my tormenting my mother's maid to write for me to her,

which she at last did, to quiet me. Poor Nancy thought I was wild, and,

as I could not write for myself, became my secretary. I remember, too,

our walks, and the happiness of sitting by Mary, in the children's

apartment, at their house not far from the Plain-stanes at Aberdeen,

while her lesser sister Helen played with the doll, and we sat gravely

making love, in our way.

How the deuce did all this occur so early? where could it originate? I

certainly had no sexual ideas for years afterwards; and yet my misery,

my love for that girl were so violent, that I sometimes doubt if I have

ever been really attached since. Be that as it may, hearing of her

marriage several years after was like a thunder-stroke--it nearly choked

me--to the horror of my mother and the astonishment and almost

incredulity of every body. And it is a phenomenon in my existence (for I

was not eight years old) which has puzzled, and will puzzle me to the

latest hour of it; and lately, I know not why, the _recollection_ (_not_

the attachment) has recurred as forcibly as ever. I wonder if she can

have the least remembrance of it or me? or remember her pitying sister

Helen for not having an admirer too? How very pretty is the perfect

image of her in my memory--her brown, dark hair, and hazel eyes; her

very dress! I should be quite grieved to see _her now_; the reality,

however beautiful, would destroy, or at least confuse, the features of

the lovely Peri which then existed in her, and still lives in my

imagination, at the distance of more than sixteen years. I am now

twenty-five and odd months....

I think my mother told the circumstances (on my hearing of her marriage)

to the Parkynses, and certainly to the Pigot family, and probably

mentioned it in her answer to Miss A., who was well acquainted with my

childish _penchant_, and had sent the news on purpose for _me_,--and

thanks to her!

Next to the beginning, the conclusion has often occupied my reflections,

in the way of investigation. That the facts are thus, others know as

well as I, and my memory yet tells me so, in more than a whisper. But,

the more I reflect, the more I am bewildered to assign any cause for

this precocity of affection.

Lord Holland invited me to dinner to-day; but three days' dining would

destroy me. So, without eating at all since yesterday, I went to my box

at Covent Garden.

Saw----looking very pretty, though quite a different style of beauty

from the other two. She has the finest eyes in the world, out of which

she pretends _not_ to see, and the longest eyelashes I ever saw, since

Leila's and Phannio's Moslem curtains of the light. She has much

beauty,--just enough,--but is, I think, _méchante_.

I have been pondering on the miseries of separation, that--oh how seldom

we see those we love! yet we live ages in moments, _when met_. The only

thing that consoles me during absence is the reflection that no mental

or personal estrangement, from ennui or disagreement, can take place;

and when people meet hereafter, even though many changes may have taken

place in the mean time, still, unless they are _tired_ of each other,

they are ready to reunite, and do not blame each other for the

circumstances that severed them.

* * * * *

Saturday 27

(I believe or rather am in _doubt_, which is the _ne plus ultra_ of

mortal faith.)

I have missed a day; and, as the Irishman said, or Joe Miller says for

him, "have gained a loss," or _by_ the loss. Every thing is settled for

Holland, and nothing but a cough, or a caprice of my fellow-traveller's,

can stop us. Carriage ordered, funds prepared, and, probably, a gale of

wind into the bargain. _N'importe_--I believe, with Clym o' the Clow, or

Robin Hood, "By our Mary, (dear name!) thou art both Mother and May, I

think it never was a man's lot to die before his day." [1]

Heigh for Helvoetsluys, and so forth!

To-night I went with young Henry Fox to see _Nourjahad_, a drama, which

the _Morning Post_ hath laid to my charge, but of which I cannot even

guess the author. I wonder what they will next inflict upon me. They

cannot well sink below a melodrama; but that is better than a satire,

(at least, a personal one,) with which I stand truly arraigned, and in

atonement of which I am resolved to bear silently all criticisms,

abuses, and even praises, for bad pantomimes never composed by me,

without even a contradictory aspect. I suppose the root of this report

is my loan to the manager of my Turkish drawings for his dresses, to

which he was more welcome than to my name. I suppose the real author

will soon own it, as it has succeeded; if not, Job be my model, and

Lethe my beverage!

----has received the portrait safe; and, in answer, the only remark she

makes upon it is, "indeed it is like"--and again, "indeed it is like."

With her the likeness "covered a multitude of sins;" for I happen to

know that this portrait was not a flatterer, but dark and stern,--even

black as the mood in which my mind was scorching last July, when I sat

for it. All the others of me, like most portraits whatsoever, are, of

course, more agreeable than nature.

