CHAPTER V--PAUL HESITATES

"Poor child, you are dripping wet! You'll catch your death of cold!"

cried Mrs. Lambert, noticing Paul's state for the first time. "What can

I be thinking of! You must have a hot bath and some dry things at once.

Carl, take Paul up to your room, dear, and see that he makes himself

_very_ comfortable. I must see to supper. You must be starving, too!"

Accordingly, Carl undertook his duties as host as hospitably as he

could, and Paul followed him upstairs.

In a moment or two Carl returned, wearing the prim expression of one who

would like to express his opinion, and is merely waiting to be asked,

and at length, one by one, the family began, naturally enough, to

discuss the impression that the newcomer had made on them, severally.

The criticisms were very kindly, but at the same time, it soon became

clear that so far no one felt any great enthusiasm for the stranger. His

curt manner had hurt his aunt and his grandmother, who had been so eager

in their welcome to the fatherless boy, and had irritated Mr. Lambert.

The short, brusque answers he had given to the endless kindly questions

with which he had been plied, had discouraged the well-meant, and very

natural curiosity of his relatives, and had made them feel rather

uncomfortable.

Grandmother Winkler and Mrs. Lambert staunchly insisted that the poor

boy was only lonely and unhappy; but down in their hearts they had been

sadly disappointed in Franz's son. Elise also ranged herself in his

defense, feeling that any disapproval, expressed or unexpressed, of the

new head of the clan, was a form of treason.

"Think how you would feel, Carl," she said, "if you had lost your

father, and had landed in a strange country among strangers--for after

all we _are_ strangers to Paul."

"That's all right," returned Carl, "I could understand it if he were

just gloomy. But I don't see any reason why he has to be downright

disagreeable."

"I'm sure he doesn't mean to be disagreeable, my dear," said Mrs.

Lambert.

"Well, we mustn't lose any time in getting the boy settled down to his

work," said Mr. Lambert. "That will take his mind off his own troubles.

I shall have a talk with him after supper."

"I shook hands with him, and said I was glad to see him, and he just

stared at me as if I were a--a fish," went on Carl, still dwelling on

his own grievances. "I know he's here to stay, and I'll try to get on

with him, though I'll tell you right now, it's not going to be an easy

job. And I hope to goodness I won't have to room with him permanently,

mother. Can't you find somewhere to put him? Can't you--" Carl broke off

abruptly, reddening, for at that moment Paul entered the room. He was

scrubbed and brushed, and, dressed in Mr. Lambert's summer suit, looked

vastly better than the young tramp who had entered their midst an hour

before. Unfortunately he had overheard Carl's remark, and his expression

had changed from one that was almost friendly to the stony, immobile

look that absolutely altered the whole character of his face. The cozy

family scene in the dining room, where now the table had been set, and

the lamp lighted, and where the firelight shone upon the faces of three

generations, from Granny to little Minie, had done much to make Paul

feel that he would be happy after all among these simple, happy

people--until his quick ears caught Carl's unkind remark.

Only Jane had seen the look that showed he had overheard; but everyone

felt that he had, and an awkward little silence followed his entrance,

during which Elise glanced at her brother in distress, and Mrs. Lambert

struggled to think of something to say that would mend matters a little.

But Carl met his cousin's eyes defiantly, and from that moment the tacit

hostility of the two boys was sealed.

So Paul, who had been on the verge of thawing a little, had frozen up

again. He concluded immediately that _everyone_ disliked him, and like

many sensitive people, instead of attempting to overcome this imagined

dislike, he carefully hid all that was winning in his nature, under his

cold, unsympathetic manner. He even fancied that his aunt's affectionate

little attentions were only assumed to hide her real feelings. Poor Aunt

Gertrude! No one in the world was less capable of insincerity than she,

and her gentle heart ached over the forlorn, taciturn youth.

Supper was a decidedly uncomfortable meal; and Paul, who had felt that

he could have eaten the proverbial fatted calf, found it difficult to

swallow a mouthful. During the journey there had been too much to occupy

him, too many difficulties and strange events for him to think much

about the abrupt change that had taken place in his life; but now, as he

sat with his eyes on his plate, in the midst of these strange faces, he

felt as if the bottom had dropped out of everything. A perfect wave of

depression engulfed him, and all he wished for was to get off by

himself.

"Well, my boy, are you too tired to have a little talk?" asked Mr.

Lambert, at length pushing back his chair.

"No, sir," muttered Paul, curtly, thinking to himself, "I don't suppose

that they want to have me on their hands any longer than is necessary."

"Children, you may prepare your lessons in your own rooms to-night.

Well, Paul, suppose you and I get over here into my corner," suggested

Mr. Lambert, walking across to his desk. "Sit down."

