CHAPTER XXIX. THE VALE OF THE BLUE

Austen himself could not well have defined his mental state as he made

his way through the big rooms towards the door, but he was aware of one

main desire--to escape from Fairview. With the odours of the flowers

in the tall silver vases on the piano--her piano!--the spirit of

desire which had so long possessed him, waking and sleeping,

returned,--returned to torture him now with greater skill amidst these

her possessions; her volume of Chopin on the rack, bound in red leather

and stamped with her initials, which compelled his glance as he passed,

and brought vivid to his memory the night he had stood in the snow and

heard her playing. So, he told himself, it must always be, for him to

stand in the snow listening.

He reached the hall, with a vast relief perceived that it was empty, and

opened the door and went out. Strange that he should note, first of all,

as he parsed a moment at the top of the steps, that the very day had

changed. The wind had fallen; the sun, well on his course towards the

rim of western hills, poured the golden light of autumn over field and

forest, while Sawanec was already in the blue shadow; the expectant

stillness of autumn reigned, and all unconsciously Austen's blood was

quickened though a quickening of pain.

The surprise of the instant over, he noticed that his horse was

gone,--had evidently been taken to the stables. And rather than ring the

bell and wait in the mood in which he found himself, he took the path

through the shrubbery from which he had seen the groom emerge.

It turned beyond the corner of the house, descended a flight of stone

steps, and turned again.

They stood gazing each at the other for a space of time not to be

computed before either spoke, and the sense of unreality which comes

with a sudden fulfilment of intense desire--or dread--was upon Austen.

Could this indeed be her figure, and this her face on which he watched

the colour rise (so he remembered afterwards) like the slow flood

of day? Were there so many Victorias, that a new one--and a strange

one--should confront him at every meeting? And, even while he looked,

this Victoria, too,--one who had been near him and departed,--was

surveying him now from an unapproachable height of self-possession and

calm. She held out her hand, and he took it, scarce knowing--that it was

hers.

“How do you do, Mr. Vane?” she said; “I did not expect to meet you

here.”

“I was searching for the stable, to get my horse,” he answered lamely.

“And your father?” she asked quickly; “I hope he is not--worse.”

It was thus she supplied him, quite naturally, with an excuse for being

at Fairview. And yet her solicitude for Hilary was wholly unaffected.

“Dr. Harmon, who came from New York, has been more encouraging than I

had dared to hope,” said Austen. “And, by the way, Mr. Vane believes

that you had a share in the fruit and flowers which Mr. Flint so kindly

brought. If--he had known that I were to see you, I am sure he would

have wished me to thank you.”

Victoria turned, and tore a leaf from the spiraea.

“I will show you where the stables are,” she said; “the path divides a

little farther on--and you might find yourself in the kitchen.”

Austen smiled, and as she went on slowly, he followed her, the path not

being wide enough for them to walk abreast, his eyes caressing the stray

hairs that clustered about her neck and caught the light. It seemed so

real, and yet so unrealizable, that he should be here with her.

“I am afraid,” he said, “that I did not express my gratitude as I should

have done the evening you were good enough to come up to Jabe Jenney's.”

He saw her colour rise again, but she did not pause.

“Please don't say anything about it, Mr. Vane. Of course I understand

how you felt,” she cried.

“Neither my father nor myself will forget that service,” said Austen.

“It was nothing,” answered Victoria, in a low voice. “Or, rather, it was

something I shall always be glad that I did not miss. I have seen Mr.

Vane all my life, but I never=-never really knew him until that day. I

have come to the conclusion,” she added, in a lighter tone, “that the

young are not always the best judges of the old. There,” she added, “is

the path that goes to the kitchen, which you probably would have taken.”

He laughed. Past and future were blotted out, and he lived only in the

present. He could think of nothing but that she was here beside him.

Afterwards, cataclysms might come and welcome.

“Isn't there another place,” he asked, “where I might lose my way?”

