XXII

Like fires and railroad disasters, assaults seemed to come in groups.

Days would pass without a single outbreak. Then would come a veritable

carnival of abuse--due almost invariably to the attendants' state of

mind, not to an unwonted aggressiveness on the part of the patients. I

can recall as especially noteworthy several instances of atrocious

abuse. Five patients were chronic victims. Three of them, peculiarly

irresponsible, suffered with especial regularity, scarcely a day

passing without bringing to them its quota of punishment. One of these,

almost an idiot, and quite too inarticulate to tell a convincing story

even under the most favorable conditions, became so cowed that,

whenever an attendant passed, he would circle his oppressor as a

whipped cur circles a cruel master. If this avoidance became too

marked, the attendant would then and there chastise him for the

implied, but unconscious insult.

There was a young man, occupying a cell next to mine in the Bull Pen,

who was so far out of his mind as to be absolutely irresponsible. His

offence was that he could not comprehend and obey. Day after day I

could hear the blows and kicks as they fell upon his body, and his

incoherent cries for mercy were as painful to hear as they are

impossible to forget. That he survived is surprising. What wonder that

this man, who was "violent," or who was made violent, would not permit

the attendants to dress him! But he had a half-witted friend, a

ward-mate, who could coax him into his clothes when his oppressors

found him most intractable.

Of all the patients known to me, the one who was assaulted with the

greatest frequency was an incoherent and irresponsible man of sixty

years. This patient was restless and forever talking or shouting, as

any man might if oppressed by such delusions as his. He was profoundly

convinced that one of the patients had stolen his stomach--an idea

inspired perhaps by the remarkable corpulency of the person he accused.

His loss he would woefully voice even while eating. Of course, argument

to the contrary had no effect; and his monotonous recital of his

imaginary troubles made him unpopular with those whose business it was

to care for him. They showed him no mercy. Each day--including the

hours of the night, when the night watch took a hand--he was belabored

with fists, broom handles, and frequently with the heavy bunch of keys

which attendants usually carry on a long chain. He was also kicked and

choked, and his suffering was aggravated by his almost continuous

confinement in the Bull Pen. An exception to the general rule (for such

continued abuse often causes death), this man lived a long time--five

years, as I learned later.

Another victim, forty-five years of age, was one who had formerly been

a successful man of affairs. His was a forceful personality, and the

traits of his sane days influenced his conduct when he broke down

mentally. He was in the expansive phase of paresis, a phase

distinguished by an exaggerated sense of well-being, and by delusions

of grandeur which are symptoms of this form as well as of several other

forms of mental disease. Paresis, as everyone knows, is considered

incurable and victims of it seldom live more than three or four years.

In this instance, instead of trying to make the patient's last days

comfortable, the attendants subjected him to a course of treatment

severe enough to have sent even a sound man to an early grave. I

endured privations and severe abuse for one month at the State

Hospital. This man suffered in all ways worse treatment for many

months.

I became well acquainted with two jovial and witty Irishmen. They were

common laborers. One was a hodcarrier, and a strapping fellow. When he

arrived at the institution, he was at once placed in the violent ward,

though his "violence" consisted of nothing more than an annoying sort

of irresponsibility. He irritated the attendants by persistently doing

certain trivial things after they had been forbidden. The attendants

made no allowance for his condition of mind. His repetition of a

forbidden act was interpreted as deliberate disobedience. He was

physically powerful, and they determined to cow him. Of the master

assault by which they attempted to do this I was not an eyewitness. But

I was an ear witness. It was committed behind a closed door; and I

heard the dull thuds of the blows, and I heard the cries for mercy

until there was no breath left in the man with which he could beg even

for his life. For days, that wrecked Hercules dragged himself about the

ward moaning pitifully. He complained of pain in his side and had

difficulty in breathing, which would seem to indicate that some of his

ribs had been fractured. This man was often punished, frequently for

complaining of the torture already inflicted. But later, when he began

to return to the normal, his good-humor and native wit won for him an

increasing degree of good treatment.

The other patient's arch offence--a symptom of his disease--was that he

gabbled incessantly. He could no more stop talking than he could right

his reason on command. Yet his failure to become silent at a word was

the signal for punishment. On one occasion an attendant ordered him to

stop talking and take a seat at the further end of the corridor, about

forty feet distant. He was doing his best to obey, even running to keep

ahead of the attendant at his heels. As they passed the spot where I

was sitting, the attendant felled him with a blow behind the ear; and,

in falling, the patient's head barely missed the wall.

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