Paul sat down, folded his hands in his lap, and fixed his eyes

attentively on the window. The rain still rattled on the glass panes,

and the wind banged the shutters, and moaned through the leafless trees.

"I am only going to acquaint you with the wishes which your father--my

poor brother--expressed in a recent letter," began Mr. Lambert,

rummaging through his orderly pigeon-holes. "It might be best for you to

read it for yourself." But Paul declined the letter with a gesture.

"Ah, well," said Mr. Lambert, replacing the poor, blotted sheets in the

envelope, "I don't want to pain you, my dear boy, and I would not touch

on the subject at all, if I did not feel that it were best for you to

find something to occupy your thoughts at this time." He paused, but as

Paul did not seem to think it necessary to make any reply, he continued:

"You must understand how deeply I am interested in your affairs. Er--how

old are you?"

"Seventeen, sir."

"Seventeen? I should have thought you were older. But seventeen is not

an age of childhood, and in any event I feel that you are fully capable

of assuming the responsibilities which must fall upon you as the

only--living--male descendant--of--the Winkler Family." Mr. Lambert

uttered these last words with an impressiveness that cannot be

described. Paul looked up, suddenly interested, and with a wary,

defensive expression.

"No doubt your father acquainted you with his wishes?"

"My father told me to come to you, and that you would help me," said

Paul.

"Help you? Indeed I will help you. I would help you in any event because

you are my nephew, and blood runs thicker than water, my boy. Always

remember that. But believe me, it is not family duty alone that impels

me to give you all the assistance I can,--I feel that you are a young

man who is _worthy_--worthy to enter upon the duties of your position."

Paul was puzzled. He could not understand these allusions to his

"position," and his "responsibilities."

"Never hesitate to come to me for any advice. Do not allow little

discouragements to overwhelm you," continued Mr. Lambert. "Your aunt, of

course, will be your real teacher--"

"My _aunt_?" echoed Paul, completely bewildered. "I don't understand--"

"Ah," said Mr. Lambert, smiling, "perhaps you are not familiar with the

traditions of your family. Then, I will tell you; your

great-great-grandfather, on your father's side, Johann Winkler, was, as

you surely know, the founder of this Bakery. He was, moreover, the

inventor of certain delicacies which have made it famous, and which

cannot possibly be made by any other baker in this country--in the

world, I may say. It was his wish that the fruits of his labors should

be the heritage of his descendants, and that only those who bore the

name of Winkler, should learn the secret recipes by which those cakes

are mixed. A moment's thought will make it clear to you that you are the

next in line to be initiated into these secrets, which are sealed from

me, and my children. In a word, you are the only living heir to this

business. Your aunt, of course, is the present proprietor, and she and

she alone can instruct you in the work in which you must follow her."

Paul was speechless, and Mr. Lambert, mistaking his astonished silence,

for a calm acceptance of what he had said, now drew forth a large

parchment from a drawer of his desk, and spread it out with a pompous

air.

"This, my boy, is the family tree of the Winklers, which establishes

your claim to your inheritance. Here, you see--" his broad forefinger

began to trace the branches, "Johann Winkler had two sons, Frederick and

Samuel. Frederick, the elder had two sons, also Samuel and Johann. In

this case, the younger became the Baker, and Samuel became a hardware

merchant in Missouri. Thus, Johann was the father of your Aunt Gertrude,

and _your_ father, who also relinquished his inheritance, like Esau--"

"But what of Samuel's children?" stammered Paul. "Maybe he has a son or

a grandson--"

"However that may be they have forfeited their claims," replied Mr.

Lambert. "No, you need have no fears of any disputes, my boy. Surely,

your father must have acquainted you with all these matters which relate

to you so closely."

"My father never even mentioned anything of the sort!" exclaimed Paul,

pushing back his chair, as if he were thinking of sudden flight.

"I need hardly tell you that you are doubly welcome, my dear boy,"

continued Mr. Lambert placidly, totally misunderstanding Paul's

astonishment.

"But, sir! One moment! I don't understand! You surely can't mean that

you think I am going to learn how to _bake bread_, and make _pies_!"

burst out Paul at last. "Great heavens! My father couldn't have

dreamed--_I_! Making biscuits!"

"And why not, pray?" demanded Mr. Lambert, sharply. "Am I to understand

that you consider yourself too good for a profession that the great

Johann Winkler thought worthy of his genius? Is it that you do not

consider it _manly_? Surely, you do not mean me to understand this?" Mr.

Lambert's face hardened a little; the expression of bland benevolence

left his eyes, which now grew cold and piercing. He had not expected

rebellion, but recovering quickly from his surprise he prepared to cope

with it as only he could.