She turned and gave him one of the swift, searching looks he recalled

so well: a look the meaning of which he could not declare, save that she

seemed vainly striving to fathom something in him--as though he were

not fathomable! He thought she smiled a little as she took the left-hand

path.

“You will remember me to your father?” she said. “I hope he is not

suffering.”

“He is not suffering,” Austen replied. “Perhaps--if it were not too

much to ask--perhaps you might come to see him, sometime? I can think of

nothing that would give him greater pleasure.”

“I will come--sometime,” she answered. “I am going away to-morrow,

but--”

“Away?” he repeated, in dismay. Now that he was beside her, all

unconsciously the dominating male spirit which was so strong in him, and

which moves not woman alone, but the world, was asserting itself. For

the moment he was the only man, and she the only woman, in the universe.

“I am going on a promised visit to a friend of mine.”

“For how long?” he demanded.

“I don't know, said Victoria, calmly; probably until she gets tired of

me. And there,” she added, “are the stables, where no doubt you will

find your faithful Pepper.”

They had come out upon an elevation above the hard service drive, and

across it, below them, was the coach house with its clock-tower and

weather-vane, and its two wings, enclosing a paved court where a

whistling stable-boy was washing a carriage. Austen regarded this scene

an instant, and glanced back at her profile. It was expressionless.

“Might I not linger--a few minutes?” he asked.

Her lips parted slightly in a smile, and she turned her head. How

wonderfully, he thought, it was poised upon her shoulders.

“I haven't been very hospitable, have I?” she said. “But then, you seemed

in such a hurry to go, didn't you? You were walking so fast when I met

you that you quite frightened me.”

“Was I?” asked Austen, in surprise.

She laughed.

“You looked as if you were ready to charge somebody. But this isn't a

very nice place--to linger, and if you really will stay awhile,” said

Victoria, “we might walk over to the dairy, where that model protege of

yours, Eben Fitch, whom you once threatened with corporal chastisement

if he fell from grace, is engaged. I know he will be glad to see you.”

Austen laughed as he caught up with her. She was already halfway across

the road.

“Do you always beat people if they do wrong?” she asked.

“It was Eben who requested it, if I remember rightly,” he said.

“Fortunately, the trial has not yet arrived. Your methods,” he added,

“seem to be more successful with Eben.”

They went down the grassy slope with its groups of half-grown trees;

through an orchard shot with slanting, yellow sunlight,--the golden

fruit, harvested by the morning winds, littering the ground; and then

by a gate into a dimpled, emerald pasture slope where the Guernseys were

feeding along a water run. They spoke of trivial things that found no

place in Austen's memory, and at times, upon one pretext or another, he

fell behind a little that he might feast his eyes upon her.

Eben was not at the dairy, and Austen betraying no undue curiosity as to

his whereabouts, they walked on up the slopes, and still upward towards

the crest of the range of hills that marked the course of the Blue. He

did not allow his mind to dwell upon this new footing they were on,

but clung to it. Before, in those delicious moments with her, seemingly

pilfered from the angry gods, the sense of intimacy had been deep; deep,

because robbing the gods together, they had shared the feeling of guilt,

had known that retribution would coma. And now the gods had locked their

treasure-chest, although themselves powerless to redeem from him the

memory of what he had gained. Nor could they, apparently, deprive him of

the vision of her in the fields and woods beside him, though transformed

by their magic into a new Victoria, keeping him lightly and easily at a

distance.

Scattering the sheep that flecked the velvet turf of the uplands, they

stood at length on the granite crown of the crest itself. Far below them

wound the Blue into its vale of sapphire shadows, with its hillsides of

the mystic fabric of the backgrounds of the masters of the Renaissance.

For a while they stood in silence under the spell of the scene's

enchantment, and then Victoria seated herself on the rock, and he

dropped to a place at her side.

“I thought you would like the view,” she said; “but perhaps you have

been here, perhaps I am taking you to one of your own possessions.”

