Transcribed from the 1913 Hodder and Stoughton edition by David Price,
email ccx074@pglaf.org
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MARK RUTHERFORD’S
DELIVERANCE
BY
MARK RUTHERFORD
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HODDER & STOUGHTON’S
SEVENPENNY LIBRARY
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CONTENTS
PAGE
CHAPTER I
NEWSPAPERS 3
CHAPTER II
M’KAY 23
CHAPTER III
MISS LEROY 40
CHAPTER IV
A NECESSARY DEVELOPMENT 62
CHAPTER V
WHAT IT ALL CAME TO 81
CHAPTER VI
DRURY LANE THEOLOGY 103
CHAPTER VII
QUI DEDIT IN MARI VIAM 116
CHAPTER VIII
FLAGELLUM NON APPROQUINABIT TABERNACULO TUO 127
CHAPTER IX
HOLIDAYS 145
CHAPTER I
NEWSPAPERS
WHEN I had established myself in my new lodgings in Camden Town, I found
I had ten pounds in my pocket, and again there was no outlook. I
examined carefully every possibility. At last I remembered that a
relative of mine, who held some office in the House of Commons, added to
his income by writing descriptive accounts of the debates, throwing in by
way of supplement any stray scraps of gossip which he was enabled to
collect. The rules of the House as to the admission of strangers were
not so strict then as they are now, and he assured me that if I could but
secure a commission from a newspaper, he could pass me into one of the
galleries, and, when there was nothing to be heard worth describing, I
could remain in the lobby, where I should by degrees find many
opportunities of picking up intelligence which would pay. So far, so
good; but how to obtain the commission? I managed to get hold of a list
of all the country papers, and I wrote to nearly every one, offering my
services. I am afraid that I somewhat exaggerated them, for I had two
answers, and, after a little correspondence, two engagements. This was
an unexpected stroke of luck; but alas! both journals circulated in the
same district. I never could get together more stuff than would fill
about a column and a half, and consequently I was obliged, with infinite
pains, to vary, so that it could not be recognised, the form of what, at
bottom, was essentially the same matter. This was work which would have
been disagreeable enough, if I had not now ceased in a great measure to
demand what was agreeable. In years past I coveted a life, not of mere
sensual enjoyment—for that I never cared—but a life which should be
filled with activities of the noblest kind, and it was intolerable to me
to reflect that all my waking hours were in the main passed in merest
drudgery, and that only for a few moments at the beginning or end of the
day could it be said that the higher sympathies were really operative.
Existence to me was nothing but these few moments, and consequently
flitted like a shadow. I was now, however, the better of what was half
disease and half something healthy and good. In the first place, I had
discovered that my appetite was far larger than my powers. Consumed by a
longing for continuous intercourse with the best, I had no ability
whatever to maintain it, and I had accepted as a fact, however mysterious
it might be, that the human mind is created with the impulses of a seraph
and the strength of a man. Furthermore, what was I that I should demand
exceptional treatment? Thousands of men and women superior to myself,
are condemned, if that is the proper word to use, to almost total absence
from themselves. The roar of the world for them is never lulled to rest,
nor can silence ever be secured in which the voice of the Divine can be
heard.
My letters were written twice a week, and as each contained a column and
a half, I had six columns weekly to manufacture. These I was in the
habit of writing in the morning, my evenings being spent at the House.
At first I was rather interested, but after a while the occupation became
tedious beyond measure, and for this reason. In a discussion of any
importance about fifty members perhaps would take part, and had made up
their minds beforehand to speak. There could not possibly be more than
three or four reasons for or against the motion, and as the knowledge
that what the intending orator had to urge had been urged a dozen times
before on that very night never deterred him from urging it again, the
same arguments, diluted, muddled, and mispresented, recurred with the
most wearisome iteration.