Redde the 'Edinburgh Review' of Rogers. He is ranked highly; but where

he should be. There is a summary view of us all--_Moore_ and _me_ among

the rest; [2] and both (the _first_ justly) praised--though, by

implication (justly again) placed beneath our memorable friend.

Mackintosh is the writer, and also of the critique on the Stael. [3]

His grand essay on Burke, I hear, is for the next number. But I know

nothing of the 'Edinburgh', or of any other _Review_, but from rumour;

and I have long ceased; indeed, I could not, in justice, complain of

any, even though I were to rate poetry, in general, and my rhymes in

particular, more highly than I really do. To withdraw _myself_ from

_myself_ (oh that cursed selfishness!) has ever been my sole, my entire,

my sincere motive in scribbling at all; and publishing is also the

continuance of the same object, by the action it affords to the mind,

which else recoils upon itself. If I valued fame, I should flatter

received opinions, which have gathered strength by time, and will yet

wear longer than any living works to the contrary. But, for the soul of

me, I cannot and will not give the lie to my own thoughts and doubts,

come what may. If I am a fool, it is, at least, a doubting one; and I

envy no one the certainty of his self-approved wisdom.

All are inclined to believe what they covet, from a lottery-ticket up to

a passport to Paradise,--in which, from the description, I see nothing

very tempting. My restlessness tells me I have something "within that

passeth show." [4]

It is for Him, who made it, to prolong that spark of celestial fire

which illuminates, yet burns, this frail tenement; but I see no such

horror in a "dreamless sleep," and I have no conception of any existence

which duration would not render tiresome. How else "fell the angels,"

even according to your creed? They were immortal, heavenly, and happy,

as their _apostate Abdiel_ [5] is now by his treachery. Time must

decide; and eternity won't be the less agreeable or more horrible

because one did not expect it. In the mean time, I am grateful for some

good, and tolerably patient under certain evils--_grace à Dieu et mon

bon tempérament_.

[Footnote 1:

"Ah, deere ladye, said Robin Hood, thou

That art both Mother and May,

I think it was never man's destinye

To die before his day."

'Ballad of Robin Hood'

[Footnote 2: The following is the passage to which Byron alludes:

"Greece, the mother of freedom and of poetry in the West, which had

long employed only the antiquary, the artist, and the philologist, was

at length destined, after an interval of many silent and inglorious

ages, to awaken the genius of a poet. Full of enthusiasm for those

perfect forms of heroism and liberty which his imagination had placed

in the recesses of antiquity, he gave vent to his impatience of the

imperfections of living men and real institutions, in an original

strain of sublime satire, which clothes moral anger in imagery of an

almost horrible grandeur; and which, though it cannot coincide with

the estimate of reason, yet could only flow from that worship of

perfection which is the soul of all true poetry."

'Edin. Rev'., vol. xxii. p. 37.]

[Footnote 3:

"In the last 'Edinburgh Review' you will find two articles of mine,

one on Rogers, and the other on Madame de Staël: they are both,

especially the first, thought too panegyrical. I like the praises

which I have bestowed on Lord Byron and Thomas Moore. I am convinced

of the justness of the praises given to Madame de Staël."

'Mackintosh's Life', vol. ii. p. 271.]

[Footnote 4:

"I have that within which passeth show."

'Hamlet', act i. sc. 2.]

[Footnote 5:

"... the seraph Abdiel, faithful found

Among the faithless."

Milton, 'Paradise Lost', v. 896.]

* * * * *

Tuesday, 30th.

Two days missed in my log-book;--_hiatus_ haud _deflendus_. They were as

little worth recollection as the rest; and, luckily, laziness or society

prevented me from _notching_ them.

Sunday, I dined with the Lord Holland in St. James's Square. Large

party--among them Sir S. Romilly [1] and Lady R'y.--General Sir Somebody

Bentham, [2] a man of science and talent, I am told--Horner [3]--_the_

Horner, an Edinburgh Reviewer, an excellent speaker in the "Honourable

House," very pleasing, too, and gentlemanly in company, as far as I have

seen--Sharpe--Philips of Lancashire [4]--Lord John Russell, and others,

"good men and true." Holland's society is very good; you always see some

one or other in it worth knowing. Stuffed myself with sturgeon, and

exceeded in champagne and wine in general, but not to confusion of head.