He had flung his hat upon the rock, and she glanced at his serious,

sunburned face. His eyes were still fixed, contemplatively, on the Yale

of the Blue, but he turned to her with a smile.

“It has become yours by right of conquest,” he answered.

She did not reply to that. The immobility of her face, save for the

one look she had flashed upon him, surprised and puzzled him more and

more--the world--old, indefinable, eternal feminine quality of the

Spring.

“So you refused to be governor? she said presently,--surprising him

again.

“It scarcely came to that,” he replied.

“What did it come to?” she demanded.

He hesitated.

“I had to go down to the capital, on my father's account, but I did not

go to the convention. I stayed,” he said slowly, “at the little cottage

across from the Duncan house where--you were last winter.” He paused,

but she gave no sign. “Tom Gaylord came up there late in the afternoon,

and wanted me to be a candidate.”

“And you refused?”

“Yes.”

“But you could have been nominated!”

“Yes,” he admitted; “it is probable. The conditions were chaotic.”

“Are you sure you have done right?” she asked. “It has always seemed

to me from what I know and have heard of you that you were made for

positions of trust. You would have been a better governor than the man

they have nominated.”

His expression became set.

“I am sure I have done right,” he answered deliberately. “It doesn't

make any difference who is governor this time.”

“Doesn't make any difference!” she exclaimed.

“No,” he said. “Things have changed--the people have changed. The old

method of politics, which was wrong, although it had some justification

in conditions, has gone out. A new and more desirable state of affairs

has come. I am at liberty to say this much to you now,” he added, fixing

his glance upon her, “because my father has resigned as counsel for the

Northeastern, and I have just had a talk with--Mr. Flint.”

“You have seen my father?” she asked, in a low voice, and her face was

averted.

“Yes,” he answered.

“You--did not agree,” she said quickly.

His blood beat higher at the question and the manner of her asking it,

but he felt that he must answer it honestly, unequivocally, whatever the

cost.

“No, we did not agree. It is only fair to tell you that we

differed--vitally. On the other hand, it is just that you should know

that we did not part in anger, but, I think, with a mutual respect.”

She drew breath.

“I knew,” she said, “I knew if he could but talk to you he would

understand that you were sincere--and you have proved it. I am glad--I

am glad that you saw him.” The quality of the sunlight changed, the very

hills leaped, and the river sparkled. Could she care? Why did she wish

her father to know that he was sincere.

“You are glad that I saw him!” he repeated.

But she met his glance steadily.

“My father has so little faith in human nature,” she answered. “He has

a faculty of doubting the honesty of his opponents--I suppose because

so many of them have been dishonest. And--I believe in my friends,” she

added, smiling. “Isn't it natural that I should wish to have my judgment

vindicated?”

He got to his feet and walked slowly to the far edge of the rock, where

he stood for a while, seemingly gazing off across the spaces to

Sawanec. It was like him, thus to question the immutable. Victoria sat

motionless, but her eyes followed irresistibly the lines of power in the

tall figure against the sky--the breadth of shoulder and slimness of hip

and length of limb typical of the men who had conquered and held this

land for their descendants. Suddenly, with a characteristic movement

of determination; he swung about and came towards her, and at the same

instant she rose.

“Don't you think we should be going back?” she said.

Rut he seemed not to hear her.

“May I ask you something?” he said.

“That depends,” she answered.

“Are you going to marry Mr. Rangely?”

“No,” she said, and turned away. “Why did you think that?”

He quivered.

“Victoria!”

She looked up at him, swiftly, half revealed, her eyes like stars

surprised by the flush of dawn in her cheeks. Hope quickened at the

vision of hope, the seats of judgment themselves were filled with

radiance, and rumour, cowered and fled like the spirit of night. He

could only gaze, enraptured.

“Yes?” she answered.