"Of course I don't mean that, sir!" exclaimed Paul. "But don't you

see--I can't--I'm not fitted for such work. I couldn't learn how to bake

a pie in a life time. I--"

"Oh, I am sure you underrate your intelligence, my boy. Don't give way

to discouragement so soon. A little patience, a little industry--"

Paul began to laugh, almost hysterically. Even in the midst of his

serious anxiety, the idea of himself demurely kneading dough was too

much for his gravity.

"But I'd poison everyone in town in twenty-four hours! Bake bread!

Rolls! Tarts! Sir, I could far more easily learn how to trim hats!"

"I don't doubt it. Any silly schoolgirl can learn that. I freely admit

that the art of a great baker is not readily acquired. I admit that in

some measure it requires an inborn gift, and a gift that is by no means

a common one. Great cooks are far rarer, believe me, than great orators,

or great artists, although the world in general does not rank them as it

should. There was a time when a fine pastry or a sauce composed with

genius called forth the applause of kings, and when eminent bakers were

honored by the noblest in the land. But to-day, through the ignorance

and indifference of the world, the profession is fallen in value,

because, forsooth, it is fancied that it caters to the less noble tastes

of mankind. My dear boy, it is for you, in whose veins flows the blood

of the King of Bakers, to maintain the fame and dignity of your

profession. Do not imagine that you lack the gift. It has lain idle, but

a little practice will soon prove that it is in your possession."

Paul, feeling that he had come up against a wall of adamant, got up and

began to pace the floor. Here he was with exactly twenty-five cents in

his pocket, without even a suit of clothes that deserved the name,

without a friend within three thousand miles, nor the faintest idea of

where he could go, if he rashly broke away from the family roof-tree.

"It seems that you had other ideas," remarked Mr. Lambert in a politely

interested tone, which said, "I don't mind _listening_ to any of your

fantastic notions." Paul hesitated. He most certainly _had_ had other

ideas, and, what was more, he did not have the slightest intention of

relinquishing them. The question was, could he lay them simply before

his uncle? One glance at Mr. Lambert's smooth, practical face was

sufficient to make him feel that anything of the sort was not to be

considered; certainly not at this time, in any case. Mr. Lambert had

fixed his mind on one idea, and tenacity was his most striking

characteristic. It was his boast that he never changed his mind, and the

truth of this statement was recognized by everyone who had any dealings

with him.

"I should like to think over all that you have said, Uncle Peter," Paul

at length said warily. "All this has been very unexpected, and I don't

know just what to say."

"You mean that you are still doubtful as to whether you will accept or

reject the position, to which Providence has called you, and which it is

plainly your Duty to accept?" inquired Mr. Lambert, raising his

eyebrows. He was surprised and annoyed by his nephew's resistance, but

knowing the boy's circumstances he had no fear that Paul would decide

against his own wishes.

Paul was quick to perceive this underlying cocksureness, and his whole

soul rose in rebellion.

"I don't see that either Providence or Duty has anything to do with the

case," he retorted, instantly firing up.

Mr. Lambert shrugged his shoulders.

"You do not feel that you are under obligations to your Family? I don't

like to believe that you have so slight a sense of your

responsibilities. No, I am sure that a few moments reflection will

convince you to the contrary. By all means consider the matter. I

should, however, like to have your answer to-night, if it is convenient

for you. I have several letters to write, and shall be here when you

have reached your decision." And with a curt nod, he swung around to his

desk, and took up the old-fashioned goose-quill pen, which he was in the

habit of using under the impression that it lent him an air of business

solidity.

Paul, lost in thought, went up to Carl's room for the "few moments of

reflection" that his uncle had advised.

His cousin, wearing a brown dressing gown, with a hideous pattern of

yellow fleurs-de-lis, was sitting at the table, with a book in his

hands, and a greenshade over his nearsighted eyes, engrossed in his

studies. The two boys glanced at each other, and nodded brusquely

without speaking.

Paul threw himself across the bed.

"Duty! Providence!" All he could see in the matter was that he had got

into a pretty kettle of fish. "And uncle thinks that just because I'm

broke, I'll knuckle under without a murmur."

Obligations! That was a nice thing to preach to him.

"Would you mind not kicking the bed?" said Carl's thin, querulous voice.

"It makes it rather hard to concentrate." This petition, uttered in a

studiedly polite tone, was accompanied by a dark look, which this time,

however, Paul failed to see.

"Sorry," said Paul, gruffly, and got up.

Now he began to walk the floor; but at length stopped at the window,

pressing his face to the glass so that he could see something besides

the reflection of his cousin's mouse-colored head, and monotonous

rocking in his chair.