The public outside knew nothing or very little of the real House of
Commons, and the manner in which time was squandered there, for the
reports were all of them much abbreviated. In fact, I doubt whether
anybody but the Speaker, and one or two other persons in the same
position as myself, really felt with proper intensity what the waste was,
and how profound was the vanity of members and the itch for expression;
for even the reporters were relieved at stated intervals, and the
impression on their minds was not continuous. Another evil result of
these attendances at the House was a kind of political scepticism. Over
and over again I have seen a Government arraigned for its conduct of
foreign affairs. The evidence lay in masses of correspondence which it
would have required some days to master, and the verdict, after knowing
the facts, ought to have depended upon the application of principles,
each of which admitted a contrary principle for which much might be
pleaded. There were not fifty members in the House with the leisure or
the ability to understand what it was which had actually happened, and if
they had understood it, they would not have had the wit to see what was
the rule which ought to have decided the case. Yet, whether they
understood or not, they were obliged to vote, and what was worse, the
constituencies also had to vote, and so the gravest matters were settled
in utter ignorance. This has often been adduced as an argument against
an extended suffrage, but, if it is an argument against anything, it is
an argument against intrusting the aristocracy and even the House itself
with the destinies of the nation; for no dock labourer could possibly be
more entirely empty of all reasons for action than the noble lords,
squires, lawyers, and railway directors whom I have seen troop to the
division bell. There is something deeper than this scepticism, but the
scepticism is the easiest and the most obvious conclusion to an open mind
dealing so closely and practically with politics as it was my lot to do
at this time of my life. Men must be governed, and when it comes to the
question, by whom? I, for one, would far sooner in the long run trust the
people at large than I would the few, who in everything which relates to
Government are as little instructed as the many and more difficult to
move. The very fickleness of the multitude, the theme of such constant
declamation, is so far good that it proves a susceptibility to
impressions to which men hedged round by impregnable conventionalities
cannot yield. {7}
When I was living in the country, the pure sky and the landscape formed a
large portion of my existence, so large that much of myself depended on
it, and I wondered how men could be worth anything if they could never
see the face of nature. For this belief my early training on the
“Lyrical Ballads” is answerable. When I came to London the same creed
survived, and I was for ever thirsting for intercourse with my ancient
friend. Hope, faith, and God seemed impossible amidst the smoke of the
streets. It was now very difficult for me, except at rare opportunities,
to leave London, and it was necessary for me, therefore, to understand
that all that was essential for me was obtainable there, even though I
should never see anything more than was to be seen in journeying through
the High Street, Camden Town, Tottenham Court Road, the Seven Dials, and
Whitehall. I should have been guilty of a simple surrender to despair if
I had not forced myself to make this discovery. I cannot help saying,
with all my love for the literature of my own day, that it has an evil
side to it which none know except the millions of sensitive persons who
are condemned to exist in great towns. It might be imagined from much of
this literature that true humanity and a belief in God are the offspring
of the hills or the ocean; and by implication, if not expressly, the vast
multitudes who hardly ever see the hills or the ocean must be without a
religion. The long poems which turn altogether upon scenery, perhaps in
foreign lands, and the passionate devotion to it which they breathe, may
perhaps do good in keeping alive in the hearts of men a determination to
preserve air, earth, and water from pollution; but speaking from
experience as a Londoner, I can testify that they are most depressing,
and I would counsel everybody whose position is what mine was to avoid
these books and to associate with those which will help him in his own
circumstances.
Half of my occupation soon came to an end. One of my editors sent me a
petulant note telling me that all I wrote he could easily find out
himself, and that he required something more “graphic and personal.” I
could do no better, or rather I ought to say, no worse than I had been
doing. These letters were a great trouble to me. I was always conscious
of writing so much of which I was not certain, and so much which was
indifferent to me. The unfairness of parties haunted me. But I
continued to write, because I saw no other way of getting a living, and
surely it is a baser dishonesty to depend upon the charity of friends
because some pleasant, clean, ideal employment has not presented itself,
than to soil one’s hands with a little of the inevitable mud. I don’t
think I ever felt anything more keenly than I did a sneer from an
acquaintance of mine who was in the habit of borrowing money from me. He
was a painter, whose pictures were never sold because he never worked
hard enough to know how to draw, and it came to my ears indirectly that
he had said that “he would rather live the life of a medieval ascetic
than condescend to the degradation of scribbling a dozen columns weekly
of utter trash on subjects with which he had no concern.” At that very
moment he owed me five pounds. God knows that I admitted my dozen
columns to be utter trash, but it ought to have been forgiven by those
who saw that I was struggling to save myself from the streets and to keep
a roof over my head. Degraded, however, as I might be, I could not get
down to the “graphic and personal,” for it meant nothing less than the
absolutely false. I therefore contrived to exist on the one letter,
which, excepting the mechanical labour of writing a second, took up as
much of my time as if I had to write two.