When I _do_ dine, I gorge like an Arab or a Boa snake, on fish and

vegetables, but no meat. I am always better, however, on my tea and

biscuit than any other regimen, and even _that_ sparingly.

Why does Lady H. always have that damned screen between the whole room

and the fire? I, who bear cold no better than an antelope, and never yet

found a sun quite _done_ to my taste, was absolutely petrified, and

could not even shiver. All the rest, too, looked as if they were just

unpacked, like salmon from an ice-basket, and set down to table for that

day only. When she retired, I watched their looks as I dismissed the

screen, and every cheek thawed, and every nose reddened with the

anticipated glow.

Saturday, I went with Harry Fox to _Nourjahad_; and, I believe,

convinced him, by incessant yawning, that it was not mine. I wish the

precious author would own it, and release me from his fame. The dresses

are pretty, but not in costume;--Mrs. Horn's, all but the turban, and

the want of a small dagger (if she is a sultana), _perfect_. I never saw

a Turkish woman with a turban in my life--nor did any one else. The

sultanas have a small poniard at the waist. The dialogue is drowsy--the

action heavy--the scenery fine--the actors tolerable. I can't say much

for their seraglio--Teresa, Phannio, or----, were worth them all.

Sunday, a very handsome note from Mackintosh, who is a rare instance of

the union of very transcendent talent and great good nature. To-day

(Tuesday) a very pretty billet from M. la Baronne de Stael Holstein. [5]

She is pleased to be much pleased with my mention of her and her last

work in my notes. I spoke as I thought. Her works are my delight, and so

is she herself, for--half an hour. I don't like her politics--at least,

her _having changed_ them; had she been _qualis ab incepto_, it were

nothing. But she is a woman by herself, and has done more than all the

rest of them together, intellectually;--she ought to have been a man.

She _flatters_ me very prettily in her note;--but I _know_ it. The

reason that adulation is not displeasing is, that, though untrue, it

shows one to be of consequence enough, in one way or other, to induce

people to lie, to make us their friend:--that is their concern.

----is, I hear, thriving on the repute of a _pun_ which was _mine_ (at

Mackintosh's dinner some time back), on Ward, who was asking, "how much

it would take to _re-whig_ him?" I answered that, probably, "he must

first, before he was _re-whigged_, be re-_warded_." [6] This foolish

quibble, before the Stael and Mackintosh, and a number of

conversationers, has been mouthed about, and at last settled on the head

of----, where long may it remain!

George [7] is returned from afloat to get a new ship. He looks thin, but

better than I expected. I like George much more than most people like

their heirs. He is a fine fellow, and every inch a sailor. I would do

any thing, _but apostatise_, to get him on in his profession.

Lewis called. It is a good and good-humoured man, but pestilently prolix

and paradoxical and _personal_ [8]. If he would but talk half, and

reduce his visits to an hour, he would add to his popularity. As an

author he is very good, and his vanity is _ouverte_, like Erskine's, and

yet not offending.

Yesterday, a very pretty letter from Annabella [9], which I answered.

What an odd situation and friendship is ours!--without one spark of love

on either side, and produced by circumstances which in general lead to

coldness on one side, and aversion on the other. She is a very superior

woman, and very little spoiled, which is strange in an heiress--a girl

of twenty--a peeress that is to be, in her own right--an only child, and

a _savante_, who has always had her own way. She is a poetess--a

mathematician--a metaphysician, and yet, withal, very kind, generous,

and gentle, with very little pretension. Any other head would be turned

with half her acquisitions, and a tenth of her advantages.

[Footnote 1: Sir Samuel Romilly (1757-1818), Solicitor-General (1806-7),

distinguished himself in Parliament by his consistent advocacy of

Catholic Emancipation, the abolition of the slave-trade, Parliamentary

reform, and the mitigation of the harshness of the criminal law. Writing

of Romilly's 'Observations on the Criminal Law of England' (1810), Sir

James Mackintosh says,

"It does the very highest honour to his moral character, which, I

think, stands higher than that of any other conspicuous Englishman now

alive. Probity, independence, humanity, and liberality breathe through

every word; considered merely as a composition, accuracy, perspicuity,

discretion, and good taste are its chief merits; great originality and

comprehension of thought, or remarkable vigour of expression, it does

not possess."

The death of his wife, October 29, 1818, so affected Romilly's mind that

he committed suicide four days later.

"Romilly," said Lord Lansdowne to Moore ('Memoirs, etc'., vol. ii. p.

