CHAPTER XXX. ADAM EXPLAINS

“We must be on our guard,” he said, “or she will again outwit us. She

would befool the very elect!”

“How are we to be on our guard?” I asked.

“Every way,” he answered. “She fears, therefore hates her child, and is

in this house on her way to destroy her. The birth of children is in her

eyes the death of their parents, and every new generation the enemy of

the last. Her daughter appears to her an open channel through which her

immortality--which yet she counts self-inherent--is flowing fast away:

to fill it up, almost from her birth she has pursued her with an utter

enmity. But the result of her machinations hitherto is, that in the

region she claims as her own, has appeared a colony of children, to

which that daughter is heart and head and sheltering wings. My Eve

longed after the child, and would have been to her as a mother to her

first-born, but we were then unfit to train her: she was carried into

the wilderness, and for ages we knew nothing of her fate. But she was

divinely fostered, and had young angels for her playmates; nor did she

ever know care until she found a baby in the wood, and the mother-heart

in her awoke. One by one she has found many children since, and that

heart is not yet full. Her family is her absorbing charge, and never

children were better mothered. Her authority over them is without

appeal, but it is unknown to herself, and never comes to the surface

except in watchfulness and service. She has forgotten the time when she

lived without them, and thinks she came herself from the wood, the first

of the family.

“You have saved the life of her and their enemy; therefore your life

belongs to her and them. The princess was on her way to destroy them,

but as she crossed that stream, vengeance overtook her, and she would

have died had you not come to her aid. You did; and ere now she would

have been raging among the Little Ones, had she dared again cross the

stream. But there was yet a way to the blessed little colony through the

world of the three dimensions; only, from that, by the slaying of her

former body, she had excluded herself, and except in personal contact

with one belonging to it, could not re-enter it. You provided the

opportunity: never, in all her long years, had she had one before. Her

hand, with lightest touch, was on one or other of your muffled feet,

every step as you climbed. In that little chamber, she is now watching

to leave it as soon as ever she may.”

“She cannot know anything about the door!--she cannot at least know how

to open it!” I said; but my heart was not so confident as my words.

“Hush, hush!” whispered the librarian, with uplifted hand; “she can hear

through anything!--You must go at once, and make your way to my wife’s

cottage. I will remain to keep guard over her.”

“Let me go to the Little Ones!” I cried.

“Beware of that, Mr. Vane. Go to my wife, and do as she tells you.”

His advice did not recommend itself: why haste to encounter measureless

delay? If not to protect the children, why go at all? Alas, even now I

believed him only enough to ask him questions, not to obey him!

“Tell me first, Mr. Raven,” I said, “why, of all places, you have shut

her up there! The night I ran from your house, it was immediately into

that closet!”

“The closet is no nearer our cottage, and no farther from it, than any

or every other place.”

“But,” I returned, hard to persuade where I could not understand, “how

is it then that, when you please, you take from that same door a whole

book where I saw and felt only a part of one? The other part, you have

just told me, stuck through into your library: when you put it again on

the shelf, will it not again stick through into that? Must not then the

two places, in which parts of the same volume can at the same moment

exist, lie close together? Or can one part of the book be in space, or

SOMEWHERE, and the other out of space, or NOWHERE?”

“I am sorry I cannot explain the thing to you,” he answered; “but there

is no provision in you for understanding it. Not merely, therefore,

is the phenomenon inexplicable to you, but the very nature of it is

inapprehensible by you. Indeed I but partially apprehend it myself. At

the same time you are constantly experiencing things which you not only

do not, but cannot understand. You think you understand them, but your

understanding of them is only your being used to them, and therefore not

surprised at them. You accept them, not because you understand them,

but because you must accept them: they are there, and have unavoidable

relations with you! The fact is, no man understands anything; when he

knows he does not understand, that is his first tottering step--not

toward understanding, but toward the capability of one day

understanding. To such things as these you are not used, therefore you

do not fancy you understand them. Neither I nor any man can here help

you to understand; but I may, perhaps, help you a little to believe!”

He went to the door of the closet, gave a low whistle, and stood

listening. A moment after, I heard, or seemed to hear, a soft whir of

wings, and, looking up, saw a white dove perch for an instant on the top

of the shelves over the portrait, thence drop to Mr. Raven’s shoulder,

and lay her head against his cheek. Only by the motions of their two

heads could I tell that they were talking together; I heard nothing.

Neither had I moved my eyes from them, when suddenly she was not there,

and Mr. Raven came back to his seat.

“Why did you whistle?” I asked. “Surely sound here is not sound there!”

“You are right,” he answered. “I whistled that you might know I called

her. Not the whistle, but what the whistle meant reached her.--There is

not a minute to lose: you must go!”

“I will at once!” I replied, and moved for the door.

“You will sleep to-night at my hostelry!” he said--not as a question,

but in a tone of mild authority.

“My heart is with the children,” I replied. “But if you insist----”

“I do insist. You can otherwise effect nothing.--I will go with you as

far as the mirror, and see you off.”

He rose. There came a sudden shock in the closet. Apparently the

leopardess had flung herself against the heavy door. I looked at my

companion.

“Come; come!” he said.

Ere we reached the door of the library, a howling yell came after

us, mingled with the noise of claws that scored at the hard oak. I

hesitated, and half turned.

“To think of her lying there alone,” I murmured, “--with that terrible

wound!”

“Nothing will ever close that wound,” he answered, with a sigh. “It must

eat into her heart! Annihilation itself is no death to evil. Only good

where evil was, is evil dead. An evil thing must live with its evil

until it chooses to be good. That alone is the slaying of evil.”

I held my peace until a sound I did not understand overtook us.

“If she should break loose!” I cried.

“Make haste!” he rejoined. “I shall hurry down the moment you are gone,

and I have disarranged the mirrors.”

We ran, and reached the wooden chamber breathless. Mr. Raven seized the

chains and adjusted the hood. Then he set the mirrors in their proper

relation, and came beside me in front of the standing one. Already I saw

the mountain range emerging from the mist.

Between us, wedging us asunder, darted, with the yell of a demon, the

huge bulk of the spotted leopardess. She leaped through the mirror as

through an open window, and settled at once into a low, even, swift

gallop.

I cast a look of dismay at my companion, and sprang through to follow

her. He came after me leisurely.

“You need not run,” he called; “you cannot overtake her. This is our

way.”

As he spoke he turned in the opposite direction.

“She has more magic at her finger-tips than I care to know!” he added

quietly.

“We must do what we can!” I said, and ran on, but sickening as I saw her

dwindle in the distance, stopped, and went back to him.

“Doubtless we must,” he answered. “But my wife has warned Mara, and she

will do her part; you must sleep first: you have given me your word!”

“Nor do I mean to break it. But surely sleep is not the first thing!

Surely, surely, action takes precedence of repose!”

“A man can do nothing he is not fit to do.--See! did I not tell you Mara

would do her part?”

I looked whither he pointed, and saw a white spot moving at an acute

angle with the line taken by the leopardess.

“There she is!” he cried. “The spotted leopardess is strong, but the

white is stronger!”

“I have seen them fight: the combat did not appear decisive as to that.”

“How should such eyes tell which have never slept? The princess did

not confess herself beaten--that she never does--but she fled! When she

confesses her last hope gone, that it is indeed hard to kick against

the goad, then will her day begin to dawn! Come; come! He who cannot act

must make haste to sleep!”

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