Never, but once or twice at the most, did my labours meet with the
slightest recognition beyond payment. Once I remember that I accused a
member of a discreditable manœuvre to consume the time of the House, and
as he represented a borough in my district, he wrote to the editor
denying the charge. The editor without any inquiry—and I believe I was
mistaken—instantly congratulated me on having “scored.” At another time,
when Parliament was not sitting, I ventured, by way of filling up my
allotted space, to say a word on behalf of a now utterly forgotten novel.
I had a letter from the authoress thanking me, but alas! the illusion
vanished. I was tempted by this one novel to look into others which I
found she had written, and I discovered that they were altogether silly.
The attraction of the one of which I thought so highly, was due not to
any real merit which it possessed, but to something I had put into it.
It was dead, but it had served as a wall to re-echo my own voice.
Excepting these two occasions, I don’t think that one solitary human
being ever applauded or condemned one solitary word of which I was the
author. All my friends knew where my contributions were to be found, but
I never heard that they looked at them. They were never worth reading,
and yet such complete silence was rather lonely. The tradesman who makes
a good coat enjoys the satisfaction of having fitted and pleased his
customer, and a bricklayer, if he be diligent, is rewarded by knowing
that his master understands his value, but I never knew what it was to
receive a single response. I wrote for an abstraction; and spoke to
empty space. I cannot help claiming some pity and even respect for the
class to which I belonged. I have heard them called all kinds of hard
names, hacks, drudges, and something even more contemptible, but the
injustice done to them is monstrous. Their wage is hardly earned; it is
peculiarly precarious, depending altogether upon their health, and no
matter how ill they may be they must maintain the liveliness of manner
which is necessary to procure acceptance. I fell in with one poor fellow
whose line was something like my own. I became acquainted with him
through sitting side by side with him at the House. He lived in lodgings
in Goodge Street, and occasionally I walked with him as far as the corner
of Tottenham Court Road, where I caught the last omnibus northward. He
wrote like me a “descriptive article” for the country, but he also wrote
every now and then—a dignity to which I never attained—a “special” for
London. His “descriptive articles” were more political than mine, and he
was obliged to be violently Tory. His creed, however, was such a pure
piece of professionalism, that though I was Radical, and was expected to
be so, we never jarred, and often, as we wandered homewards, we exchanged
notes, and were mutually useful, his observations appearing in my paper,
and mine in his, with proper modifications. How he used to roar in the
_Gazette_ against the opposite party, and yet I never heard anything from
him myself but what was diffident and tender. He had acquired, as an
instrument necessary to him, an extraordinarily extravagant style, and he
laid about him with a bludgeon, which inevitably descended on the heads
of all prominent persons if they happened not to be Conservative, no
matter what their virtues might be. One peculiarity, however, I noted in
him. Although he ought every now and then, when the subject was
uppermost, to have flamed out in the _Gazette_ on behalf of the Church, I
never saw a word from him on that subject. He drew the line at religion.
He did not mind acting his part in things secular, for his performances
were, I am sure, mostly histrionic, but there he stopped. The unreality
of his character was a husk surrounding him, but it did not touch the
core. It was as if he had said to himself, “Political controversy is
nothing to me, and, what is more, is so uncertain that it matters little
whether I say yes or no, nor indeed does it matter if I say yes _and_ no,
and I must keep my wife and children from the workhouse; but when it
comes to the relationship of man to God, it is a different matter.” His
altogether outside vehemence and hypocrisy did in fact react upon him,
and so far from affecting harmfully what lay deeper, produced a more
complete sincerity and transparency extending even to the finest verbal
distinctions. Over and over again have I heard him preach to his wife,
almost with pathos, the duty of perfect exactitude in speech in
describing the commonest occurrences. “Now, my dear, _is_ that so?” was
a perpetual remonstrance with him; and he always insisted upon it that
there is no training more necessary for children than that of teaching
them not merely to speak the truth in the ordinary, vulgar sense of the
term, but to speak it in a much higher sense, by rigidly compelling,
point by point, a correspondence of the words with the fact external or
internal. He never would tolerate in his own children a mere hackneyed,
borrowed expression, but demanded exact portraiture; and nothing vexed
him more than to hear one of them spoil and make worthless what he or she
had seen, by reporting it in some stale phrase which had been used by
everybody. This refusal to take the trouble to watch the presentment to
the mind of anything which had been placed before it, and to reproduce it
in its own lines and colours was, as he said, nothing but falsehood, and
he maintained that the principal reason why people are so uninteresting
is not that they have nothing to say. It is rather that they will not
face the labour of saying in their own tongue what they have to say, but
cover it up and conceal it in commonplace, so that we get, not what they
themselves behold and what they think, but a hieroglyphic or symbol
invented as the representative of a certain class of objects or emotions,
and as inefficient to represent a particular object or emotion as _x_ or
_y_ to set forth the relation of Hamlet to Ophelia. He would even
exercise his children in this art of the higher truthfulness, and would
purposely make them give him an account of something which he had seen
and they had seen, checking them the moment he saw a lapse from
originality. Such was the Tory correspondent of the _Gazette_.