211), "was a stern, reserved sort of man, and she was the only person

in the world to whom he wholly unbent and unbosomed himself; when he

lost her, therefore, the very vent of his heart was stopped up."]

[Footnote 2: Sir Samuel Bentham (1757-1831), naval architect and

engineer, like his brother Jeremy, was a strong reformer. He was a

Knight of the Russian Order of St. George, and, like Sir Samuel Egerton

Brydges, who was a Knight of the Swedish Order of St. Joachim before he

was created a baronet (1814), assumed the title in England.]

[Footnote 3: Francis Horner (1778-1817), called to the Scottish Bar in

1800, and to the English Bar in 1807, was one of the founders of the

'Edinburgh Review', and acted as second to Jeffrey in his duel with

Moore. In the House of Commons (M.P. for St. Ives, 1806-7; Wendover,

1807-12; St. Mawes, 1812-17) he was one of the most impressive speakers

of the day, especially on financial questions. When Lord Morpeth moved

(March 3, 1817) for a new writ for the borough of St. Mawes, striking

tributes were paid to his character from both sides of the House

('Memoirs and Correspondence of Francis Horner', vol. ii. pp. 416-426),

and further proof was given of public esteem by the statue erected to

his memory in Westminster Abbey. The speeches delivered in the Lower

House on March 3, 1817, were translated by Ugo Foscolo, and published

with a dedication 'al nobile giovinetto, Enrico Fox, figlio di Lord

Holland'.]

[Footnote 4: George Philips, only son of Thomas Philips of Sedgley,

Lancashire (born March 24, 1766), was created a baronet in February,

1828. He sat for South Warwickshire in the first reformed House of

Commons.]

[Footnote 5: In a note to 'The Bride of Abydos' (Canto I. st. vi.),

Byron had written,

"For an eloquent passage in the latest work of the first female writer

of this, perhaps of any, age, on the analogy (and the immediate

comparison excited by that analogy) between 'painting and music,' see

vol. iii. cap. 10, 'De l'Allemagne'."

The passage is as follows (Part III. chap, x.):

"Sans cesse nous comparons la peinture à la musique, et la musique à

la peinture, parceque les émotions que nous eprouvons nous révèlent

des analogies où l'observation froide ne verroit que des différences,"

etc., etc.

The following is Madame de Staël's "very pretty billet:"

"Argyll St., No. 31.

"Je ne saurais vous exprímer, my lord, à quel point je me trouve

honorée d'être dans une note de votre poëme, et de quel poëme! il me

semble que pour la première fois je me crois certaine d'un nom

d'avenir et que vous avez disposé pour moi de cet empire de reputation

qui vous sera tous les jours plus soumis. Je voudrais vous parler de

ce poëme que tout le monde admire, mais j'avouerai que je suis trop

suspecte en le louant, et je ne cache pas qu' une louage de vous m'a

fait épreuver un sentiment de fierté et de réconaissance qui me

rendrait incapable de vous juger; mais heureusement vous êtes au

dessus du jugement.

"Donnez moi quelquefois le plaisir de vous voir; il-y-a un proverbe

français qui dit qu'un bonheur ne va jamais sans d'autre.

"DE STAËL."]

[Footnote 6:

"Byron," writes Sir Walter Scott, in a hitherto unpublished note,

"occasionally said what are called good things, but never studied for

them. They came naturally and easily, and mixed with the comic or

serious, as it happened. A professed wit is of all earthly companions

the most intolerable. He is like a schoolboy with his pockets stuffed

with crackers.

"No first-rate author was ever what is understood by a 'great

conversational wit'. Swift's wit in common society was either the

strong sense of a wonderful man unconsciously exerting his powers, or

that of the same being wilfully unbending, wilfully, in fact,

degrading himself. Who ever heard of any fame for conversational wit

lingering over the memory of a Shakespeare, a Milton, even of a Dryden

or a Pope?

"Johnson is, perhaps, a solitary exception. More shame to him. He was

the most indolent great man that ever lived, and threw away in his

talk more than he ever took pains to embalm in his writings.

"It is true that Boswell has in great measure counteracted all this.

But here is no defence. Few great men can expect to have a Boswell,

and none 'ought' to wish to have one, far less to trust to having one.

A man should not keep fine clothes locked up in his chest only that

his valet may occasionally show off in them; no, nor yet strut about

in them in his chamber, only that his valet may puff him and his

finery abroad.