His voice was firm but low, yet vibrant with sincerity, with the vast

store of feeling, of compelling magnetism that was in the man and moved

in spite of themselves those who knew him. His words Victoria remembered

afterwards--all of them; but it was to the call of the voice she

responded. His was the fibre which grows stronger in times of crisis.

Sure of himself, proud of the love which he declared, he spoke as a man

who has earned that for which he prays,--simply and with dignity.

“I love you,” he said; “I have known it since I have known you, but you

must see why I could not tell you so. It was very hard, for there were

times when I led myself to believe that you might come to love me. There

were times when I should have gone away if I hadn't made a promise to

stay in Ripton. I ask you to marry me, because I--know that I shall love

you as long as I live. I can give you this, at least, and I can promise

to protect and cherish you. I cannot give you that to which you have

been accustomed all your life, that which you have here at Fairview,

but I shouldn't say this to you if I believed that you cared for them

above--other things.”

“Oh, Austen!” she cried, “I do not--I--do not! They would be hateful to

me--without you. I would rather live with you--at Jabe Jenney's,” and

her voice caught in an exquisite note between laughter and tears. “I

love you, do you understand, you! Oh, how could you ever have doubted

it? How could you? What you believe, I believe. And, Austen, I have been

so unhappy for three days.”

He never knew whether, as the most precious of graces ever conferred

upon man, with a womanly gesture she had raised her arms and laid her

hands upon his shoulders before he drew her to him and kissed her face,

that vied in colour with the coming glow in the western sky. Above the

prying eyes of men, above the world itself, he held her, striving to

realize some little of the vast joy of this possession, and failing. And

at last she drew away from him, gently, that she might look searchingly

into his face again, and shook her head slowly.

“And you were going away,” she said, “without a word I thought--you

didn't care. How could I have known that you were just--stupid?”

His eyes lighted with humour and tenderness.

“How long have you cared, Victoria?” he asked.

She became thoughtful.

“Always, I think,” she answered; “only I didn't know it. I think I loved

you even before I saw you.”

“Before you saw me!”

“I think it began,” said Victoria, “when I learned that you had shot Mr.

Blodgett--only I hope you will never do such a thing again. And you will

please try to remember,” she added, after a moment, “that I am neither

Eben Fitch nor your friend, Tom Gaylord.”

Sunset found them seated on the rock, with the waters of the river

turned to wine at the miracle in the sky their miracle. At times their

eyes wandered to the mountain, which seemed to regard them from a

discreet distance--with a kindly and protecting majesty.

“And you promised,” said Victoria, “to take me up there. When will you

do it?”

“I thought you were going away,” he replied.

“Unforeseen circumstances,” she answered, “have compelled me to change

my plans.”

“Then we will go tomorrow,” he said.

“To the Delectable Land,” said Victoria, dreamily; “your land, where we

shall be--benevolent despots. Austen?”

“Yes?” He had not ceased to thrill at the sound of his name upon her

lips.

“Do you think,” she asked, glancing at him, “do you think you have money

enough to go abroad--just for a little while?”

He laughed joyously.

“I don't know,” he said, “but I shall make it a point to examine my

bank-account to-night. I haven't done so--for some time.”

“We will go to Venice, and drift about in a gondola on one of those gray

days when the haze comes in from the Adriatic and touches the city with

the magic of the past. Sometimes I like the gray days best--when I am

happy. And then,” she added, regarding him critically, “although you are

very near perfection, there are some things you ought to see and learn

to make your education complete. I will take you to all the queer

places I love. When you are ambassador to France, you know, it would be

humiliating to have to have an interpreter, wouldn't it?”

“What's the use of both of us knowing the language?” he demanded.

“I'm afraid we shall be--too happy,” she sighed, presently.

“Too happy!” he repeated.

“I sometimes wonder,” she said, “whether happiness and achievement go

together. And yet--I feel sure that you will achieve.”

“To please you, Victoria,” he answered, “I think I should almost be

willing to try.”

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