I ought to say, by way of apology for him, that in his day it signified
little or nothing whether Tory or Whig was in power. Politics had not
become what they will one day become, a matter of life or death, dividing
men with really private love and hate. What a mockery controversy was in
the House! How often I have seen members, who were furious at one
another across the floor, quietly shaking hands outside, and inviting one
another to dinner! I have heard them say that we ought to congratulate
ourselves that parliamentary differences do not in this country breed
personal animosities. To me this seemed anything but a subject of
congratulation. Men who are totally at variance ought not to be friends,
and if Radical and Tory are not totally, but merely superficially at
variance, so much the worse for their Radicalism and Toryism.
It is possible, and even probable, that the public fury and the
subsequent amity were equally absurd. Most of us have no real loves and
no real hatreds. Blessed is love, less blessed is hatred, but thrice
accursed is that indifference which is neither one nor the other, the
muddy mess which men call friendship.
M’Kay—for that was his name—lived, as I have said, in Goodge Street,
where he had unfurnished apartments. I often spent part of the Sunday
with him, and I may forestall obvious criticism by saying that I do not
pretend for a moment to defend myself from inconsistency in denouncing
members of Parliament for their duplicity, M’Kay and myself being also
guilty of something very much like it. But there was this difference
between us and our parliamentary friends, that we always divested
ourselves of all hypocrisy when we were alone. We then dropped the stage
costume which members continued to wear in the streets and at the
dinner-table, and in which some of them even slept and said their
prayers.
London Sundays to persons who are not attached to any religious
community, and have no money to spend, are rather dreary. We tried
several ways of getting through the morning. If we heard that there was
a preacher with a reputation, we went to hear him. As a rule, however,
we got no good in that way. Once we came to a chapel where there was a
minister supposed to be one of the greatest orators of the day. We had
much difficulty in finding standing room. Just as we entered we heard
him say, “My friends, I appeal to those of you who are parents. You know
that if you say to a child ‘go,’ he goeth, and if you say ‘come,’ he
cometh. So the Lord”— But at this point M’Kay, who had children, nudged
me to come out; and out we went. Why does this little scene remain with
me? I can hardly say, but here it stands. It is remembered, not so much
by reason of the preacher as by reason of the apparent acquiescence and
admiration of the audience, who seemed to be perfectly willing to take
over an experience from their pastor—if indeed it was really an
experience—which was not their own. Our usual haunts on Sunday were
naturally the parks and Kensington Gardens; but artificial limited
enclosures are apt to become wearisome after a time, and we longed for a
little more freedom if a little less trim. So we would stroll towards
Hampstead or Highgate, the only drawback to these regions being the
squalid, ragged, half town, half suburb, through which it was necessary
to pass. The skirts of London when the air is filled with north-easterly
soot, grit, and filth, are cheerless, and the least cheerful part of the
scene is the inability of the vast wandering masses of people to find any
way of amusing themselves. At the corner of one of the fields in Kentish
Town, just about to be devoured, stood a public-house, and opposite the
door was generally encamped a man who sold nothing but Brazil nuts.