"What might not he have done, who wrote 'Rasselas' in the evenings of

eight days to get money enough for his mother's funeral expenses? As

it is, what has Johnson done? Is it nothing to be the first intellect

of 'an age'? and who seriously talks even of Burke as having been more

than a clever boy in the presence of old Samuel?"]

[Footnote 7: George Anson Byron, R. N., afterwards Lord Byron.]

[Footnote 8: Scott has this additional note on Lewis:

"Nothing was more tiresome than Lewis when he began to harp upon any

extravagant proposition. He would tinker at it for hours without

mercy, and repeat the same thing in four hundred different ways. If

you assented in despair, he resumed his reasoning in triumph, and you

had only for your pains the disgrace of giving in. If you disputed,

daylight and candle-light could not bring the discussion to an end,

and Mat's arguments were always 'ditto repeated'."]

[Footnote 9: Miss Milbanke, afterwards Lady Byron.]

* * * * *

Wednesday, December 1, 1813.

To-day responded to La Baronne de Stael Holstein, and sent to Leigh Hunt

(an acquisition to my acquaintance--through Moore--of last summer) a

copy of the two Turkish tales. Hunt is an extraordinary character, and

not exactly of the present age. He reminds me more of the Pym and

Hampden times--much talent, great independence of spirit, and an

austere, yet not repulsive, aspect. If he goes on _qualis ab incepto_, I

know few men who will deserve more praise or obtain it. I must go and

see him again;--the rapid succession of adventure, since last summer,

added to some serious uneasiness and business, have interrupted our

acquaintance; but he is a man worth knowing; and though, for his own

sake, I wish him out of prison, I like to study character in such

situations. He has been unshaken, and will continue so. I don't think

him deeply versed in life;--he is the bigot of virtue (not religion),

and enamoured of the beauty of that "empty name," as the last breath of

Brutus pronounced [1], and every day proves it. He is, perhaps, a little

opinionated, as all men who are the _centre_ of _circles_, wide or

narrow--the Sir Oracles, in whose name two or three are gathered

together--must be, and as even Johnson was; but, withal, a valuable man,

and less vain than success and even the consciousness of preferring "the

right to the expedient" might excuse.

To-morrow there is a party of _purple_ at the "blue" Miss Berry's. Shall

I go? um!--I don't much affect your blue-bottles;--but one ought to be

civil. There will be, "I guess now" (as the Americans say), the Staels

and Mackintoshes--good--the----s and----s--not so good--the----s,

etc., etc.--good for nothing. Perhaps that blue-winged Kashmirian

butterfly of book-learning [2], Lady Charlemont, will be there. I hope

so; it is a pleasure to look upon that most beautiful of faces.

Wrote to H.:--he has been telling that I------[3] I am sure, at least,

_I_ did not mention it, and I wish he had not. He is a good fellow, and

I obliged myself ten times more by being of use than I did him,--and

there's an end on't.

Baldwin [4] is boring me to present their King's Bench petition. I

presented Cartwright's last year; and Stanhope and I stood against the

whole House, and mouthed it valiantly--and had some fun and a little

abuse for our opposition. But "I am not i' th' vein" [5] for this

business. Now, had----been here, she would have _made_ me do it.

_There_ is a woman, who, amid all her fascination, always urged a man to

usefulness or glory. Had she remained, she had been my tutelar genius.

Baldwin is very importunate--but, poor fellow, "I can't get out, I can't

get out--said the starling." [6] Ah, I am as bad as that dog Sterne, who

preferred whining over "a dead ass to relieving a living mother"

[7]--villain--hypocrite--slave--sycophant! but _I_ am no better. Here I

cannot stimulate myself to a speech for the sake of these unfortunates,

and three words and half a smile of----had she been here to urge it

(and urge it she infallibly would--at least she always pressed me on

senatorial duties, and particularly in the cause of weakness) would have

made me an advocate, if not an orator. Curse on Rochefoucault for being

always right! In him a lie were virtue,--or, at least, a comfort to his

readers.

George Byron has not called to-day; I hope he will be an admiral, and,

perhaps, Lord Byron into the bargain. If he would but marry, I would

engage never to marry myself, or cut him out of the heirship. He would

be happier, and I should like nephews better than sons.

I shall soon be six-and-twenty (January 22d., 1814). Is there any thing

in the future that can possibly console us for not being always

_twenty-five_?

"Oh Gioventu!

Oh Primavera! gioventu dell' anno.

Oh Gioventu! primavera della vita."

[Footnote 1:

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