He peered out over the roofs of the town, up the street, all sleek and

shining with the rain, in the direction of the cross-roads at which he

had stood, less than four hours ago. Why hadn't he taken the Other One,

anyway? He had been perfectly free to choose--no one had been preaching

Duty and all the rest of it to him then. He hadn't taken it, because he

had been tired and hungry, and almost penniless--and lonely, too, and

the farmer had turned up. Perhaps he had been a coward. It had led to

the City, where, even if he were penniless, he would at least have been

his own master, free to work according to his own ideas, and not Uncle

Peter's.

"Would you mind not whistling!" snapped Carl. "It's the most maddening

sound. Hang it! I'm trying to study."

Paul's mournful whistling stopped.

Baking pies! So that was to be his future, was it? Well, he still had

something to say. It wasn't too late to take the other road yet. He'd

walk a _thousand_ miles before he would let himself be trussed up in a

canvas apron, and put to kneading dough for the rest of his days.

He glanced around for his cast off clothes, and saw them hanging, still

dismally wet over a chair. But not even the cheerless prospect of a

clammy shirt dampened his resolution. He began to fling off his dry

clothing, sending collar, necktie, socks and shoes flying in all

directions.

Presently Carl, aroused by the commotion, put down his book. Then he

stared in astonishment, at the sight of his cousin rapidly climbing into

the soaking, muddy garments. But he felt that it was not in keeping with

the dignity he had assumed, to inquire into the reasons for this strange

proceeding. All he said was,

"Would you mind not shaking that mud over my things?"

Without replying, Paul shouldered his ridiculous bundle, felt in his

pocket to make sure that his quarter was still there, and marched out of

the room, down the stairs, and to the door.

Then it occurred to him that this abrupt departure, without a word of

farewell to anyone was rather a shabby way of returning the hospitality

he had received, and he hesitated.

"Well, if I don't get out now, it'll mean a lot of argument and

explanation. I could write a note." But he had no paper, and he did not

want to go back to Carl's room. So there he stood uneasily enough,

wriggling in his damp clothes, and glancing uncertainly toward the

closed door of the dining room behind which his uncle sat waiting for

his decision. Overhead, he heard the low murmur of his aunt's voice, and

the thudding of the twins' little bare feet as they romped and squealed

in a pillow fight. Paul felt his resolution waver, and then anger at his

own weakness steadied his determination. He opened the door, strode out,

and pulled it to quietly behind him.

A wild gust of wind nearly robbed him of his breath, and made him

stagger. The rain had gathered up its forces, and now came down in a

solid sheet, swept this way and that by the wind.

"Whew!" Paul bent his head, and ploughed his way against it, without

looking to the right or to the left. The branches groaned and tossed,

creaking as if they were being torn from the trunks of the swaying

trees.

Then all at once, with a crash a dead bough fell in front of him,

missing him by not more than fifteen inches. Paul stopped. The very

elements seemed opposed to his unmannerly flight, and again he

hesitated, looked back, and saw the friendly, ruddy windows of the

Bakery. Thirty miles in this tempest! He smiled sheepishly, and then

frowned. His impetuousness had put him in a very ridiculous position.

His pride rebelled at the idea of returning, and with the thought of

Carl's smothered amusement, came the memory of his cousin's inhospitable

speech. On the other hand, he saw that it was no less absurd to follow

up his plan of flight, and the streak of common sense underlying his

hasty, high-handed nature told him that it was less foolish to go back

and undertake the immediate problem that had been thrust upon him, than

to plunge himself into the serious difficulties that his adventure would

entail. And at length, inwardly raging at his own folly, he retraced his

steps.

As the dining room door opened, Mr. Lambert looked up, started to remove

his spectacles, and then with a start, adjusted them more accurately.

Paul, who had left his cap and bundle in the hall tried to stand in the

shadow so that his clothes would not be noticed. After a short silence,

Mr. Lambert preferring to observe nothing extraordinary in his nephew's

appearance, folded up his spectacles, put them in the breast pocket of

his frock coat and said, pleasantly,

"Well? What have you decided?"

Paul cleared his throat.

"I have decided--I have decided--" he finished by spreading his hands

and shrugging his shoulders.

"To undertake your--er--responsibilities?" prompted Mr. Lambert, as if

he were administering an oath.

"To learn how to bake pies," said Paul, feebly, and then mumbling some

vague excuse he backed out of the room, leaving Mr. Lambert to indulge

in a short chuckle.

Paul hid himself in the bakeshop until he felt reasonably sure that his

cousin had gone to bed, and then, boots in hand tiptoed shamefacedly up

to the bedroom, and began to undress in the dark. But Carl was not

asleep, and after listening to Paul's smothered exclamations as he

struggled with wet button holes and laces, could not resist a polite

jibe.

"Oh," came in interested tones from the bed, "where did you go, cousin?"

"For a walk," replied Paul, laconically, and a certain note in his voice

warned Carl that it would be wiser not to refer to the delicate subject

again.

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