Swarms of people lazily wandered past him, most of them waiting for the
public-house to open. Brazil nuts on a cold black Sunday morning are not
exhilarating, but the costermonger found many customers who bought his
nuts, and ate them, merely because they had nothing better to do. We
went two or three times to a freethinking hall, where we were entertained
with demonstrations of the immorality of the patriarchs and Jewish
heroes, and arguments to prove that the personal existence of the devil
was a myth, the audience breaking out into uproarious laughter at comical
delineations of Noah and Jonah. One morning we found the place
completely packed. A “celebrated Christian,” as he was described to us,
having heard of the hall, had volunteered to engage in debate on the
claims of the Old Testament to Divine authority. He turned out to be a
preacher whom we knew quite well. He was introduced by his freethinking
antagonist, who claimed for him a respectful hearing. The preacher said
that before beginning he should like to “engage in prayer.” Accordingly
he came to the front of the platform, lifted up his eyes, told God why he
was there, and besought Him to bless the discussion in the conversion “of
these poor wandering souls, who have said in their hearts that there is
no God, to a saving faith in Him and in the blood of Christ.” I expected
that some resentment would be displayed when the wandering souls found
themselves treated like errant sheep, but to my surprise they listened
with perfect silence; and when he had said “Amen,” there were great
clappings of hands, and cries of “Bravo.” They evidently considered the
prayer merely as an elocutionary show-piece. The preacher was much
disconcerted, but he recovered himself, and began his sermon, for it was
nothing more. He enlarged on the fact that men of the highest eminence
had believed in the Old Testament. Locke and Newton had believed in it,
and did it not prove arrogance in us to doubt when the “gigantic
intellect which had swept the skies, and had announced the law which
bound the universe together was satisfied?” The witness of the Old
Testament to the New was another argument, but his main reliance was upon
the prophecies. From Adam to Isaiah there was a continuous prefigurement
of Christ. Christ was the point to which everything tended; and “now, my
friends,” he said, “I cannot sit down without imploring you to turn your
eyes on Him who never yet repelled the sinner, to wash in that eternal
Fountain ever open for the remission of sins, and to flee from the wrath
to come. I believe the sacred symbol of the cross has not yet lost its
efficacy. For eighteen hundred years, whenever it has been exhibited to
the sons of men, it has been potent to reclaim and save them. ‘I, if I
be lifted up,’ cried the Great Sufferer, ‘will draw all men unto Me,’ and
He has drawn not merely the poor and ignorant but the philosopher and the
sage. Oh, my brethren, think what will happen if you reject Him. I
forbear to paint your doom. And think again, on the other hand, of the
bliss which awaits you if you receive Him, of the eternal companionship
with the Most High and with the spirits of just men made perfect.” His
hearers again applauded vigorously, and none less so than their appointed
leader, who was to follow on the other side. He was a little man with
small eyes; his shaven face was dark with a black beard lurking under the
skin, and his nose was slightly turned up. He was evidently a trained
debater who had practised under railway arches, discussion “forums,” and
in the classes promoted by his sect. He began by saying that he could
not compliment his friend who had just sat down on the inducements which
he had offered them to become Christians. The New Cut was not a nice
place on a wet day, but he had rather sit at a stall there all day long
with his feet on a basket than lie in the bosom of some of the just men
made perfect portrayed in the Bible. Nor, being married, should he feel
particularly at ease if he had to leave his wife with David. David
certainly ought to have got beyond all that kind of thing, considering it
must be over 3000 years since he first saw Bathsheba; but we are told
that the saints are for ever young in heaven, and this treacherous
villain, who would have been tried by a jury of twelve men and hung
outside Newgate if he had lived in the nineteenth century, might be
dangerous now. He was an amorous old gentleman up to the very last.
(Roars of laughter.) Nor did the speaker feel particularly anxious to be
shut up with all the bishops, who of course are amongst the elect, and on
their departure from this vale of tears tempered by ten thousand a year,
are duly supplied with wings. Much more followed in the same strain upon
the immorality of the Bible heroes, their cruelty, and the cruelty of the
God who sanctioned it. Then followed a clever exposition of the
inconsistencies of the Old Testament history, the impossibility of any
reference to Jesus therein, and a really earnest protest against the
quibbling by which those who believed in the Bible as a revelation sought
to reconcile it with science. “Finally,” said the speaker, “I am sure we
all of us will pass a vote of thanks to our reverend friend for coming to
see us, and we cordially invite him to come again. If I might be allowed
to offer a suggestion, it would be that he should make himself acquainted
with our case before he pays us another visit, and not suppose that we
are to be persuaded with the rhetoric which may do very well for the
young women of his congregation, but won’t go down here.” This was fair
and just, for the eminent Christian was nothing but an ordinary minister,
who, when he was prepared for his profession, had never been allowed to
see what are the historical difficulties of Christianity, lest he should
be overcome by them. On the other hand, his sceptical opponents were
almost devoid of the faculty for appreciating the great remains of
antiquity, and would probably have considered the machinery of the
Prometheus Bound or of the Iliad a sufficient reason for a sneer. That
they should spend their time in picking the Bible to pieces when there
was so much positive work for them to do, seemed to me as melancholy as
if they had spent themselves upon theology. To waste a Sunday morning in
ridiculing such stories as that of Jonah was surely as imbecile as to
waste it in proving their verbal veracity.